Truly, Madly, Deadly

Truly, Madly, Deadly

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by Hannah Jayne
     
 

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What happens when a secret admirer becomes deadly...


Sawyer Dodd has it all. She's a star track athlete, choir soloist, and A-student. And her boyfriend is the handsome all-star Kevin Anderson. But behind the medals, prom pictures, and perfect smiles, Sawyer finds herself trapped in a controlling, abusive relationship with Kevin. When he

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Overview

What happens when a secret admirer becomes deadly...


Sawyer Dodd has it all. She's a star track athlete, choir soloist, and A-student. And her boyfriend is the handsome all-star Kevin Anderson. But behind the medals, prom pictures, and perfect smiles, Sawyer finds herself trapped in a controlling, abusive relationship with Kevin. When he dies in a drunk-driving accident, Sawyer is secretly relieved. She's free. Until she opens her locker and finds a mysterious letter signed by "an admirer" and printed with two simple words: "You're welcome."

Editorial Reviews

Publishers Weekly
Adult author Jayne (the Underworld Detection Agency Chronicles) moves from urban fantasy to YA thrillers with this tense psychological piece. High school junior Sawyer Dodd is still reeling from her boyfriend’s death in a drunk driving accident when she receives a note from an “admirer” that simply reads, “You’re welcome.” Meanwhile, Sawyer’s former friend Maggie is making her life at school miserable, and her parents want her to attend therapy. When a second person is killed, Sawyer realizes that her admirer/stalker is closer than she suspected and knows everything about her life. With suspicion falling on her, can she thwart her stalker’s murderous intentions before tragedy strikes again? Jayne delivers a healthy dose of paranoia amid the story’s growing tension, as Sawyer’s life crumbles around her. The skillful buildup leads to a somewhat muddled climax, however, and the stalker’s identity and motivations come out of left field (also, Sawyer’s ability to attract both trouble and troubled personalities seems disproportionately high). A solid effort that doesn’t quite make the grade. Ages 13�up. Agent: Amberly Finarelli, Andrea Hurst & Associates Literary Management. (July)
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"What a ride! Full of twists and turns-including an ending you won't see coming!" - April Henry, New York Times bestselling author of The Girl Who Was Supposed to Die

"A fast-paced thriller . . . an engaging balance of atmosphere and action." - Kirkus

"[A] tense psychological piece . . . Jayne delivers a healthy dose of paranoia amid the story's growing tension." - Publishers Weekly

"The characters are well developed and multidimensional, no matter how big or small their role. A solidly good novel-an enjoyable read." - RT Book Reviews

""A heart-pounding narrative . . . If you're looking for a suspenseful whodunit with a cinematic climax, this fits the bill."" - Booklist

"This can't-put-it-down mystery deals with a secret admirer . . . Intense and chilling, it kept us guessing until the ultimate shocking reveal." - Justine Magazine

