A Broken Reality

A Broken Reality

by Robert Kaufman

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BN ID: 2940156129126
Publisher: Robert Kaufman
Publication date: 10/20/2018
Sold by: Draft2Digital
Format: NOOK Book
Sales rank: 552,310
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Danny Madsen had been missing for four days, and hope was fading faster than the weak sunlight giving in to the cold night ahead. Worse, there'd been intermittent periods of snow and sleet throughout the day, creating slick surfaces on unlit county roads and leaving behind asphalt without traction or boundaries.

Like every other evening since the boy's disappearance, the approaching dusk put a damper on the search effort. Each was another day past the critical "48-hour window," another night for Jesse Carlton to fight back tears of frustration as he crawled the icy streets of Hingham, Massachusetts in his silver BMW, looking for the ten-year-old boy the Amber Alert described over and over as white with blond hair and blue eyes, weighing fifty-six pounds and standing about four feet six inches. When last seen, they'd always add, he was wearing a bright blue North Face coat, blue corduroy pants, Nike sneakers and a backpack with the name "Danny" stitched into the left shoulder strap.

Danny's description echoed in Jesse's head as he made the right off of Main Avenue onto Forest, which passed the hundred or so square acres of conservation land. He didn't need the Amber Alert to picture Danny. He'd recognize him the instant he saw him since he'd known the boy from the day he was born. Jesse had long been best friends with his parents, Becky and Don, and Danny had become the son Jesse and Melissa tried and tried but could never have. They'd become so close to the Madsens, in fact, that they'd purchased a home up the block from them, sight unseen, when Becky and Don told them it had come on the market. It was apparent to all of them that the less distance between the families, the more fulfilled their lives would be.

It was this honorary parenting of Becky and Don's only child that had Jesse driving the streets and highways in and outside of every neighboring town for the past four nights — pursuing leads he'd overheard cops discussing at the Madsen home, following up on hunches he'd get after scouring the Internet for clues from past abductions. Each evening as he began his search, Jesse prayed he'd be the one to bring Danny home safe, sound and emotionally intact.

Jesse knew his nightly searches were pointless, but he could no longer bear pacing the floor at home or sitting in the Madsen's cop-filled living room waiting for another bullshit tip, another clue that led nowhere but deeper into heartache. Melissa spent her nights comforting Becky while Don worked with the police to pursue every potential lead. Jesse's need to do something, anything, forced him into his car each night with dissipating hopes and, by the way things had been going recently, unrealistic dreams.

The last person to see Danny was the school bus driver who watched him jump down the vehicle's steps four days earlier, just three blocks from Don and Becky's. And that clue was as solid — and as clear — as mud.

Jesse turned off the radio and clicked on the high beams. The pavement was pure white from the newly fallen snow and there wasn't another car anywhere to be seen. In front of him was blackness; behind him was blackness; on each side, nothing but blackness. How did he expect to see anything out here, let alone find a scared and freezing kid? He didn't know, but it didn't matter. This was the only action he could take that made him feel like he was actually doing something to help.

The yellow light poles every 300 feet or so did nothing but offer a blurry glow that barely reached the road. And now that a smattering of snow had started again, the soft crunch of flakes beneath the tires filled the silence with an eeriness that sent a strange tingle sliding up Jesse's neck.

On either side of Forest Avenue lay the Terrence Ford Conservation Land, acres and acres of brush, swamp and trees with a few neighborhoods dotting the outskirts. Since the homes were hidden behind the dense thicket and prodigious pines, they were usually invisible to Forest Avenue drivers. Tonight though, even in the deep blackness of this night, he could see their pinpricks of homey yellow light, which, like the rickety poles lining the road, was nothing he could see by.

As he passed the two-mile marker, his phone rang, jolting him from his concentration. The display on the dash showed Melissa's cell. He took a calming breath and pressed the button on the steering wheel. "Hey, babe."

"Where are you?" Melissa sounded almost panicked, her voice trembling.

