Before I Say Good-Bye

Before I Say Good-Bye

by Mary Higgins Clark

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Overview

A young woman probing into the mysterious circumstances of her husband's death receives a message from a medium claiming to be his channel in Mary Higgins Clark's #1 bestselling thriller, Before I Say Goodbye.

When Nell MacDermott learns that her husband, architect Adam Cauliff, and three of his business associates have died in an explosion of his new cabin cruiser, she is not only devastated but wracked with guilt. The last time she saw Adam, they had a bitter quarrel over her plan to run for the congressional seat long held by her grandfather; she had told him not to come home.

As the investigation into the boat's explosion proceeds, Nell learns that it was not an accident but a bomb. Despite her skepticism, Nell is swayed by her great-aunt Gert, a believer in psychic powers, to see a medium claiming to be Adam's channel.

While trying to unravel the threads of Adam's past and his violent end, Nell consults the medium, who transmits messages to her with instructions from Adam. The story reaches a powerful climax in Nell's final encounter with the medium, in which she learns the truth about the explosion — truth she can't be allowed to live and tell.

Product Details

ISBN-13: 9780671004576
Publisher: Pocket Books
Publication date: 04/03/2001
Edition description: Reissue
Pages: 416
Sales rank: 253,460
Product dimensions: 4.18(w) x 6.75(h) x 1.10(d)

About the Author

The #1 New York Times bestselling author Mary Higgins Clark has written thirty-seven suspense novels, four collections of short stories, a historical novel, a memoir, and two children’s books. With her daughter Carol Higgins Clark, she has coauthored five more suspense novels, and also wrote The Cinderella Murder, All Dressed in White, The Sleeping Beauty Killer, and Every Breath You Take with bestselling author Alafair Burke. More than one hundred million copies of her books are in print in the United States alone. Her books are international bestsellers.

Hometown:

Saddle River, New Jersey and New York, New York

Date of Birth:

December 24, 1929

Place of Birth:

New York, New York

Education:

New York University; B.A., Fordham University, 1979

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Chapter One

Nell set off at a brisk pace on her familiar walk from her apartment on Park Avenue and Seventy-third Street to her grandfather's office on Seventy-second and York. From the peremptory summons she had received, demanding that she be there by three o'clock, she knew that the situation with Bob Gorman must have come to a head. As a result she was not looking forward to the meeting.

Deep in thought, she was oblivious to the admiring glances that occasionally came her way. After all, she and Adam were happily married. Still, she knew that some people found a tall woman, with the slim, strong body of an athlete, short chestnut-colored hair that was now forming into humidity-caused ringlets, midnight-blue eyes, and a generous mouth, attractive. While growing up, and frequently attending public events with her grandfather, Nell's rueful observation was that when the media described her, that was usually the word used — "attractive."

"To me, attractive is like having a guy say, 'She's not much to look at, but what a personality!' It's the kiss of death. Just once I want to be described as 'beautiful' or 'elegant' or 'stunning' or even 'stylish,'" she had complained when she was twenty.

Typically, her grandfather's comment had been, "For God's sake don't be so silly. Be grateful you've got a head on your shoulders and know how to use it."

The trouble was that she knew already what he wanted to discuss with her today, and the way he was going to ask her to use her head was a problem. His plans for her and Adam's objections to them were most decidedly an issue.

At eighty-two, Cornelius MacDermott had lost little of the vigor that for decades had made him one of the nation's most prominent congressmen. Elected at thirty to represent the midtown Manhattan district where he had been raised, he stayed in that spot for fifty years, resisting all arguments to run for the Senate. On his eightieth birthday he had chosen not to run again. "I'm not trying to beat Strom Thurmond's record as the longest-serving guy on the Hill," he had announced.

Retirement for Mac meant opening a consulting office and making sure that New York City and State stayed in his party's political fold. An endorsement from him was a virtual laying on of hands for neophyte campaigners. Years ago he had created his party's most famous election commercial on TV: "What did that other bunch ever do for you?" followed by silence and a succession of bewildered expressions. Recognized everywhere, he could not walk down the street without being showered with affectionate and respectful greetings.

Occasionally he grumbled to Nell about his status as a local celebrity: "Can't set foot outside my door without making sure I'm camera ready."

