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You Know Where to Find Me

You Know Where to Find Me

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by Rachel Cohn

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Miles has spent her whole life in the shadow of her cousin Laura. Laura is the golden one—smart, gorgeous, rich, and popular—while Miles considers herself the unwanted one—an unattractive, underachieving social outcast. As far as Miles is concerned, Laura has the perfect life…until Laura commits suicide, leaving Miles lost the wake of the


Miles has spent her whole life in the shadow of her cousin Laura. Laura is the golden one—smart, gorgeous, rich, and popular—while Miles considers herself the unwanted one—an unattractive, underachieving social outcast. As far as Miles is concerned, Laura has the perfect life…until Laura commits suicide, leaving Miles lost the wake of the event. Losing Laura shatters Miles and sets her on a dangerous downward spiral. When she hits rock bottom, Miles must make a choice: She can escape from it all, just like Laura did, or she can look for strength in herself and in those she didn’t believe cared about her, and try to find a reason to live.

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"This painfully funny, deeply moving journey is the most authentic portrait of loss and forgiveness I've ever read." — Patricia McCormick, author of Cut
Publishers Weekly

Cohn (Gingerbread) delves into her darker side as she probes a teen's suicide and the painful repercussions for her loved ones. After her best friend and first cousin, Laura, kills herself with an overdose of prescription drugs, 17-year-old Miles is shattered: the person Miles believed would always be there for her has left without even saying goodbye. And when her flaky mother flees town to mourn with her boyfriend in London, Miles is left alone with Laura's father to endure a summer of grief at his D.C. estate. A prescription-drug addict herself, Miles must embark upon a journey of self-discovery if she is to survive. Cohn once again excels at crafting a multidimensional, in-the-moment teenage world, this time without recourse to her usual witty style. There is a bleakness to her language that superbly suits this sad, somber tale. Her work is heartbreaking, at times excruciating to read, but it rings with authenticity. In pursuing Miles's responses, she spares few details, neither the methods via which Miles and Laura procure their pills nor the actual medical causes of Laura's supposedly peaceful death. The tragedy of teen suicide has been the subject of countless novels, yet rarely has it been discussed with such gritty realism. Ages 12-up. (Mar.)

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Children's Literature - Claudia Mills
Framed as a dark fairy tale, Cohn's latest novel begins with "Once upon a time." Once upon a time there was a beautiful blonde "princess," the cherished, late-life, adopted, only child of a wealthy gay man at the center of Washington, D.C.'s social and political life. Once upon a time this princess took her own life: "Sleeping Beauty decided to take a nap from which she would never wake up." The story of what happened next is narrated by Laura's overweight, Goth-dressed, fiercely intelligent but underachieving cousin Miles, who was raised as Laura's near-twin sister. Miles's mother is neglectful, her father is absent, her African-American, male best friend/crush has fallen in love with another girl. Facing the rest of her life without Laura, Miles is becoming ever more dependent on the prescription drugs she hordes to deal with her deepening depression, the drugs that allow her to enter and remain in "the dream." Miles's voice is a YA tour de force, painfully sardonic, both funny and bitter: "Laura is dead but I am having a good hair day;" "At least I know where to find Jim. Two lost souls with nothing to do other than grieve and smoke, who share nothing besides a dead person, are getting to be codependent regular players in Midnight in the Garden of Talking and Smoking." Once upon a time Rachel Cohn wrote a brilliant, haunting, despairing yet ultimately affirming book that deserves to join her lengthening list of YA best sellers. Reviewer: Claudia Mills, Ph.D.
VOYA - C. J. Bott
Cousins Miles and Laura grow up more like sisters, only months apart in age, sharing dreams and escapes. They were so tightly bonded that when Laura kills herself, an abandoned Miles barely functions. Laura was everything Miles wished for - beautiful, thin, and popular with boys. Miles loved her most, and living without her is a sentence in itself. During the summer after Laura's death, Miles, addicted to escapes - whether books, food, pills, or fantasies - does not realize how much she contributes to the lives of others. Exquisitely written and delicately told, this story belongs to Miles. Cohn wisely focuses on her and gives the reader just enough of Laura to validate Miles's grief. But Miles does not stand in isolation; the book includes a rich circle of people very involved in the world and willing to anchor Miles in that world despite her courageous stubbornness. The completeness of the book is impressive. It is an intense and fulfilling read by a skillful storyteller. Reviewer: C. J. Bott
School Library Journal

