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We grew up with the same parents in the same castle, but in many ways we each had a moat around us. Sometimes when visitors came they would say, "You are such lucky children; it's a fairytale life you live." And I knew they were right, it was a fairytale upbringing. But fairy tales are dark and I had no way of telling either a stranger or a friend what was going on; the abnormal became ordinary.
Liza Campbell was the last child to be born at the impressive and renowned Cawdor Castle, the family seat of the Campbells, as featured in Shakespeare's Macbeth. Liza's father Hugh, the twenty-fifth Thane, inherited dashing good looks, brains, immense wealth, an ancient and revered title, three stately homes, and 100,000 acres of land. A Charmed Life tells the story of Liza's idyllic childhood with her four siblings in Wales in the 1960s, until Hugh inherited Cawdor Castle and moved his family up to the Scottish Highlands. It was at the historical ancestral home that the fairy tale began to resemble a nightmare.
Increasingly overwhelmed by his enormous responsibilities, Hugh tipped into madness fuelled by drink, drugs, and extramarital affairs. Over the years, the castle was transformed into an arena of reckless extravagance and terrifying domestic violence, leading to the abrupt termination of a legacy that had been passed down through the family for six hundred years.
Written with a sharp wit, A Charmed Life is a contemporary fairy tale that tells what it's like to grow up as a maiden in a castle where ancient curses and grisly events from centuries ago live on between its stone walls. Painstakingly honest and thoroughly entertaining, Liza Campbell offers a compelling look at what it is like to grow up with enormous privilege and yet watch the father she idealizes destroy himself, his family, and his heritage.
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| ISBN-13: | 9781250096654 |
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| Publisher: | St. Martin's Publishing Group |
| Publication date: | 03/26/2024 |
| Sold by: | Barnes & Noble |
| Format: | eBook |
| Pages: | 356 |
| File size: | 1 MB |
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A Charmed Life
Growing Up in Macbeth's Castle
By Liza Campbell
St. Martin's Press
Copyright © 2006 Liza CampbellAll rights reserved.
ISBN: 978-1-250-09665-4
CHAPTER 1
We owe respect to the living; the dead we owe only truth.
Voltaire
When the Inverness flight took off from Heathrow, London was experiencing the kind of June evening that encourages girls to stroll the streets in their tiniest finery. An hour later, the plane reached the Grampian Mountains and began its descent towards the southern shore of the Moray Firth. The polish of distant water winked in fierce Morse. Treeless moorland melted into geometric forestry patterns, and where the dense blocks of trees ended, the rolling coastal plains of wheat and pasture began. Solstice had only just passed, and this far north the summer dusk lingers until well after ten o'clock.
On this particular evening, the plane took a slight, unannounced diversion. Fifteen miles to the east of Inverness, Cawdor stands out like a grey, stone fist. The plane banked over the battlements, dipped its wings, and then continued on its final approach to the airport. This silent act of respect was for my father, Hugh John Vaughan Cawdor: his body lay in the hold. As a family home, Cawdor Castle has the romantic cachet of being one of the few addresses featured in a Shakespeare play that can also be found on an AA road map.
The plan was for the undertakers to take my father's coffin from the airport to the house and leave it overnight in the Tree Room at the base of the tower. The walls of the room are bare stone and it is normally empty, aside from a dilapidated old chest and the trunk of an ancient, lifeless tree. This is the remains of a holly tree around which the castle walls were built. It died when the completion of the vaulted ceiling finally deprived it of sunlight. Holly trees, like rowans, are pagan symbols in Scotland and were planted to ward off witches. Many houses will have one planted in their gardens. Perhaps burying the tree within the house was just taking superstition to its logical conclusion.
