by Anna Todd

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ISBN-13: 9781982111007
Publisher: Gallery Books
Publication date: 03/12/2019
Series: After Series , #1
Edition description: Media Tie-In
Pages: 608
Sales rank: 124
Product dimensions: 5.30(w) x 8.10(h) x 1.70(d)

About the Author

Anna Todd is the New York Times bestselling author of the After series, The Spring Girls and The Brightest Stars. Always an avid reader, she began writing stories on her phone on Wattpad, the reading and writing multi-platform for original stories, with After becoming the most read series on the platform with over 1.5 billion reads. After has been published in over 30 languages, with more than 10 million copies sold worldwide, and is a #1 bestseller in Italy, Germany, France, and Spain. The film adaptation of After, which Anna is co-producing, is set to be released in early 2019. Anna and her husband currently live in Los Angeles.

Find her at, on Twitter at @Imaginator1d, on Instagram at @Imaginator1d, and on Wattpad as Imaginator1D.

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  • My alarm is set to go off any minute. I’ve been awake for half the night, shifting back and forth, counting the lines between the ceiling tiles and repeating the course schedule in my head. Others may count sheep; I plan. My mind doesn’t allow a break from planning, and today, the most important day in my entire eighteen years of life, is no exception.

    “Tessa!” I hear my mother’s voice call from downstairs. Groaning to myself, I roll out of my tiny bed. I take my time tucking the corners of my bedsheet against the headboard, because this is the last morning that this will be a part of my regular routine. After today, this bedroom is no longer my home.

    “Tessa!” she calls again.

    “I’m up!” I yell back. The noise of the cabinets opening and slamming closed downstairs makes it known that she is feeling just as panicked as I am. My stomach is tied in a tight knot, and as I start my shower I pray that the anxiety I feel will lessen as the day goes on. All of my life has been a series of tasks in preparation for this day, my first day of college.

    I spent the last few years nervously anticipating this. I spent my weekends studying and preparing for this as my peers were hanging out, drinking, and doing whatever else it is teenagers do to get themselves in trouble. That wasn’t me. I was the girl who spent her nights studying cross-legged on the living room floor with my mother while she gossiped and watched hours of QVC to find new ways to improve her appearance.

    The day my acceptance letter to Washington Central University came I couldn’t have been more thrilled—and my mother cried for what felt like hours. I can’t deny that I was proud that all my hard work had finally paid off. I got into the only college I applied for and, because of our low income, I have enough grants to keep my student loans to a minimum. I had once, for just a moment, considered leaving Washington for college. But seeing all the color drain from my mother’s face at the suggestion, and the way she paced around the living room for nearly an hour, I told her I really hadn’t been serious about that.

    The moment I step into the spray of shower water some of the tension leaves my strained muscles. I’m standing here, under the hot water, trying to calm my mind, but really doing the opposite, and I get so distracted that by the time I finally wash my hair and body, I barely have enough hot water to run a razor over my legs from the knees down.

    As I wrap the towel around my wet body, my mother calls my name yet again. Knowing that it’s her nerves getting the best of her, I give her some leeway but take the time to blow-dry my hair. I know that she’s anxious for my arrival day at college, but I have had this day planned down to the hour for months. Only one of us can be a nervous wreck, and I need to do what I can to make sure it’s not me by following my plan.

    My hands shake as I fumble with the zipper on my dress. I don’t care for the thing, but my mother insisted that I wear it. I finally win the battle with the zipper, and pull my favorite sweater from the back of my closet door. As soon as I’m dressed, I feel slightly less nervous, until I notice a small tear on the sleeve of my sweater. I toss it back onto my bed and slip my shoes onto my feet, knowing that my mother is growing more impatient with every second that passes.

    My boyfriend, Noah, will be here soon to ride up with us. He’s a year younger than me but will turn eighteen soon. He’s brilliant and has straight A’s just like I did, and—I’m so excited—he’s planning on joining me at WCU next year. I really wish he was coming now, especially considering that I won’t know a single person at college, but I’m thankful that he’s promised to visit as often as possible. I just need a decent roommate; that’s the only thing I’m asking for and the only thing I can’t control with my planning.


    “Mother, I am coming down now. Please do not scream my name again!” I yell as I walk down the stairs. Noah is sitting at the table across from my mother, staring down at the watch on his wrist. The blue of his polo shirt matches the light blue of his eyes, and his blond hair is combed and lightly gelled to perfection.