To which she replied, "You'd have a heart attack if people ignored you, and you know it."

When she reached his office today, Nell waved to the receptionist and walked back to her grandfather's suite. "The mood?" she asked Liz Hanley, his longtime secretary.

Liz, a handsome sixty-year-old, with dark brown hair and a no-nonsense expression, raised her eyes to heaven. "It was a dark and stormy night," she said.

"Oh boy, that bad," Nell said with a sigh. She tapped on the door of the private office as she let herself in. "Top of the day, Congressman."

"You're late, Nell," Cornelius MacDermott barked, as he spun his desk chair around to face her.

par"Not according to my watch. Three on the dot."

"I thought I told you to get here by three."

"I had a column to turn in, and unfortunately my editor shares your sentiments about punctuality. Now, how about showing me the winning smile that melts the voters' hearts?"

"Today I haven't got one. Sit down, Nell." Mac-Dermott indicated the couch situated beneath the corner window that offered panoramic views of the city east and north. He had chosen that office because it gave him a view of his longtime congressional district.

Nell called it his fiefdom.

As she settled on the couch, she looked at him anxiously. There was an unfamiliar weariness in his blue eyes, clouding his usual keenly observant expression. His erect carriage, even when he was seated, always gave the impression that he was taller than his actual height, but today even that seemed diminished. Even Mac's famous shock of white hair appeared thinner. As she watched, he clasped his hands together and shrugged his shoulders as though trying to dislodge an invisible burden. With sinking heart, Nell thought for the first time in her memory that her grandfather looked his age.

He stared past her for a long moment, then got up and moved to a comfortable armchair near the couch.

"Nell, we've got a crisis, and you've got to solve it. After being nominated for a second term, that weasel Bob Gorman has decided not to run. He's been offered a sweetheart deal to head up a new Internet company. He'll serve out his term till the election but says he can't afford to live on a congressman's salary. I pointed out to him that when I helped him get the nomination two years ago, all he talked about at the time was a commitment to serving the people."

She waited. She knew that last week her grandfather had heard the first rumors about Gorman not running for a second term. Obviously the rumors had been confirmed.

"Nell, there's one person — and only one, in my opinion — who could step in and keep that seat in the party." MacDermott frowned. "You should have done it two years ago when I retired and you know it." He paused. "Look, it's in your blood. You wanted to do it from the start, but Adam talked you out of it. Don't let that happen again."

"Mac, please don't start on Adam."

"I'm not starting on anyone, Nell. I'm telling you that I know you, and you're a political animal. I've been grooming you for my job since you were a teenager. I wasn't thrilled when you married Adam Cauliff, but don't forget, I helped him to get his start in New York when I introduced him to Walters and Arsdale, a fine architectural firm and among my most valued supporters."

Mac's lips tightened. "It didn't make me look good when, after less than three years, Adam walked out on them, taking their chief assistant, and opened his own operation. All right, maybe that's good business. But from the outset, Adam knew my plans for you, your plans for yourself. What made him change his mind? You were supposed to run for my seat when I retired, and he knew it. He had no right to talk you out of it then, and he has no right to try to talk you out of it now."

"Mac, I enjoy being a columnist. You may not have noticed, but I get mighty good feedback."

"You write a darn good column. I grant you that. But it's not enough for you and you know it."

"Look, my reluctance now isn't that Adam asked me to give up the idea of running for office."

"No? Then what do you call it?"

"We both want children. You know that. He sug-

gested I wait until after that happens. In ten years I'll only be forty-two. That would be a good age to start running for elective office."

Her grandfather stood impatiently. "Nell, in ten years the parade will have passed you by. Events move too fast to wait. Admit it. You're aching to throw your hat in the ring. Remember what you said when you informed me you were going to call me Mac?"

Nell leaned forward, clasped her hands together and tucked them under her chin. She remembered; it happened when she was a freshman at Georgetown. At his initial protest, she had held her ground. "Look, you always say I'm your best friend, and your friends call you Mac," she had told him. "If I keep calling you Grandpa, I'll always be perceived as a kid. When I'm with you in public I want to be considered your aide-de-camp."

"What's that supposed to mean?" he had responded.

