You do not have a problem with food. Period. You have problems, and you go to food. That's a big difference and clarity that you must get to heal. You go to food to cope, to numb, to celebrate, to wallow, to erase, to comfort, to punish, to nourish, to fulfill, to live, to handle, to sleep, to wake up, to run, to hurt, because it's there, because it may not be there, because it looks good, feels good, tastes good and seemingly fixes everything...even for just a moment in time. However, you certainly do not have a problem with food.
It has honestly been a Godsend for many and the highest form of escape for others. It has been your best friend when no one else was there for you, and it has seen you through hard times and requested nothing in return. It has always been readily available to solve every issue and take all your heartbreaks and make it better. It has fulfilled the lonely nights and comforted the empty days. It has proven to be the most excellent form of celebration that gives you the ability to mask all feelings no matter who was around to gawk. It allowed you to justify all your shortcomings and excuse your behaviors for never going after what you truly wanted and what you were born to do.
By consuming this universal drug of choice, you always have something to blame your shortcomings on and a reason not to do the things you honestly had no intention of doing anyway. You can control others and manipulate situations that keep you safe in your comfort zone, and your excess weight and limited mobility will excuse your behavior.
To be clear, you do not have a problem with food, you have problems, and you go to food. This is where your power ended, and your food addiction begins. To let go of food, you have to be willing to travel back down the road where you took the wrong turn and unpack all your messiness and decide to feed, fix, forget or feel it one bite at a time. This is where Weight, WHAT? begins.