    “Hey, college girl.” He smiles a bright, perfectly lined smile as he stands. He pulls me into a tight hug and I close my mouth when I catch his excessive cologne. Yeah, sometimes he overdoes it a bit with that.

    “Hey.” I give him an equally bright smile, trying to hide my nerves, and pull my dirty blond hair into a ponytail.

    “Honey, we can wait a couple minutes while you fix your hair,” my mother says quietly.

    I make my way to the mirror and nod; she’s right. My hair needs to be presentable for today, and of course she didn’t hesitate to remind me. I should have curled it the way she likes anyhow, as a little goodbye gift.

    “I’ll put your bags in the car,” Noah offers, opening his palm for my mother to drop the keys into. With a quick kiss on my cheek he disappears from the room, bags in hand, and my mother follows him.

    Round two of styling my hair ends with a better result than the first, and I brush a lint roller over my gray dress one last time.

    As I go outside and walk to the car packed up with my things, the butterflies in my stomach dance around, making me slightly relieved that I have a two-hour drive to make them disappear.

    I have no idea what college will be like, and, unexpectedly, the question that keeps dominating my thoughts is: Will I make any friends?

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    After 3.5 out of 5 based on 0 ratings. 281 reviews.
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    If I could give this "book" a zero I would. Anna Todd glamorizes abusive relationships, promotes misogyny and anti-feminism. Most of her audience are young girls who think that abusive relationships are okay. This is such a negative message to send to young readers.
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    Unbelievably awful. An endless cycle of cliche. Break up, make up, sex. Make up, break up, sex. Break up, break up, sex. Sex, make up, sex.
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    This book is disgusting. It promotes violent relationships and sends a terrible message to people, especially young girls, who will read it. It tells them that being in an abusive relationship is ok, and it's not. Do NOT buy this book. It has a horrible message and it's absolutely disgusting. 
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    It’s absolutely ridiculous that After was even published in the first place. After is NOT a love story. The story supports abuse and romanticizes abusive relationships. If anything Anna’s story does not deal with real problems. It is glorifying abuse. Anna states several times that she has written a love story with real problems when it is promoting the following messages: “You should go back to someone that says they love you” "Friends trying to get you out of an abusive relationship are wrong." "Waiting for marriage to have sex is wrong." “Cheating is fine” “Girls with model like bodies aren’t beautiful” "The best way to solve your problems is to drink and have sex." “It’s perfectly fine to beat up your girlfriends friends” “Disrespecting your parents is okay” “It’s okay to push your partner" There are also lines of plagiarism that she has claimed are hers from various books, two of those lines are: “Whatever our souls are made of, his and mine are the same.” – Wuthering Heights “I never wish to be parted with you from this day on.” – Pride & Prejudice 'Hessa’ is not a healthy relationship either. Anna’s audience is a range of ages, some readers only being 13 years old. Those readers could be negatively influenced if they do not realize how bad the relationship between Tessa and ‘Hardin’ is. Her television advertisements say that After is for the youth, when it is clearly for ages 18+ because of the sexual content and all the abuse Hardin has done. If you have to ask your parent's for it, you're too young. After contains the most toxic relationship between two people. After started out as a H.S. fan-fiction on WattPad (Where it should remain a fan-fiction). Even though Anna has changed the names, the boys will still be linked to the story giving then all a bad image. The book is portraying them all as men that only care about drinking and sex. H.S.’s family is also being portrayed in a negative way, how would he feel if he read what Anna has written? “After is about forgiveness and unconditional love.” ”It proves a person can really change.” “Anything is possible when it comes to self-recovery.” All of that is wrong. Nobody just changes over night, especially abusers. Not everybody can just recover from something they’ve been doing for months or even years of continuously doing. If there is a petition for a story to be suspended, then it must be a pretty bad book, In which case After is. After should’ve never been published. The book is going to bomb, if not the movie will. If you're going to read this book, read the original FREE version. (This has all just been my opinion, you have the right to disagree.)
    rianawalenty More than 1 year ago
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    This book is just a cheap version of 50 Shades of Grey 