"What's wrong? What happened? Where are you?"

"I'm at Becky and Don's. They just got a call from Agent Rivera ... hold on."

He tried to be patient, but after a few more seconds of muffled voices he couldn't hold back. "Missy!" he yelled and banged his fists on the steering wheel. "For Christ's sake, what did Rivera say?"

"Sorry, Jesse. I'm just getting more details." The muffled voices he'd first heard faded away as though she was moving into another room. "Someone just called the hotline from somewhere out in Hingham. It was an older woman who lives —"

Jesse felt like his heart skipped a beat. "I'm in Hingham! Where in Hingham, Missy? Where?"

"Oh my God, Jesse. Wait, I wrote it down." His pulse pounded against the side of his neck as he waited for the crumpling of paper to stop and her words to start again. "Okay, the woman lives on Tower Road off Route 228, on the east side of that conservation area."

He brought up the GPS and frantically searched for 228. "I'm like five minutes from 228 — five minutes. I'm literally on the other side of the woods." His voice was shaky. "I'll put Tower Road in the GPS."

"She says she saw a boy fitting Danny's description running past her house a couple of hours ago. She didn't call right away because she wasn't sure."

Jesse let out a shout of frustration. His shallow breaths quivered in his throat. "Shit, it's starting to sleet," he said. "I'm on Forest right now. It runs parallel to Route 228. I'll turn around and work my way toward Tower to see if I can meet up with one of the units."

"Jesse, please be careful. I don't want you getting stuck in the middle of nowhere."

"This isn't nowhere, Missy — it's Hingham," he said with a sigh, knowing there was nothing he could say to help quell her anxiety. She was a worrier, plain and simple. It was something he'd become accustomed to and had learned to be patient with, but tonight his nerves were too raw, his patience too thin.

"Jesse, sleet means ice. Ice means slippery. Slippery means ..." "Missy," he snapped. He bit his lip and took another breath. "I'm going to turn around and head back toward 228." He gazed into the darkness to his right, wishing there was a road that cut through the conservation area. "Once I get there, I'll give you a call. Until then, sit tight. This could be the break we've been hoping for."

"Oh God, Jesse. I hope so. Please be careful. I'll wait for your call. I love you."

"I love you, Babe," he replied, making sure to sound as composed as possible as he disconnected.

Jesse was once again alone, the soft muffle of the car engine filling the otherwise empty silence. Keeping safety in mind despite his own anxiety to find the boy safe, he made a careful K-turn in the middle of Forest Avenue. The tires slipped a bit on the icy road, so he let up on the pedal allowing the car to straighten itself out. When he faced south, he stepped on the gas again and drove as fast as he could without completely losing traction.

Jesse could see the lights of Hanover Mall through the melting snow on the windshield. The liquid dripping down the glass made it look as though the lights were dancing, shimmying back and forth to the steady beat of the tires crunching the ice beneath him. He glanced at the speedometer: 25 mph. If he could keep up this speed, he'd be back at the intersection of Forest and Main within four minutes.

A faint smile crossed his lips as he remembered finding Danny's favorite Spider-Man action figure in the back seat earlier that week; Danny must've dropped it the day Jesse helped out Don and Becky by picking him up from rehearsal for his school's play. The toy had been right in the middle of the seat, and he wondered if he could reach it — maybe it would change his luck, somehow attract Danny to him.

Jesse reached back, fumbling around, trying to reach Spidey. Nothing. He leaned further and slid his open palm along the seat. Still nothing. Angling backward as far as he could, he patted the floor mat behind him in hopes that the figure had slid during a turn.

No luck.

A quick glance showed the tiny superhero jammed into the corner of the back seat. Spider-Man was tonight's lucky charm; the idea felt right, and it would help him find Danny. It was a superstitious and even desperate move, but doing things by the book had so far turned up nothing.

"Gotcha!" he cheered when he snagged the action figure's foot. He turned back toward the road to see a black figure stumbling out from the brush in front of him. In less than a second, the headlights shown on the figure's face — it was Danny.

