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Blow: A Virtuous Paradox Novel
     

Blow: A Virtuous Paradox Novel

3.9 24
by Heidi McLaughlin
 
Meet the complicated rock stars behind the sexiest band in America! In the start of an emotionally charged series, an insatiable heartthrob gets blinded by the spotlight—and learns to fight for love.

Blow will absolutely blow you away. Scorching-hot chemistry woven into a very poignant story of addiction.”—Sawyer

Overview

Meet the complicated rock stars behind the sexiest band in America! In the start of an emotionally charged series, an insatiable heartthrob gets blinded by the spotlight—and learns to fight for love.

Blow will absolutely blow you away. Scorching-hot chemistry woven into a very poignant story of addiction.”—Sawyer Bennett

Bodhi McKnight has always had everything handed to him on a silver platter: fame, success, money, women. The raven-haired, blue-eyed hottie’s parents are Hollywood A-listers, and when he’s asked to join the all-male band Virtuous Paradox, his star shoots even higher. But so do expectations, leading Bodhi down a destructive path of addiction—until a drop-dead gorgeous guardian angel shows him her sizzling brand of tough love.

When Bodhi ends up in rehab, he doesn’t expect to meet someone as cool and down-to-earth as Kimberly Gordon. Unfazed by his rock-star persona, Kim would rather go horseback riding than fangirl over Bodhi, which is an unfamiliar—and refreshing—feeling. Kim’s the type of person he’s been looking for his entire life: someone who cares about him, not his career or his famous parents. When Bodhi falls, it’s fast and hard. He just hopes that he’s strong enough to protect their love from all the pressures and temptations of the outside world.

Praise for Blow

“Heidi McLaughlin never disappoints. Blow is a sexy, forbidden love story about the dark side of fame, addiction, and finding the light at the end of the tunnel. I couldn’t put it down.”—Nicole Jacquelyn, author of Unbreak My Heart

“Heidi McLaughlin’s Blow is a beautifully romantic story of redemption and triumph—fame at its darkest, but humanity at its brightest.”—Sarah Robinson, author of the Kavanagh Legends series

Blow will absolutely blow you away. Scorching-hot chemistry woven into a very poignant story of addiction.”New York Times bestselling author Sawyer Bennett

“Hot, sexy, and completely addicting. Blow has definitely turned into one of my all-time favorite reads!”New York Times bestselling author, L. P. Dover 

Blow will be your newest addiction! Real and raw, Heidi McLaughlin delivers another emotional hit!”—Stacey Kennedy, USA Today bestselling author of the Dirty Little Secrets series

“I was in no way prepared for how much I was going to enjoy and be impacted by this story. I found myself searching for extra minutes in my day to sneak in reading, even if only to absorb a few pages.”—Renee Dyer, author of Waking Up

“I found I couldn’t put this new series by Heidi [McLaughlin] down. I give it five stars. I can’t wait for the next in this heart-shattering new series.”—Books & Boys Book Blog

“The connection between the two characters is almost immediate and their chemistry is explosive. Several scenes had me cussing at my kindle, and several had me crying. A very good read!”—FMR Book Grind

“Emotionally, I was on pins and needles though now that I’ve finished the book I can really appreciate the roller coaster. I feel like I’ve been hazed and now have the right to the rest of the band members’ stories and their happily ever afters!”—Kira’s NetGalley Book Blog

“This story fits my five-star criteria. . . . I highly recommend this story.”—TDC Book Reviews

Includes an excerpt from another Loveswept title.

Product Details

ISBN-13:
9780425285237
Publisher:
Random House Publishing Group
Publication date:
11/08/2016
Series:
Virtuous Paradox , #1
Sold by:
Random House
Format:
NOOK Book
Pages:
224
Sales rank:
21,559
File size:
1 MB

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Meet the Author

Heidi McLaughlin is a New York Times and USA Today bestselling author. Originally from the Pacific Northwest, she now lives in picturesque Vermont with her husband and two daughters. Also renting space in their home is hyper Beagle/Jack Russell, Buttercup, and a Highland West/Mini Schnauzer, Jill, and her brother, Racicot. When Heidi isn’t writing, you’ll find her sitting courtside during one of her daughter’s basketball games.

