Why Me?

Why Me?

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by Sarah Burleton, Tanya Eby

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In the blink of an eye, Mom ran up behind me and pushed me into the fence. Instinctively, I reached out my arms to stop my fall and ended up grabbing the live fence. My hands clamped around the thin wires, and my body collapsed to the ground as the electricity coursed through it. I opened my eyes and saw my mother standing over me with the strangest smile on her face.


In the blink of an eye, Mom ran up behind me and pushed me into the fence. Instinctively, I reached out my arms to stop my fall and ended up grabbing the live fence. My hands clamped around the thin wires, and my body collapsed to the ground as the electricity coursed through it. I opened my eyes and saw my mother standing over me with the strangest smile on her face. "Oh, my God, I'm going to die!" I thought in panic.
Imagine never being able to close your eyes and remember the feel of your mother's arms wrapped around you. Now imagine closing your eyes and remembering your mother's tears splashing down on your face as she is on top of you, crying as she is trying to choke you to death. My mother left me these memories and many more during my traumatic childhood. After many years of struggling with trying to understand "Why Me?" I took back control of my life and started saying, "It was me, now what am I going to do?" The answer is my book, "Why Me?". It is my childhood journey through the terrors of physical and mental abuse from first grade until the day I moved out. It is my way of letting the world know what was really going on behind closed doors.

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Awesome - Cara W
The story is told in the author's voice. Her writing (while admittedly not Pulitzer Prize material) is real, emotional, and raw. She is simply telling us HER story. Working in a "helping profession" I am drawn to books in this genre.This is a survival story. One that turns the author from being a victim into a person who is control of her own destiny. The odds were certainly against this child. I hope that her message is received by those who are still suffering.It is never too late to seek help
Great book - Marie L
I read this book in one sitting tonight. It was that good. I thought it was very thought provoking, and my heart went out to that little girl who suffered so much at the hands of the one person in life who is supposed to love you the most. To the author, your reward in heaven will be huge. This book will forever change the way I parent my two kids.

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Meet the Author

This was an extremely difficult book for me to write as many of you can imagine. In order to make the reader understand how I felt at a certain age or a certain time, I had to relive experiences that I never wanted to remember again. Many times, I would write a few pages or an entire chapter and then not come back to writing it again for 2 to 3 weeks at a time.

I debated a long time on how much to include in the book. If I were to write about every horrific experience that I had growing up - it would have turned into a 500 page book. I do feel that the experiences I wrote about in the book were the ones that really affected me long term and were ones I wasn't willing to forget about over time. It is because of these incidents that I still struggle with an eating disorder, why I still can't look people in the eyes when I talk to them and why I have such a hard time trusting people. While there were other incidents that would have made my readers cringe and cry (like Mom making me brush my teeth with Comet) - as an abused child - incidents like that were so normal that it all seemed to run together and I couldn't remember how old I was when certain events happened or what house we lived in. I do know that when I talk about my abuse, the incidents I wrote about are the ones I can't let go of and that I remember as if they all happened yesterday.

However, I found that with each word, sentence, paragraph and chapter I completed, it helped me come to terms with the abuse I endured. Actually reading what I went through myself helped me to realize that I really was the victim in the entire situation and that I wasted so many years feeling guilty for something I was not responsible for. If anyone can take anything away from this book - it is my hope that it is inspiration - inspiration for others to share their stories and hopefully get some peace in their lives. After every beating my mother gave me - it was so important to me to find something positive to cling on to - something to convince me to wake up the next morning. It may sound cheesy and silly to some, but that's how I got through it - day after day.
I pray for all of you suffering and I love you all