Horror seized Jesse by the throat and he gasped as he slammed on the brakes. The car went into an immediate spin, flying directly at Danny whose eyes went wide in the headlights. Jesse felt a thud against the back panel of the car. He screamed, the view from every window only blurred streaks of light. He tried to focus, to spot Danny somewhere in the whirl of his surroundings. But the boy was gone. He screamed again, his cry now muffled by the airbag exploding against his face. He squeezed his eyes shut, feeling the BMW skid off the side of the road and nose-dive into a shallow ditch filled with snow.

As the car lay on its side, ruined engine still ticking, Jesse could barely hang on to consciousness. Images and sounds swirled through his head: the screech of metal dragging along the pavement, Danny's face hitting the window, the sickening thump as the car smashed sideways into the little boy's body.

"It didn't happen," Jesse whispered. "This is a dream," he panted. "Just a dream." He repeated the words again and again until the weight of his eyelids became unbearable and he closed his eyes, allowing the sound of his sobbing to lead him gently into his own personal darkness.

* * *

As Jesse's mind struggled for something good to latch on to, memories of fifteen years earlier floated to the surface.

"Her name's Melissa and she's beautiful," Don announced from three bar stools down.

Jesse took a sip of the martini he'd been fantasizing about all day. It was colder and tastier than he'd imagined. The speakers behind the bar blared something dubstep, forcing Jesse to take a breath so he'd be able to yell above the din. "You'd better watch it," Jesse joked, gesturing toward Becky sitting on the stool beside Don. "You don't want your wife thinking you're looking at other women."

Becky smiled and shook her head. "I'm not worried," she said, gently poking Don's chest. "This man knows he already has the best woman around."

Don kissed her cheek and saluted like a five-star general. "Absolutely. She's correct. I have the best woman around."

Becky's poke turned into a slight punch. "Don't be a smart ass, honey." She turned to Jesse. "By the way, I was the one who thought of you as soon as I was introduced to Melissa at the library. She seemed so smart and beautiful and you've been going from woman to woman for so long that ..."

"Okay, then," Don interrupted. "Let's not go there right now. Why don't we get a table where it's quieter and we can tell you more about Melissa? Then you can decide if you want to meet her."

Jesse grabbed his martini. "Lead the way, Matchmaker Madsen!"

The maître d' led them to a small, circular table close to the center of the restaurant. On the linen tablecloth sat four place settings of elegant bone china, as white as the covering beneath them and as refined as the lustrous flatware surrounding each dish. In the middle was a crystal vase filled with roses that appeared freshly cut, with tendrils of clematis winding through the blooms.

Jesse smirked as their maître d' pulled a padded chair out from the table for him. "Hmmm ... this is kind of fancy for just the three of us. I'm more used to barbeque, plastic forks and paper plates."

"Nothing but the best for you, my old friend," Don replied, ignoring Jesse's typical sarcasm.

Jesse sat down, slid his chair toward the table and cocked his head. "Something's not right here. What's up with you?" He glanced over to Becky, who immediately started reading the menu. "Why this place? What's going on?"

Before Don had a chance to respond, their waiter approached, introduced himself and began to remove the extra place setting.

"Not so fast there, garçon," Don said, tapping the table. "We might have a fourth."

Jesse choked on his drink. "No! What? You're kidding me. She's not joining us for dinner." He looked at Becky, who glanced up for only a second before returning to fiddle with her menu.

"I don't see the problem," Don said nonchalantly.

"Don, look at me!" Jesse gestured toward his wrinkled suit jacket and not-so-fresh shirt. "I've been working all day. I'm not prepared to meet anyone, especially not someone as much of a knockout as you say this woman is."

Don waved him off. "Please, Jesse. Like you ever look bad. You look like an underwear model, but with better hair." He patted the top of his own thinning crew cut, shaking his head in defeat. "You have nothing to worry about ... at least with your appearance."

