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Who Killed My Daughter?

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by Lois Duncan

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The best-selling young adult novelist recounts her daughter's mysterious shooting death and her own investigation into the crime, describing her use of a psychic to contact her dead child and expose the truth.


The best-selling young adult novelist recounts her daughter's mysterious shooting death and her own investigation into the crime, describing her use of a psychic to contact her dead child and expose the truth.

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Publishers Weekly - Publisher's Weekly
On July 16, 1989, Kaitlyn Arquette, a part-time college student and the author's daughter, was shot as she drove home in Albuquerque, N.M. She died the next day. The police department initially suspected that she had been the victim of a random shooting. The police ineptly handled developments in the case, charges Duncan, not because of incompetence, but due to laziness and stubborn adherence to the theory of the moment. Duncan's appeals to the FBI for help went unheeded. She turned to psychics, who offered leads, and to a private detective, who was ineffectual. Gradually it surfaced that the naive Kait had become involved through her live-in Southeast Asian boyfriend with a Vietnamese gang of drug smugglers who also dealt in insurance fraud, a gang that probably used Mexican Americans as hit men. The case is still unsolved, according to the author, and there are clues galore to be pursued. Readers critical of either Duncan's contacts with paranormals or her talking to God and to her dead daughter may be put off by the book, but many will be sympathetic to this mother's plight. The book could well be a top seller. Duncan, author of 39 young adult suspense novels, won the 1991 Margaret A. Edwards Award for lifetime achievement, jointly sponsored by School Library Journal and the Young Adult Library Services Association. Photos not seen by PW. Time-Life Book Digest condensation selection. (June)
Library Journal
Duncan, a highly acclaimed author of young adult literature, here tells the story of her agonizing search for her daughter's murderers. The police wrote off the crime as a ``random shooting,'' but Duncan could not accept that verdict and set about her own investigation of what really happened. Her sleuthing took her on a labyrinth of clues from the police, psychics, private investigators, and a newspaper reporter unafraid of printing the truth. This book is especially well written, perhaps because Duncan's writing comes directly from her broken heart and anguished soul. Recommended for true crime collections.-- Belinda J. Pugh, Kings Bay Base Lib., Ga.
School Library Journal
YA-- Reading like the suspense mysteries that have made her famous, Duncan's account of her daughter's murder in New Mexico in 1989 is horrifying and at the same time thought provoking. She put all else aside as she followed up on every lead, sought the help of psychics and private investigators, and convinced an aggressive investigative reporter to help. The further she delved into the events of that fateful night, the more mysterious the pieces of the fragmented puzzle became. At the same time, the official stand of the Albuquerque police continued to be that Kait's murder was a random, drive-by shooting. The connection of Kait's Vietnamese boyfriend to an insurance scam and possible drug dealing appeared to be ignored by the APD. Throughout the first year of Duncan's investigation, several members of the family experienced death threats. Selling their family home, she and her husband tried to hide through an unlisted phone number in an apartment complex. After over a year of despair and frustration, the author turned to what she does best as a healing exercise--writing about what had happened. This book will find readers of all ages, and should be a part of all collections serving young adults. All of the elements of a suspenseful mystery are here--intrigue, turns and twists at every corner, cover-ups, and page-turning action; the sobering fact is that, this time, they're true.-- Barbara Lynn, Econo-Clad Books, Topeka, KS

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Who Killed My Daughter?

By Lois Duncan


Copyright © 1992 Lois Duncan
All rights reserved.
ISBN: 978-1-4532-6358-7


Our daughter, Kaitlyn Arquette, was murdered in Albuquerque, New Mexico, on Sunday, July 16, 1989.

They got her at night.

I have lived that evening over so often in dreams that by now it has become an extension of myself. When I go to bed it runs through my head like a videotape, the images sharp and precise, the dialogue unchanging, except that with each repetition there are new things I notice.

The setting is always the same, of course; it's our family room. Although we no longer live in that house, I can picture it perfectly. The rug, a rich rust color, muted by pet hair, as our cat and cocker spaniel shed in the summertime. The brown-and-white couch and love seat with cushions molded into irreversible slopes and hollows by years of accommodating the bodies of sprawling teenagers. Bookshelves, lined with albums that are filled with photographs chronicling ski trips, camp-outs, Christmases, graduations, and birthday parties. A television set across from the sofa. A Navajo rug on one wall. On another, a painting by my stepmother that depicts my late father—white haired, bearded, shirtless—on the porch of a beach cottage, baiting a fishing hook for a grandson.