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    Just a cliche love story, but also a ripoff of 50 Shades of Grey. It romanticizes and glamorizes abusive relationships, which I find sick and disgusting. And most of the positive reviews are by prepubescent teenage girls who have no idea what real literature is and are brainwashed to the idea that abusive relationships are supposed to be desired. Abuse comes in different forms, and the main protagonist is mentally and emotionally abused, yet she keeps running back to him. It's not love, it's lust. The whole relationship isn't based on love at all, it's all lust. I actually feel so sorry for the people who have seen abuse in their lives, and now they're forced to see that become entertainment to people. How sick and disgusting.  This doesn't deserve the recognition at all, it only got popular because Harry Styles is the main character, of course that will draw dozens of little girls. It's really pathetic how much was stolen from 50 Shades of Grey, almost to the point there was no plot and that was her only choice, was to steal from 50 Shades of Grey. This 'book' portrays abusive relationships unrealistically, and makes them seem desirable, when they are nowhere near supposed to be desired. The audience for this 'book' ranges from 12-18. Yes, 12 year olds are reading about glamorized abusive relationships and sex. What a great message to send! But this was so awfully written that I couldn't get through half of it, until I shut it and returned it within the same day. I don't understand how a 'book' like this can be praised when it's so horribly written and sends such a horrible message to these young girls. And most of the positive reviews are from these prepubescent girls who have no concept of what real literature is. This is far from literature, I wouldn't even call After a piece of literature, it's that awful. It insults the authors with actual talent, like J.K Rowling. Anna Todd can't write at all, and that's the truth. Anyway, the positive comments sicken me, as it's obvious they are all by teenage girls who have their heads so far up Todd's butt they can't see the awful message After is sending to them. The negative reviews are actually telling the truth, don't listen to the positive reviews. The negative reviews are by people with actual sane minds, and how awful it is so promote a topic like abuse through a story and make it seem entertaining. Save your money and brain, don't read this atrocity of so-called 'literature'. 
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    If you like this book, read the original! 
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    Words can't describe how horrible this book is. It glorifies abusive relationships, rape and sexism. These poor young girls are brainwashed. They think it's okay to stay with your abuser. Such a bad message to send to readers.
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    Just a teeny-bopper 50 Shades of Grey, but much worse. This doesn't deserve the recognition it is getting, and I'm appalled at the adults on here who claim to be 'avid readers' but give this a good review. You cannot simply be an avid reader and call this good writing, when its just glamorized abusive relationships, and it's sick that the audience, which is ranging from 13-18 find these types of relationships desirable and romantic now, when they are not. It's constant abuse, emotional and mental. When reading it I wanted to burn it, from how horribly it still was written. The editor clearly gave up in many areas, and I can see why. Anna's writing is beyond awful, and it only managed to get so many hits because it's a Harry Styles fanfiction on this website called Wattpad. I can't believe such awful writing like this is praised, an English teacher would have a heart attack, if they read this atrocity. So much was stolen from 50 Shades of Grey, that that's where most of the plot was salvaged from. How original. Save your eyes and time, don't buy. I beg of you. Read it for free on Wattpad.
    dsneylou More than 1 year ago
    I don't see why people continuously give this book 5 stars when it isn't deserving of such a title, but I suppose it's up to me to give unsuspecting people a real glimpse into this fanfiction-turned-novel. Okay, first of all, Anna Todd is simply not that great of a writer. If you look online at her Wattpad (where you can find After for FREE) and actually read it, you'll see that it's poorly executed. Her grammar is terrible, sentence structure/wording awkward, and it's a bit painful to read. That's not the real issue, though. The main problem people have with this book is that it glorifies abusive relationships and rape. In the book, Hardin controls Tessa and dictates just about every aspect of her life, ranging from calling up a possible landlord to ruin her chances of getting an apartment away from him and forbidding her from seeing friends. Fans of Anna Todd argue that this is not abuse, but it is indeed EMOTIONAL/MENTAL abuse. He doesn't hit her, but that doesn't mean it isn't emotional. And although I haven't read After entirely (couldn't even get past the first chapter; it was THAT bad), I've also heard that there are rape scenes as well? Or at least one where either Hardin or Tessa is drunk and coerced into sex? Yeah, that's rape, people, no matter how you spin it. What kind of message is this sending to young girls who will go on to believe abusive, controlling men make the perfect boyfriends? Or that someone can force them into sex because they were drunk? How is any of this okay? So, you know, I refuse to support this "book" (if you can call it that) or Anna Todd, and 19,000 people (and counting) have signed a petition that shows there are countless others who agree. If you're considering buying the book, please don't. It'll only encourage Anna Todd to continue developing her fics into books or even push her to continue on with the movie, both of which are very, very bad. Since she fails to realize that she has written a toxic series and does not apologize about anything in the least bit, don't support her. Do not support a book that glorifies abusive relationships and rape. Do not let her win. (And if you're really interested in reading it, you can find it for free on her Wattpad or by a simple google search of "After fancition.")
