Confessions of a She-Fan: The Course of True Love with the New York Yankees

Confessions of a She-Fan: The Course of True Love with the New York Yankees

by Jane Heller


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ISBN-13: 9781623363659
Publisher: Rodale Press, Inc.
Publication date: 09/01/2013
Pages: 274
Sales rank: 422,615
Product dimensions: 6.14(w) x 9.21(h) x 0.62(d)

About the Author

JANE HELLER, after nearly a decade of promoting writers, launched her own career as a successful novelist. Her comic, breezy tales are now entertaining millions of readers around the world. She is the best-selling author of 13 books including An Ex to Grind, Name Dropping, Female Intelligence, Princess Charming, and Lucky Stars. She lives in Santa Barbara, California.

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Week 1 April 2, 2007

The Yankees always start slow. Offense takes a while to come around,especially ours. It's cold out there. The ball doesn't travel very well. You can't really say that to the media because it sounds like an excuse,but it's true. This team will score a ton of runs, and by the end of the year, we'll be right where we need to be.

a member of the 2007 yankees

It is Monday, Opening Day. I am beyond excited that the baseball season is finally here, that the Yankees are finally here. They are the love of my life.

I missed them so much during the long, cold, winter months. Okay, I live in Santa Barbara, California, so the winter months are not that cold. Still, I am always aching for news of them during the off-season, never mind actual video images of their pinstripes, and April can't come soon enough. Opening Day is about Possibility and Hope and Maybe This Year. It is better than Christmas. Better than birthdays. Better than sex. I will get to my husband in a second.

And yet even as I can't wait for the first pitch, I am dreading it, too. My Yankees have been picked by many sportswriters to win it all in 2007, but what if we don't make it past the ALDS like last year? What if we don't get to the postseason? What if we can't even beat the pathetic Devil Rays today? Open your heart to a baseball team and you're liable to get it broken.

Before you say I am working myself up for no good reason, I will give you a good reason: Joe Torre is sending Carl Pavano to the mound as our Opening Day starter. Carl Fucking Pavano. The same guy who has not pitched in 643 days following a string of injuries that included a sore butt. The same guy who cracked up his Porsche and his ribs and neglected to tell anybody in the Yankees organization. The same guy who is so despised by his teammates that they papered his locker with the back covers of the New York tabloids that pictured him with the headline "Crash Test Dummy."

Apparently, there is no one else to send to the mound today. Pettitte and Moose are not lined up to pitch, and Wang is on the DL with a strained hamstring. The rotation is not just thin; it is anorexic.

And to add to my sense of foreboding on this otherwise joyous occasion, I will not be able to watch the game on TV. Major League Baseball made an exclusive deal with DirecTV for the Extra Innings package that broadcasts out-of-market games, and since I have cable, not a satellite dish, I am shut out.

"I should boycott the whole season," I announce to my husband as he is eating his Rice Krispies at 9:45 a.m. He is piling the cereal so high in the bowl that little Krispies are bouncing all over the floor. It is one of the many things he does that drive me nuts.

"We could get a dish," he says. His name is Michael Forester. He has a silvery-gray mustache and beard with wispy head-hair to match, although there is not much head-hair to speak of anymore. I honestly think he gets balder every time I look. He wears glasses and is 6 feet tall and has the craggy appearance of a sailor or a photographer, both of which he is. He also has a soft, whispery voice that reminds everyone of Clint Eastwood's, and he is very quiet and even-tempered--the opposite of me. He once accused me of loving the Yankees more than I love him, and I scoffed at the notion. It is simply that he is the old ball and chain whose laundry I do, and the Yankees are, well, the Yankees.

"We can't get a dish," I remind him. We live way up in the hills. We get not only the big-time Santa Anas but also Sundowner winds that whip through the canyons at night, especially in the spring and summer. A dish would not have a chance up here.

I disappear into my office and follow the game on my computer. Who am I kidding? I could never boycott baseball. Most of my women friends think it is peculiar--freakish, even--that I am such a fan. They cannot fathom how I can get manicures and color my hair but would much rather talk about Johnny Damon than Jimmy Choo. They are still amazed that I declined an invitation to a baby shower because the Yankees were playing the Red Sox and the game was on Fox. "Why can't you just TiVo it?" my friend Renee suggested. There was no way to explain, except to say that I would never attend a baby shower during a Yankees-Red Sox game, not even if the baby in question was my own.

Why baseball and not football or basketball? I love that there is a slow pace; the games are so leisurely, I can read a book or clean the house or check my e-mail and not miss much. I love that there is no time clock; a game lasts as long as it lasts. I love that there is a matchup between a pitcher and batter; it is a contest within a contest. I love that I can seethe players' faces; they are not hidden behind protective equipment. I love that the game is multifaceted; there is hitting and pitching and running and fielding. I love that the athletes are such a mixed bag of characters; they are wily veterans and unripe kids and everything in between. And I love that I can understand it; I don't have to be a math genius to figure out the rules. Come to think of it, there is nothing I don't love about baseball, except that it ends every fall.

Today's game starts at 10:00 a.m. here on the West Coast. I am a writer of novels--13 romantic comedies that have sold to Hollywood and provided me with a healthy income but have yet to be made into movies. I am supposed to be working on a new novel, but instead I procrastinate. I sit in front of my computer and "watch" the game as well as post entries on a Yankees blog. I have a macho screen name on the blog--I am known as Bronx Bad Ass-- because I noticed that women who call themselves things like Yankee Princess are either disparaged or dismissed. Everybody on the blog assumes I am a guy, and I get a kick out of it when they answer my posts with "Listen, dude." Today, we are all trying to outdo each other with our insulting remarks about Pavano, the general consensus being that he has "shit the bed."