I am a writer by trade and am practiced in recreating scenes. It is easy for me to place myself back in that room again. Beyond the bay window there lies a tree-shaded yard, and, beyond that, an unkempt rose garden. When I peer out through the glass, I can see that it's raining, and the soft gray drizzle produces a premature twilight.

Now that I have set the stage, I will bring on the players.

Kaitlyn, eighteen, comes into the house. I hear the slam of the front door and the sound of her footsteps in the hallway and immediately know this is Kait and not one of her brothers. Her tread is solid and purposeful and distinctly her own.

My husband Don and I have just settled ourselves on the sofa to watch 60 Minutes. I raise my eyes from the television screen and call, "Is that you, honey?"

"Who else?" Kait answers, and materializes in the doorway. "I thought I'd stop by and say hi on my way to Susan's."

"The bad penny returns!" says her father. "You were here all morning. We see more of you now than we did before you moved out!"

"The rain's depressing, and Dung's out with his friends," Kait says. "The apartment feels weird tonight and I don't like being there."

She comes into the room and perches on the arm of the sofa. She is dressed in a short black skirt and a black-and-white striped blouse, and around her neck there hangs a chain with a tiny gold cross. She is wearing the sand-dollar earrings I brought her from Florida the last time I visited her sister, Robin. The earrings are rimmed with gold, the same burnished shade as her hair, which she is still determinedly trying to grow back to one length after last summer's disastrous asymmetrical cut.

Each time I rerun the scene, new details leap out at me. For instance, how perfect her teeth are, straight, white, and even. Her complexion is perfect also, unmarred by the adolescent acne that torments her friends, totally unblemished except for an odd little hollow on the ridge of her left cheekbone. When I caught my first sight of her in the delivery room, I gasped, "My baby has a hole in her face!" but the obstetrician assured me that the dent wasn't permanent. As it turned out, it was, but we came to regard it as a misplaced dimple and jokingly referred to it as "God's fingerprint."

Kait flashes her mischievous smile, but something doesn't feel right to me, and I regard her suspiciously. Her eyes are red, and the lids are abnormally puffy.

"You've been crying." I make it a statement rather than a question.

"Like I told you, the rain depresses me," she says defensively. "Besides, I'm pissed at Dung, and I always cry when I'm mad."

"Have you two had another fight?"

"Not another one since last night, if that's what you mean," Kait says. "The reason I hung around here so long this morning was because I didn't want to have to go home and talk to him. This living-together business is a crock. Things were a whole lot better when we were just dating."

"Why don't you move back home, then?" Don asks reasonably. "There's no sense staying in a situation where you're miserable."

"I'm not about to crawl back into the womb," Kait responds with characteristic stubbornness. "I love my apartment, I'm just sorry I ever let Dung move in. His weirdo friends are over there all the time. I feel like I'm running a crash pad for half the Vietnamese in Albuquerque."

"Ask him to move out," I suggest. The solution seems so simple.

"I have, but he won't," says Kait. "He says it's his place, too, but it isn't because the lease and utilities are in my name. He still doesn't understand how things work in America. He says that in Vietnam women do what men tell them. I've told him I'll let him stay until the end of the month, but then I want him out so Laura can move in with me."

"What's suddenly gone so wrong between you and Dung?"

"I don't want to get into it now, it's just too heavy. I'll tell you about it sometime, maybe later tonight even." She glances at her watch. "Well, I'd better get going. I've never been over to Susan's, and it may take time to find it. I thought I'd stop on the way and pick up some ice cream. She's cooking the dinner, so the least I can do is bring dessert."

"Where does she live?" Don asks.

"It's down around Old Town. I'll either spend the night there or come back here. If Dung calls trying to find me, don't tell him where I am."

"That's cruel!" I exclaim, shocked by this display of callousness. "You may be breaking up with him, but you've been going together for a year and a half, and whatever your problems are, you know Dung cares about you. If you don't come home, he's going to think you've had an accident."

"Mother, you don't understand—"

"I do understand! What you don't understand is how horrible it is to worry about somebody!"