Gr 8 Up- Miles is wry, sarcastic, and smart, an almost-18-year-old Goth with a weight problem and a growing addiction to pharms. She and her "golden" cousin, Laura, were raised like sisters on their Georgetown estate, she in the carriage house out back with her mom, Laura in the main house with her wealthy gay father. In a first-person narrative peppered with flashbacks and essays written for school, Miles tells of Laur's suicide and a summer spent grieving. It's a story of Miles's changing perceptions of the people in her life: of Laura herself; Miles's best friend, Jamal, with whom she's falling in love; Jamal's affluent black family; Laur's grief-stricken father; and Miles's own parents (an artist mother who runs off to a boyfriend in London, and a formerly alcoholic, absentee father who shows up to watch over her). Cohn tackles a lot here: clinical depression, suicide, drug addiction, homosexuality, grief, Washington, DC 's racial and social stratifications, and the political fight for District statehood. Fans of titles such as Cohn's "Gingerbread" series and Pop Princess (2004, both S & S) will find a darker, more wrenching and poetic narrative, but may also get lost in the book's overabundance of social and political themes and wish for more insight into the relationship Miles mourns. While Cohn's characterizations occasionally teeter toward stereotype, the story's evolving relationships keep it compelling enough to propel readers through to its dramatic conclusion.-Riva Pollard, formerly at The Winsor School Library, Boston

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Kirkus Reviews
Pudgy, pierced, eye-lined Miles and her beautiful, slender cousin Laura were inseparable, raised as sisters in an idyllic mansion in a posh neighborhood of Georgetown. Despite her angelic appearance, Laura's depression takes hold and she unexpectedly offs herself with a handful of pills the summer before her senior year. As a result, Miles's physical and emotional existence veers deep into drug use, self-destructive behavior and depression. Cohn's slick, upbeat, urban prose intensifies the sharply drawn characters that frame Miles's world: her smooth-talking African-American best friend and crush Jamal, Miles's goofy, rehabbed sandwich-master dad and the elusive presence of Laura, which haunts the novel's pages like a ghost. Miles's own voice is defiantly admirable, full of dark, black venom and determined convictions. She isn't all doom and gloom, though, and her vulnerabilities subtly seep through with Cohn's signature beat: disco, cigarettes, M&Ms and books. The author nails the setting too: Racial lines, socio-economics, politics, war and the sticky, sweltering heat of a summer in D.C. all fuel her descent. What results isn't just a story about overcoming sorrow, but rather one of a girl raging against the world and herself, waiting for someone to help her make sense of it all. (Fiction. YA)

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My so-called parents hate my boyfriend, Shrimp. I'm not sure they even believe he is my boyfriend. They take one look at his five-foot-five, surfer-shirt-wearin', baggy-jeans-slouchin', Pop Tart-eatin', spiked-hair-head self and you can just see confusion firebombs exploding in their heads, like they are thinking, Oh no, Cyd Charisse, that young man is not your homes.

Dig this: He is.

At least Shrimp always remembers to call my mother "Mrs." instead of just grunting in her direction, like most guys my age do. And no parent could deny that hanging out with Shrimp is an improvement over Justin, my ex, from my old prep school. Justin got me into trouble, big time. I'm so over the Justin stage.

Not like Sid and Nancy care much. I have done my parents the favor of becoming more or less invisible.

Sid, my father, calls me a "recovering hellion." Sid's actually mystepfather. You could say I hardly know my real father. I met him atan airport once when I was five. He was tall and skinny and had inkblack hair, like me. We ate lunch in a smoky pub at the Dallas-FortWorth airport. I did not like my hamburger so my real dad openedhis briefcase and offered me a piece of homemade gingerbread hehad wrapped in tinfoil.

He bought me a brown rag doll at the airport gift shop. Thecashier had made the doll herself. She said she had kept the doll hid-den under her cash register waiting for just the right little girl. Myreal dad gave the cashier a one-hundred-dollar bill and told her tokeep the change. I named my dolly Gingerbread.

Nancy and I were on our way to San Francisco to become Sid's family. My real dad was on his way back to New York, to his real wife and family. They don't know about me.

I'm fairly sure that my real dad's wife would not mind that I make scissors cuts on my arms and then pick the scabs. His real wifeprobably makes fresh gingerbread every day and writes Things To Do lists and does her own groceryshopping instead of having ahousekeeper and a driver do everything for her,like Nancy does.

Nancy only met Justin once, at the expulsion hearing. The headmaster told her Justin and I were caught fooling around in a room loaded with Jack Daniels and prescription bottles. In flagrante delicto were the words the headmaster used. I failed Latin.

Nancy said Justin was from a "wonderful Connecticut family" and how could I shame her and Sid like that. It was Justin who wasselling the ecstasy out of his dorm room, not me. It was Justin who said he pulled out in time. Sid and Nancy never knew about that part.

Nancy came into my room one night after I returned home to San Francisco. Sid and my younger half-sibs were at Father's Night at their French immersion school. "I hope your friends use condoms," Nancy said, which was funny because she knows Shrimp is my only friend. She threw a box of Trojans onto the lace-trimmed four-poster bed that I hate. Shrimp is a safety boy, he takes care of those things. If it had been Shrimp back in boarding school, h ewould have come with me to the clinic.