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Anonymous More than 1 year ago
This account of child abuse was so horrific that I became angry and disgusted as I read. How this woman lived to tell her story I have no idea. She is unbelievably brave and strong to relive the horrors of her childhood and to share it with the world. I could not put the book down, as I was so mortified by how this woman was treated by her mother and step-father. I would recommend this book only to those who can handle the sometimes graphic descriptions of the abuse. This book is an eye-opener to what can happen behind closed doors and a wake-up call to police officials and case workers. We need to be able to recognize the red flags and realize that we all have a moral obligation to report any suspicion of child abuse or neglect.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
I am amazed at some of the opinions and observations by people about how it couldn't possibly be true, how it was embellished or it couldn't have been that bad or someone would have realized she was abused. I started to read this very emotional book and nearly word for word was my childhood. My mother was in real estate and seemed to be a "good and loving mom" to everyone on the outside. Behind closed doors I was constantly attacked for not cooking the right dinner, bringing her the wrong soda, not getting up to get her something fast enough, for anything and everything my brother or sister did, or for even looking at her the wrong way. We were so poor that my mother would take us out late at night to grocery stores to steal food while she waited in the car. If we begged her not to make us do it, not only would we go hungry but I'd be dragged down 2 flights of stairs by my hair,choked, kicked and slapped so hard the inside of my mouth would be covered in painful sores. I have had every finger broken (except one) multiple times, both arms, wrists, legs, feet, tailbone broken, teeth broken, black eyes, knee injuries needing surgeries and the very last time, Ended up in the hospital for 13 days due to a beating that fractured my ribs and bruised my kidneys. During the 80's and early 90's, people didn't get involved. Teachers didn't report things the way they do now. When people asked, I always said I was clutzy and slipped off a curb, fell playing soccer, my baby sister hit me with her bottle, fell out of a tree and anything else I could say to keep me from being abused more . I learned due to my mother being questioned about it by a Dr. That it would be worse if anyone found out. In my teens,not only did she put me in the hospital at 15, she was able to classify me as a runaway while in there and the police didnt do anything to her and I couldnt be placed in foster care because of my age. No one wanted a teenager so they sent me back. Luckily I had a wonderful family that took me in, got me an apt, and showed me what love was, even as they got in trouble for "Harboring a runaway". They suspected what was happening and changed my life by action. I didn't have anyone I could trust until 15 because they all believed she was a great mother and I was a troubled child. In all honesty, I was a straight A student who went to nightschool so I could graduate early so I could get a job to get out. Two years later, I had 3 jobs, my own apartment And custody of my brother and sister. For those who doubt these things do happen and her story cannot be real, I can attest that this is my story and it is almost word for word like hers. Unless you've been in an abusive household, you cannot fathom that this happens every day in homes you'd never suspect. Thank you for reading MY story in this review. Its only to show support for a survivor of childhood abuse and her amazing book.
Kimberly Livingston More than 1 year ago
This book was wonderful. It was short but really intresting and inspiring. The author did a great job and making it seem like you were her. I recommend this book it was fantasic.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
This book is very heartbreaking. I read this book in 6 or 7 hours even though it was only 60 pages. I would definitely recommend this book. It made me cry just at the thought that this was based on a true story. Being a parent myself, it shocks me that someone would treat their kids (their wonderful joy) this way. I was never beatened but i grew up with namecalling and being told im worthless and it kind of hit home with the namecalling part. The author was right....these experiences teach us what NOT to do. To the author, I hope this brought you closure to your rough childhood and you can start living your life that you deserve. With people who love you dearly. Hang in there.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
Great short read. Very heartbreaking what this poor girl went through. Definitely would recommend this ebook!
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
This is not an easy read and it is obvious that this girl had to relive things that she never wanted to again. There are parts that read rather childish; but I imagine that is because she was reliving a part of her life at a certain age...to me it made the story more authentic - like I was seeing it through her eyes.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
I somewhat understand what she went through. Growing up in a home with an abusive father. But forgiveness is where she needs to go. I pray one day she will understand that to forgive will set her free, because the unforgiveness she holds toward her mom only hurts her. Because when she forgives her mom will have no more power over her.and the memories wont hurt like they did. God bless this young lady.Jermiah 29: 11-13.
iluvmykids More than 1 year ago
I have to say that she did a great job telling her story, this was a book I couldn't put down. I recommend this book to anyone.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
I feell like i was apart of sarahs childhood and im happy she found life better without that mean woman known as mom
charity burton More than 1 year ago
