Crucial Time

Crucial Time

by Elspeth Benton


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ISBN-13: 9781440175336
Publisher: iUniverse, Incorporated
Publication date: 11/07/2009
Pages: 248
Product dimensions: 5.50(w) x 8.50(h) x 0.56(d)

About the Author

Elspeth Benton has been associated with Early Childhood Education for more than thirty years. She has an MA in Early Childhood Education, taught parenting classes through Pasadena City College, directed a co-op preschool, and two childcare centers in southern California. She lives in Santa Rosa, California, near her children, grandchildren, and great-grandchildren.

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Crucial Time

By Elspeth Benton

iUniverse, Inc.

Copyright © 2009 Elspeth Benton
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ISBN: 978-1-4401-7533-6

Chapter One

Pasadena Child Development Center Tuesday, January 12, 1999

Angie's voice rose at the end of each sentence. "Something different about the way the gate opened in the dark, Hannah, but I couldn't see clearly enough to tell what it was? I think it was something about the sound of the latch? I noticed it, but didn't pay attention, know what I mean? I was planning how I'd use the time before six thirty to set up the room for the kids."

It was six in the morning in the four-year-olds' building at the Pasadena Child Development Center, and the center's director, Hannah Cooper, had arrived early for some quiet work time, but Angie called to her and she'd come right over. Sitting low on a child's chair, she looked up at Angie now, listening deeply, understanding her employee's need to release her agitation. A grandmother in her mid-fifties, Hannah had worked with young children and their families all her adult life. Lines ran from the corners of her mouth like backward quotation marks, etched by sadness as well as laughter. Beneath her short gray curls her alert, deep-set blue eyes looked out at her world.

She took in the sight of Angie leaning against the children's cubbies, her hands bracing her limp body, all her usual vibrancy drained by her need to talk. Though at fifty-five Angie was a fewyears older than Hannah, her hair was still a deep brown, and she wore it long and straggly. It emphasized her customary pallor, and today the pallor verged on green.

"Besides my set-up jobs like taking the kids' chairs off the tables and opening the shades-I open them first thing I come in, even when it's dark?-I had something else in mind. Like I said, I was planning something fresh for the kids-that's why I came in a little before six. That way I have a little more than half an hour."

Hannah opened her mouth to respond, but Angie continued without pause, her chatter streaming like a freeway with no onramps. Her voice was shrill and wobbly, and her words came so fast Hannah had to strain to pick them out.

"Some of the teachers think just a few crayons and some paper's enough? Of course when the kids first arrive, it's true they're usually still sleepy, they don't want much stimulation. They won't eat breakfast at home half the time. Heck, a lot of parents don't eat breakfast either! The kids aren't combed, sometimes they're still in their pj's-not ready for some huge super-activity-like, say, making pretzels from scratch-"

Angie laughed at the very idea, then bowed her head and closed her eyes, and Hannah knew she wished she could stay with this part of the story.

"Go on, Angie," she urged gently.

"Well, I guess I'm getting away from telling you what happened. I was trying to say that just the same old box of crayons and the same old recycled eight-and-a-half-by-eleven paper that parents bring from their offices-well, that's not enough. The kids deserve a little variety, a little imagination, and it helps them ease into their day too. Anyone should be able to see that.

"Not to badmouth anybody, but some of the teachers here just don't seem to get it? Maybe it's because I have kids of my own, I remember what it felt like to coax my own sleepy boys to wake up. Oh God, I wish I could have afforded to send them here instead of leaving them with my grandma ... but that's off the subject." She set her mouth into a resolute line.

Outside, rain was falling, muffling the sound of traffic on Del Monte Boulevard half a block away and creating a protected cave-like feeling around the two women talking in the dim, otherwise empty classroom.

"So I was focusing on something different for this early part of the morning, maybe those large leaves we collected on our walk yesterday?-I could put those out and the kids could draw around them, even cut out the shapes they made." Her voice continued to rise at the end of her sentences, as if pleading for Hannah to understand.

"I tell you Hannah, I get carried away with this kind of stuff! I can't believe you pay me to do it. It's so much fun. Oh, this was going to be so much better than just a few crayons and some old paper-"

"Please Angie," Hannah broke in at last, "tell me about the emergency. I want to help."

Angie took a breath. "Well ... I went out to the play yard to get the leaves from one of the outdoor cupboards where we stored them yesterday. It was a little lighter, the sky overcast?-and a wind came up, maybe the start of a Santa Ana. The kids love windy days, but they always make me feel anxious. My feelings come up, know what I mean?

"Please go on, dear. I want to know."

"I stepped around some puddles to get to the storage cupboard. My sneakers are old, so getting them muddy didn't matter, but I had hoped to keep them as dry as possible and not have to scrape them off before I went back in the building." She looked straight down into her director's eyes. Tears threatened, and her chest rose with a deep inhalation.

