After (After Series #1)

After (After Series #1)

by Anna Todd


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Experience the internet's most talked-about book, now a major motion picture, from Anna Todd, the writer Cosmopolitan called “the biggest literary phenomenon of her generation.”

There was the time before Tessa met Hardin, and then there’s everything AFTER... Life will never be the same. #Hessa

Tessa is a good girl with a sweet, reliable boyfriend back home. She’s got direction, ambition, and a mother who’s intent on keeping her that way.

But she’s barely moved into her freshman dorm when she runs into Hardin. With his tousled brown hair, cocky British accent, and tattoos, Hardin is cute and different from what she’s used to.

But he’s also rude—to the point of cruelty, even. For all his attitude, Tessa should hate Hardin. And she does—until she finds herself alone with him in his room. Something about his dark mood grabs her, and when they kiss it ignites within her a passion she’s never known before.

He'll call her beautiful, then insist he isn’t the one for her and disappear again and again. Despite the reckless way he treats her, Tessa is compelled to dig deeper and find the real Hardin beneath all his lies. He pushes her away again and again, yet every time she pushes back, he only pulls her in deeper.

Tessa already has the perfect boyfriend. So why is she trying so hard to overcome her own hurt pride and Hardin's prejudice about nice girls like her?

Unless...could this be love?

Product Details

ISBN-13: 9781476792484
Publisher: Gallery Books
Publication date: 10/21/2014
Series: After Series , #1
Pages: 592
Sales rank: 407
Product dimensions: 8.20(w) x 5.30(h) x 1.60(d)
Lexile: HL750L (what's this?)

About the Author

Anna Todd is the New York Times bestselling author of the After series of books, The Spring Girls, and the recent The Brightest Stars. After has been released in over thirty-five languages and is a #1 international bestseller. She has since written eight additional novels and serves as a producer and screenwriter on the upcoming film adaptation of After We Collided, the sequel to After. A native of Ohio, Anna lives with her husband and son in Los Angeles. Find her at, on Twitter and Instagram at @AnnaTodd, and on Wattpad as Imaginator1D.

Read an Excerpt


  • My alarm is set to go off any minute. I’ve been awake for half the night, shifting back and forth, counting the lines between the ceiling tiles and repeating the course schedule in my head. Others may count sheep; I plan. My mind doesn’t allow a break from planning, and today, the most important day in my entire eighteen years of life, is no exception.

    “Tessa!” I hear my mother’s voice call from downstairs. Groaning to myself, I roll out of my tiny bed. I take my time tucking the corners of my bedsheet against the headboard, because this is the last morning that this will be a part of my regular routine. After today, this bedroom is no longer my home.

    “Tessa!” she calls again.

    “I’m up!” I yell back. The noise of the cabinets opening and slamming closed downstairs makes it known that she is feeling just as panicked as I am. My stomach is tied in a tight knot, and as I start my shower I pray that the anxiety I feel will lessen as the day goes on. All of my life has been a series of tasks in preparation for this day, my first day of college.

    I spent the last few years nervously anticipating this. I spent my weekends studying and preparing for this as my peers were hanging out, drinking, and doing whatever else it is teenagers do to get themselves in trouble. That wasn’t me. I was the girl who spent her nights studying cross-legged on the living room floor with my mother while she gossiped and watched hours of QVC to find new ways to improve her appearance.

    The day my acceptance letter to Washington Central University came I couldn’t have been more thrilled—and my mother cried for what felt like hours. I can’t deny that I was proud that all my hard work had finally paid off. I got into the only college I applied for and, because of our low income, I have enough grants to keep my student loans to a minimum. I had once, for just a moment, considered leaving Washington for college. But seeing all the color drain from my mother’s face at the suggestion, and the way she paced around the living room for nearly an hour, I told her I really hadn’t been serious about that.

    The moment I step into the spray of shower water some of the tension leaves my strained muscles. I’m standing here, under the hot water, trying to calm my mind, but really doing the opposite, and I get so distracted that by the time I finally wash my hair and body, I barely have enough hot water to run a razor over my legs from the knees down.

    As I wrap the towel around my wet body, my mother calls my name yet again. Knowing that it’s her nerves getting the best of her, I give her some leeway but take the time to blow-dry my hair. I know that she’s anxious for my arrival day at college, but I have had this day planned down to the hour for months. Only one of us can be a nervous wreck, and I need to do what I can to make sure it’s not me by following my plan.