I consider myself an authority on that subject. Even after our five children were all bigger than I was, I insisted that Don and I dovetail our business trips so that one or the other of us was always home to keep an eye on things. When Kait was an infant, I was chronically reeling from sleep deprivation from checking her crib throughout the night to make sure she was still breathing, and despite the fact that my fears were never substantiated, I didn't get any better when the children became teenagers. They knew that if they missed their curfew by as much as ten minutes, they could expect to find me pacing up and down in the entrance hall, fighting hysteria as I pictured a blazing car wreck with beloved bodies mangled and strewn across the highway.

I'd expected my paranoia to diminish once the nest was empty, but now, as Kait starts toward the door, I realize that it is stronger tonight than it has ever been. Here in this familiar room, on a damp, sweet summer evening that couldn't be less threatening, I am suddenly overwhelmed by such a surge of panic that I can feel the pounding of my heart in my fingertips. I sense the vibrations of a tidal wave rolling toward us as we stand on a peaceful beach with our backs to the ocean.

"Don't go out! Something terrible is going to happen!"

"What did you say?" Kait can't believe she has heard me correctly.

"Something terrible is going to happen!" I repeat irrationally, and grasp for some way to make the statement less preposterous. "We don't even know this girl Susan. Who is she, anyway? Daddy and I haven't met her. Why hasn't she ever been over here? She certainly doesn't live in a good part of town."

Kait glances across at her father. Can you believe this?

"The reason Susan hasn't been over here is—if you'll remember, Mother—this isn't where I live now." She addresses me with exaggerated patience. "She's a very nice girl who sells snow cones in front of Pier One. I met her on a lunch break, and we got to be friends. We've been trying to get together to see a movie or something, but our plans keep falling through because of my work schedule. And what do you mean about Old Town's being a bad area? You and Daddy have friends who live there. It's not like it's one of those creepy barrios like Martineztown."

"I won't let you go," I say firmly.

Then I leap from the sofa and grab her before she has time to take in what I've said and flee from the room.

Kait is a big girl, taller and heavier than I am, but that doesn't matter; she's no match for the crazy middle-aged woman who bears down on her. I shove her onto the sofa and pin her arms at her sides with a powerful viselike grip that cannot be broken.

"Get me some rope!" I shout.

"Rope?" Don repeats blankly, shifting his gaze from Dan Rather to zero in on the battle scene. He has never seen me like this, and he's obviously horrified. He is looking at a woman gone suddenly mad.

"There's a coil of rope in the garage! I saw it there yesterday! Hurry and get it, I can't hold her down forever!"

We've been married so long that Don responds automatically. He jumps up from the sofa and takes off at a run for the garage.

Kait struggles to break my grip, but the same bony, long-fingered hands that buckled her into her car seat and snatched her away from hot stove burners and steadied her two-wheel bicycle when she took off the training wheels have developed incredible strength when it comes to her safety. There is no way in the world that she can break my grip on her.

"Is this being taped by Candid Camera?" she asks, half laughing, half crying, trying to pretend it is a joke. "It isn't as if we're going to be doing something dangerous. We're going to eat dinner, and then we're going next door to decorate Susan's boyfriend's apartment. He's out of town, and she wants it to be a surprise for him."

"I'm sorry," I say. "This isn't the evening for you to do that."

Don reappears with the tow rope we use for water skiing and makes an attempt to hand it to me.

"You're going to have to help me," I tell him. "Wind it around her shoulders and work your way down. Make it tight, but be careful not to cut off her circulation. All we want is to keep her from going out tonight."

Don takes the rope and starts looping it around Kait's body, doing his best to ignore her shrieks of outrage. It takes us a while, but the job is finally completed. With our daughter securely cocooned, I test the knots to make sure they will hold.

Kait lies on the sofa, glaring up at me in impotent fury.

"I will hate you for this forever!" There is venom in her voice.

"That's all right," I say gently, stroking her hair.

I sit by her side and guard her the rest of the night.

That is the way the scene plays when I run it in my dreams. In truth, of course, that is not what happened at all. Common sense took precedence over instinct, and I confined my admonishments to telling Kait to drive carefully.

"I always drive carefully," she said.

That wasn't true, and we both knew it. Kait was an aggressive driver, given to risk taking, but traffic was light on Sunday nights, and it wasn't as if she was going to be driving on the freeway. The easiest route to Old Town was straight down Lomas, an east-west street that ran one block south of our home. There wouldn't be many drunks on the road on a Sunday, and her plans for the evening were certainly simple and harmless.

She's going to be fine, I told myself. I'm being ridiculous.