VOYA - Lucy Schall
When Sawyer Dodd's abusive boyfriend dies in a car accident, Sawyer receives a note that says, "You're welcome." He was murdered. High school junior Sawyer deals with her confusion and grief, her parents' divorce, her father's second marriage, and peer bullying, but more incriminating murders, more cryptic messages, and unexplained events swirl around her. She investigates. A new boyfriend, a secret admirer, and a lifelong friend help her, but fear stalks her both in school and at home. Red herrings and surprises make this a puzzle and page-turner. Some of Sawyer's actions are unbelievable, especially her ability to avoid and fool police, but the plot, which races from crisis to crisis, will help the reader suspend any disbelief. And although the ultimate conclusion is somewhat predictable, the story is a good ride. Jayne blends suburban high school life and murder mystery well. Sawyer and her dead boyfriend were the "perfect couple." Jealous girls stalk and harass her. Sawyer's Spanish teacher tries to seduce her. The locker is the accepted mail box, and trust can be dangerous. At home, midlife mom and dad head in new directions and salve their consciences by giving Sawyer a car and a psychiatrist. Teen girls who feel that the world is too busy to pay attention to them will find this a great story, especially because Sawyer is strong enough to handle it all. It is a good addition for mystery collections. Reviewer: Lucy Schall
School Library Journal
Gr 8 Up—In this fast-paced thriller, Jayne crafts a suspenseful tale of vengeance and misguided love. Dating star football player Kevin Anderson has its perks, including instant popularity for junior Sawyer Dodd. Their relationship seems perfect, but what nobody knows about is the abuse Sawyer suffers at the hands of her controlling boyfriend. When Kevin dies in a car accident, Sawyer is filled with a mix of sadness and relief, certain that her terrible secret will remain just that. She receives a cryptic note that simply states, "You're welcome," and Sawyer questions its meaning until people around her begin to die. Someone is willing to kill for Sawyer but is setting her up to take the fall. She determines to uncover the identity of the murderer and clear her name before she becomes the next victim. Sawyer is depicted as the ultimate victim-of physical abuse, sexual assault, bullying-who has real motives for revenge against those who have hurt her, yet the subjective third-person narrative suggests that she isn't the perpetrator, even when Sawyer doubts her own innocence. Peppered with red herrings, the plot has twists and turns that will have the audience guessing, and while the ending isn't completely unexpected, it still feels anticlimactic after Jayne's intense buildup. Other than a few instances in which important details are overlooked, including a noticeable change in the way a character dies, the story seems plausible and will keep readers engaged. Teens who enjoy R.L. Stine and Christopher Pike are the likely audience for this gripping mystery.—Audrey Sumser, Cuyahoga County Public Library, Mayfield, OH
Kirkus Reviews
In a fast-paced thriller, a teen whose boyfriend died in a drunken driving accident finds that a killer is targeting her enemies. Suspense begins in the first chapter, when Sawyer opens her locker to find a copy of the newspaper article about Kevin's death along with a note that simply reads, "You're welcome." Kevin, readers learn, had become increasingly violent toward Sawyer during their relationship, and Sawyer's mixed feelings and desire to keep Kevin's violence a secret are handled with grace. After a disturbing incident in which a teacher sexually harasses Sawyer, the murderer strikes again. Sawyer is reluctant to tell anyone about the mysterious notes she's received, and readers will wonder if some of the novel's gruesome events could have been avoided had she simply come clean. Nevertheless, Sawyer's fear and emotional distress are realistically portrayed, and knowing that the medication she takes can produce hallucinations heightens the tension: Is she imagining the noises she hears in her empty housing development, or is somebody following her? Sawyer doesn't do much detective work, but readers can speculate about a platoon of possible culprits. Some readers may put together enough clues to guess the ending, but plenty of others will be surprised. An engaging balance of atmosphere and action. (Suspense. 14-18)

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Product Details

ISBN-13:
9781402281228
Publisher:
Sourcebooks, Incorporated
Publication date:
07/02/2013
Sold by:
Barnes & Noble
Format:
NOOK Book
Pages:
272
Sales rank:
51,004
File size:
1 MB
Age Range:
13 - 17 Years

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ONE


"Thank you for coming."


The words rose and fell on the soft pile carpet, and Sawyer wondered whether she should brush the small ball of fuzz from Kevin's earlobe. It stuck there, stark and white against the dark navy blue of his suit.


"I couldn't have gotten through today without you," Mrs. Anderson said, squeezing Sawyer's ice-cold hand.


Sawyer knew she should say something comforting, something warm and thoughtful, but all she could focus on was that little bit of fuzz on Kevin's left ear.


"They said it was immediate," someone whispered. "They said he was drunk."


Sawyer had heard those words tumble over and over in her mind every minute for the past forty-eight hours. It was immediate, Kevin was drunk, he didn't stand a chance. She wasn't crying-couldn't anymore-as she stared down at Kevin. His eyes were closed, his lips slightly parted, and his hands were gently crossed against his chest. Sawyer couldn't help but think from somewhere dark, somewhere deep inside of her, that at least he couldn't hurt her anymore.