The explanation as to why there should be a small tree preserved in the belly of Cawdor dates back to 1310, when William, the 2nd Thane of Cawdor, received a royal charter from Robert the Bruce to build a bigger fortification than his current castle, which guarded a boggy ford. Thane William's first task was to study the surrounding district and find a location of improved strength, but in an unorthodox and seldom imitated move, he left this decision up to a donkey. William had had a vivid dream in which he was visited by a host of angels. They told him that he should place all his worldly goods in a chest and strap it to the back of a donkey; he must then allow it to wander freely all day and mark where it chose to rest for the night. If he built the castle on that spot, they said, it would prosper for ever. And who was he to doubt the word of angels? He followed their instructions. The donkey had been born without a gift for martial strategy, however, so the site it chose was unremarkable. The holly tree is where it lay down. I am conscious as I retell this slightly batty legend that I do so as fact. When my teacher spoke about family trees, I didn't realize it was only a figure of speech. I assumed there were trees in the cellars of people's houses everywhere.
To a child, that crooked trunk in a bare dungeon looked like irrefutable proof of the story's truth, just as the castle walls placed us at the centre of Shakespeare's Macbeth. In 'the Scottish play', as it is superstitiously referred to by thesps, when King Duncan rewards his loyal kinsman Macbeth with the title of Thane of Cawdor, it sets Macbeth on a path of treachery. For those dreaming in English classes, before he hears of his new honour, three witches accost him as he walks across the Blasted Heath and greet him as Thane of Glamis, Thane of Cawdor and King of Scotland, although only the first title is rightfully his. Then messengers arrive with word that King Duncan has given Macbeth the second title of the hags' prediction, and he concludes that their words chart the course of his future. At home, his wife, a red-haired beauty with an icy ambition, whips on Macbeth's transformation from hero to monster. She welcomes Duncan to Cawdor, and incites her husband to murder as their guest sleeps. The couple's ruthlessness takes its toll and together they drift into the arena of the mentally unwell. With a mounting death toll, Macbeth is troubled by visions of ghosts, and Lady Macbeth develops a standard example of obsessive-compulsive disorder, until the tragedy reaches its climax at the final battle.
The house we lived in wasn't built until three hundred years after King Duncan's death but Shakespeare hadn't let facts get in the way of a good story, and furthermore, Duncan had not been killed in his sleep at all. The historically correct version of events was that Macbeth had been born with an equal claim to the Scottish throne. He raised an army against Duncan, who was killed in battle when they clashed at the nearby town of Forres. Macbeth took the throne using a perfectly legitimate method of the time; a quarter of a century later William the Conqueror took the English crown in much the same way when he killed King Harold at Hastings. Even more surprisingly, given the lasting slur of the play, Macbeth was a popular king. He made a pilgrimage to Rome that lasted, literally, for years, without being overthrown in his absence. When he died, in the year before the Battle of Hastings, he was buried on the holy island of Iona alongside previous kings – a privilege denied usurpers. My family were always quick to point out the error of Shakespeare's ways, yet saw nothing odd in donkeys and angels and claiming descent from the stubbornly fictional swan knight Lohengrin.
I felt proud to come from such an ancient, myth-wreathed place, but mostly I took all these imaginary and historical details for granted. Visitors showed far more interest in the Macbeth connection than we did, and would gaze intently at the Victorian charcoal drawings of the three witches drawn directly onto the plaster walls of the library. There was a life-size sketch of Macbeth with flying hair and a pleasingly demented look in his eyes. Best of all, hidden behind an arras, was a drawing of a dagger dripping with blood.
The knowledge I had of my ancestors stretched back so far into the past that they vanished from sight around the roots of a shrivelled tree. And now, twenty-one generations later, it was my father's turn to join them.
Hugh was the 25th Thane of Cawdor. When my grandparents' first-born child was a girl, the family held its collective breath for two years, when they heaved a primogenital sigh of relief. On the day of my father's birth, a huge bonfire was lit on the highest local point, to salute the safe arrival of the next heir to Cawdor. Estate workers kept the beacon stoked throughout the September night and flames leapt to such a height that they could be seen from the Black Isle, twelve miles to the north, across the wide, dark waters of the Moray Firth. Tonight, sixty years later, the same hill was once more a blazing beacon, closing my father's life in fiery symmetry.
