Table of Contents
Acknowledgments 15
Introduction: A Believer in Belief 17
A Note to the Reader 25
"God, I don't know if you exist, but I'm going to act like you do." Mark Lawrence 27
Day 1 Lend Me Your Ears 31
Day 2 Oh, the Places You'll Go 35
Day 3 Mirror, Mirror, on the Wall 39
Day 4 No Do-Over 43
Day 5 To Have and to Hold 47
"This is real. This is truth. I don't have any rational way of explaining why this is real and true except that it is." Ian Cusson 51
Day 6 The Moment Called Now 55
Day 7 Practice Your Lines 59
Day 8 His Name Is Jealous 63
Day 9 Fieldnotes from the Wilderness 67
Day 10 Signs and Wonders 71
"From that point I knew: just like water is wet and birds can fly, Jesus is real." Shannon Galván 75
Day 11 There's No Place Like Home 79
Day 12 Five Words of Faith 83
Day 13 Worrying for God's Reputation 87
Day 14 The Question of Appetite 91
Day 15 No Mercenary Affair 95
"I planned a lot of things in my life. Being a Christian was never one of them." Kevin Feiyu Li 99
Day 16 No Cherry-Cheeked Santa Clous 103
Day 17 Heart Surgery 107
Day 18 The With-God Life 111
Day 19 The Laboring God 115
Day 20 The Bookends of Blessing 119
"If you will save me, then I will live for you." Mika Edmondson 123
Day 21 Where We Left Off 127
Day 22 That Wine Will Preach 131
Day 23 On Getting Fidgety 135
Day 24 A Ringing World of Praise 139
Day 25 The Great Mystery 143
"I started to realize how the gospel changes everything." Premi Suresh 147
Day 26 God's Gift of Bread 153
Day 27 Identity Verification 157
Day 28 The Dawning of Day 161
Day 29 Born to Be Free 165
Day 30 Dead Man Walking 169
"God, if you're real, heal me." Kim Demchuk 173
Day 31 Hail to the Chief 177
Day 32 Undercover Boss 181
Day 33 Last Will and Testament 185
Day 34 The Hard Work of Staying Put 189
Day 35 The Helper 193
"He called me to love what I used to hate and hate what I used to love." Deborah Smith 197
Day 36 The Lord's Prayer 201
Day 37 The Gospel Garden 205
Day 38 The Finish Line 209
Day 39 Closing Arguments 213
Day 40 Revelation 217
"God had picked me up, taken me from being his opponent, and put me on his side." Darius Rackus 221
Epilogue 225
Group Discussion Guide 229
Notes 237