    My hands shake as I fumble with the zipper on my dress. I don’t care for the thing, but my mother insisted that I wear it. I finally win the battle with the zipper, and pull my favorite sweater from the back of my closet door. As soon as I’m dressed, I feel slightly less nervous, until I notice a small tear on the sleeve of my sweater. I toss it back onto my bed and slip my shoes onto my feet, knowing that my mother is growing more impatient with every second that passes.

    My boyfriend, Noah, will be here soon to ride up with us. He’s a year younger than me but will turn eighteen soon. He’s brilliant and has straight A’s just like I did, and—I’m so excited—he’s planning on joining me at WCU next year. I really wish he was coming now, especially considering that I won’t know a single person at college, but I’m thankful that he’s promised to visit as often as possible. I just need a decent roommate; that’s the only thing I’m asking for and the only thing I can’t control with my planning.


    “Mother, I am coming down now. Please do not scream my name again!” I yell as I walk down the stairs. Noah is sitting at the table across from my mother, staring down at the watch on his wrist. The blue of his polo shirt matches the light blue of his eyes, and his blond hair is combed and lightly gelled to perfection.

    “Hey, college girl.” He smiles a bright, perfectly lined smile as he stands. He pulls me into a tight hug and I close my mouth when I catch his excessive cologne. Yeah, sometimes he overdoes it a bit with that.

    “Hey.” I give him an equally bright smile, trying to hide my nerves, and pull my dirty blond hair into a ponytail.

    “Honey, we can wait a couple minutes while you fix your hair,” my mother says quietly.

    I make my way to the mirror and nod; she’s right. My hair needs to be presentable for today, and of course she didn’t hesitate to remind me. I should have curled it the way she likes anyhow, as a little goodbye gift.

    “I’ll put your bags in the car,” Noah offers, opening his palm for my mother to drop the keys into. With a quick kiss on my cheek he disappears from the room, bags in hand, and my mother follows him.

    Round two of styling my hair ends with a better result than the first, and I brush a lint roller over my gray dress one last time.

    As I go outside and walk to the car packed up with my things, the butterflies in my stomach dance around, making me slightly relieved that I have a two-hour drive to make them disappear.

    I have no idea what college will be like, and, unexpectedly, the question that keeps dominating my thoughts is: Will I make any friends?

