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This heart-stopping debut novel in verse about a talented dancer struggling to give herself grace in the wake of an assault is a gut-wrenching masterpiece.

Fifteen-year-old Esme lives and breathes dance. Alongside her best friend, Mia, she is happiest when in the studio... sweating, stretching, soaring. And after a summer of nonstop practice, Esme and Mia earn coveted spots on the Elite dance team. Now that they've proven themselves to Miss Regina and the senior girls, it should be smooth sailing.

Except that Esme and Mia took the spots of two popular, well-liked dancers.

Except that Esme's dad hasn't been able to work for months, and there's hardly enough money for groceries, never mind dance tuition and recital costumes.

Except that a stranger touches Esme during a night out, touches the breasts that have always felt like giant targets.

After years of being oversexualized for her large chest, this is the violation that pushes Esme over the edge. Was it her fault? Could she have stopped it? Why can't she just be different? Esme stumbles, off kilter and adrift from her loved ones, struggling to find the strong, central cord that will pull her up and allow her to soar again.

This dazzling, tour-de-force debut tackles friendship, first love, and sexual assault, along with the full emotional range of life as a teenage girl. Esme musters strength she didn't know she had-and learns to lean on others to find the right support. An unforgettable read.

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Top Heavy

This heart-stopping debut novel in verse about a talented dancer struggling to give herself grace in the wake of an assault is a gut-wrenching masterpiece.

Fifteen-year-old Esme lives and breathes dance. Alongside her best friend, Mia, she is happiest when in the studio... sweating, stretching, soaring. And after a summer of nonstop practice, Esme and Mia earn coveted spots on the Elite dance team. Now that they've proven themselves to Miss Regina and the senior girls, it should be smooth sailing.

Except that Esme and Mia took the spots of two popular, well-liked dancers.

Except that Esme's dad hasn't been able to work for months, and there's hardly enough money for groceries, never mind dance tuition and recital costumes.

Except that a stranger touches Esme during a night out, touches the breasts that have always felt like giant targets.

After years of being oversexualized for her large chest, this is the violation that pushes Esme over the edge. Was it her fault? Could she have stopped it? Why can't she just be different? Esme stumbles, off kilter and adrift from her loved ones, struggling to find the strong, central cord that will pull her up and allow her to soar again.

This dazzling, tour-de-force debut tackles friendship, first love, and sexual assault, along with the full emotional range of life as a teenage girl. Esme musters strength she didn't know she had-and learns to lean on others to find the right support. An unforgettable read.

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by Rhonda DeChambeau

Narrated by Ellie Gossage

Unabridged — 3 hours, 30 minutes

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This heart-stopping debut novel in verse about a talented dancer struggling to give herself grace in the wake of an assault is a gut-wrenching masterpiece.

Fifteen-year-old Esme lives and breathes dance. Alongside her best friend, Mia, she is happiest when in the studio... sweating, stretching, soaring. And after a summer of nonstop practice, Esme and Mia earn coveted spots on the Elite dance team. Now that they've proven themselves to Miss Regina and the senior girls, it should be smooth sailing.

Except that Esme and Mia took the spots of two popular, well-liked dancers.

Except that Esme's dad hasn't been able to work for months, and there's hardly enough money for groceries, never mind dance tuition and recital costumes.

Except that a stranger touches Esme during a night out, touches the breasts that have always felt like giant targets.

After years of being oversexualized for her large chest, this is the violation that pushes Esme over the edge. Was it her fault? Could she have stopped it? Why can't she just be different? Esme stumbles, off kilter and adrift from her loved ones, struggling to find the strong, central cord that will pull her up and allow her to soar again.

This dazzling, tour-de-force debut tackles friendship, first love, and sexual assault, along with the full emotional range of life as a teenage girl. Esme musters strength she didn't know she had-and learns to lean on others to find the right support. An unforgettable read.


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The verse, which includes concrete poetry, moves across each page like a dance, using the space to stretch, “soaring” as Esme does. . . . A thoughtful look at body positivity and the mixed messages girls are forced to reckon with.
—Kirkus Reviews

Readers who have grown out of the target audience of Lisa Fipps' acclaimed Starfish (2021) will find a similar verse style here. . . . Although the subject matter could come off as heavy, Dechambeau's novel is brightened by Esme's evolving self-confidence.
—Booklist

Kirkus Reviews

2025-04-04
DeChambeau’s debut centers on 15-year-old dancer Esme as she wrestles with the unwanted attention and physical obstacles that come with having large breasts.

After Esme and her best friend, Mia, achieve their dream of making the Elite team, the highest level at their dance studio, everything should be perfect. But the girls soon realize being the youngest on the squad of 12 comes with isolation from the older dancers, most of them seniors, who make them feel like they don’t belong. Esme also faces bullying about her body, and the cutting remarks negatively affect her performance. Besides being unsure about how to feel about her breasts, Esme must manage her fears surrounding the accident her dad, an exterminator, suffered, leaving him unemployed and in need of surgery they can’t afford. When Mia suddenly starts to pull away, Esme wonders if anything will ever feel normal again. The verse, which includes concrete poetry, moves across each page like a dance, using the space to stretch, “soaring” as Esme does, “energy pulsing / adrenaline pouring— / … / the music roaring.” Through it all, Esme receives lots of support, including from dynamic Grammy Jean, who empowers her to trust and love herself regardless of what others think. Esme is implied to be white, and Mia, who’s middle class and attends private school, is biracial (cued Black and white).

A thoughtful look at body positivity and the mixed messages girls are forced to reckon with.(Verse fiction. 12-18)

Product Details

BN ID: 2940192981924
Publisher: Dreamscape Media
Publication date: 06/10/2025
Edition description: Unabridged
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