"You must be devastated."


Sawyer felt Mr. Hanson, her Spanish teacher, lay a gentle hand on her shoulder. She shrunk away, the smell of lilies suddenly overwhelmingly cloying. "I'll be right back."


She took the stairs two at a time, her black ballet flats falling soundlessly on the carpet. She paused on the top floor landing when she saw the girl at the end of the hall.


The girl blinked at Sawyer.


She was tall and thin-unfortunately so-with a boyish body that was all edges and angles. Her long brown hair was looped in a herringbone braid that fell over one shoulder, and baby hairs stood up in a static-y halo around her head, shot out from the loose weave of the braid. The girl's eyes looked like they may have been velvety brown and deeply alive once, but they were sunken and flat now. Her full lips were barely pink and pulled down at the edges. This girl wore her mourning black like a second skin.


Sawyer swallowed; the girl swallowed.


Sawyer paused for a full beat before tugging self-consciously at her braid, then averted her eyes from the mirror that reflected a girl she scarcely recognized. She continued down the hall, moving quickly.


She knew from nights lying to her parents and sneaking, shoeless, past his parents' room that Kevin's door was the last one on the left. She slipped in there on a sigh, clicking the door shut softly behind her. A curl-edged painting was scotch taped to the back of Kevin's door and Sawyer, stunned, fingered it softly. It was a beach scene she had painted the first day Kevin spoke to her. They were in art class and she was lost in her own brush strokes, squinting, leaning close to make the crush of the waves as realistic as possible.


"You're really good," he had said, his chin jutting toward the scene. Sawyer could still feel the overwhelming heat in her cheeks as her index finger followed the curl of foam on the forever-still water.


She heard a soft breath in the yellowing light that filtered through the blinds and cracked across the painting. "The recruiter came to see him, you know."


Mr. Anderson said it without turning around. Kevin's father was perched on the end of his son's bed; his head was bowed and his back was toward her, but Sawyer could see that his fingers were working the silky fabric of Kevin's number twenty-one Hawthorne Hornets football jersey while an army of gold plated football trophies looked on.


"He talked about marrying you." Mr. Anderson looked over his shoulder then, his watery blue eyes finding Sawyer, a reminiscing half smile on his chapped lips. "He said that he'd get into Cal and you'd get into the Art Institute and that would be it."


Sawyer tried to smile, tried to remember the moments when she and Kevin would sprawl in the grass, her hand finding his as they talked about a future that was far off and pristine, that sloughed off divorce and jealousy and high school pressures and rivalries. She remembered telling Kevin that she wanted to go to the Art Institute, remembered the far-off look in his eyes when a smile snaked across his lips.


"What?" she said, barely able to keep the grin from her lips.


Kevin shook his head and squeezed Sawyer's hand gently. "How perfect is that? I'll go to Cal, be the dashing football star, and you'll be across the bay at the Art Institute painting portraits of your beloved."


"Portraits of John Lennon? I think I'd get tired of that."


Kevin tugged at her arm-gently, softly-and Sawyer slipped into his lap, loving the feeling of his arms wrapped around her. She felt so safe, so warm, and when his lips nuzzled her ear, she felt the spark move low in her belly.


Now the memory caught in her throat. That was when things were good, she told herself.


Mr. Anderson sucked in a sharp breath that brought Sawyer back to the present; she looked up just in time to see Kevin's father double over himself, heavy hands hugging his sides. There was no sound except the ragged tear of his breath as he cried.


Sawyer felt her bottom lip quiver, and when she pinched her eyes shut, she saw Kevin, cheeks pink and alive, lips pressed up into that half smile he shared with his father. In her mind's eye, that grin turned into a snarl. She heard the sickening smack of skin against skin in her head. She reeled, feeling the sting again.


"He loved you so much."