  • Customer Reviews

    After 3.7 out of 5 based on 0 ratings. 318 reviews.
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    If you like this book, read the original! 
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    As a prepubescent fan of One Direction, I started reading this story when I was 12 or so. I read all three of the books, and loved them immensely. I found aspects of the relationship 'hot' and I would continually gush to my friends about how I wanted a relationship like Tessa and Harry's (or Hardin, as he seems to be renamed as). And then I got a reality check. This book romanticizes emotional abuse in every way possible. Tessa gave up her entire life for Hardin, and he threw her in the dust multiple times. He was controlling, overprotective, rude, and did many things that are simply unforgivable. And yet Tessa goes back to him consistently, forgives him for every damn thing he does, and everyone seems to be okay with it. Newsflash, it's not okay. Let me give you some perspective: imagine that you are an innocent college freshman. You meet a rude, cocky, tattooed boy who you can't seem to get out of your head. You eventually develop a romantic relationship. He controls who you are friends with, he walks all over you, he disrespects you in every way possible. He makes you feel incompetent and forces you to move into an apartment with him. You break up with your boyfriend, who you've been dating for years upon years, for this guy you've known for less than 3 months. You completely throw away your relationship with your mother, who has raised you and who is the only relative you know of, all because she doesn't like your new boyfriend. And then you find out that you threw your entire life away for something that started out as a bet to this guy. He claims that he loves you and that it wasn't just the bet, and though you stay away for a few weeks, you eventually go back to him. He continues to control your life, even going so far as to make sure you don't get an apartment in Seattle so you won't leave him. He gets crazily jealous whenever you so much as interact with someone of the opposite gender, and forbids you from seeing them or being friends with them. You fight every other chapter, and then have make up sex and leave your problems to deal with later. Except you never actually deal with them, just get drunk and have more sex. Does that sound like a happy, healthy relationship to you? Because it's not. It is abusive and controlling, and not okay in any way, shape or form. And yet this book normalizes it, romanticizes it, makes girls think that it's completely normal and okay, even cute. You say that this book is about real life topics, about loving someone unconditionally. Yes, this book addresses real life topics, but it doesn't deal with them in the proper way. If Tessa had left Hardin and not gone back to him, if they had both gone to therapy and gotten help and overcome being abused and abusing, it might have been okay. Yeah, I realize that Tessa leaves Hardin for a little bit at the end and sort of builds a separate life, but then she goes back to him, when he hasn't really even changed, and they decide to get married. That's not a happy ever after, that is "hey I'm making progress! Good for me! Let's tear it all down and start at the beginning again and be bound to life to someone who has emotionally abused me and will continue to do so because I can't gather up the courage to leave him!" That is going to embed itself in the minds of young girls, and they're going to think it's okay, when it's not. I had my reality check, I realized that this book is ridiculous and romanticizing topics that should not be romanticized. But some girls won't. They will go on thinking this type of relationship is okay. And that is the issue I have with this book, and that is why this book should not be put into the public eye.
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    Alright. Here's the thing about After. I have never seen a "book" with such a horrible message. There is so much abuse in this story it's insane. The main character (Hardin) had a horrible childhood, and he uses this excuse whenever he messes something up. He verbally abuses the main girl (Tessa) too many times to count, and he is rude to everyone around him.Yet for some reason, she always goes back. He literally ruins her, and this is supposed to be the ideal relationship??? I don't want readers thinking that this is how you're supposed to be treated by a guy. The "relationship" in this story is so incredibly unhealthy, and both of them needed serious help. But all of that is okay, because it's true love, right? Wrong. It is never, EVER acceptable to treat your partner with  as much disrespect as I've seen in this book. Some things that Hardin does to her are completely unforgivable, and disgusting, but she always crawls back to him for some reason. I know the fans of this don't want to admit this,but there is rape in this story. And it's being romanticized and that is not okay. You shouldn't want to be with someone like that. This unhealthy relationship is the last thing you girls should strive for. Please respect yourselves. The two main characters use sex to solve their problems, and that IS NOT OKAY. Also, Hardin is extremely obsessive and won't even let another guy breathe the same air as Tessa which is over the top. I feel awful for people who think that this is a relationship to strive for, because in the real world, it will lead to nothing but disaster. This book is disgusting. It really is. I respect Anna for wanting to write, but I think she could have thought of something much more appropriate. I don't recommend reading this. 
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    I wish I could give this negative stars. I refuse to support anything that glorifies abuse. Tessa and Harr- I mean Hardin do not have a healthy relationship. He CLEARLY abuses her. If you don't see it you must be blind. It's an unfortunate 50 Shades rip off, and I thought 50 Shades couldn't get any worse. And why would I pay for something I could (but would n e v e r) read for free on Wattpad?
