Table of Contents
Prologue: It's Ben 1
1 Everyone's Going 3
2 You Can Always Come Back 20
3 There's Another Option 31
4 It's A Boy 39
5 I've Lost Him 58
6 He's Still Out There 81
7 We're On Our Own 99
8 The Father Has Him 114
9 I Want to Tell The World 125
10 The Birds Will Come 139
11 You Have Two Choices 154
12 It Might Be Him 164
13 A Hot Potato 179
14 Why Couldn't You Be My Ben? 185
15 I'm Sorry 198
16 He's Dead 207
17 I Have Ben In My Hands 226
18 I Will Smash You Down 242
19 Who Could Be This? 255
20 Give US Something 266
21 I'm The Last Person They Want To Hear From 277
22 We'll Need His Consent 285
23 I Need To Know 292
Epilogue: A Phone Call Away 305