Sawyer felt Kevin's warm breath, heard the deep rumble of his voice as he told her he loved her for the first time. She remembered the shiver that zinged from the top of her head to the base of her spine, amazed, delighted, enraptured. Kevin-Kevin Anderson, the most popular boy in school-loved her. She was everything in that moment when Kevin's fingertips brushed against the small of her back, when his lips pressed up against hers. Her life-her family-had splintered. Her mother had moved across the country, her father loved another woman, but Kevin Anderson wanted Sawyer. He wanted Sawyer Dodd, and that made her feel real. She wanted to hold on to that moment, was desperate to hold on to that moment and nothing else-not when he got angry, not when she made him mad, not the tear-racked apologies that followed.


Sawyer nodded, the tears slipping over her cheeks. "I loved him too."


***


The mood at school on Monday was somber, and Sawyer was tired of people averting their stares when she walked by. Third-period choir was her favorite escape, and when she slipped into the band room, she couldn't help but grin when Chloe Coulter, seated on the piano with long legs kicking, caught her eye.


"Sawyer!" Chloe vaulted off the piano, her blond ponytail flailing behind her. She tackled Sawyer in an enthusiastic hug, not caring as students shoved past them.


"How are you?" Chloe's eyes were a bright, clear blue, and today they were wide and sympathetic, framed by too-dark black lashes and heavy brows. "Are you okay?"


Sawyer nodded slowly, and her best friend squeezed her hand, then blew out a sigh. "Did you just get back in town?"


Chloe waved a pink late pass. "Yeah." Her eyes searched Sawyer. "I'm so sorry, Sawyer. I wish I could have been there. Was it awful? It was awful, wasn't it? I should have been there with you. God, I suck."


Sawyer swallowed hard. "It was your grandmother's ninetieth birthday. No one expected you to come back."


"But I would have," Chloe said, blond ponytail bobbing.


"I can't believe he's gone," Maggie Gaines said, her ski-jump nose a heady red. She was flanked on either side by stricken onlookers who offered condolences and Kleenex as Maggie murmured to them in a voice just loud enough to be overheard. When she caught Sawyer staring, Maggie's glossy eyes went immediately hard and sharp.


"Look at her," Chloe spat. "Kevin was your boyfriend, but Maggie needs to be the inconsolable center of attention. That should be you."


Sawyer shrunk back into her baggy sweatshirt. "Let her have her moment," she mumbled. "They dated for a while too."


Chloe snorted. "Like a hundred years ago."


Mr. Rose kicked open the side door and shoved a costume rack into the choir room. The student chatter died down and kids leaned forward, eyes glued to the new choir uniforms.


"Ladies and gentlemen," Mr. Rose started, "I know you've all been waiting with bated breath to see what you're wearing for this year's regionals."


The group groaned as a well-tuned whole.


The Hawthorne High Honeybee choir was known for only two things: being four-time back-to-back national champions and having the ugliest uniforms known to man. Sawyer's freshman year featured an army green taffeta number with balloon sleeves and lace inlays for the girls, and equally unattractive green velvet blazers for the guys. Sophomore year the budget was cut, and the Honeybee choir showed up looking like an exceptionally well-tuned army of white-vested waiters. At the end of last year, the school had taken "pity" on the choir and offered up some leftover graduation gowns onto which the costume department had stitched fighting hornets and musical notes. That was what the group was expecting when Mr. Rose began his excited introduction.


"So, without further ado..." Mr. Rose pulled the black sheet off the costume bar and a collective "ah" sailed through the classroom. Maggie stopped sniffing into her Kleenex, Chloe gasped, and Sawyer sat up straighter.


"OMG!"


"They're gorgeous!"


With one hand, Mr. Rose held up a simple black satin sheath dress, its waist cinched with a thick red satin sash. In the other hand, he offered a black blazer with a red tie. The Honeybees cheered.


Mr. Rose, apple cheeks pushed up into a full-face smile, beamed. "The school board heard your fashion protests and decided-finally-that the Singing Honeybees should look like five-time regional champions!"


