"Spending a week doing nothing but exploring the possibilities of Lego, thereby risking yet another job; impulsively sinking all his savings into wildly impractical self-employment ventures; sleepless nights, gripped by the need to write - these are just some manifestations of the often damaging periods of manic, uninhibited energy Brian Adams has experienced since his mid-twenties. But as a sufferer of bipolar disorder (also known as manic depression), he has been hospitalized several times with debilitating depression, undergone electric shock treatment and numerous drug therapies, and even gone so far as to attempt to take his own life." This account gives insight into how it feels to live with bipolar disorder. It is illuminating, and entertaining, reading for people with mental health problems, their families and professional carers.
Introduction - Not A Survivor's Guide. Prologue. 1. Legoland and Holes in the Head - Mania. 2. The Pits - Depression. 3. Lost in Fife - The Beginning. 4. Flaming Buckets - Stratheden Psychiatric Hospital. 5. Pay and Free Uniform - Kingseat Psychiatric Hospital. 6. Talking to God - Suicide. 7. Christopher Columbus, David Livingstone and Me - Work. 8. One Of Us - Famous Manic Depressives. 9. Babes in my Moods - Paranoia. 10. Not Work; Not Working - Breakdown. 11. Sideways Through the Torphins HaLF-edj - Ambulance Journey. 12. Pantiled Peep Show - Cornhill Psychiatric Hospital. 13. Psychos! Acute Psychiatric Ward. 14. Tack Short of a Fitted Carpet - Synonyms. 15. The Last Time I Saw Linda - Electro-convulsive Therapy. 16. Sweet Violets - The Psychotherapist. 17. Sweating it out with Professionals - Doctors and Nurses. 18. .and Mopped up by Ethel - Hospital Appearances. 19. Concessionville - Getting Around. 20. Show Folks - Social Wipeout. 21. The Choir Lady - Making Things Worse. 22. Only a Salt - Prescription Drugs. 23. Another Way of Being - Something to Celebrate?