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Chris Ayres is a small-town boy, a hypochondriac, and a neat freak with an anxiety disorder. Not exactly the picture of a war correspondent. But when his boss asks him if he would like to go to Iraq, he doesn't have the guts to say no. After signing a 1 million dollar life-insurance policy, studying a tutorial on repairing severed limbs, and spending 20 thousand dollars in camping gear (only to find out that his bright yellow tent makes him a sitting duck), Ayres is embedded with a battalion of gung ho Marines ...

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Chris Ayres is a small-town boy, a hypochondriac, and a neat freak with an anxiety disorder. Not exactly the picture of a war correspondent. But when his boss asks him if he would like to go to Iraq, he doesn't have the guts to say no. After signing a 1 million dollar life-insurance policy, studying a tutorial on repairing severed limbs, and spending 20 thousand dollars in camping gear (only to find out that his bright yellow tent makes him a sitting duck), Ayres is embedded with a battalion of gung ho Marines who either shun him or threaten him when he files an unfavorable story. As time goes on, though, he begins to understand them (and his inexplicably enthusiastic fellow war reporters) more and more: Each night of terrifying combat brings, in the morning, something more visceral than he has ever experienced — the thrill of having won a fight for survival.

In the tradition of MASH, Catch-22, and other classics in which irreverence springs from life in extremis, War Reporting for Cowards tells the story of Iraq in a way that is extraordinarily honest, heartfelt, and bitterly hilarious.

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Gary Shteyngart
The truly indispensable part of this book is its final section. Once we finally get to Iraq, Ayres is at his journalistic and comic best. The scene in which Ayres tries to complete a bowel movement over what turns out to be a tarantula's nest will change the way you think about evacuations forever. But the heart of the book is the relationship between the wusslike Briton and the gutsy soldiers he is assigned to cover.
— The New York Times
Publishers Weekly
Ayres asserts from his opening sentences that he is a coward. But this sometimes amusing, often harrowing but poorly organized account of war life makes it clear he is anything but a wimp: he is stuffed inside the confines of a Humvee, digs foxholes in the desert and watches Iraqis blown apart or incinerated (and fears the same will happen to him; he clutches a can of diazepam to commit suicide if he is struck by nerve gas). He reported from Iraq for the London Times from 2002 to 2003 and asserts that he takes no point of view on the war, yet the tone of his story is highly uncritical of the war, and his epilogue (alas, now hopelessly out of date) puts the U.S. firmly in control of the battlefield and describes the insurgency as on the wane. The book's strengths lie in Ayres's details of the gritty, hot, lonely daily grind; its weakest aspect is the too-long tangent of his rise as a young reporter. Ayres's gratitude at surviving his tour is palpable, as he writes, "Now that I know what war is like, I've stopped worrying about death.... I made it home. I'm still alive." Agent, George Lucas. (Aug.) Copyright 2005 Reed Business Information.
Library Journal
In 2003, Ayres was transformed from an L.A.-based British business reporter for the London Times to an embedded correspondent in Iraq because he was afraid to say no when his boss asked if he'd like to go to war. Though initially terrified-he discovered that a $5000 "advance against expenses" was for use as ransom money in case of kidnapping-Ayres slowly accepted his assignment. He uses flashback to revisit his time as a reporter in New York City (on 9/11) and then describes the preparation in L.A. for his assignment. Seemingly mundane tasks, such as buying a bright yellow tent that he later finds would attract unwanted attention in the desert, come alive in his colorful writing. Though other embedded reporters have written books, Ayres is unique in his humor-driven and slightly sarcastic slant. In the end, he was embedded in Kuwait and Iraq for less than a month and on the front lines for a total of nine days; he has no heroic pretensions and offers little opinion about the conflict. Some readers might be offended by his tone. Recommended for larger public libraries seeking to collect comprehensively on the conflict. [See Prepub Alert, LJ 4/15/05.]-Leigh Mihlrad, Albert Einstein Coll. of Medicine of Yeshiva Univ., Bronx, NY Copyright 2005 Reed Business Information.
Kirkus Reviews
London Times journalist Ayres reluctantly joins the "elite, noble, and fucked-up profession" of Middle East war correspondent in this report from the frontlines. Awoken at 6:30 in the morning, the author learns that his editor at the Times, a former foreign correspondent and a titan in the field, wants him to go to war. Ayres, too, is a foreign correspondent: he files stories on celebrity life in Los Angeles. Still, he does not want to let the boss down, nor lose his job. "Yes! Love to!" he blurts. Since he is embedded for a mere nine days, much of this memoir concerns how Ayres happened to arrive there in the first place. After all, here is a guy who started out his journalistic career as a financial writer-and a fraud at that, he admits, since he knew diddly about economics-before moving on to the celebrity circuit in LA. Not before witnessing the September 11, 2001, attacks on the World Trade Center and experiencing the anthrax craze that followed, however; both receive excellent, sinewy coverage here. Then this self-described clumsy geek hypochondriac with panic attacks gets the wake-up call, and he caves before his best instincts, scared that another will take his place and shine, scared of squandering the opportunity so many journalists desire. Outside Baghdad, waiting to die as Iraqi tanks bear down on his storm-stuck Humvee, Ayres berates himself for the cowardice of letting his journalist's ego get the upper hand, for a selfishness that would cause his loved ones great and lasting pain. While these moments of bitterness claw at his soul, he delivers a first-rate glimpse of how terrifying are the wages of war, and not just the carnage and doom: the first time he needs to use thefield as a toilet, he squats directly over a tarantula's nest. Ayres a coward? Come on, give the guy a medal.
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Product Details