Carl only goes 4 1/2 innings, allowing five runs (four earned), but the Yanks beat the Devil Rays 9-5, thanks in part to A-Rod's two-run homer.

I feel much better with our first victory under my belt. I allow myself to relax, to smile, to look forward to the rest of the day. When the Yankees win, I have a sense that all is right with the world. I have never been good at losing, although as a tennis player I was not very good at winning. I had a killer forehand but was not a killer myself. I would make it to the finals of tournaments, only to fold. As a Yankee fan, I never fold.

The second game of the series against Tampa Bay on the 4th is rained out, but the third on the 5th results in a 7-6 loss in what is supposed to be Pettitte's triumphant return to the Bronx. The Yankees commit three errors, three wild pitches, and a passed ball. I tell myself it takes a few days to iron out the kinks, that there is no cause for concern. I am just glad I am able to watch the games on TV now. Major League Baseball and the cable companies made a deal after all. I am not being shut out.

The Yankees open a weekend series against the Orioles, and it turns out that there may be cause for concern. Mussina is a dud in Friday night's loss, and Damon sits out the game with a strained right calf.

Igawa gives up seven runs in his major league debut on Saturday, and Matsui goes on the DL with a strained hamstring. A pattern is emerging already-- every starter will pitch badly and every position player will get injured-- and I don't like it. A-Rod hits two more homers, including a grand slam in the bottom of the ninth that wins the game. I can only hope his homer thing is a pattern, too.

He goes deep again in Sunday's game, but our rookie starter, Darrell Rasner, is so shaky that Pettitte has to pitch in relief, and the Yankees lose the game and the series to the Orioles. The Orioles. Come on.

I know, I know. It is only the end of the first week of the season. But I am slightly uneasy, skittish. I am yelling derogatory things at the TV when Michael and I watch the games together, forcing him to withdraw into his sailing magazines. He used to get a kick out of how "spirited" a fan I was. Now he looks at me with bewilderment.

"I thought you couldn't wait for the season to start," he says as the O's congratulate each other on the field.

"I couldn't," I say, giving Kevin Millar the finger.

"Then why do you seem so miserable?"

I suppose this is where I should just flat-out admit that the quality of my days and nights is significantly influenced by whether the Yankees win or lose. Which is another way of saying that I can't bear it when they lose. Which is another way of saying that I want them to win every game--and not in tight pitchers' duels; I prefer blowouts.

But I didn't always have such nutty expectations. I used to view baseball as a simple, innocent pleasure. My father died of a brain tumor when I was 6, so our house was not a cheery place for a child--except when my two grandpas came over on Sunday afternoons to pick up the paternal slack. They would settle into their chairs in the den, light up their La Primadora cigars, watch Yankee games on our black-and-white Zenith TV, and teach my older sister Susan and me how to keep score with our pencils and pads. Mickey Mantle would hit a home run and everybody would clap, and suddenly the atmosphere was festive instead of funereal. For those few hours I could forget that I was the only kid in first grade whose daddy was absent on Parents' Day. For those few hours I could block out all the grownups' scary, mysterious whispers about hospitals and seizures and cancer. For those few hours I could parrot the funny words I heard on TV--bunt and chin music and safety squeeze--and be pals with Grandpa Lou and Grandpa Max. Who cared that I had absolutely no idea what the words meant? Baseball made me happy. The Yankees made me happy. They were something to hang on to, to believe in.

I know people hate the "Evil Empire" because they always win and always spend money and always grab headlines. To me they are not evil; they are royalty. They continue to provide a kind of No-Sadness Zone where the skies are bluer and the grass is greener--an escape--but the pinstripes also symbolize excellence and achievement and brilliance. When the Yankees win, I have this notion that their brilliance somehow rubs off on me.

al east standings/april 8

TEAM W L PCT GB toronto 3 2 .600 -- boston 3 3 .500 0.5 new york 2 3 .400 1.0 tampa bay 2 3 .400 1.0 baltimore 2 4 .333 1.5

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SHSer68 More than 1 year ago
Congrats are due to Jane Heller for conveying what it's like to be a truly loyal (and slightly nutty) fan of one team -- and from the woman's perspective!! But there is much more in this book. Yes, if you're a big Yankee (or baseball) fan it helps, but it's not a prerequisite. The story takes you on a journey all over the USA and Canada too, where she and her husband meet all manner of fans, press people, security types, and even a ballplayer or two. In the process, she (and the reader) get to learn a lot more about life and themselves. As a lifelong Yankee fan, married to a woman who's a lifelong football fan, this story resonated with me on many levels. You owe it to yourself (and friends) to read it.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
This is one of my favorite books EVER!!! I remeber all the events she writes about. Perfect book for the die hard yankee fan!
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Soapchick More than 1 year ago
...I've been a fan of Ms. Heller's books for years...I think I've read about 8 or 9 of them...but as a huge Yankee fan, when I discovered that 'Confessions of She-Fan' existed, I immediately seeked it out and devoured it in 2 days!...I think it's my new favorite book...really! It made me laugh so many times as well as cry a few. Ms. Heller totally captured the Yankee fan experience. I cannot tell you how many times I laughed out loud and nodded in total agreement with so many things she said. She captures following 'her boys' around, not so much from a female perspective, but as one of a fan...and what it means to have faith. A really good read and highly recommended.
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