She remembered how she'd held up the dictionary. "Listen to the definition. In brief, an aide-de-camp is 'a subordinate or confidential assistant.' God knows for the present I'm both to you."

"For the present?" he had asked.

"Until you retire and I take over your seat."

"Remember, Nell?" Cornelius MacDermott said, breaking her reverie. "You were a cocky college kid when you said that, but you meant it."

"I remember," she said.

He came and stood right in front of her, leaning forward, his face right in front of hers. "Nell, seize the moment. If you don't, you'll regret it. When Gorman confirms that he isn't running, there'll be a scramble for the nomination. I want the committee to consider candidates behind you from the get-go."

"When is the get-go?" she asked cautiously.

"At the annual dinner, on the 30th. You and Adam will be there. Gorman will be announcing his intention to leave when his term is complete; he'll get teary-eyed and sniffle and say that, while it was a difficult decision for him to make, something has made it much easier. Then he's going to dry his eyes and blow his nose, point to you and bellow that you, Cornelia MacDermott Cauliff, are going to run for the seat previously occupied by your grandfather for nearly fifty years. It will be Cornelia replacing Cornelius. The wave of the third millennium."

Obviously pleased with himself and his vision, Mac-Dermott smiled broadly. "Nell, it'll bring the house down."

With a pang of regret, Nell remembered that two years ago, when Bob Gorman ran for Mac's seat, she had had a wild sense of impatience, a compulsion to be there, a need to see herself in his place. Mac was right. She was a political animal. If she didn't get into the arena now, it could be too late — or at least, too late for a shot at this seat, which was where she wanted to start a political career.

"What's Adam's problem, Nell? He didn't use to pull this stuff on you."

"I know."

"Is anything wrong between you two?"

"No." She managed a dismissive smile to signify the suggestion was absurd.

How long had it been going on? she wondered. At what point had Adam become distracted, even remote? At first her concerned questions, asking him what was wrong, had been brushed off lightly. Now she detected an edge of anger. Only recently she had told him point-blank that if there was a serious problem with their relationship, then she deserved to hear about it. "I mean any kind of problem, Adam. Being in the dark is the worst problem of all," she had said.

"Where is Adam?" her grandfather asked.

"He's in Philadelphia."

"Since when?"

"Yesterday. He's speaking at a seminar for architects and interior designers. He'll be back tomorrow."

"I want him at the dinner on the 30th, standing by your side, applauding your decision. Okay?"

"I don't know how much applauding he'll do," she said, a hint of dejection in her voice.

"When you were married he was gung-ho to be the spouse of a future politician. What happened to change his mind?"

You did, Nell thought. Adam became jealous of the time you demanded from me.

When she and Adam were first married, he'd been enthusiastic over the idea that she would continue to be active as Mac's assistant. But that had changed when her grandfather announced his retirement.

"Nell, we now have a chance for a life that doesn't revolve around the almighty Cornelius MacDermott," Adam had said. "I'm sick of your being at his beck and call. Do you think that will get better if you campaign for his old seat? I have news for you. He won't give you the chance to breathe, unless he's exhaling for you."

The children they'd hoped for hadn't arrived, and they became part of his argument. "You've never known anything except politics," Adam pleaded. "Sit it out, Nell. The Journal wants you to do a regular column. You might like the freedom."

His entreaties had helped her make the decision not to pursue the nomination. Now, as she considered her grandfather's arguments, along with his unique combination of ordering and coaxing her, Nell dispassionately admitted something to herself: commenting on the political scene wasn't enough. She wanted to be in on the action.

Finally she said, "Mac, I'm going to put my cards on the table. Adam is my husband and I love him. You, on the other hand, have never even liked him."

"That isn't true."

"Then let's put it another way. Ever since Adam opened his own firm, you've had the shiv out for him. If I run for this office, it will be like the old days. You and I will be spending a lot more day-to-day time together, and if that's going to work you've got to promise me that you'll treat Adam the way you'd want to be treated if the positions were reversed."

"And if I promise to embrace him to my bosom, then you'll run?"

When she left Cornelius MacDermott's office an hour later, Nell had given her word that she would seek the congressional seat being vacated by Bob Gorman.