"Oh God, Hannah, my foot squished against something soft, and I felt so weird, like I had stepped on a big slug with bumps in it? When I looked down I saw footprints all around and this muddy, bloody, furry shape. Such a shock! It was Henry-you know Henry-one of our pet rabbits here in the four-year-olds' yard? The cage torn open, the door dangled on one hinge. Whoever did it didn't need to yank it like that-you know we don't padlock those cages. Mabel, the other rabbit, miserable in the back of the cage, shivering." Angie snuffled, rummaged in her pocket for a tissue, and blew her nose.

Then she raised her chin, looked straight at Hannah again, and said in a firmer tone, "I don't mind telling you, Hannah, I wanted to run. My whole world spun. In just one second, everything changed."

Hannah rose and held Angie close. "I'm so sorry this happened to you," she murmured in a shaky voice, close to tears herself. She remembered another child care center where almost the same thing had happened-rabbits and guinea pigs killed during the night. What was it about innocent places that seemed to attract violence?

"People can be twisted and do ugly things." She clicked her tongue. Then she released Angie and went outside to inspect the limp body next to the animal cages along the side of the children's play yard.

Angie joined her, handing her a box. They laid Henry in it on his side and adjusted his twisted little body so it appeared straight and relaxed. Pets died of natural causes at the center from time to time, and the staff response had been worked out years earlier. The children would be told that the animal had died and allowed to see and even stroke their pet's body-with supervised hand washing immediately afterward, of course. The regular group meetings of staff and children during this day would touch on Henry's death, and the children would be encouraged to say what they felt. At the end of the day, Hannah or one of the staff would take the body to the local Humane Society for disposal. For the next several days, even weeks, the children would mention Henry and staff would respond sympathetically and creatively.

Now Angie was standing taller. Her eyes shone as she mapped out for Hannah the new Henry-centered curriculum for the day. "Farai was especially fond of Henry," she told Hannah. "I'll need to keep an eye out for him. This will be hard for him. But with Farai ... I think I know something that will help." And she busied herself with pulling out supplies for a discussion and drawing session about Henry, and about all rabbits, later that morning.

"You know, Angie," Hannah said, "I was wondering if you were up to being with the kids this morning, but it looks as if you're together again-and thinking of their needs as usual. You are one strong lady!" She hugged Angie again, feeling her own tears welling. "But watch yourself, my dear. If you feel wobbly, I want you to go home for a hot bath, and we'll get a substitute for your group. Agreed?"

"I'll be okay, Hannah. I know I will."

Hannah herself experienced a renewed surge of strength. This work could break her heart and make her feel such joy and hope for the human race, all in the same moment sometimes.

But Angie had been right earlier. Everything had changed. When a pet rabbit is slain in the night outside its own cage, it's the opposite of sharing, the opposite of taking turns, the opposite of talking things through. Their little world of trust-building had been violated. It felt like a terrible intrusion into what should be the safest of all worlds.

* * *

Eleven hours later, the parents had picked up the last of their children. As Hannah tidied the children's cubbies, she could clearly hear Angie's voice on the phone across the room. Angie gave her a wave and continued talking. "So that's what happened, Mom. Awful, but we got through it. The kids wanted me to get a padlock for Mabel's cage, so after my shift I went and got one. I came back and ...

"Yes it was on my own time, but sometimes you just have to do what you have to do, Ma, you know that. We'll all sleep better tonight with that padlock on Mabel's cage ...

"It'll be hard to go into the yard tomorrow, though, I'll tell you. Kathy said she'd come early so I wouldn't be by myself ... What?

"I know you don't understand why I chose this work, and I know you think I have a problem here, that I'm addicted to children or something ... Aw, Ma, I know it's a worry to you, no retirement benefits and all, but I'll be okay when I reach sixty-five, honest I will. I'll figure it out. I just love my work-it's that simple. That's worth something, now, isn't it? ...

"Ma, you're the best. I always feel better when I talk to you."

Chapter Two

Harare, Zimbabwe August 1998

"Amai, Farai's had an earache all night. I have to be at work. They won't let me take any more sick time now because we're leaving so soon, and Tapiwa has to go alone to the passport office today. Can you-"

Over the static of her cell phone, Ruvimbo heard the anxiety in her daughter Chipo's voice.

"I'm sorry he's hurting, mwanasikana," she responded. "It's these dry August winds-they're so bad for the ears. But I'm free and willing, so just bring him along! Do you have willow extract?"

"No, Amai. I don't have those old recipes you used with me. I've been giving him children's Tylenol every three hours. I'll bring some along. Anyway, I have him scheduled at the clinic at eleven thirty. Can I drop him off with you now and-"

"You want me to take him to a doctor? I know what to do for earache, mwanasikana. Remember when you-"

"I really don't have time to reminisce now, Amai. I want you to take Farai to the clinic at eleven thirty, and get them to look at his ear. They'll give him antibiotic if he needs it."

