Bullard is seen by his friends as the person they can rely on, as they seek stability in their relationships, not realizing that he has challenges of his own. In ?Beckoning BULLARD: The Search for Affection?, the personal experiences and relationships of Bullard?s friends and his sister surrounds ?Affection?. Bullard guides, and in some instances, advises them through their deepest and darkest time, with the hope of directing them to self realization. He is seen as a ?beacon of light? where his associates would beckon him as they try to gain self-esteem and garner personal development from his assistance. Bullard, after interacting with them, felt that their stories need to be told. This, however, was long before he told his best friend about his deep dark secret, surrounding the molestation that he sustained, when he was just nine years old and his promiscuous encounters thereafter, all of which is documented in the novel, ?F.I.N.N.?. It is also, long before he witnessed the brutality and buggery his parents? sustained by three businessmen. Thereafter, he was traumatized and went on a revengeful rampage to seek justice for their deaths in the novel, ?To Whom It May Concern: The Night Walker?. Bullard is embarking upon a spiritual mission and uses the experiences of these ten associates to assist in finding his own path to righteousness, but who counsels the counselor?