Copyright © 2000 by Mary Higgins Clarke

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Guest More than 1 year ago
I enjoyed this book very much. Of course I am a lover of anything that has to do with the supernatural. This book was a definate page turner and you cannot put it down. It keeps you guessing the entire time. I loved this book so much that I was almost to the point of crying when the book ended. I think anyone would enjoy this book.
Guest More than 1 year ago
This was a thoroughly enjoyable book. Like most people said, it does have a lot of characters. I was worried that i might not be able to follow it, so i wrote all the characters names down as they were introduced. It was much easier that way. This book was very easy to read, and each character introduced was vital to the plot. The only thing that kind of through me off was the way that the ending was so predictable. Still a MUST READ!!!! get this book for your own good.
Guest More than 1 year ago
This is my second Mary Higgins Clark book, and I need no more to tell she is from now on one of my favorite authors. No matter how many clues one thinks she is giving, the next page puts some new doubts. Excellent book, excellent writer
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
Great book! Loved the plot and characters! Very good romantic suspense novel! Loved it!
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
Don't want to put down but it's hard to keep up with all the characters
Bookworm1951 More than 1 year ago
Very good but the beginning was filled with so many characters, it got confusing. Keep pushing through as it begins to really clear up about 1/3 of the way through. A page turner that keeps you guessing. Great descriptive writing.
Mistress_Nyte More than 1 year ago
I've read several of MHC's books before, and this one did not disappoint. Twists, turns, and a great ending. The characters were all very well developed, and you even develop a type of sympathy for Adam, even though he's a bit of a bastard. I do recommend this book, and it will keep its place on my bookshelf.
momsteddybear More than 1 year ago
It was so nice to find a Mary Higgins Clark book that I had not already read. I think I have read every one of her books. I even turned my daughter on to her. Very suspenseful, could not turn the pages fast enough at the end.
MamaLouBebe More than 1 year ago
Life can be strange, and shocking. This book keeps you caught up in the plot right to the very end!
VickiDee More than 1 year ago
Not as action packed as her other stories. Still a good read. I love Mary Higgins Clark's books
Guest More than 1 year ago
This action packed thriller grasped my attention as the book was nearing the end. Mary Higgins Clark uses many foreshadowing clues to disguise the ending, which is no sooner revealed, than the moment you shut the book. The novel also reveales to readers that dreams can come true, if only you overcome the many obstacles standing in your path.
Guest More than 1 year ago
I love MHC and have read almost all of her books. Each book that I've read was fast paced and very intersting, but not this one. It was a lot of boring moments in it. If this is the first book read by MHC, don't get discouraged it gets better!
Guest More than 1 year ago
I like the book. It has a lot of details and so much information. I read it to my children and I recommended it to my friends, family and my neighbors. They also said it was great. Then they told all their friends or pals.
drebbles on LibraryThing More than 1 year ago
Nell MacDermott is devastated when her husband, Adam Cauliff, dies in a boat explosion. Her grief is made worse because she had quarreled with Adam the day before he died about her desire to follow in her grandfather's footsteps and run for political office. When people start questioning whether Adam was involved with shady real estate deals, Nell struggles to clear his name before it ruins her political chances. She reluctantly uses the help of a psychic who claims that Adam is speaking to her from another world. But the digger she deeps, Nell finds out much more about Adam than she expected in her search for the truth. This was a disappointing thriller. The characters are bland. Nell's running for political office seems to be simply a plot device, as there's little talk of politics in the novel. Adam appears only briefly before he disappears and is so obnoxious that it's hard to believe Nell would marry him. Dan Minor, a doctor looking for his long lost mother, is the most interesting character in the novel and I would have enjoyed the book more if it had been about him and not Nell. This book could have used a good editor. Parts of the plot make no sense. Nell has show signs of psychic ability, including seeing her dead parents and auras around people, yet when her aunt pressures her to go see a psychic, Nell says she doesn't believe in psychic ability! Early on Lisa Ryan calls Nell; several chapters later Lisa has to call Nell's grandfather because she doesn't have Nell's phone number! And Nell twice has the same conversation with two cops about a safety deposit box key. This was so annoying that it ruined the flow of the book and the story lost all credibility for me. Finally, I figured out the twist early on, but it was never fully explained how it was carried out and several plot threads were left hanging. For devoted Mary Higgins Clark fans only.
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