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Blow: A Virtuous Paradox Novel 3.9 out of 5 based on 0 ratings. 24 reviews.
GTIndieCafe More than 1 year ago
This is something new and exciting, and will keep you wanting to turn the page. Bodhi's story and the feel of real life struggles take center stage in this new book from Heidi. The struggles of addiction are brought to a serious light here and the consequences are even harder... Amazing story telling with this book. Deep characters whom you can't help but love. Bodhi and Kimberly's story is one you won't want to miss! Can't wait for more of this band in this series!!
heater_28 More than 1 year ago
**Review copy courtesy of NetGalley and the publisher in exchange for an honest review** This is one of those books I just didn't want to put down. If this is how the Virtuous Paradox series is going to be, we had all better settle in and buckle up because it's going to be a wild ride, but in the end it will definitely be worth it. Bohdi McKnight is in one of the most famous boy bands around and like many in his field, he gets involved with the wrong people and he ends up addicted to cocaine. In an effort to save him from himself, his father and manager stage an intervention that sends Bohdi to Serenity Springs, a rehab ranch where he will get the help he needs. When he arrives, Bohdi meets the team that will help him throughout his stay, one of those people being his one-on-one companion, Kimberly. Bodhi is immediately taken by the young woman, but he knows he is in no shape to be having those kinds of thoughts. Kimberly Gordon has seen it all in this job where she works at her father's rehab ranch. For this job, while she's assigned to help out Bohdi, who is one of the most famous men around, it doesn't phase her. He needs her help and that is what she's going to offer. As she gets to know him, what she doesn't anticipate is the connection, and utter attraction, she feels for the man who is trying to get himself together. She sees him, the real him, which is more than most people have seen his entire life. Will these two people with vastly different backgrounds, and demons, be able to make a relationship work under the most difficult of circumstances? Will Bohdi's previous demons spell the end of what could be a promising future together? Heidi McLaughlin did a great job tackling a very difficult subject. Addiction of any kind is hard and it is not something you're cured of. It can be managed, and this book showed us that along with some of the horrors that go along with the detox process and how difficult it can be on a family as well. I enjoyed this book for a myriad of reasons and I am genuinely looking forward to the next offering in this series!
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
ali_reads More than 1 year ago
This is the first book that I have read by this author. There were parts I liked and other parts that I did not love. Bodhi meets Kimberly while he is rehab for drug addiction. He is the famous boyband Virtuous Paradox. Kimberly is the daughter of the owner of the facility and assigned to help Bodhi while he is there. They start a relationship quickly - maybe too quickly while he is there. We meet the rest of the band and the nasty manager. Based on their relationship and how they help Bodhi I would be curious to read the rest of this series. Curious to read the rest of this series and maybe see how Bodhi and Kimberly are doing. NetGalley ARC
DorisB More than 1 year ago
Bodhi and Kimberly find each other in a very unconventional surrounding…rehab. Bodhi is in an up and coming boy band but is taking a break because his father is forcing him to go to rehab to get clean. Bodhi was on the fast track to losing everything from his family, to his band and even his life if he kept this up much longer. Bodhi’s rich and famous father knows of a man who runs an exclusive rehab facility and is ready and willing to help Bodhi out. Kimberly’s father probably wasn’t figuring that his daughter would be part of Bodhi’s rehab. Some people believe in love at first sight and some are skeptical this is even possible. All I can say is that the way Ms. McLaughlin wrote this I became a believer. Kimberly was there for Bodhi even though she tried to fight her feelings for him because what would a famous rock star want with someone who devoted her life to working at a rehab facility. I did like the journey that the author took me on and it gave me hope that yes, maybe there is such a thing as love at first sight and maybe it is possible that there is that one person who can help you fight the power that addiction can have over you and come out on the other end. I look forward to the next book in this series. This book was provided freely as an ARC from NetGalley for an honest review.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
Another fun story.
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Lisa-Lou More than 1 year ago