Still, I said, "I want you to leave us Susan's phone number. That way, if you don't come back, we'll know where to start looking for you."

"Honestly, Mother, there are times when you're just unreal!" She indulged me by scribbling a number on the back of a magazine. "Now, you do something for me. I want you to promise that if Dung calls here you won't tell him I'm at Susan's."

"I promise," I said reluctantly, with the mental reservation that, while I wouldn't divulge Susan's name, if Dung did call, frantic with worry, I would tell him that Kait was all right and was sleeping at a friend's house.

Kait raised her hand in a comical half salute.

"Later! I'll see you guys later!"

Those were the last words we were ever to hear her speak.

The call from the emergency room of the University of New Mexico Hospital came just before midnight. The woman who called said Kait was there and had been injured but would give out no further information over the telephone.

Don and I threw on our clothes and drove to the hospital. I sat in the passenger's seat with my hands clasped tightly in my lap, the nails of one making gouges in the back of the other, living a nightmare eighteen years in the making. I wanted to pray, but I didn't know what to pray for. I hated to press my luck by asking God for too much and offending Him with my greediness, so I couldn't ask for the call to have been made by a prankster or for Kait to have suffered nothing more than scratches.

I finally decided to confine my prayer to the request that she not have a head injury. Two years ago my stepsister's teenage son had been in an accident that had left him brain damaged, and Kait had gone into hysterics when she learned about it.

"Poor Andy!" she'd gasped through her tears. "He was always so smart!"

Kait's tough, I told myself. She can deal with almost anything—fractures, disfigurement, even with life in a wheelchair—but, please, oh, please, don't let anything have happened to her brain!

The space in front of the emergency room was reserved for ambulances, so Don dropped me off at the door while he took the car across to the visitors' parking lot. The nurse who had called us was standing in wait in the doorway, and I knew that it had to be bad when she took me in her arms.

"You're sure it's Kait?" I whispered. "There's no chance it's a mistake?"

"It's Kait," the woman said. "There was a picture ID in her wallet. She's alive, but in critical condition. You need to prepare yourself for the fact that you may lose her."

"A car wreck?" I couldn't conceive of any other possibility.

"Your daughter's been shot in the head," the nurse said quietly.

The sand of the beach slid out from under my feet, as the tidal wave struck the shore and I was sucked under.


Don and I sat in a small private waiting area off the emergency room, side by side on a green vinyl couch, propped against each other like Raggedy Ann and Andy dolls. If one of us had moved, the other would have fallen over.

After a while Don said, "We should call the boys."

"Please, not yet," I implored him. Once we started informing people I would no longer be able to tell myself this was a fragment of a fever dream. "There's no sense dragging them down here at this hour of the night. It's not as if there's anything they can do here. Let's wait until we have something definite to tell them."

I could tell that Don didn't agree, but he didn't make an issue of it, and we continued to sit there, staring out into the hallway, waiting for somebody with authority to come in and talk to us.

At one point we saw Kait being wheeled past our doorway on the way to the X-ray room. Her face was slack and waxen, and her head was swathed in bandages. If we had not been told who she was, we would not have recognized her. We jumped up from the couch and trailed the gurney down the hall until the green-clad orderlies shoved it through a set of double doors into an area designated for doctors only. Then we went back to the waiting room and sat back down again.

We didn't feel alone, because hospitals are busy places even on Sundays, and there was a steady flow of traffic in and out of the emergency room. Somebody brought us coffee that we couldn't force down, and we let it grow cold on a table piled with magazines. A nurse came in with Kait's purse and a plastic jar that contained the items removed from her person when she arrived at the hospital—her watch, the chain with the cross, the sand-dollar earrings.

The next person to visit us was a detective from the Homicide Department. He asked us when we had last seen Kait.

"She left our home at around six-fifteen to go to a girlfriend's house for dinner," I told him.

"I've spoken with the friend, Susan Smith," the police officer told us. "Her address and a hand-drawn map were in Kait's car. Susan said Kait was planning to spend the night with her and then suddenly remembered she had to study for a test tomorrow."

"She's taking two college classes in summer school," I said. "She's going to be attending full time in the fall."

"Is her home address the one on her driver's license?"

"No," Don said. "That's the family home. Kait lives at the Alvarado Square Apartments. She moved out on her own a month before she graduated."