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    So poorly written. I can't fathom how such atrocity like this was published. I'm so appalled at how the positive reviews say it doesn't glamorize abuse, when it clearly does. You are an ignorant person to say it doesn't. People who were in abusive relationships themselves saw how much it glamorizes abuse. And they are NOT clueless. People die from abusive relationships each year, and now there's so many children who think these relationships are something to desire and are normal. They are not normal! It doesn't matter if it's fiction, fiction can affect people on how they think. This 'book' has massively affected people, and that's awful. I can't stand seeing little girls saying they want a Hessa relationship one day. And Anna Todd does absolutely nothing about it. She doesn't care what she has done to the youth. It sickens me how such atrocity like this is praised. Just because a lot of people like it doesn't mean it's good. It's far from it. I wouldn't even call Ms. Todd talented, as she can't even start a new paragraph when someone new speaks,  or proper grammar and punctuation. The good reviews actually sicken me. Don't call yourself an avid reader if you praise this, you obviously don't read many books because this is a huge insult to authors with actual talent and deserve to be noticed. This doesn't deserve an ounce of fame. I also want to mention how it's a rip-off of Fifty Shades of Grey, but a teeny-bopper version. Please save yourself, save your money  The reviews on Goodreads say enough about it. I suggest you check them out.  
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    Fanfiction should stay fanfiction.  This story romanticises  rape and abuse. It shouldn't have been written in the first place.
    ChristyDarling More than 1 year ago
    I'm shocked Barnes & Noble would ever allow this piece of trash on the shelves. The original fanfiction talks about Tessa and Harry (Anna Todd had to change the name when she was published) and their abusive relationship. Mrs. Todd is clearly lacking in her life if this is her idea of a perfect relationship. She's teaching teenage girls that it's okay if your boyfriend or future husband beats you as long as he loves you. She seriously needs to reevaluate her life. This book is terrible and needs to be burned. 
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    I have never been so disgusted than when I found out this had become a novel. There are so many things wrong with this "novel".
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    I don't like it at all. it promotes abusive relationships.
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    This book is terrible. It brainwashes young teens into thinking an abusive relationship is okay. This book also gives Harry Styles a terrible reputation when he one of the sweetest people on the planet. Fan fiction should stay fan fiction. I can’t even believe this was made into a book. The only reason I read it to the end was to find out if Tessa finally was smart enough to leave "Hardin". The grammar was so bad it made me cringe.  
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    After reading the original version I knew I could never buy the published one. Despite the fact it was edited. I was difficult to read through. On an emotional level (I can get over the typos, grammar etc as many wattpad books are the same in this respect). I once dated someone similar and later found out they were actually a psychopath and Hardin has all the characteristics of a psychopath. Therefore, the progression of their so called romance is hardly realistic. He treats her terribly. My biggest concern with this work being published is the fact that a whole generation of young girls think this is the kind of relationship they want; an emotional roller coaster. I'd rather be physically abused than emotionally abused. Scars and wounds heal. But words can repeat in your head and never stop hurting. Truth is all the readers that read this one wattpad aren't experienced 20 somethings that know how love can hurt. All the fans in this fandom are teeny boppers, hardly aware of what makes a relationship a good one. It's a kind of perverse kiddie porn. Don't get me wrong though. I do not judge the author for what she wrote. She is free to write whatever pleases her. In fact the popularity is not entirely her doing. It's society. Young girls seem to have the impression that this would be a wonderful fantasy. But the reality is hell. I just hope the young girls reading this (and there are MANY) don't need serious help after a series of emotionally damaging relationships. This book shouldn't have ended with the characters together. Life with a psychopath is hell on earth.
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    I'd give it a zero but there isn't one. I'd just like to send a heartfelt apology to the people who have read  the book and think that it genuinely depicts a healthy relationship. And to those who want one like it.  This isn't love this is a story about male entitlement and abuse and ownership. I feel sorry for those too young or too  brainwashed or too ignorant to see it like that. Please for your sake and the future generation of girls.  Read up on abusive relationships, misogyny and male entitlement is. I'm not trying to belittle you but please get educated on this topic. Don't let  a man treat you this way. Women are already an oppressed group in society. I hope the author becomes educated as well. 
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    HE WAS NUMBER ONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    I cannot comprehend how people spend the money to buy a book as awful at this, when they could basically read the same book for free on Wattpad. The teenagers, mainly 13 year olds, who read this book, are under the impression that an abusive relationship like Tessa and Harry or Hardin's  is in a sense "healthy" or "normal". Not only is this book manipulating poor little tweens and teens, Harry's name will be labeled under this horrible story until the day he dies. And I'm surprised Anna Todd was able to slip past the publishers with her plagiarized Pride and Prejudice quotes. She's nothing but a lucky girl who happened to gain millions of readers on her FANFICTION online, however just because she changes a few names and edits things here does not mean she has the right to put it out in poor Barnes and Noble's bookshelf for naive young teens to read and enjoy. If garbage like this is going to be considered literature in our society, we are going downhill and fast. 
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    this made me lose hope in humanity. I hope Ms.Todd wakes up one day and realises how disgusting her writing is and hopefully realises that not only does this create horrible depictions of real human beings ( Pretty sure Mr.Styles hasn't done anything bad besides his clothing choice sometimes) but it also helps fuel the dangerous and wrong fires of promoting crimes against women. It disgusts me that a woman could write this and not feel shameful. People like Ms.Todd are ones who hurt our human rights and not protect them. I hope she will wake up soon and realise as i'm sure she can form good opinion instead of bad values.