But the wonderful, charismatic, affectionate father I had known had died a decade before this. If I pulled out a rusty drawer of memories I could see that there were many things to celebrate: his wit, his encyclopaedic knowledge (especially of trees), his twinkly kindness, his generosity and his love of us. But he had changed so much. None of these recollections matched the final incarnation. For the last ten years of his life he had stopped being able to express warmth; he could only do anger, and it frightened me – which, naturally, pissed him off.
On paper he really did not have a lot to be pissed off about. Hugh had been born an exceptionally lucky man. The instant he successfully sucked in his first independent breath of air, he became the next in line to an abundance of gifts: two stately homes, four ruined castles of beauty rather than use, a hundred thousand acres in two separate parcels of land. The main estate was in Scotland, with Cawdor at its centre; the second was in Wales, around a house called Stackpole. The land interests included arable and dairy farms, timber and commercially grown flowers. There was shooting on the moorland and fishing on the rivers that flowed through the two estates. Hugh was the heir to beautiful French furniture, Chinese ornaments, Flemish tapestries, Persian carpets, a library full of rare books, family portraits, Italian landscapes, sculptures and a great deal of money invested in shares, cared for by expensive stockbrokers and grandee solicitors. His sole qualification for all this extraordinary privilege was to be born. These possessions were in his care, but not strictly his. He was one link in a custodial chain that had handed a unique legacy down from father to son for the previous six hundred years.
As the plane taxied to a halt the local undertaker – dark-suited, solemn, with black rock-a-billy hair – walked across the tarmac to oversee the transfer of the body from air to land. My sister Laura had been on the flight, and she watched through the plate-glass wall of the arrivals hall as four baggage handlers in day-glo jackets emerged from the hold and struggled awkwardly with the coffin, a large orange rucksack balanced incongruously on the lid. The undertaker swiped the bag off, snapped at the men, then tenderly wiped away the blemish of this impropriety with his handkerchief. The coffin was heaved onto a flatbed trolley. It jiggled jauntily as it trundled behind a forklift truck that took it to the hearse, parked at the furthest corner of the departures lounge.
I only know these things because I was told about them. At the time, I was four thousand miles away with my husband and children, on the Indonesian island of Sumba, walking at toddler pace along a jungle path near a remote camp that was our new home. If the sandflies weren't about, I was planning to look for butterflies where a small stream emerged from the edge of the jungle and had dug a miniature delta across the beach before entering the sea. My children were aged one and two, so I could just about manage them in papooses strapped fore and aft and still have a hand free for the butterfly net. It isn't until you start hunting butterflies that their mazy flight takes on new meaning. What looks like purposeless fluttering is in fact extremely wily defence tactics. Willie, my husband, in his capacity as the camp's marine manager, was out at sea checking the marker buoys on a new dive site.
'Liza! Liza!' The camp manager came running down the path towards me waving a fax. He handed it over, adding quickly, 'I'm so very sorry,' before retreating a few paces. The printout was from my youngest brother, and it read:
After a week in hospital trying to fight off blood poisoning, Pa died peacefully, on June 20th. Emma, Laura, and Angelika were with him. Colin and I were in Norway. We returned a day too late. No signal in the effing fjords. Angelika wants to press ahead with the funeral, which will be at Pluscarden on June 23rd. Hurry back. God bless, love Fred.
I looked at my watch. It was the 23rd. Suddenly it was oppressively cold in the heat. A strange moan floated by that I vaguely recognized as coming from my own throat. The manager backed away looking unsettled. Sobs seemed to collide and crash through my whole body. The children looked at me in horror and instantly joined in with a chorus of terrified wails – grief trapped in reflecting arcs. My father had been dying for a whole week. We were remote, sure, but we had a two-way radio and faxes were forwarded to us via an office in Bali. Why had no messages reached me? I was shattered. I had been living in far corners of the world, but I had never meant to be beyond reach; yet, plainly, that is what I was. It was clear from Fred's fax that even my sister Emma had made it back from her home in Africa. And why was Pa being buried at Pluscarden? The family church stood in the village, a stone's throw from Cawdor; Pluscarden was a monastery twenty-five miles away.
