I buried my twin sister six months after she found out she had cancer. Her funeral was three months ago. Today is our birthday and it started with delivery of letters from her.
It seems she didn’t trust me to move on after her death. She knows me too well. But how can I go on when my other half is just...gone? That’s not something I can recover from with a snap of my fingers. But I also can’t ignore her instructions even though I’d be perfectly content to cuddle up with my buddy, Johnnie Walker, and call it a year.
She has a list of things for me to do and there are rules attached.
There’s one major problem besides the fact it’s been three months since I left the house. I have to do all these things with her jerk of an ex, Hawk Simmons. He abandoned her shortly after she found out she was sick. If that wasn’t enough to make this a really bad idea, the fact that he makes an appearance in all my nighttime fantasies probably does.
I don’t think I can do this, but I owe it to my sister’s memory to try.
This is a stand-alone male/male contemporary romance novel.
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150 pages packed with great main and secondary characters. Good pace and plot development, very good character development. Was worried at length as i usually prefer longer books, but this story lacked nothing. Highly recommend.
4.5 Dearly Departed Stars ~ Outstanding Story! ✩ ✩ ✩ ✩ FOUR & 1/2 - STAR ✩ REVIEW ✩ ✩ ✩ ✩ > > Judging a Book by it's Cover > Looking Deeper Third-Person Directives from the dearly departed bring two men together to heal, forgive, and learn to live - and love- again. When Ethan's twin sister, Emma, succumbs to cancer only months before their twenty-fifth birthday, it sends Ethan into a downward spiral. As per the terms in her Will, Ethan must work with Emma's ex-boyfriend, Hawk, to complete a series of tasks meant to both push them as individuals and bring them closer together. Too bad Ethan hates Hawk over a misconceived notion. Too bad Hawk is not at liberty to set the record straight. Though the truth may free Hawk, it would cost Ethan everything. They'll just have to find another way to work this all out. Though this author has a few dozen works under her pen, this is the first I've read by her and was *not* disappointed. I loved the premise of the story. The execution of the plot was engrossing, dimensional, and dynamic. Ethan and Hawk are complex characters and their struggles were tangible throughout the story. The secondary characters helped to add depth in areas but did not try to take over the plot. Dialogue and interaction were believable and natural to the situations. With characters like these, it's only safe to assume that many of the conflicts that arose were internal and emotional struggles that the individual would have to work through. And, for the most part, it seemed they both did well with a little guidance from friends. Predictability was low. The conclusion is solid and satisfying with an implied HEA. I really enjoyed this story and the author's writing style. I would happily and readily recommend it to other readers of the M/M genre. . Rating: [R] ~ Score: 4.475 ~ Stars: 4.5, if I could. Warning: Possible triggers (mentions, but no graphic details)... death, cancer, BDSM, attempted rape, virgin rape, cheating (past, not the lead couple), attempted suicide ========================== ⭐ ⭐ **** Disclosure of Material: I received a copy of this book from IndiGo Marketing and the Author/Publisher with the hope that I would voluntarily leave unbiased and unsolicited feedback. I was not asked, encouraged, or required to leave a review - nor was I compensated in any way. I am posting this in accordance with the Federal Trade Commission's 16 CFR, Part 255: "Guides Concerning the Use of Endorsements and Testimonials in Advertising". ***** ⭐ ⭐
Beware! The review ahead may just sound like a commercial for Believe in the Wish or for Christi Snow or for both. And I don't care. Let's start with Christi. She is an author that definitely writes from her heart. She is an avid reader (one of the two or three blogs I watch religiously), and writes her characters with heart. AND, she doesn't write the same character, just in a slightly different situation. She writes complex characters, that you have to invest time, and emotions into figuring out their motivations, their wants and needs, and where they will be going next. I love the depth of her writing, and I soak it up every single time one of her books hits my e-reader. (Example, she sent me this arc...I forced myself to finish what I was reading, then dropped everything to read this next). Read anything and everything from Christi and you will have a happy ending, and enjoy yourself along the way. Now, the book. I read the blurb, and knew immediately that my heart was going to be ripped out. How could you not? And right from the first paragraph you see what a mess Ethan's life has become since Emma died. They were everything to each other, and when she died, well Ethan felt he should have died instead. Watching his struggle, even in the first chapter, was difficult. He had taken grief to a level that is difficult to fathom, and the reader couldn't help but bleed along with him. Then to find out that his sister had "betrayed" him and hadn't really left him the house and business without stipulations. That's a pain that can't be measured. As we move through the book, we find, of course, that Emma has a plan, and if Ethan and Hawk go along with her plan, Ethan will get what he had expected at the end. However, first Ethan has to walk through the fires with Hawk, and learn that maybe not everything with Emma was as open as Ethan had thought. The bitterness Ethan experiences with Hawk is what one would expect in that situation, and even when they have fun times, Ethan feels guilty because he has always wanted the man than Emma loved. There was so much guilt tied up in Ethan's feelings, and the author portrays is so beautifully. Guilt is a complicated emotion, and when Ethan enjoys himself with Hawk, he feels guilty. When he realizes that Emma is dead, and he is alive, he feels guilty. All these emotions that are wrapped up in how he feels about the two people he cared about the most, and getting past that isn't easy. It takes time and patience, and maybe some smoldering hot kisses from a sexy man. ;) The rawness of all the emotions Ethan portrays was difficult to read sometimes. You will cry. Grab tissues, and keep them handy. Christi does an amazing job of giving the reader just enough information and emotion to catch you and drag you in, while forcing you to hold on to all that, and wait to see what comes next in Emma's plan. I absolutely loved this book. If a book can make me cry, smile, laugh, and give me a happy ending, it is going to be a thumbs up. But when the author can make me believe that all these emotions are coming from a living, breathing human being, that's a keeper and a re-read. Without question, one of the best reads I've had this year. The book hangover was worth every precious second. (And there was a bonus happy little note in there about Found At the Library, another Christi Snow fave of mine, that made me giddy!) 5 stars