Once the students had dropped back into some semblance of order, Mr. Rose handed out the plastic-wrapped garments. When he got to Sawyer he paused, giving her the sympathetic smile she was so quickly growing tired of seeing. He rested a soft hand on her shoulder, cocked his head. "Are you doing okay, Sawyer?"


Sawyer took her dress and offered him a small smile. "Yeah, I am. Thanks Mr. Rose."


"You know, I'd like for the Honeybees to add a small tribute number to Kevin in our set list. He was such a big part of the Hornet community."


Sawyer felt a lump growing in her throat and she nodded. "That sounds nice. Kevin would have liked that."


"I'd like to feature you in a solo for that number." Mr. Rose's eyes were kind, his puffy gray eyebrows high, expectant. "Would that be okay with you?"


Sawyer nodded mutely, dread, excitement, sadness, and anxiety welling up inside her all at once. "Thank you, Mr. Rose," she finally managed.


Mr. Rose passed Sawyer and Chloe, continuing his costume distribution to the other Honeybees. Chloe leaned in, excitement evident on her face.


"A solo?" she asked breathlessly. "Oh my God, that's awesome! It just sucks that-" Chloe avoided Sawyer's eyes, looked at her own hands folded in her lap. "It just sucks that Kevin couldn't be here to hear you."


Sawyer tried to form a response or a cohesive sentence, but nothing came out.


Mr. Rose took his spot behind the piano, and the Honeybees did their warm-ups. At the last note, he beckoned to Sawyer. She made her way to the front of the class, feeling the heat of all eyes on her. When she turned, it was just Maggie, her eyes narrowed, challenging. Sawyer offered a small noncombative smile that Maggie ignored.


We used to be friends, Sawyer heard herself plead silently.


Maggie's hate rolled off her in waves.


When the bell rang, Sawyer and Chloe gathered up their backpacks and new uniforms, and headed toward the door. Maggie, arms crossed in front of her chest, stopped Sawyer dead in her tracks.


"A solo?" she said. Her eyes raked over Sawyer, the distaste evident.


"Can you move, please? I need to get to my locker before fourth." She was too tired to deal with one of Maggie's jealous rages.


But Maggie remained in Sawyer's way.


"Do you think I'm going to fall for you and your stupid little ‘woe is me' act? Doubtful. You don't deserve this solo, and you didn't deserve Kevin. A real girlfriend wouldn't be able to pull herself together, let alone do a solo."


Sawyer wanted to fight back, but she was exhausted and emotionless. Maybe Maggie was right-she didn't deserve to be Kevin's girlfriend-didn't deserve to be at the blunt end of his anger, a small voice inside her head nagged. Sawyer shook it off and shoved Maggie aside with more force than she meant.


"Lay off, Maggie."


"Get over yourself," Sawyer heard Chloe growl. "Sawyer doesn't need to play the chick who can't get herself together-you do it too well. It's just too bad you've been doing it ever since Kevin dumped you. When was that exactly? Nine, ten months ago now? Little long to be carrying a flame, don't you think?" Chloe flicked a lock of Maggie's long hair, then wrinkled her nose. "It's probably time to drag your obsessively depressed ass into the shower. It'll make us all feel better."


Chloe shoved past Maggie and linked arms with Sawyer, steering her down the hall.


"You didn't have to do that," Sawyer said, hiking her backpack over one shoulder. "I can handle Maggie."


Chloe's blue eyes went wide and baby-doll innocent. "Oh, honey. I didn't do it for you." She blinked, a wry smile spreading across her passion-pink lips. "I did it for me."


"Hola, señoras." Mr. Hanson was the school's sole Spanish teacher, but at barely thirty years old, he looked more like a student than a faculty member. He edged his way between Sawyer and Chloe and grinned, while a hallway full of girls drooled. "Perdon, perdon. Ah, Sawyer! Has estudiado para la prueba?" he said, looking expectantly at her.