Blow by Heidi McLaughlin is the first book in her new Virtuous Paradox series. This book was intense. It wasn't dark - not at all - even though it did touch on the darkness of drug addiction. It was well-paced and quite uplifting. Bodhi has his issues but is self-contained enough to not fight his intervention too hard. When he finally is sober in rehab his thought process over his well-being and recovery is quite simple and clear. The connection between him and Kimberly was visceral. I really felt their bond AND their dilemma. I'm getting too close to spoiler territory at this point but this was a refreshing take on addiction that focused less on the drugs and the issues and way more on the recovery and the life after rehab.
Crystal61 More than 1 year ago
I enjoyed this story. Kimberly works in a rehab where Bodhi shows up to get clean. They break rules as they fall in love. The grittiness of rehab is well written. Kimberly has doubts about Bodhi and his lifestyle, and whether she will truly fit in. There were moments that touched my heart, and I look forward to reading more in this series. I received a copy of this story through Netgalley, and this is my unsolicited review.
jeanniezelos More than 1 year ago
Blow, A Virtuous Paradox Novel,  Heidi McLaughlin Review from Jeannie Zelos book reviews Genre:  Romance,  I loved the sound of this but.. it was a fail :-( for me anyway, I know others will and do love it. That’s life. I  was intrigued by the forbidden romance part and of course I love the rock band genre but...Bodhi is in a band with two others, he doesn’t sing, he doesn’t play an instrument – so what does he do? Did I miss something?  I wasn’t convinced by his incredibly speedy rehab. One moment he’s a total addict, and yet just a few days later he’s rational, well and determined not to relapse. From what I’ve read it just doesn't happen this way and it just didn’t feel right to me. He does have one big issue with a paranoiac episode but that seems to be it....I expected more struggle. Then there’s Kim, daughter of the owner and works there as some kind of ad hoc therapist/companion/girl Friday. I’m not really sure what her role is but to be honest the way she is with Bodhi is just wrong, wrong, wrong. She knows what she’s doing is very bad for his recovery, she knows its wrong to encourage him to lie ( say he’s sick so he can go to medic room and she can stay with him, knows she shouldn’t let him get involved, that its bad for him, but does she seem to care? Nope, she just wants what he’s offering and tells herself its OK. She knows he’s an addict and addicts lie, and yet when the question of condoms come up its ok because he says he’s clean!! Yes, the guy who was doped up and trying to have sex with another addict just days before... That bit made me really angry, as did his belief in her word she was on the pill. In those circumstances its just so wrong to let characters do this, especially when it didn’t really affect the story. Condom use should have been there, even in fiction its irresponsible to send this message that you can take someone's word when you’ve only known them a few days, and one is an addict, likely to have had sex frequently, and with different people because of his profession. Its fiction but I believe that authors should still put safety first for their characters, remind readers that this kind of behaviour could lead to pregnancy at the least and STD’s that can be life threatening at worst. He’s only been there a week or so when they first get together, and I expected him still to be suffering withdrawals, for their romance to progress slowly, from an attraction to tentative looks and touches etc but it doesn’t, within days he’s ( his words, Yak!!) “finger banging” her out in the woods...Yes she really takes her work and his recovery seriously doesn't she? I wasn’t convinced at the romance between the two of them, didn’t even really feel like lust and not love, more like infatuation on her part and convenience on his. Certainly in the early stages it was that way. I just didn't like or respect either of them, and I think that's why this was such a fail for me. If I’d felt more between them, liked them as people more maybe I could get past the other issues, but I didn’t and it all felt like a rehab-lite type story. Addicts just don’t recover that easily and quickly, especially when their being led down roads that aren’t good for them, by someone who really should know better.   Stars: two, sorry, a fail for me. ARC supplied by Netgalley and publisher 
Laura_F More than 1 year ago
This is a tough review to write. The blurb drew me in and I was looking forward to reading it. Bodhi is given a choice to go to rehab or lose his family's support and place in Virtuous Paradox after a month long cocaine bender. Kimberly works at the facility that he's gone to and is assigned to be his "friend" while he's there. I almost quit reading around 10% because of the amazing lack of research that was done into one of the underlying themes of this book, cocaine addiction. The symptoms of withdrawal described are not the symptoms of cocaine withdrawal and the "picture" of this rehab essentially further stigmatized drug treatment. That being said, I powered through hoping it would get better and I did finish. I did not connect to Bodhi or Kim. I didn't find either to be very likable and his addiction was wrapped up too cleanly. I did like the side characters that were introduced and am hopefully that the future books in this series will be better than the first. *This is my voluntary review of an Advanced Reader Copy*