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    As a prepubescent fan of One Direction, I started reading this story when I was 12 or so. I read all three of the books, and loved them immensely. I found aspects of the relationship 'hot' and I would continually gush to my friends about how I wanted a relationship like Tessa and Harry's (or Hardin, as he seems to be renamed as). And then I got a reality check. This book romanticizes emotional abuse in every way possible. Tessa gave up her entire life for Hardin, and he threw her in the dust multiple times. He was controlling, overprotective, rude, and did many things that are simply unforgivable. And yet Tessa goes back to him consistently, forgives him for every damn thing he does, and everyone seems to be okay with it. Newsflash, it's not okay. Let me give you some perspective: imagine that you are an innocent college freshman. You meet a rude, cocky, tattooed boy who you can't seem to get out of your head. You eventually develop a romantic relationship. He controls who you are friends with, he walks all over you, he disrespects you in every way possible. He makes you feel incompetent and forces you to move into an apartment with him. You break up with your boyfriend, who you've been dating for years upon years, for this guy you've known for less than 3 months. You completely throw away your relationship with your mother, who has raised you and who is the only relative you know of, all because she doesn't like your new boyfriend. And then you find out that you threw your entire life away for something that started out as a bet to this guy. He claims that he loves you and that it wasn't just the bet, and though you stay away for a few weeks, you eventually go back to him. He continues to control your life, even going so far as to make sure you don't get an apartment in Seattle so you won't leave him. He gets crazily jealous whenever you so much as interact with someone of the opposite gender, and forbids you from seeing them or being friends with them. You fight every other chapter, and then have make up sex and leave your problems to deal with later. Except you never actually deal with them, just get drunk and have more sex. Does that sound like a happy, healthy relationship to you? Because it's not. It is abusive and controlling, and not okay in any way, shape or form. And yet this book normalizes it, romanticizes it, makes girls think that it's completely normal and okay, even cute. You say that this book is about real life topics, about loving someone unconditionally. Yes, this book addresses real life topics, but it doesn't deal with them in the proper way. If Tessa had left Hardin and not gone back to him, if they had both gone to therapy and gotten help and overcome being abused and abusing, it might have been okay. Yeah, I realize that Tessa leaves Hardin for a little bit at the end and sort of builds a separate life, but then she goes back to him, when he hasn't really even changed, and they decide to get married. That's not a happy ever after, that is "hey I'm making progress! Good for me! Let's tear it all down and start at the beginning again and be bound to life to someone who has emotionally abused me and will continue to do so because I can't gather up the courage to leave him!" That is going to embed itself in the minds of young girls, and they're going to think it's okay, when it's not. I had my reality check, I realized that this book is ridiculous and romanticizing topics that should not be romanticized. But some girls won't. They will go on thinking this type of relationship is okay. And that is the issue I have with this book, and that is why this book should not be put into the public eye.
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    This book promotes abuse and rape and is absolutely disgusting. The fact that something like this is allowed to be published is beyond me. The writing is horrible as well. I could give my laptop to a monkey and it could write something better than this crap. She may have changed Harry Style's name on the published version of the book, but anyone interested in this book could easily look it up on watt pad and find who its about. It makes Harry look like something he's not and out of all the fan fictions in this fandom that could've been published, this one is the worst. 
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    Why do they promote this book to young girls? Glorifies abusive relationships. I'm disgusted.
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    Such a cliché story. Bad boy meets good girl and they fall in love. It's so predictable. It also romanticizes abusive relationships.
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    I am sickened that abuse has been romanticized in our society. It’s disgusting, and the fact that 800+ million people, many of whom are probably between 12 and 18, have read After and been exposed to this twisted form of a relationship that tries to masquerade as love is cause for concern. 1 in 4 women will experience domestic abuse in their lifetime. Most domestic abuse cases are never reported. Out of those 800 million people, it is very, very likely that a fair amount of them have experienced the very horrible circumstances that are being romanticized, fictionalized, and trivialized. One of the posts I read that supported After emphasized that it was fiction. Yes, you are quite correct, it is fiction. However, millions of people will read that fiction. And when they get into a relationship, that fiction will be sitting in the back of their head. And then one day, it won’t be fiction anymore. For 1 in 4 women, it’s already reality.