Excerpted from Who Killed My Daughter? by Lois Duncan. Copyright © 1992 Lois Duncan. Excerpted by permission of OPEN ROAD INTEGRATED MEDIA.
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Meet the Author

The author of bestsellers like Stranger with My Face, The Third Eye, and Daughters of Eve, Lois Duncan (1936-2016) was an undisputed master of young adult suspense books. Several of her books have been adapted into movies, most notably I Know What You Did Last Summer, which was followed by two sequels. Duncan also wrote Who Killed My Daughter?, a non-fiction book about the murder of her daughter.

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Who Killed My Daughter : The True Story of a Mother's Search for Her Daughter's Murderer 4.4 out of 5 based on 0 ratings. 48 reviews.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
I read this book when I was a teenager and it has stuck with me. I am grateful for the opportunity to add it back to my library as an adult. This is an amazing book! 
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
Great book, loved it! But it is SO sad that people go around killing others. What has this world come to? :(:(
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
This book was one of the first books I picked up in the 7th grade. It took me only 2 days to read since I found it difficult to put down. Here I am 15 years later still thinking of it. It touched me in a way no other book has.
Guest More than 1 year ago
The suspence keeps you going as you find out what a mother would do just to find out 'who killed her daughter'. Full of excitment for everyone in the family. Shows what happeneds when someone is so desperet to keep there family together when the loss of there beautiful daugter. Heart warming. Children after this book will learn to listen to there mothers and mothers will learn to love and pay all the attention in the world to there daughters because it might be the last time you see eachother, ever!! As this mother learns. Only months after this happened in her book it happened to her girl. She blames herself. But it isn't her fault.
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Sounds very sad (I feel very sorry for her death!!!) #thatissosadiamcrying
peteyLB More than 1 year ago
I loved this book, although my heart hurt for the parents. It was well written and was a fast read. I enjoyed it very much!
ACoons54 More than 1 year ago
This is an amazing book. So much emotion wells up in me as I turn the pages. It is a very sad book, without question. Yet, it is a wonderful book. The story is well told and full of suspense..
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
The Arquette Family in this book, and the sequal, "One for the Wolves", tragicaly lost their daughter, Kaitlyn in 1989. In Albuquerque, NM. She was murdered, at age 19, shot in the head. Albuquerque is my hometown and I remember this well. Both books are excellent, read them both, they were written by Lois Duncan also known as Lois Arquette, Kaitlyn's Mom.
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This book is amazing i am in 7th grade and fell in love with book
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mendez915 More than 1 year ago
I have the nook color but read this book on paperback. It is a sad true story. I love the courage the mother has too keep looking. I know that if this happen to one of my children I would not give up until I find the person involved. I hope soon u are able to get the truth.
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I could not put this book down. I do not have kids but I realized through reading this book just how far a mother will go for her child. I was saddened while reading this book because this woman could not get anyone to listen to her or even check into any other option of what could have happened to her daughter. The evidence never matched what the police wanted to believe happened. I suggest this book to readers.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
this book was very good and it was also sad. it was a twist but i got she was at the wrong place at the wrong time
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Guest More than 1 year ago
I read this book for Language Arts and as I read it in class I had to force myself not to cry. The fact that the police don't help the Arquette family and the determination of Lois Duncan, the mother, to find her daughters killer, is so emotionally overwhelming. I was quite freaked out when Lois starts talking about how in one of her books, she wrote about a bus driver holding kids for ransom and the exact same thing happened after her book came out. The same thing also happened after her book Don't Look Behind You, only it happened to Kait. To get what I am talking about, you MUST read this book. This is the best non-fiction book i have EVER read. I really do hope that after 19 years, the Arquette family doesn't give up hope and is still determind to find Kait's killer.
Guest More than 1 year ago
I really love murder books, and wow this is the best one I have ever read. She always keeps you going, I never wanted to stop reading it. If you really like murder books. Check this book out!
Guest More than 1 year ago
I think it was a really good book. It was a sad book too.I hope that it never happens again because it would be very upsetting.
Guest More than 1 year ago
Lois duncan is one of my favorite authors, and writes spectacular books, but this one was absolutley heart-filled. This book is one i will definatley never forget. Everybody should read this book, along with all of the other ones Lois Duncan has wrote!
Guest More than 1 year ago
this book is incredible. I just brought the book yesterday and i am already more than half way through with it.the secrets she finds out about her daughter is so shocking that it catches you by surprise. I have to give Lois Duncan two thumbs up for this book.