"Can I have a futon on the floor instead of this stupid princess bed?" I said. The thought of my mother even knowing about contraception, much less doling it out, was beyond comprehension,much less discussion.

Nancy sighed. Sighing is what she does instead of eating. "I paid ten thousand dollars to redecorate this room while you were atboarding school. No, you may not, Cyd Charisse."

Everybody in my family calls me by my first and middle name since my dad's name is pronounced the same as my first name. When she was twenty years old and pregnant with me, Nancy thought she would eventually marry my real dad. She named me after this dancer-actress from like a million years ago who starred in this movie that Nancy and real-dad saw on their first date, before she found out he had a whole other life. The real Cyd Charisse is like this incredibly beautiful sex goddess. I am okay looking. I could never be superhuman sexy like the real Cyd Charisse. I mean there is only room for so much grace and beauty in one person named Cyd Charisse, not two.

Nancy fished a pack of Butter Rum LifeSavers out of her designer jacket and held them out to me. "Want a piece of my dinner?" Copyright © 2008 by Rachel Cohn

Meet the Author

Rachel Cohn is the bestselling author of You Know Where to Find Me, Gingerbread, Shrimp, Cupcake, Pop Princess, and, with David Levithan, Nick and Norah’s Infinite Playlist, Naomi and Ely’s No Kiss List, and Dash & Lily’s Book of Dares as well as the tween novels The Steps and Two Steps Forward. Born in Washington, DC, she graduated from Barnard College in New York and has lived on both coasts. She lives in Los Angeles. Visit her at RachelCohn.com.

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You Know Where to Find Me 3.6 out of 5 based on 0 ratings. 24 reviews.
TeensReadToo More than 1 year ago
Laura and Miles grew up together. They were cousins who lived so close that Miles could sneak out of her room on scary, stormy nights and escape to the safety of Laura's bed. They spent hours in their tree house and hiding out in their favorite bookstore. As little girls became adolescents, though, being related and living near each other didn't guarantee closeness.

Miles liked to eat and drink. And smoke. Her body put on weight, her poorly-dyed hair never behaved, and she escaped the world by reading. Her grades sucked. She didn't care.

Laura was a beautiful, social butterfly. She was pleasant. Got good grades. Had the perfect boyfriend. The adoring father. So why is she the one who killed herself?

And Miles wonders why Laura got everything. Everything. She even got to escape the world. She got what Miles wanted. Miles planned on joining her. Who would even care if Miles died, anyway?

With that frame of mind, Miles takes several downward turns which continue to lead her in the direction her life had been heading for a long time. Laura even left Miles a secret stash of drugs to help her cope. For a while, Miles chooses to live life in a state of numbness. The worst thing to her was when the fog faded and she had to face life
without her cousin.

As you read YOU KNOW WHERE TO FIND ME, you find touching characters. You care for them--not just Miles--but her father, Laura's father, even Laura herself. Miles falls to such a low that everyone worries about her chances of survival. But somehow in this cocoon of a druggy fog, there's a spirit of a person. A person who is stronger than many people realized. People are not always what they seem. Sometimes they are stronger. Sometimes weaker.

