Vardey, a journalist specializing in religious affairs, offers a sort of examination of conscience concerning her relationship to the Church. Her purpose, she says, is to explore the confusion in which many Catholics find themselves, and this she does well, offering her own observations interspersed with those of the people she has interviewed. Hers is a thoughtful, loving challenge that does not shy away from sensitive issues, or the possibility that she may be wrong. Many of her observations will probably offend the more conservative, but her tone is not spiteful. She offers a worthwhile challenge to those who have left the Church but perhaps need to examine their own attitudes.-- Augustine J. Curley, Newark Abbey, N.J.