  • ISBN-13: 9780802142566
  • Publisher: Grove/Atlantic, Inc.
  • Publication date: 6/28/2006
  • Edition description: Reprint
  • Pages: 304
  • Sales rank: 1,040,171
  • Product dimensions: 5.40 (w) x 8.10 (h) x 0.90 (d)

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Copyright © 2005 Chris Ayres
All right reserved.

ISBN: 0-87113-895-6

Chapter One

The day, like most of my days in Iraq, had got off to a bad start. I awoke that morning, as usual, shivering violently and aching from another night in the Humvee. Waking up, of course, shouldn't be a difficult or traumatic process. For the first twenty-seven years of my life, I had done it every day without even thinking. Open eyes. Yawn. Scratch balls. Look up at ceiling. Climb out of bed. Waking up in a Humvee, however, on the front lines of an invasion, is different. The first thing you notice is the contortion necessary to sleep inside the vehicle: the head dangles inches from the bare metal floor; the right leg is to be found somewhere behind the left ear. The spine feels as though it has been splintered like a cocktail stick. If the war doesn't kill you, sleeping in the Humvee might. Look what happened to David Bloom, the newsman from NBC: dead at thirty-nine from "deep vein thrombosis"-aka Economy Class Syndrome-after spending one too many nights folded inside his "Bloom-mobile."

Then comes the mental replay of the night before-the hollers of "Lightning! Lightning!"; the absurd 3:00 A.M. fumble for the gas mask, Wellington boots, and rubber gloves; the casualty reports over the radio. And then you remember the almost hallucinatory dreams: corny, sepia-tinted images of parents, aunts, uncles, and grandparents. With that comes a gutful of guilt-at what you're doing to the little boy they spent years nurturing. And, of course, what you're doing to them, as they try to hold down undigested food every time they switch on the television. Oh yes, the battlefield dreams are best forgotten. Quickly.

From the outside, the gap-toothed Humvee looked as though it belonged on Sunset Strip: an oversized pleasure wagon with a camouflage paint gimmick and room in the back for a hot tub and PlayStation. Inside, however, the vehicle was jammed with radio equipment, ration packs, and a large circular footplate for the machine gunner, an earnest and aging first sergeant called Frank Hustler, who could have been a P.E. teacher in a different life. His desert boots danced to the rhythm of his paranoia somewhere next to my right hip. The gun on the roof was a .50-caliber-the kind they used in B-17 bombers during World War II. A single shot to the abdomen would rip you in half like a Christmas cracker.

In front of me sat the young Irish-American driver, "Fightin Dan" Murphy, and the half-Trinidadian captain of our unit, Rick Rogers, known to everyone but his mother as "Buck." Directly behind my head were two filthy olive drab Iraqi Republican Guard uniforms and a sloppily maintained Kalashnikov, all confiscated during a violent, terrifying house raid outside al-Nasiriyah. The Humvee's narrow seats, stuffed with cheap foam and covered with ripped, muddy canvas, were an afterthought. After two weeks, my buttocks felt badly bruised.