Rachel Cohn has written a touching novel that covers so many issues. And it leaves you thinking. Wondering. Hoping.
Pamela_Lighthouse More than 1 year ago
I picked this book up one afternoon at the Barnes and Noble by my house, and it was only 200 pages or so, so i figured i could read it in a day. I had never read anything that was so dark, and just very much not me. It is all about drug abuse and suicide, and i acctually really enjoyed it. I alwasy thought of "those kinds of people" to be bad people, but this story is told from thier point of view, so it really doesnt seem all that bad. Now granted, im not going to go out and smoke some weed and snort some coke, but it just really mad me look at life differently. I mean, not life in general, and not my life particularly, but how people live thier lives;it made me think differenly about them. Overall, it was a good book to read on a rainy afternoon. I enjoyed the language and the wording expecially. It was kind of a dark humored book. I liked it, but now i need to watch a funny adam sandler movie tomake me feel a little less depressed:)
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
This book is the most boring book in the universe. Never i have i ever read anything so depressing, i'm a bookworm. I read about two books a day and i probably read a hundred in one month, i have found interest in book since i was eight and now that i was fifteen i had never ecounter a book this boring. And really this book does not deserve any star Trust me i know a good book when i read one. I know because i recommend the book for my friends who also likes to read and they are always asking me that how the hell do i find an amazing book. This is not a book i will recommend
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Heidi_G More than 1 year ago
Miles and Laura were cousins and at some times, best friends (those times being mainly when they got high together). After Laura's suicide, Miles loses herself in cigarettes, pills, and food. Her other best friend, Jamal, doesn't seem to be there for her when she needs him, Laura's best friend, Bex, suddenly wants to hang out with Miles, and Miles' long-absent father appears on the scene and actually seems to want a place in her life. The downward spiral that is Miles' life continues as Jamal and Bex become more friendly as Miles realizes that she wants more than just friendship from Jamal. She retreats once again into a pill-popping state. Will she follow her cousin into the final resting place of no pain? I did not connect with the main characters--Miles because she was so caught up in tryng to overcome her pain with drugs and at times, self-pity, and Jamal because he seemed emotionally wishy-washy (being that he's a teen, no surprise there). I just didn't care about what happened in the plot. Perhaps if I were a high school student, this book would resonate with me but it didn't. Reviewed in Booklist, School Library Journal, and Kirkus. Review copy provided by Puget Sound Council.
Cougar_H More than 1 year ago
If I can ever recomend a book I would recomend 'You Know Where to Find Me.' This is a good and fascinating book to recomend if you like how to deal with real /emotinal tradegies. When Laura comits suicide Miles, Malanie and Jim have to reunite as a family to know what to do but , mean while Jamal has to help Miles escape High School so dhe doesnt go there alone. This is a great book to recomend because it also teaches you about emotinal and tragicall event and how to deal with them but not by yourself.
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GotchaAngel214 More than 1 year ago
This book is so extroadinary. I read the first few pages, then the next few, and pretty soon I had read the whole book. I was bawling by the first couple chapters. This book is realistic and it makes you reconsider how you think about depression and tragedy. Miles' story pulled me in because she was so easy to relate too. That's not to say I think the book will make someone want to do drugs or commit suicide, only that when I read this book, I felt her emotions. Miles perspective showed the outlook of a girl who must cope with the loss of the person they most look up to. It shows the raw emotions and painful truths of someone faced with suicide and drugs, paired with parental issues, teenage insecurites and jealousy. I honestly couldn't put this book down.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
This book was so realistic and truthful. It showed raw accounts of jealousy, suicide, drug use, insecurities. I easily read this book in about three days.
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kitxkatxbar More than 1 year ago
This book was not very capturing. It doesn't catch your attention the second you read it. However, after reading it, you start realizing Miles pain and how she decides to cope with it. The ending of the novel is pretty good but you have to challenge yourself to finish this novel. It took me awhile to even get into the book and when I did, it had probably been about a week or so. This book is pretty depressing so brace yourself. Chances are you're probably going to sleep through the beginning and then be captured from the middle to the end of the book.
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ashley_42 More than 1 year ago
I did notl ike this book at all. it was really dull and depressing! all about suicide and drugs It really got my depressed NOthing really exciting really happened I dont get the point of it really other than to depress you I wouldn't recomment this.
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Guest More than 1 year ago
Beautiful Laura and chubby Miles are sister-cousins, cousins by blood but as close as sisters. That is, until adolescence, when perfect Laura ditches Miles for more popular friends, and outcast Miles is dubbed ¿8 Mile.¿ But during Laura¿s last year of high school, the cousins reconnected over a shared love of getting high. Miles thought she had gotten Laura back she didn¿t know how far they really were until Laura commits suicide. Miles now finds herself lost, not knowing who to turn to or what to care about. You Know Where to Find Me follows a struggling Miles as she tries to figure out how life will go on. I found You Know Where to Find Me a confusing novel at best. In all honesty, I liked the first and last chapters but pretty much nothing in between. Miles¿ character was very confusing, and I didn¿t feel that the rest of the characters were developed enough, especially Miles¿ parents. I also never really felt the connection between Laura and Miles that should¿ve been there. The novel follows Miles¿ life, but I often felt myself thinking, ¿Well, so what?¿ You Know Where to Find Me lacks a certain something that could make it a really great novel, and I regret to say that this book greatly disappointed me. I originally expected this novel to be similar to other spectacular novels dealing with death and suicide such as The Day I Killed James by Catherine Ryan Hyde, Saving Zoë by Alyson Noël, Elsewhere by Gabrielle Zevin, and Freeze Frame by Heidi Ayarbe, but You Know Where to Find Me unfortunately failed at this. I¿m sorry to say that You Know Where to Find Me is probably the first book I¿ve read that I don¿t recommend at all (not including school-required novels). This book was just too disappointing.
Guest More than 1 year ago
One of the best books I've read so far this year! It's wonderful and keeps you flippin' those pages!
Guest More than 1 year ago
Read it. It's sad but honesty and as always Rachel Cohn perfectly captures the thoughts and feelings of a teenager.
Guest More than 1 year ago
This book was great!!!! If I had the time then I would definitely read this book again!It was mesmerizing and packed with interesting details!