Don and Becky shared a laugh, but Jesse wasn't listening anymore. He was too busy straightening his tie and sliding his palms along the front of his shirt to press out the lines. It didn't matter how many people told him how handsome he was or how lucky he'd been to have been blessed with his beautiful mother's genes; when he looked in the mirror he simply couldn't see what others saw.

Jesse glanced at Becky, who was watching his every move from behind her menu.

"Becky, you should know better. I might expect this sort of surprise from my oldest and not-so-dearest friend Don, but not from you. You're more level-headed than this." He used his fingers to comb back the sides of his hair.

Becky raised her head and stared directly into his eyes. "Have I ever done this to you before, Jesse?" she asked, letting her menu fall to the table.

"No, but ..."

"And if it doesn't work out, I'll never do it again. I promise." Becky looked around the room as though there might be hidden microphones surveilling their conversation. "What I will do is tell you that she told me she's finally gotten over a bad breakup. So the last thing I want is for her to get hurt."

Jesse shrugged his shoulders and sighed. "Okay." He took another sip of his martini.

"No, really, Jesse. Please be kind to her. I really think she's perfect for you and might actually be the one who —"

"I get it, Becky. I do." Jesse glanced over at Don and was about to ask for backup when he noticed his friend's attention focused on the dining room entrance. He followed Don's gaze to catch sight of one of the most impressively beautiful women he'd ever seen. Jesse couldn't help but stare as she approached the table.

She had a modest swing to her walk, like the shy version of a runway model, with a black sateen pencil skirt carefully hugging the outline of her hips with each perfect step. Her white, sleeveless silk blouse swayed with the pulse of her gait and a pleat-neck keyhole introduced just a touch of her cream-colored skin. Aphrodite, a voice whispered from somewhere inside his head.

When Becky stood to greet her, Jesse awoke from what felt like a trance. He turned to Don, whose crooked smile raised a rush of anxiety inside him.

"She's a beauty, huh?" Don whispered, now also standing to greet Melissa. "Remember what Becky said, Jesse. Don't hurt this one."

Jesse didn't have time to respond before Don was hugging Melissa and turning her toward him.

"Melissa, this is Jesse. Jesse, Melissa."

"Hi," Jesse stuttered, reaching out his hand. "I'm Jesse."

She took his hand in hers and smiled wickedly. "Oh! Is that what Don meant by 'This is Jesse'?" Her hands were cool to the touch, and soft, like a light brush of nighttime ocean air. He looked to the floor and shook his head.

"I'm sorry," he said, searching for a reason behind his sudden inability to think or speak clearly. "I'm just a little bit ..."

"Of a loser?" Don chimed in.

"Don, stop," Becky interrupted. "Please ignore my husband, Melissa. He and Jesse are very old friends and they often revert back to childhood." She gave Don a look of reproach. "Now let's sit down and get you something to drink."