At one point I could have sworn they had started to bleed.

"Holy shit, look at the size of this scorpion!"

This was Murphy, a few nights earlier. He had just discovered the downside to sleeping on the desert floor: It glistened and squirmed with an encyclopedia's worth of creepy-crawlies. The Marine, who was barely old enough to buy alcohol and spoke with a profane Irish drawl, stared with incredulity at the creature that had just disturbed what passed for sleep in an Iraqi kill zone.

He jabbed at the grumpy arachnid with his rifle.

"Cap'n, did you see that? That motherfucker could have crawled into my sleeping bag. It coulda crawled up my ass!"

Buck was lying on the Humvee's hood, staring at the gleaming constellation above. The distant thuds of bombs being dropped on Republican Guard positions echoed through the infinity of mud and sand.

"Sleep on top of the vehicle, Murphy," he said, impatiently. "There ain't nothin' gonna crawl up your ass up there."

"Where's the media dude?" asked Murphy.

"In the back. First sarge is in the front. Sleep on the roof."

From the back of the Humvee, I could hear tobacco being spat, a sleeping bag being unzipped, and a short, tightly wound Marine scaling the side of the Humvee. With a clatter, Murphy pulled himself onto the Humvee's roof. Somewhere, another bomb went off and more Iraqis died, horribly.

"Some fuckin' stars," said Murphy.

"Like being on vacation," muttered Buck.

In front of me, I heard Hustler's chemical suit rustle. "Personally, I'm thinkin' of buying myself an Iraqi retirement home," he declared. "Either that, or I'm gonna open the first goddamn Starbucks in Baghdad."

There was, of course, another downside to sleeping on the ground: The risk of making an unlucky roll onto a land mine-probably intended for the Iranians, back when the Americans were on the Iraqis' side. Getting my legs blown off, I thought, would really interfere with my morning schedule. And it would ruin the goose-down sleeping bag I had bought in Beverly Hills-in the days I was supposed to be writing about celebrity parties and film premieres.

Not that my morning schedule was anything to look forward to. This particular morning, like most other mornings in Iraq, my first task was to dig a coffin-sized "foxhole" in the baked mud of the marshlands, the endless no-man's-land where the Euphrates and Tigris Rivers meet.

In theory, if you jump into a foxhole during incoming fire, your chance of survival increases by 80 percent. It was this statistic, rather than any desire for hard labor, that made me dig foxholes whenever we moved position. But for anyone who has studied the theory carefully, the foxhole, rather like the illuminated emergency exit in a Boeing 747, is hard to take seriously. For a start, unless you're in it when the mortar or missile hits, it's probably too late. And then I remembered what the instructor from the SAS-a squat Northerner with cruel eyes and a mechanical handshake-had told me back in the journalists' training camp: "Even if yer in yer foxhole," he said with a smirk and a hint of silver-capped enamel, "it'll protect you only if the shrapnel from the mortar explodes upward." He raised his eyes to the ceiling. "But some mortars are designed to explode downward." He frowned. "That's when yer foxhole becomes pointless." It also becomes pointless, of course, if the mortar that explodes in your camp contains a vial of smallpox, or a canister of poison gas.

If Frommer's ever gets around to publishing a guide to Iraq, the entry on the marshlands will be brief. They are, after all, an apocalyptically bleak part of a country that's lacking in charm to begin with. After the first Gulf War, Saddam drained the marshes and sent his henchmen on a murderous purge of the Ma'dan, or marsh Arabs, who had lived there for five thousand years. The mustachioed madman considered the peaceful Ma'dan a threat to his Ba'ath Party.

Within less than a decade, the Ma'dan were virtually wiped out, and their former home became a wasteland of dried mud banks, deserted tank trenches, and the occasional lonely, malnourished goat. The few surviving Ma'dan look like apparitions, bones jutting out of their sackcloth robes. We had thrown a few "humanitarian relief" packages to them as we first rolled into the area. The irony, of course, is that the ground the Ma'dan owned had enough oil trapped underneath it to buy Microsoft, leaving enough change for General Electric. Thanks to the post-Gulf War I sanctions, however, the Iraqi leader couldn't turn a profit from his genocide.