Rhondaz More than 1 year ago
Blow by Heidi McLaughlin.....This book is very well written and a page turner for being a tough subject. Heidi McLaughlin does a great job taking the reader into the life of a person on drugs and the person on the other side helping the recovery. I loved watching the beautiful love story unfold between Bodhi and Kimberly. This was my first book by Heidi McLaughlin and she has won a new reader. I voluntarily reviewed an advance readers copy of this book from publisher via NetGalley.
MichellC More than 1 year ago
I give this book 3.75 stars.... I have loved Heidi's other books but I struggled a little with this one. I enjoyed the plot and the concept of this book and the characters created but I struggled with their actions and some of the things they said and did. It reminded me of teenagers and not educated adults. So I struggled really getting into this book. I didn't hate it but I didn't love it either.
FS_Meurinne More than 1 year ago
This is the first book on the new Virtuous Paradox series by Heidi McLaughlin. Bodhi, is a son of two famous parents, and current singer of the most famous groups, but as sometimes happens he falls for drugs and he is sent to rehab. The story develops a bit fast but it shows you all the struggles a person faces while dealing with this type of problem. Bodhi meets Kimberly, and is settle to help him, but they begin to get closer to each other. Their struggle for being together when they shouldn’t and the battles they have to face while in rehab and family isn’t easy but it is a story that will drag you in and have you in a roller coaster of emotions.
micharch More than 1 year ago
Bodhi and Kimberly meet when he enters rehab for a cocaine addiction. Kimberly's father runs the clinic and she is there to help support patients. They both feel a spark towards each other and it quickly turns into lust. Bodhi acknowledges that he has an addiction and has to come to grips with the fallout. His triggers need to be addressed and Kimberly does go back and forth in her wanting to be with him, and her thinking their relationship is wrong. Bodhi knows what he wants and has no problems going for it. He knows that a girl like Kimberly is going to want to be with a good man and not a drug addict. He begins to make plans to clean up his act and get on the road to recovery. When his time at the clinic comes to an end, Brodhi finds himself in unfamiliar territory - he has to move back in with his parents for a while. He and Kim are 2 hours away from each other and make arrangements to see each other. As usual, life starts to get in the way and both of them start to question the other one's feelings. An unexpected incident causes Kimberly to question Bodhi's sobriety and their relationship and she doesn't handle it well. Both of them are forced to really open up to each other. It was nice to see that this book made both characters grow and reach for what they wanted. Neither one was perfect and owned up to their mistakes. I liked the ending and will definitely read the next book in this series. I received an ARC from NetGalley for an honest review.
PennieM More than 1 year ago
Bodhi McKnight is a rock star who has pretty much taken it all for granted and gotten high to deal with the stress and exhaustion. Kimberly Gordon was assigned as his one-on-one advocate when he was admitted to rehab. We learn a lot about Bodhi's triggers and rehab took more than half of the book. The budding romance started in rehab and upon discharge was escalated as Bodhi went right back to work. I never felt a connection with any of the characters and this made it almost difficult to finish. I did work my way through to the end and was happy with the ending. (Will I read further installments in this series? That is yet to be seen.) **Received a copy of this ARC from the publisher via NetGalley**
APB524 More than 1 year ago
I'm not sure I really have adequate words, but let me just say that if this is how the Virtuous Paradox series is gonna begin, then everyone better buckle up. Bhodi McKnight is full of angst, insecurities and dirty talk; but he's also full of potential. I think this is what draws Kimberly Gordon to Bhodi in part; she sees past all the celebrity crap into the heart of who he is. She surprised me in some ways because initially she is turned off by the way Bhodi has wasted his life, but then meeting him begins to change everything she thought was true. The way she supports him and believes in him was really beautiful. Watching Bhodi come into his own and truly embrace his life and the possibilities with Kim brought lots of feels. This story was honest and raw. I truly believe that Heidi's writing keeps getting better. BLOW felt genuine and the connections between characters not forced but truly organic to me. I believed what I was reading and it was obvious there was lots of research done to make it so real. I love a second chance story and this was truly Bhodi's second chance at so much and I loved it all! Definitely need to add this one to your tbr and get ready for Braydon and Carson too!!
BuckeyeAngel More than 1 year ago