Sawyer felt the redness bloom in her cheeks and shifted her weight. "Um, si, señor."


"Bueno!" A wide smile spread across Mr. Hanson's face, his eyes crinkling with the effort.


"Ohmigod, what did he just say to you?"


Sawyer shrugged. "Honestly, I have no idea. My stock answers are si, no, or the often used ‘how do you say menstrual cramps in Spanish'?"


Chloe wrinkled her nose. "Ew."


"They never ask you to translate that sombrero thing if they think you've got cramps."


Chloe watched the back of Mr. Hanson's head as he disappeared into Principal Chappie's office. "Screw French. I'm transferring into Spanish."


"You were bound to waste it on some French Canadian anyway."


"Don't you love him?"


Sawyer glanced over her shoulder, caught the last of Mr. Hanson's dark hair as he disappeared into the office. "Don't you think he's a little overeager?"


"Please. Half my teachers don't even know my first name. Hanson's like, fresh out of teacher school, or whatever, and still hopeful. He still believes in us." Chloe batted her eyelashes sweetly.


"Whatever."


"Besides, I heard he gave Libby a ride home the other day."


Sawyer unzipped her backpack. "And I'm sure she thanked him appropriately."


Chloe crossed her arms in front of her chest, bored now. "Are we still on for tomorrow night?"


"You mean our convocation?"


"Ooh, convocation. SAT word?"


Sawyer laughed. "My ticket out of suburban hell. Let me call you about tomorrow, though. Dad and wife number two are finding out the sex-slash-species of The Spawn. I'm sure they'll want to do something educational and emotionally satisfying out of their Blended Families/Blended Lives book."


"Ah, another evening rubbing placenta on each other and worshipping the moon?"


Sawyer sighed. "Are you sure you don't want me to come over and watch your parents' passive aggression as they avoid each other while showing their extreme disappointment in your choices?"


Chloe folded a stick of gum into her mouth and chewed thoughtfully. "Hell no. Wednesday is fried chicken and mac-and-cheese-as-vegetable night at the double wide. That dysfunction is all mine. And they're not my parents-Lois and Dean are my guardians."


Sawyer cocked her head, her arms crossed in front of her chest. "Not mom and stepdud anymore?"


"Hopefully not. Haven't seen Dean in over a week. And I'm using the guardian thing so hopefully Lois will finally cave in and admit that I'm adopted."


Sawyer grinned. "Except that you are the spitting image of your mother."


"Sawyer Dodd, that is a horrible thing to say."


"Of course. A thousand apologies. I take it back."


"Better." Chloe blew Sawyer an air kiss. "I'll be waiting by the phone with greasy fingers for your call."


"I'll have the ambulance on standby," Sawyer called over her shoulder.


She grinned, watching her best friend skip down the hall. For the first time in what seemed like forever, things felt normal and light again.


"Excuse me." Logan Haas smiled shyly at Sawyer and she stepped aside, letting him get into the locker under hers. Logan bore the unlucky high school triumvirate of being slight, short, and nearsighted, but Sawyer liked him.


"Hey, sorry," she said.


Logan stacked his books, slammed his locker shut, gave Sawyer an awkward salute, and headed down the hall, eyes glued to his shoes. Sawyer spun her combination lock and yanked the door open, her lips forming a little o of surprise when she did so. Amongst her neatly stacked binders and books was a short, fat envelope in a pale mint green. Her name was printed on it in a handwriting font. She took the envelope and looked over both shoulders; no one milled about, red-faced or smiling, indicating that they had slipped the note in her locker.


She tore the envelope open and pulled out a matching mint green folded card, a tiny plain oak leaf embossed on the bottom. When she opened it, a clipped newspaper article slipped out. Sawyer didn't have to read the headline to know what it said: "Local High School Student Killed In Car Wreck." She swallowed down a cry and read the note on the card.


It said, simply,


You're welcome.

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