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    I personally think this book is disgusting. It is practically saying abuse is okay. But in reality its not. How do I know about this book? You may ask. Well I read it on Wattpad and honestly this book is sick. Just my oppion.
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    Cliché. Bad boy meets good girl.
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    Unfortunately, I can't give a rating into the negative numbers, so this rating doesn't actually correctly convey what I feel towards this book.  It is a horrendous 'book', with no good plot, repetitive [bad] motifs, and an underlying sick message - it promotes abuse and anyone who has liked this 'book' is deluded and completely blinded by the horrible writing that is After.  If any sane person - meaning, not someone who likes this 'book' - read this with an open mind, they'd understand that an idiot like Tessa is the reason the story just goes on and on and on and on, like a repetitive cycle. Wouldn't you leave a relationship if you were being abused in it? 'Love' isn't what keeps Hessa together; it's Anna's stupid and sick ideas and writing  And to the publishers and movie creators for this series, you are sick, twisted people, just looking for ways to get more money through a bunch of graphic 'vanilla' (as Anna puts it) sex scenes (something which happens in almost every part of the book ... oops, spoiler alert  - note my sarcasm, will you? I feel sorry for all those parents who have daughters wishing to have relationships like Hessa's, hopefully they'll someday see how bad 'Hardin' really is before glorifying it for the rest of their lives
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    This book is honestly appalling. Like so many have stated, if I could give this book a zero, I would. This is a sickening, poor excuse of a book. I, in no way, can support a book that absolutely glorifies abuse and romanticizes it to the point that it makes people WANT a relationship like "Hessa's". There are so many things wrong with that. It is teaching a large, young crowd that abuse is okay if it's masked by a false definition of "love". This is not okay. This is horrifying. Abuse is a harsh, sad reality that so many people face everyday, and books like these aren't helping the cause. It's horrific. It's not romantic, it's not cute, it's not even remotely close to "love". It's gross. It's wrong. It's demeaning, and it's just plain sad. On top of the content matter, the book itself is poorly written, to the point that I get second-hand embarrassment from reading it. It is so basic in terms of description, with ripped off lines from other books (and a HUGE rip-off of 50 Shades of Grey, but that's another argument), and it's just flat-out BAD. It's a big embarrassment, quite frankly. Anna Todd used every cliche in the world and crammed it into a poor attempt of a "novel". I honestly can't believe this was even published. It makes me so angry knowing there are so many authors out there with amazing work, and they'll never have it published, but this garbage made it into bookstores. Awful. So, so sad. To wrap this up, don't buy this book. I've read the "rough draft" on Wattpad, and stopped reading halfway through the first book. Talk about boring, repetitive, cliche, and disgusting.
    korica More than 1 year ago
    this book glorifies abuse and it is disgusting. I don't even like one direction but i am a feminist and this book is misogynistic and it's an awful read  
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    Seeing all these good reviews make me sick to my stomach, and it's obvious they're all by misunderstood teenagers who are naive to what they're really supporting, and their definition of literature is awful. Knowing someone who's a psychology major, she has given me enough evidence, proving this book does glamorize abusive relationships. To see all these naive girls in the comments saying it doesn't makes me sick at their ignorance. After promotes it big time, and to say it doesn't is really ignorant, despite I've talked to many people who have seen abuse in their lives, and they have all admitted that it does in fact glamorize abuse. I can't fathom why people would think otherwise. The main protagonist is manipulated, degraded, humiliated, cursed at, and is controlled by the antagonist. The antagonist also acts extremely jealous and possessive. These are all factors of an abusive relationship. And to glorify it means to make it seem desirable, and yes it is made to seem romantic and desirable. The main character, who is a weakling, keeps running back to her abuser, after all the horrible things he has done to her. That is unrealistic, that doesn't happen in real life. In real life the victim would get help. And also, you do not love your abuser. Abusive relationships are mentally damaging, and After promotes it unrealistically, as love. Abuse is not love. Abuse will never be love. It is sick and disgusting that Todd has brainwashed all these little girls in to believing this is acceptable, when it is not. And the fact that she's 25 angers me more, because you would think she would be a responsible adult and not promote such awful themes to such a young audience.  I am sickened at all the good reviews on here, praising this 'literature' when it doesn't even deserve that title. It's so awfully written, I couldn't even finish the fifth chapter until I had to shut it. So many errors: grammar mistakes, sentence structure, and stanzas. The editor clearly gave up with editing her horrible writing, and I can exactly see why. I would have a splitting headache after editing this, seeing the original on Wattpad. I can't fathom what goes through these people's minds when writing such positive reviews, and calling the negative comments biased, when they are not. The negative comments actually have a point, and they are very intelligent people indeed. To give a positive review on such a horribly written story like this worries me on the future of literature. Is this really what literature is becoming? Where subjects like abuse is glamorized? Because if it is I don't want to live on this planet anymore, and if you're claiming this was written well, and Todd is talented, you obviously have not picked up a real book in a very long time, which I suggest you do so if you praise this so-called work of literature.  
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    I don't recommend this book if you like;  1. A plot. 2. Detail. 3. Proper grammar. 4. Originality. 
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    Disgusting book. Why did they even decide to publish this?