Ruvimbo would never have spoken to her own mother in such a disrespectful way, even if behind her mother's back she might have criticized her. She sank onto the wooden stool at her table and closed her eyes tight, pulling her lips together. Why had she not been able to raise her daughter to treat her with more formal respect?

Chipo continued, her voice suddenly teary, "Mother, I do appreciate how you've helped me with Farai when I've been in a jam, and I need you to help me today."

"Of course, dear, I'll try to do what you say. See you in a little bit." Ruvimbo tried to keep her voice warm, not tight with the hurt she felt, and turned off the phone. She tugged at the tight waves of her thick gray hair as she stood in thought for a moment.

Catching her reflection in the small cracked mirror by her door, she adjusted her red robe and nodded with satisfaction at the way it glowed in the early morning light against her glossy, dark brown skin. Her daughter might think her mother's time was over, but as Ruvimbo gazed at the sturdy woman in the mirror, she took note of her shapely arms. Her lips curved upward in an approving smile. No, she was not to be put away like an old garment. Not yet. She had much to offer the world. Much to offer her daughter and grandson too.

She looked around her old cottage, a one-room cabin built as a servant shelter by the colonials. Her cell phone, one electric light with plug-in outlet, and indoor plumbing had been added later and were her only modern conveniences. It didn't feel much different to her from the round hut with thatched roof she'd inhabited in the village where she'd grown up.

She put aside her weaving project, a blanket for little Farai, and let her thoughts wander. Best to cover the loom when a four-year-old comes to visit, even a sick one, she knew. Farai was always on the move, curious and active. She smiled, picturing him playing with her pots and pans, digging in her vegetable plot, investigating her weaving yarns, pulling Coomi's tail when he thought his grandmother wasn't looking.

Coomi growled faintly. The old dog stretched slowly to his feet, brown ears and tail stiff and alert.

"Muriwo! Mukaka! Mupenga!"

Her friend Tatenda the peddler ambled down the road in front of her cabin, singing his goods and wares.

"Coomi, it's just Tatenda," she reassured her skinny companion. "You know he comes by here every morning. But I'm glad you growl. You're my reliable warning system, that's what you are. It's all I can do to feed you, but you're worth every mouthful." She and Coomi had been together for a long time-over twelve years. She reached down and scratched gently between his ears, and he returned the love with a melting, brown-eyed gaze.

Since Farai would be coming, Ruvimbo wanted some of Tatenda's fresh goat milk. She always had food growing, even at this colder time of the year: okra, muriwo, onions, groundnuts, chibage. Sometimes she could sell her vegetables at the musica for money, but with Tatenda she bartered as they had in the village where she grew up. She stepped into her sandals, pulled aside the heavy double burlap curtain that served as her door during this chilly season, and hurried out to negotiate with Tatenda.

She noticed that her agile step drew his appreciative gaze, which lingered on her ankles and the motion of her hips as she walked toward him. He brought his slow-moving motorized cart to a halt. Tatenda's father before him had been a peddler, and he felt comfortable in his role of bearing varied foods and other goods, exchanging gossip, and generally being part of the glue holding together this Mbare neighborhood on the southern outskirts of Harare. He was a slight man, stooped, his wispy hair white, his skin sallow. His hawk eyes surveyed all that he passed each day and rarely missed a detail, either obvious or subtle. He and Ruvimbo were old friends of the same generation; they'd lived through more changes than they themselves could begin to describe. They exchanged warm smiles as she held out her empty cup and asked him to fill it with mukaka. "And what might you give me in return?" he asked her, his head cocked to one side and his gaze enveloping her.

She ignored the implied meaning of his question, "I have some fresh turnips I can pull for you if you like."

With a roll of his eyes, he left his cart and accompanied her to her doorway, where he waited while she entered and set down the milk on her table. Then he walked with her to the vegetable plot at the side of her cottage and watched as she knelt and pulled up three medium-sized turnips.

"Will these be enough?" The leaves shone, crisp and green.

"Your vegetables are always tasty, Ruvimbo," he told her. "I hope no one wants to buy them from me today, because they will make me a wonderful soup this evening."

He walked back with her to his cart and asked, "And how is your little rascal?"

"Meaning Coomi or Farai?" she joked.

"Farai, to be sure. That little sprout is growing taller, isn't he? Will he go to school soon?"

"He'll enter primary school in a year or so," she told him, omitting the fact that this would take place in California rather than in Harare. To share the news of Tapiwa's good fortune, even with a trusted friend like Tatenda, would not be wise. Jealousy and suspicion could cause serious trouble for her son-in-law.

"I have heard that Tapiwa may leave us?" he pushed.

"Ah, you would have to ask him about that," she responded, stooping to remove some mud from her sandal. "I expect a visit from Farai this morning. He'll enjoy your good milk, I know."

"Well then, I'll see you tomorrow, Ruvimbo. Just remember, though, if you should need anything, I am your friend and I would want to offer any assistance I could."


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