* * *
Pa had only recently been diagnosed with cancer. It had started innocuously enough. It had been only six months since he had taken to his bed with something initially diagnosed as flu. He wrote me a letter in which he complained of being bored, saying that he couldn't find anything written with any pith. The only thing that had caught his eye was the odd fact that Boudicca's grave was thought to be 'underneath platform 8 at King's Cross station'.
When the flu developed into pneumonia, his doctor sent him to a specialist. He rang to tell me about the cancer before Christmas, when Willie and I were still living in England. He said the news had been 'like receiving registered post': once you sign for it, you can't pretend it never came. Despite being very asthmatic, my father had been an ardent smoker throughout his adult life. He had chain-smoked since his early teens, graduating from single Woodbines bummed off the gamekeepers to catering packs of Rothmans. Later, when my stepmother Angelika insisted that he give up, he compromised with cigars which he surreptitiously inhaled. He saw it as a clever cheat, but who he thought was being cheated was a little ambiguous.
When we left for Sumba two months later, it was in my mind, but only in the most abstract of ways, that perhaps I would never see my father again. I adamantly believed that he would survive another year. It would have to be another year because, subconsciously, I could only envisage him dying during the winter. It suited his character. Not now, at the peak of a British summer. It made zero sense, and barely three seasons had passed from detection to death. Of course, we none of us know our sell-by dates and the timing is an inexact science, unless you are at the business end of a lethal weapon. The best we can hope for is that our dying will be comforted and not alone. Missing the instant of death is not unusual, but at least my stepmother Angelika and my two sisters Emma and Laura had been there. Like me, neither of my brothers Colin and Fred had made it to his bedside in time either. Soon after, Emma said she thought it was a good thing, saying, 'Death is women's work. Like birth.' But to miss the burial? I could never, ever have imagined that I would miss my own father's funeral.
I stumbled towards our cabin in a daze. Word had spread. The workmen in the camp stared at me shyly, but no-one said a word. I tried to quieten the children, but they would not be quietened. Nothing in my manner reassured them. My pink swimsuit and sarong seemed suddenly to throb with incongruous cheer. How strange, I thought. Here I am, half a world away from any ceremony, and my first impulse is to find something black to wear. I rifled through our sea-chest. Rats had nibbled a vertical cross-section of our clothes. I hated this co-habitation with the rats. Our bed was two singles pushed together and the rats used the central gulley made by the wooden bed frames as a nocturnal highway. I could hear them scuttling up and down it; once I woke up to find one squatting nonchalantly on my chest. The rats had no fear of us and I worried that they would eventually find a way into the children's cots and bite them. The closest thing to suitable mourning clothes was a dark blue dress that the rats had missed. I put it on and settled down on our doorstep to scan the sea for a sign of Willie's boat returning. Storm and Atticus began to play with a line of ants, and a while later I spotted the boat's hull, a pale smear just below the horizon. I gathered up the children, fed them an early lunch of noodles, bathed them in turn in a bucket to cool them, and stroked their foreheads until they slept.
Up in the shadows of our thatch a new gecko started up its racket. The geckos on Sumba were enormous and made deafening clicks and sounds like the 'he he he' of mirthless laughter. The crashing of surf made it hard to sleep, but the geckos made it harder still, and eventually Willie borrowed an air rifle from the camp manager. The offending gecko was directly over our bed when Willie shot it through the neck. Its head fell back, one suction-padded foot fell away, then another, and then a third; but the last foot kept its grip and the corpse hung there, dripping blood onto our mosquito net, until days later, when Willie finally scrambled up the roof beams and knocked it down. The new gecko took up residency the following evening. So far, life on Sumba had been more slog than adventure. There were no friends for thousands of miles, no-one to laugh with and downsize little ordeals like the geckocide.
(Continues...)
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