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    Wish I could give it a 0. This book is literally promoting abusive relationships, rape, sexism, and the fact that abuse is okay as long as it's out of love. Awful. Just awful. Would never let any of my children or family members read it. Should be taken off the shelves.
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    The one question this book makes me wonder: what has the world come to? 
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    Alright. Here's the thing about After. I have never seen a "book" with such a horrible message. There is so much abuse in this story it's insane. The main character (Hardin) had a horrible childhood, and he uses this excuse whenever he messes something up. He verbally abuses the main girl (Tessa) too many times to count, and he is rude to everyone around him.Yet for some reason, she always goes back. He literally ruins her, and this is supposed to be the ideal relationship??? I don't want readers thinking that this is how you're supposed to be treated by a guy. The "relationship" in this story is so incredibly unhealthy, and both of them needed serious help. But all of that is okay, because it's true love, right? Wrong. It is never, EVER acceptable to treat your partner with  as much disrespect as I've seen in this book. Some things that Hardin does to her are completely unforgivable, and disgusting, but she always crawls back to him for some reason. I know the fans of this don't want to admit this,but there is rape in this story. And it's being romanticized and that is not okay. You shouldn't want to be with someone like that. This unhealthy relationship is the last thing you girls should strive for. Please respect yourselves. The two main characters use sex to solve their problems, and that IS NOT OKAY. Also, Hardin is extremely obsessive and won't even let another guy breathe the same air as Tessa which is over the top. I feel awful for people who think that this is a relationship to strive for, because in the real world, it will lead to nothing but disaster. This book is disgusting. It really is. I respect Anna for wanting to write, but I think she could have thought of something much more appropriate. I don't recommend reading this. 
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    I wish I could give this negative stars. I refuse to support anything that glorifies abuse. Tessa and Harr- I mean Hardin do not have a healthy relationship. He CLEARLY abuses her. If you don't see it you must be blind. It's an unfortunate 50 Shades rip off, and I thought 50 Shades couldn't get any worse. And why would I pay for something I could (but would n e v e r) read for free on Wattpad?
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    So poorly written. I can't fathom how such atrocity like this was published. I'm so appalled at how the positive reviews say it doesn't glamorize abuse, when it clearly does. You are an ignorant person to say it doesn't. People who were in abusive relationships themselves saw how much it glamorizes abuse. And they are NOT clueless. People die from abusive relationships each year, and now there's so many children who think these relationships are something to desire and are normal. They are not normal! It doesn't matter if it's fiction, fiction can affect people on how they think. This 'book' has massively affected people, and that's awful. I can't stand seeing little girls saying they want a Hessa relationship one day. And Anna Todd does absolutely nothing about it. She doesn't care what she has done to the youth. It sickens me how such atrocity like this is praised. Just because a lot of people like it doesn't mean it's good. It's far from it. I wouldn't even call Ms. Todd talented, as she can't even start a new paragraph when someone new speaks,  or proper grammar and punctuation. The good reviews actually sicken me. Don't call yourself an avid reader if you praise this, you obviously don't read many books because this is a huge insult to authors with actual talent and deserve to be noticed. This doesn't deserve an ounce of fame. I also want to mention how it's a rip-off of Fifty Shades of Grey, but a teeny-bopper version. Please save yourself, save your money  The reviews on Goodreads say enough about it. I suggest you check them out.  
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    When will the romanticizing of domestic abuse come to an end? The way this 'book' glamorizes domestic abuse is appalling. I can't believe people have the audacity to defend it and say it doesn't romanticize abuse when it does. May I also mention how horribly it's written. This 'book' doesn't deserve the attention it's getting, and the only people praising it are teenagers with absolutely not idea in what proper literature is. If this is what literature is turning out to be I don't want to live on this planet anymore. DO NOT trust the positive reviews. They do not know what they are talking about. I praise the negative reviews because it gives me hope that this world isn't full of absolute morons who praise any form of literature with a cliche 'plot' and that features a member of a boy band. May I also mention how much is STOLEN from Fifty Shades of Grey. Yes, it's a teeny-bopper Fifty Shades of Grey. We must protect the youth, don't buy this crap. It doesn't deserve an ounce of fame. I'm appalled B&N would sell such awfully written crap like this.  
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    Fanfiction should stay fanfiction.  This story romanticises  rape and abuse. It shouldn't have been written in the first place.