On this grim morning, as I started to dig my foxhole, all I cared about was that the top layer of mud had the consistency of cake batter, while deeper down it became as hard as frozen toffee. With mud and sunscreen running down my forehead and into my eyes, I hacked away at the earth for what seemed like a Sisyphean eternity. It was an excruciating exercise regime: The marshlands had been freezing cold that night, hardening the tightly packed mud. Iraq has a reputation for being hot, but as the future Frommer's guide may eventually inform more peaceful visitors, the cold is just as extreme: In fact, one member of the SAS died from hypothermia during the infamously botched Bravo Two Zero mission into Iraq in 1991.

As the sun rose, the mud still felt like masonry, but the temperature climbed stoically toward one hundred degrees, forcing me to strip off the layers of trendy North Face climbing gear I had stuffed inside my ripped chemical suit. I didn't dare take off the gas mask strapped to my waist, however, or the sealed canteen of drinking water on my hip. My heavy blue flak jacket, with the word PRESS inscribed onto it in large reflective white lettering, also stayed on.

Buck, Murphy, and Hustler would find it amusing to walk up to me, poke me in the chest, and say, "I'm pressing!" They also enjoyed pointing out that my jacket was possibly the only blue thing anywhere in the southern Iraqi desert-if not the entire country-and was therefore guaranteed to draw fire from even the most junior and inexperienced Iraqi marksman. I could even make the blue target area bigger by unclipping and lowering a special plate of upholstered Kevlar to protect my balls. Now that really made the Marines' day.

At least, they joked, I would be able to find out firsthand whether the jacket lived up to its promise of being able to stop a round from an AK-47. None of the Marines, I noticed, stood next to me for very long.

Time passed. I kept hacking at the mud.

I noticed there was an unusually fierce wind, which blew up the dried mud from the marsh banks, giving the world a surreal orange-brown tint. Just what I needed, I thought: the world getting more surreal.

As I dug my foxhole, I recalled the gross act of cowardice that had landed me in Iraq in the first place. I was fast asleep in Los Angeles-where I had been posted by The Times to write lighthearted and quirky stories about the West Coast-when the floor underneath my bed began buzzing and shaking. It was the phone. On the other end of the line was Martin Fletcher, The Times's foreign news editor and my boss. My bedside alarm clock read 6.30 A.M. In London, however, it was 2.30 P.M. Fletcher had already been up for at least eight hours and, worse, had just had lunch. Fletcher often had ideas over lunch. And they usually meant work for me.

"Ayres, do you want to go to war?" Fletcher asked cheerfully, as Alana, my girlfriend, lay fast asleep beside me, oblivious that the conversation I was having was about to change everything, forever.

I tried to summon blood to the brain cells that dealt with Fletcher's often baffling requests. The hangover from the previous night, however, and the chronic lack of espresso, were working against me. "Yes!" I blurted. "Love to!" My brain, unable to process the incoming data, had automatically called up a standard response, like an Internet browser calling up a home page from its memory when it's not online. Respond in the positive, my brain remembered. Be enthusiastic. Foreign correspondents are supposed to love wars, after all. What kind of journalist would prefer to lie by the pool in West Hollywood, drinking cappuccinos from Urth Café and writing about post-Oscar parties with Donald Trump and Elton John? And didn't Homer write in The Iliad that every man should experience war, because war, like love, is one of the central mysteries of life? Or was that Hemingway? Hang on, didn't Hemingway say that in war "you'll die like a dog for no good reason" ...?

Now I was awake. Fletcher continued. "The Americans seem to have some kind of scheme ... Make sure you get on it, Ayres. Good." I reflexively made another positive noise and Fletcher hung up. Shit, I thought to myself, and went back to sleep. I dreamt of Sunset Boulevard, the Hollywood sign, Mulholland Drive. When I awoke again, I realized what I had done. Was Fletcher serious? Probably not, I reasoned. Why would he send a twenty-seven-year-old Hollywood correspondent with no combat experience to war? The very idea was absurd. No doubt I would end up writing a "color piece" from Qatar about an army chef preparing scrambled eggs for the troops. That would be my contribution to the paper's war effort. Just in case Fletcher was serious, however, I came up with an ingenious escape plan-it would make me look enthusiastic, heroic even, and yet would also keep me far away from any live bullets. I would get assigned to an aircraft carrier. I didn't care what Homer or Hemingway said. No one ever died like a dog for no good reason on an American aircraft carrier.

