The unforgettable memoir Black Sheep opens with a middle-aged Ray Studevent returning to Washington, D.C., to his “momma,” Lemell Studevent. She didn’t give birth to him, but she is the woman who raised him. She is the woman who stood by him through thick and thin. She is the woman who saved his life. But now in her late 80s, Lemell is lost to her Alzheimer’s disease. On most days, she has no idea who she is, no recollection of the remarkable life she has lived. Every once in a while, she remembers small fragments of people, places, and things but she doesn’t know how all of these pieces fit together. At night, she is often haunted by nightmares of growing up in the segregated South, of evil men with blue eyes peering through slits in their hooded robes. Frightened by Ray, this stranger, this white man with his piercing blue eyes, she threatens to shoot him. Trying not to get swept up in his own buried, decades-old feelings of abandonment, Ray knows he must work to regain her trust as he thinks back to how far they both have come.
Ray Studevent grew up between two worlds. Born to a white, heroin-addicted mother and black, violently alcoholic father, the odds were stacked against him from day one. When his parents abandoned him at the age of five, after living in a world no child should experience, he was saved from the foster-care system by his father’s uncle Calvin, who offered him stability and a loving home. When Calvin tragically died two years later, it was up to his widow Lemell to raise Ray. But this was no easy task. Lemell grew up in the brutality of segregated Mississippi, emotionally scarred and justifiably resenting white people. Now, she must confront these demons as she raises a mixed-race child—white on the outside, black on the inside—on the eastern side of the Anacostia River, the blackest part of the blackest city in America. This is a time of heightened racial tension, not long after the assassination of Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. and the D.C. race riots. There are guidelines if you are black, different rules if you are white, but only mixed messages for mixed-race children who must fight for acceptance as they struggle to find their identity.
As Dr. My Haley, the widow of Roots author Alex Haley, wrote in the Foreword for Black Sheep, “Ray’s pathway to manhood came not through the people who taught him what to do, but through the woman who taught him how to be, even as she learned for herself how to be.” At a time when we are all reexamining the complex issues of race, identity, disenfranchisement, and belonging, this compelling true story shows us what is possible when we trust our hearts and follow the path of love.
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Table of Contents
Chapter 1 "Get that blue-eyed devil outa here!" 1
Chapter 2 "Listen to the pain coming from the soul of a Southern Black woman." 15
Chapter 3 "I suggest you find your real roots, boy." 47
Chapter 4 "It's like Dark Vader is your Black father and you're the White Luke Skywalker." 55
Chapter 5 "Boy, when are you going to get it through your thick White skull that I ain't your momma?" 87
Chapter 6 "Please help me with my memory because I am forgetting so many things. Amen." 93
Chapter 7 "This is Mississippi alright. Even the state flower is white." 105
Chapter 8 "I am going to raise you as my own." 119
Chapter 9 "I lie here sometimes wondering who I am, where I've been, and where I'm going next." 135
Chapter 10 "You fight racism by getting good grades and proving White people wrong when they say we are just a bunch of dummies." 143
Chapter 11 "That's my son. I don't care what papers I signed and what those White folks downtown have to say" 157
Chapter 12 "I like my coffee like this woman lying right here- Black and strong." 169
Chapter 13 "Once they find out you don't have the right zip code, they will kick your milky white butt right out." 183
Chapter 14 "Raymond, if you don't have God in your life, you're headed for the cemetery or prison or both." 195
Chapter 15 "Which suit do you want me to bury you in?" 211
Chapter 16 "Boy I actually loved you as one of my own as best as I could." 221
Chapter 17 "If you give a man without a college education a million dollars, he will go broke in five years." 233
Chapter 18 "If you are truly my son, and you want me to believe this stuff you been telling me, then take me home and change my diaper!" 243
Chapter 19 "I'm proud of you, Son." 251
"Whenever life presents you the opportunity to show a special level of love, always commit and never walk away."
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