Bodhi was in the band Virtuous paradox. Bodhi was just coming off a month of supposed rest and relaxation . But Bodhi was addicted to cocaine that could hurt his career and he can’t actually remember the last time he wasn’t high especially in the month he had off. Thanks to Aspen Bodhi’s assistant he never had to be straight as she was always there with more coke for him. Tomorrow the band will be back to work the long hours in the recording studio and learning new dance steps. Bodhi let Aspen move in as she had nowhere to go and that was a big mistake.Bodhi's manager pushes open his bedroom door and tells him to get dressed and get in the living room.When he enters the living room he sees his dad and another man there who was Dr. Gordon. Brodhi’s dad talks to him alone and he admits he can’t remember the last time he was sober. Brodhi is to check in to Dr. Gordon’s rehab the next day for thirty days for the night he will stay at his parents house luckily his mother was away and wouldn’t have to see Brodhi like this. Rebel- the band's manager and producer- is giving the band an extra month off while Brodhi is in rehab.Brodhi's father told him he could leave the rehab but if he did leave that he would be cut off and not welcome at his parents home. Brodhi’s dad rides with him to Serenity Springs. Brodhi is introduced to Kim who was to do one on one with him she would be his friend someone he could trust and always be there to talk to no matter time it was. Kim was also the doctor’s daughter. Kim takes Brodhi to his room and then goes back to her office and calls her best friend Daphne - they had been friends since grade school. Kim hates that Brodhi let himself get into coke but she is still attracted to him. I absolutely love this book it has become one of my new favorites. It was a really great read although in the beginning I didn’t think it would be that great then suddenly I didn’t want to put the story down and read it every chance I got until I was done. I felt like I was right there with Brodhi and Kim. The plot was great and I loved the characters. I was even upset when I thought Brodhi relapsed but it all turned out to be awesome. I loved the ins and outs of this story and I highly recommend.
Christine_Miller More than 1 year ago
This was the first book I've ready by Heidi McLaughlin and I enjoyed it. This is a story about addiction and fighting that addiction with everything you have in you to live the life you see yourself living. I enjoyed Bodhi and Kimberly's story. I don't personally know any addicts and I would imagine the struggle is something awful. I loved Bodhi's fight and his love for Kimberly got him through his darkest hours. I did feel that Bodhi and Kimberly were from such different worlds with so much that could tear them apart and I felt like there could have been a lot more to work through there. Also the lifestyle that Bodhi lives, I thought we would have seen more temptation to relapse. That was the only part of the story that I would like to have seen a little bit more from. The love that Kim and Bodhi shared was a definite once in a lifetime you know you've found it love and was strong enough to keep them together. I really enjoyed the book.
Sandy-thereadingcafe More than 1 year ago
: 3.5 stars--BLOW is the first installment in Heidi McLaughlin’s contemporary, adult VIRTUOUS PARADOX erotic, rocker romance series focusing on the boy band Virtuous Paradox. This is front man Bodhi McKnight, and psychologist/rehab counselor Kimberly Gordon’s story line. Told from dual first person perspectives (Bodhi and Kimberly) BLOW is a story of forbidden romance. Bodhi McKnight is an addict and has thirty days to clean up or he is out of the band. Rehab finds our hero withdrawn and unable to trust including the woman who calls to his heart-psychologist and counselor Kimberly Gordon. What ensues is the building relationship between Bodhi and Kimberly, and the reality of life as Bodhi returns to world of rock and roll. BLOW is a story of insta lust/love ; a forbidden relationship between patient and mentor. Bodhi is struggling to get clean but finds himself attracted to the woman assigned to his care. Kimberly is a woman who refuses to let Bodhi’s fame and stardom enter into the equation but is also a woman who has fallen for the man who is battling more than one outside demon. The $ex scenes are erotic and graphic. Bodhi likes to talk dirty both in and out of the bedroom. Although the attraction between the couple is immediate I did not feel the connection-the palpable energy was missing, and the lack of build up made for a less than explosive coupling. We are introduced to the other members of the band including their manager Rebel Van Zandt, Brayden Copeland, and Carson Monroe, as well as Brayden’s best friend Natalie and her young daughter Maggie. Kimberly’s father Dr. Gordon heads the San Diego treatment center where Brodhi meets the love of his life; Dr. Rosenberg who handles Brodhi’s group, and one on one sessions; and Bodhi’s repentant and equally famous parents Hollywood director Roger McKnight and actress Gabriela Laura. Aspen Lawrence is Brodhi’s ‘friend’ and the woman who sets out to destroy our hero’s life. The world building focuses on Brodhi’s treatment for