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ReadersFavorite2 5 months ago
Reviewed by Viga Boland for Readers' Favorite It’s exciting to discover an author’s motivation for writing novels in a particular genre. After not being able to put down A Broken Reality by Robert Kaufman, I just had to look up this author. What I found is a writer who achieves his goals, whose stories do exactly what he hopes they will. In this psychological thriller about the disappearance of a young boy, Danny, his kidnapper, Charles, and Danny’s godfather, Jesse, whom local police wrongly conclude is the perpetrator, Kaufman, a psychologist explores his fascination with “what makes people tick - what forces them to become evil when deep down in their heart of hearts, they are yearning for love”. The character of Charles best demonstrates how a person’s yearning for love can force him/her to become evil, and as much as readers will hate Charles, they will also understand what has brought him to this deranged way of finding love. Then, as we watch the lives of Jesse, his wife and Danny’s parents go haywire as a result of Charles’ actions, the tension mounts with every turn of the page, not just because of the constant plot twists, but because of what those twists are doing to these people. Even the lives of the FBI agent investigating the case and his family, are disrupted by one desperate-for-love man, Charles. If, like Kaufman, you are fascinated by what makes people tick, A Broken Reality is a novel that will stay with you as much for its characterization as its plot. Kaufman brings his expertise as a psychologist into the story when Jesse is struggling to understand why he feels guilty about Danny’s disappearance. When he finally realizes the truth and is unable to accept it, the result is devastating. Kaufman’s other stated goal in writing books like this one is “to create characters with whom people could relate, while at the same time bringing them through a journey from which most would crumble.” Again, he has certainly succeeded in creating characters to whom we can relate: any parent or godparent would identify with Jesse and Danny’s family. It’s the kind of situation we all hope will never happen to us. A psychological thriller? You bet…and one of the best I’ve ever read! Awesome read!
ReadersFavorite1 5 months ago
Reviewed by Romuald Dzemo for Readers' Favorite A Broken Reality by Robert Kaufman is a blend of crime and thriller with strong psychological hints. After Danny Madsen has been missing for four days, Danny’s godfather, Jesse Carlton, sets out in his car in search for him in very inclement weather. An accident happens on the snowy path just at the same time that his godson comes running out of the bush. Jesse hits the boy he had set out to find and kills him. Charles Hastings, a sociopath, witnesses the incident and sets Jesse up, sparking off an emotional spiral of events that bring untold suffering to both Jesse and his wife and Danny’s parents. Can the police see through the mind game of a vicious sociopath and give closure to the grieving? The narrative starts with a crisis — Danny Madsen is missing — and this immediately arouses the reader’s curiosity, wanting to know what happens. I enjoyed the way the author captures elements of the setting, the unfriendly weather and the snow reflecting the sad experience of loss and the difficulty in finding answers. Robert Kaufman is a master at writing emotionally charged and focused scenes. I loved the imagery; it’s vivid and strong and serves as a backbone to the already riveting story. The characters in A Broken Reality are sophisticated and well developed, and the author allows the depth of their humanity to shine through the complex web of the plot. The prose is beautiful, simple and crisp, and the narrative voice is exciting and engaging. A Broken Reality is emotionally gripping and psychologically exciting, one of those books you read and feel deeply for the characters. Cunningly plotted and brilliantly written!
ReadersFavorite 5 months ago
Reviewed by Jack Magnus for Readers' Favorite A Broken Reality is a psychological thriller written by Rob Kaufman. Jesse and Melissa Carlton, and Becky and Don Madsen had been best friends for years. Jesse and Don (who had actually grown up together) had been friends since they were young boys in school. Becky and Don had introduced Melissa to Jesse some fifteen years earlier. Danny Madsen was Jesse and Melissa’s godchild, and they loved him as if he were their own, so when they learned that the ten-year-old boy had gone missing, they instantly were part of the efforts made to find him. It was the dead of winter in Massachusetts, and the area where Danny was last seen bordered on acres of densely wooded conservation land. On the fourth day of the search, the two families were fighting exhaustion, fear and the growing despondency that came from realizing the critical “48-hour window” had long been vanished. Jesse was out there searching through the streets as dusk darkened into night. There were few streetlights on this stretch of road, and new snow-covered treacherous patches of black ice. When Jesse got word that a woman in the neighborhood had reported seeing a young boy fitting Danny’s description running past her house, he was elated on realizing that he was driving quite near that location. Then the unthinkable happened. Something so awful, Jesse couldn’t bear to remember it. Rob Kaufman’s psychological thriller novel, A Broken Reality, is a taut and compelling blend of the thriller and police procedural genres. Kaufman’s work deals with the intertwined themes of loss, guilt and forgiveness as the police, the FBI and the community try to apprehend a kidnapper who was himself a victim of brutality as a child. Kaufman’s story works quite well, and his characters, particularly FBI agent Antonia Rivera, are well-defined and credible. I would love to see Agent Rivera solve more cases in the future. A Broken Reality is most highly recommended.