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You Are Not Here

You Are Not Here

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by Samantha Schutz

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A startling novel about love and grief from the author of the acclaimed memoir I Don't Want to Be Crazy. Annaleah and Brian shared something special - Annaleah is sure of it. When they were together, they didn't need anyone else. It didn't matter that their relationship was secret. All that mattered was what they had with each other. And then, out of nowhere, Brian


A startling novel about love and grief from the author of the acclaimed memoir I Don't Want to Be Crazy. Annaleah and Brian shared something special - Annaleah is sure of it. When they were together, they didn't need anyone else. It didn't matter that their relationship was secret. All that mattered was what they had with each other. And then, out of nowhere, Brian dies. And while everyone else has their role in the grieving process, Annaleah finds herself living outside of it, unacknowledged and lonely. How can you recover from a loss that no one will let you have?

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"The death of someone you love will define you in ways small and large. It can defeat you. Or deliver you. You Are Not Here is a story about ultimate deliverance, and one you'll not soon forget." - Ellen Hopkins

"These refreshingly spare lines tackle tough relational issues–intimacy, risk, abandonment–with aplomb, making for a moving tale that also effectively shows teens how life can go on." - Kirkus

Children's Literature - Elizabeth Fronk
Annaleah grieves for her friend Brian, who dies unexpectedly. The novel's short verses chronicle Brian's death in the present tense and flash back to the past when Annaleah and Brian meet and begin their romantic relationship. Annaleah's friend Marissa does not support her decision to sleep with Brian. Near the novel's end, Annaleah begins a new job and meets another boy, Ethan. It appears that Ethan actually likes Annaleah, whereas Brian may not have. This unexpected development provide momentum for the story, whereas earlier discussions of Brian's death drag the story down. This novel succeeds in showing how a teenage girl deals with the death of a first love, and makes effective use of the verse form. However, Annaleah appears to take much too long to recover from her loss and some readers may feel she is wallowing in her grief. Readers who enjoy introspective main characters will appreciate this novel. Reviewer: Elizabeth Fronk
VOYA - Paula Brehm-Heeger
High schooler Annaleah cannot believe it when she learns that Brian is dead. She was not his official "girlfriend" but had been involved with him for months and believed the two of them shared a deep connection. Unable to move past her grief, Annaleah spends the months following Brian's funeral visiting his grave and dwelling on how much she misses him. But as she recounts the details of their relationship, Annaleah realizes that Brian's treatment of her was not ideal. When she meets Ethan, Annaleah's eyes are opened to the truth about her inflated opinion of Brian and the new potential for real love to enter her life. This well-written novel in verse offers an authentic portrayal of the debilitating effect of grief. Annaleah's confusion about her intense emotions, her inability to articulate her pain to anyone, her slide into depression, and the helplessness her loved ones feel as they watch are effectively conveyed. At times the story drags, and some readers will feel frustrated by Annaleah's incessant sentimentality and maudlin response to Brian's death. The pace of the story quickens when Ethan enters the picture and Annaleah faces the cold truth about Brian's apathetic treatment of her. Readers who stick with it will be rewarded with a genuine tale of self-discovery. For another novel in verse with broad appeal that is focused on unexpected high school death, try Chasing Brooklyn by Lisa Schroeder (Simon Pulse, 2010/VOYA April 2010). Reviewer: Paula Brehm-Heeger
School Library Journal
Gr 9 Up—Annaleah had been spending all of her time either with Brian or thinking about him. In the space of a few whirlwind weeks, she'd fallen in love and alienated her closest friends. When he suddenly drops dead shooting hoops. Annaleah retreats into herself and lingers at his graveside. When Brian was alive, his attention was hot and cold: one minute he was sweet, spontaneous, and caring, the next he'd disappear without explanation. Was he with another girl? Much of this novel-in-verse dwells on Annaleah's grief and her awkward position as a pseudo girlfriend who had never met Brian's family or friends. In the midst of her sorrow, her longing for her own long-gone father and anger toward her present-but-absent mother pop into her thoughts. Though her voice rings true, her endless grief becomes tedious, even as the narrative pace moves quickly. However, this "enough already!" reaction echoes the feelings of her patiently skeptical friends. Eventually, her heartache reaches a neat resolution in the shape of a new boy. While there is an "aha" moment in relation to her father, the mother thread hangs loosely at book's end. Though certainly not unique among novels-in-verse for teenagers (think Lisa Schroeder's books), Schutz's work will undoubtedly be welcomed by fans of the genre.—Jill Heritage Maza, Greenwich High School, CT
Kirkus Reviews