It was hard to concentrate on the digging, out there in the Iraqi marshlands. Even though I had been at war for nearly a fortnight, I still hadn't become acclimatized to the man-made thunder sending pressure waves through the mud banks every few minutes. The tremors were so violent they would surely have registered on the Richter scale. I was, however, beginning to learn the difference between them: The distant rumbles were bombs dropped by F-15 fighter jets; the face-slapping pops were rounds from our own unit's 155mm howitzer cannons; the pfut-pfut-pfuts, meanwhile, were incoming Iraqi mortars. Of all the noises, that one was the worst.

Naturally, I tried to react with a mixture of machismo and nonchalance. It didn't work. Nearly every blast made me drop my shovel and involuntarily scream, "What the luck was that?" The Marines would turn to look at me, squint into the weak, dusty sun, and explain: "Someone's gettin' some." Then they would shake their heads, possibly out of frustration with the "media dude," or more likely out of awe for the sheer force of the firepower around them.

"Boy, would I not like to be gettin' some of that," they would add thoughtfully, with another head shake.

"That shit would suck."

It was hard not to agree. "Yes," I would offer, "that would certainly be unpleasant." I mentally pictured the bloodbath going on a few miles away, as rounds the size of gasoline cans from our howitzers whooshed overhead and separated into scores of mini-bomblets, raining down pure misery on those below. "Good work, Marines," I had heard a major say the day before. "The tanks up front had nothing to fight but body parts." It was no surprise that the Marines to whom I had been assigned proudly called themselves the Long Distance Death Dealers. They were as efficient as factory workers; a disassembly line, churning out Iraqi body parts.

There's no doubt about it: I should have just said no to Fletcher. But my competitive instincts got the better of me. In other words, I didn't have the guts. Fletcher is an old-school Times man. Tall and marathon-runner lean, with tousled dark hair, a billion-gigabyte brain, and inscrutable smile, he is an English foreign correspondent from central casting. Although he is technically an executive, he turns up to the office on a bicycle and never wears a tie. He is, needless to say, irritatingly dashing for a man entering his fifth decade with a wife and three teenage children ("Fletcher's yummy," a female colleague once confided in me). His career, meanwhile, has been relentlessly brilliant: Educated in Edinburgh and Pennsylvania, he spent the best part of a decade as The Times's Washington bureau chief and American editor-the journalistic equivalent of being the lead singer of the Rolling Stones-before reporting from Belfast and publishing a best-seller about his U.S. travels called Almost Heaven. It's no secret in London that Fletcher hates being wedged behind a desk. As he towers over his computer terminal, he makes it look like some trivial toy. Fletcher belongs out in the field. Preferably an exotic and dangerous field.

Fletcher could barely suppress the envy in his voice when he sent me on assignments in far-flung corners of the U.S. "Go! Enjoy!" he would cry. "It'll be great fun! And think of us poor souls back here on the desk ... Okay? Good." Fletcher ended almost all his sentences with "Good," delivered so quickly and sharply the double-o became almost redundant. It was as though he was so busy he had to abbreviate his speech, like a hastily written e-mail: "Gd." I desperately wanted Fletcher to respect me. And if I turned Fletcher down, I thought, he would no longer consider me a "proper" foreign correspondent and send someone else-making a mental note to recall me from Los Angeles as soon as possible.


Excerpted from WAR REPORTING FOR COWARDS by CHRIS AYRES Copyright © 2005 by Chris Ayres. Excerpted by permission.
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  • Anonymous

    Posted August 23, 2006

    Everyone needs a coward

    Any person that can put themselves through school, become independent and start a career, move to a foreign country, witness first hand the events unfold on September 11, be in the vicinity of anthrax attacks, spend time in a war zone, file reports and then write a book while struggling with anxiety attacks, an irritable bowel and no self esteem deserves a look see. Enjoy, this coward roars throughout the book!!!

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  • Anonymous

    Posted March 28, 2006

    Funny and thoughtful

    This is a terrific book about journalism that will make you laugh while giving you a unique perspective on deadly serious events.

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