I loved this book! It is very emotional but i like that she didn't spare any information no matter how heart wrenching it was! I think everyone should read thus book! I am so happy with how it ended!
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
I am a survivor of child abuse myself, and can relate to her sentiments, I can also understsnd her fear of telling the truth. I was in foster care from ages 3-11 and though I was abused in a majority of them, there is no reason to down talk foster care or be afraid of it. I did have one set of very nice parents, and I still talk to them! The book was clearly written by an experienced writer, and express purely in her raw sentiments, not professional educated words, but if you're willing to look past that fact it's worth the read.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
 I read Ms. Blizzard's book in one day. Could not put it down. These women went through hell and came out the other side whole again. Not everyone can take these abusive situations and go on to live a full, complete life. I cried when reading both books. It's impossible not to. Hard to believe that any human being could harm another. But there it is. It exists in our society. Some of what I read here in Why Me seems extreme. This mother had to have been completely mental, victimizing her own child. For those reviewers who may not believe a mother could do that, there are thousands of displaced children who are products of abusive mothers. I applaud these brave women who are willing to lay themselves bare to the public, knowing that they could be criticized for it, but going on anyway. The abuse this child suffered shocked me. Her mother and step-father were mental cases and should have been stripped of their parental rights and thrown in jail. I'm amazed the author didn't spiral into drugs, alcohol, get pregnant, etc., but survived and went on with her life. Amazing woman. How many other children are suffering right now with parents like that? Heartbreaking. A well written book. I appreciate the bravery it took to share such a story. I am sorry that nobody recognized the abuse and offered intervention.    
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
Makes me want to do something in child abuse prevention field. No one should feel unsafe in their home. Im glad the author put her story out for others to find hope. Didnt think she should have given the chance for her mother to be a grandmother though. Someone like that doesnt change but i understand her need for hope.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
This is a very brave woman. Her story is touching to say the least. I am fortunate to have never experienced the struggle, and this book reminds me to be grateful. It also reminds me to savor every second of my children's precious childhood.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
Just makes me want to run home and cuddle my children and tell them how much a love them and how they mean the absolute world to me. Sarah is a hero she stood up to her abuser and was able to get out alive. I wish the book would have been a little longer. It read more like an article not so much like a book. Definitely worth the read though. Only 60 pages and I read it in one sitting.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
This book is sad and heart wrenching. It takes you to a story of how a little girl gets abuse mentally and phisically sice she was little to a grown up. This book gives gives you perspective. It makes you grateful yet sorry for what this little girl experienced. *tissues recommended*
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
So touching and so hard to read. As a mother i can not imagine how this can happen and why nobody helped this poor girl. I read it in one sitting and had a hard time holding back the tears. I do recommend reading this if nothing else than to learn warning signs to look for so this can be prevented. Such a sad story, but perfect ending!
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
This was a great book. I loved the pain she showed and made me really open my eyes and appreciate how i live me life.
AriFlo More than 1 year ago
Good, easy, honest read. She luckily was able to overcome her sad childhood which often is not the case. I really enjoyed this!
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
I read the mixed reviews but bought the book anyways. I buy books not to be impressed with fancy words but by the story. This was a sad but believable story. Anyone who has been abused whether it be child or spousal, could understand everything the author wrote. I congratulate her for her courage and triump!
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
Sad. Similar to A Child Called It.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
This book sheads light on what it is like to live not only in a physically abusive home, but a home with the terror of unpredictable emitional abuse. Sadly the author would have benefited from a better editor and input from a therapist. I work with victims daily and a very typical coping mechanism is to shut off ones emotions. Unfortunately this does not make for a well written story. Part of what makes stories 'believable' is the emotional account of the events. The very coping skill that kept the author alive also made this read feel choppy and unattached. Very honest and raw portrayal of what child abuse can do through adulthood. Bravely written. Editor needed.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
I read this book in 2 hours. I cannot believe the things this poor woman went through. I was so angry by the end, I was rooting for something bad to happen to the mother! That woman should be locked up!
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
I am 12 years old and i don't ready like to read but when i got it book i could't stop read reading. I would read 10 pages before school and then tell my friends about the book. BUY THIS BOOK!!!
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
Very sad but a very good book. It only took me 2 hours to finish. It was to short but other than that you must read it