"Death is a period / at the end of a sentence," concludes Annaleah, the 16-year-old protagonist of Schutz's captivating fictional follow-up to her verse memoir (I Don't Want To Be Crazy, 2006). And much like the resolute finality fixed in that tiny dot, Annaleah spends a great deal of this free-verse novel stuck contemplating the harsh reality that her sometime boyfriend, Brian—a seemingly healthy, dark-haired, cloudy-blue–eyed 17-year-old—has just dropped dead on the basketball court. Reeling from both physical loss and lack of closure to the meaning of their clandestine relationship, Annaleah finds herself routinely visiting and addressing the deceased Brian, until a chance graveside encounter yields advice that finally begins to hit home: "Nothing grows here," says Brian's grandmother, "besides grass." At first blush appearing to pull out all the melodramatic stops in classic teen fashion, these refreshingly spare lines tackle tough relational issues—intimacy, risk, abandonment—with aplomb, making for a moving tale that also effectively shows teens how life can go on. (Fiction/poetry. 14 & up)

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Meet the Author

Samantha Schutz is the author of the acclaimed memoir I Don't Want to Be Crazy, which was a New York Public Library Best Book for Teens and Voices of Youth Advocates Poetry Pick. You Are Not Here is her first novel. Samantha lives and works in New York City as a children's book editor. For more about her, please visit www.samanthaschutz.net.

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You Are Not Here 4.3 out of 5 based on 0 ratings. 9 reviews.
TeensReadToo More than 1 year ago
I was excited to see Samantha Schutz had written a novel. Her memoir, I DON'T WANT TO BE CRAZY, revealed her talent as a writer and her tremendous ability to describe her own very raw and painful experiences. YOU ARE NOT HERE is a novel in verse. The focus is on Annaleah and the sudden and tragic death of someone near and dear to her. If pressed, Annaleah would not be able to articulate her true relationship with Brian. They've been seeing each other for a short while and have shared a first kiss and much more, but to say he is her boyfriend still doesn't seem quite right. Their relationship has not included any outsiders. When Annaleah visits Brian, he always hustles her out before his father comes home. She hasn't really shared her budding romance with friends, either. Her one attempt to describe her feelings about Brian brought harsh criticism from her closest friend, Marissa. And as far as introducing Brian to her mother, forget about it. Better to leave that woman in the dark. Because of the secretive nature of their relationship, when Brian suddenly dies while playing basketball, Annaleah has nowhere to turn. Since no one truly understands, she withdraws, spending all her time either in her room or visiting his gravesite. Their relationship was viewed as casual, causing Annaleah's mother and friends to look upon her continued grieving as unnecessary and ridiculous. Unable to explain, Annaleah sinks deeper and deeper into despair as she mourns the loss of a young man she realizes may not even have loved her. Schutz explores the human reaction to death and loss in YOU ARE NOT HERE. The process of grieving is such a personal experience, and Schutz demonstrates that fact as she takes Annaleah on this often lonesome journey. Readers looking for a "problem" type novel will find this fast read satisfying, although rather predictable.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
THIS BOOK WAS SO AMAZING!!! Yes you should read this book! Despite what others say, this book is sad but leaves you with a happy, fulfilled feeling at the end. Smile right there on yo face! 
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
I love this book its sad but so good. Once you pick this up you cant put it down.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
Camp has been moved to smudge first result.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
Leafstorm~ so im no longer deputy? *followed melody*
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
I didn't see your answer, so I'm gonna have to ask one more time: Do you know a cat named Dappleleaf?
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Anonymous More than 1 year ago
Hunting patrol?
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
*jumped on a squirrel d killed it*