addiction-the withdrawal, the hallucinations, and the steps in his recovery. We are also witness to the strained friendships between the members of the band including a manager who pushes the boys to be perfect in an imperfect world. BLOW is a story about addiction and recovery; love and misunderstanding; friendship and family. The over the top insta-lust/love premise is a little disconcerting considering our hero is a train wreck in his personal and professional life, and the actions of Kimberly Gordon are questionable under the circumstance-but BLOW is a fictional story line with fictional characters meant to entertain. The premise is dramatic; the characters are passionate and broken but immature; the romance and Bodhi’s need for Kimberly Gordon is akin to switching from one addiction to another.
ABREADS More than 1 year ago
I loved Bodhi and Kimberly's story!! Bodhi had some big obstacles to overcome with his addiction and you could feel him grow and get stronger as the the story went on. Kim was a strong supportive female character she tried to stay away and just be there for him and support him through his time in rehab, but Bodhi broke down those walls Kim had built you could feel their attraction for each other and get to watch as a relationship grows!! With Bodhi set to leave rehab will him and Kimberly's new relationship last or will the triggers and hectic band life be too much and pull him back in?? Blow was so well written Heidi truly knows how to draw all kinds of emotions right out of you! I can't wait for more of this series!
Bette313 More than 1 year ago
Dirty talking, sexy pop star - yes please! Bodhi McKnight finds himself on the receiving end of an intervention. His reliance on cocaine lands him in rehab. He's part of the popular boy band Virtuous Paradox. So when he gets out of control, the band manager and Bodhi's father step in and quietly get him into a discreet rehab facility. That's where he meets Kimberly Gordon. She works as a patient advocate at her father's facility and even though she knows its wrong she gets involved with the charismatic Bodhi. This is the point were I felt like the story fell apart for me. I feel like what could have been a great story didn't quite come together. There was very little about Bodhi's experience in rehab and it just made it all seem so easy which of course it isn't. So the story no longer felt real. This isn't really a bad story but just didn't ring true to me.
AmyBosica More than 1 year ago
2.5 to 3 Stars “Kiss me. Kiss me like you’re never going to see me again. Kiss me like I’m the last woman alive. Kiss me like I’m your salvation.” Overall, I thought this book was an ok read. I really liked the idea of the story and felt like it started off with a bang. From the moment I met Bodhi, I just wanted to know more about him and why his life was spiraling so far out of control. Kimberly was an interesting character to me. I appreciated how patient she was and how good of a friend she became to Bodhi. However, I did have some issues with the story. The biggest ones were the pacing and word usage. Lets tackle the pacing first. For the most part, the pacing of the story was right on track. My issue came into play with Kimberly and Bodhi’s relationship. It didn’t feel very believable and it just progressed way too quickly. I found it very hard to connect with them. I would have liked for them to get to really know one another more. Maybe spend some more time out of recovery, before jumping into a relationship. I would have really liked to see the two of them build their relationship and their connection. Now, please don’t get me wrong, these two had excellent sexual chemistry, but I needed more from them than that. My other big issue was some of the terms used during the sexual moments. I’m not going to go into the specifics, but I will just say that there are some words that are a complete turn off, and sadly, these few were just that for me. So, yeah, overall this book was just an ok read for me. I struggled with some parts of it, and that’s the reasoning behind my 2.5-3 star rating. I don’t know how I really feel about it, so I’m just going to leave it that way…at least for now. Honestly, I think this is going to be just one of those books that you’re going to love or you’re going to hate. For me, like I said, it was just ok.
SweetSexyEscape More than 1 year ago
Sometimes I enjoy reading a book that is a little less "happy" and a little more "raw" these books often invoke more feeling out of me then your typical romance. So, besides this being a book by Heidi McLaughlin, I was very intrigued by the title & the cover. This book takes you through Bhodi's experience with addiction and his road to recovery all the while discovering life-changing love. I found myself feeling his need to get high and understanding his need to please others and the pressure that can make you feel the need to escape. It was amazing to see how the support of his family and the much needed friendship with Kimberly. This book does an amazing job showing the raw side of addiction & the road to recovery all the while allowing us to experience forbidden love and the healing power of that love. I look forward to reading more from this series!