In January 1983 Burt Folsom read a story in Time about Mitch Rutledge, a man on death row with an IQ of 84 who said he was sorry for what he did. "Forget him," the last line of the story read. But Burt wrote Mitch a letter and discovered a man more interesting and intelligent than the article revealed.
Burt and his wife, Anita, began a friendship with Mitch and saw him become a leader and role model for others in prison, teaching himself to read and write (starting with copying down the spelling of items he knew from TV commercials) and becoming a national spokesman on prison life.
Death on Hold is the amazing story of their friendship, and of grace, reconciliation, and redemption for a man without hope who was given a future.
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Death on Hold
A Prisoner's Desperate Prayer and the Unlikely Family Who Became God's Answer
By Burton Folsom, Anita Folsom
Thomas NelsonCopyright © 2015 Burton Folsom, Anita Folsom
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THIS IS MY STORY
Time magazine, "An Eye for an Eye," January 24, 1983:
Death row is about the same size in Alabama [as in other states], where 55 men await the [electric] chair in Holman. Mitchell Rutledge, 23 years old, I.Q. 84, is among them. ... To most people the life of a foolish punk like Rutledge does not count for much. He is defective. His death would not be unbearably sad. ... There are guys not worth killing. Let Rutledge sit and stew in his 8-ft. by 5-ft. pen in Alabama. Forget him.
Those are powerful words, and even today they startle me. Why? Because I am Mitchell Rutledge. Time was mostly right with its facts. I was illiterate — I could not read or write at all. I had no friends. I had no family that cared. My mother was dead and my father deserted me at birth. I was constantly in trouble as a teenager. I spent years in jail and prison, and then I killed a guy and was on death row waiting to die.
I told Time magazine, "I just want to let everybody know that I am sorry for what I did," and they said, "He is defective. Forget him."
Forget him? I was already forgotten. But I cried out to God for friends, and I cried out to God to give my life meaning and purpose. It was at that point that He put my death on hold. This is my story.
I was born in October 1959, but my mother was still a kid herself: only thirteen years old. I never knew my father. We lived in Columbus, Georgia, most of the time. Sometimes my mother took me to my grandmother's house, and some- times I lived in an apartment with my mother.
When my mother was about sixteen, she was sent to reform school, so then I lived with my grandmother. Once my mother was released, we were back together. I can remember staying with this aunt or that aunt every week- end because my mother would be out doing other things. My mother would pack me a few clothes and off we would go to one of my mother's aunts for the weekend. I liked it because it meant eating candy or maybe getting a quarter to spend.
Fridays were very big days for my cousin Perry and me. I can remember homemade ice cream made by Great Aunt Dewbell. She had a cat, and I'm afraid of cats. I still remember sitting on top of something to get away from that cat as I was eating her homemade ice cream.
I usually wouldn't see my mother for two or three days. This was every week. I called her "Little Mommy." She wasn't but seventeen when I was four. After the weekend, she would come to get me and we would go home.
BLACK AND WHITE
A poem written years later by Mitchell Rutledge
Christmas was coming.
I knew I couldn't get that much.
Asked for a cowboy suit
A black one.
Yes, the bad guy.
Played with my cousin
He wore white.
Yes, the good guy.
I shot him.
Hit him too.
Got a beating for it.
When I was a young teenager, I had a choice: I could stay in school or I could operate in the streets. I chose to be on the streets most of the time because that's where I had confidence and a chance to excel. School wasn't much of an option because I couldn't read. That meant I couldn't succeed academically.
I don't want to be too hard on the public schools because I was a tough case for them. But no teacher ever helped me learn to read when I was in the early grades; they just passed me through social promotion. By the time I was enrolled in Baker High School in Columbus, Georgia, I was told to bring a pen and paper to a special class for students not doing well with their studies. We were all from broken homes, and none of us had any money. I wasn't sure I could learn anything out of a book. Were we incapable of learning? That was the message the school was sending us, and no teaching took place. We did nothing and stayed until lunch — it was a way to get a meal that day — and then most of us left for the streets.
As I said, my mother gave birth to me at age thirteen. She then had three more children — Anton, Jackson, and the youngest, Caroline — with three different fathers. Caroline's father was in the military and was transferred to Germany. He offered to marry my mother and take her, Caroline, Anton, and Jackson with him to Germany. But not me. My mother — to her credit — wouldn't leave me behind alone. She ended up deciding not to go, but after he left she did need the allotment check he sent us each month. His payments became irregular, and then they completely stopped.
I was fourteen, almost fifteen, when the payments stopped. After a while a German lady sent a letter to my mother, and I found out why the cash had stopped coming. Her letter said that he (Caroline's father) loved her and no longer loved my mother. In fact, they were planning to get married and did so and had a child. As my mother read the letter, she was crying more and more with each sentence, even each word. As my mother bawled and bawled, I found myself hating him more and more.
I also felt more drawn to my mother because, after all, she hadn't gone with him to Germany because she didn't want to desert me. Now she was deserted. After a month or so, my mother had to go to the hospital for about a week. My two brothers and my sister went to live with my mother's family in Phenix City, Alabama. I went along, too, because she wanted me there and I was in an obliging mood. But I was still planning to be a part of our hood in nearby Columbus because that's where my friends were.
I would check in with my grandmother from time to time to let her know I wasn't dead. When my mother got out of the hospital, we all went back to Columbus, Georgia. But disaster had struck. Our home had been broken into. We didn't have much, but what we did have was now gone. My mother's prized possession was a very small color TV, and now that was gone.
That next year, at fifteen, I began selling drugs — or I should say, fake drugs. I picked that up by listening and watching. And I almost didn't make it to age sixteen.
One night at about two in the morning, I was calling it a night and went to an area of downtown Columbus that was full of black-owned clubs and businesses. Drugs, prostitutes, and pimps were all over the area. I was walk- ing by a place called Top Hat and stopped in to get some chicken.
I started again for home and a black guy, maybe about fifty years old, driving a red Thunderbird, stopped and asked me if I wanted a ride. I had seen that car in the area before, so I said, "Okay." Once I got in, he asked where I lived. I said, "Georgia Terrace Apartments."
Then he asked, "Do you have to go home right now?"
Hearing that question raised my antenna at once, so I said, "Yes, I have to go right away."
Then I saw him reach down on the side of his seat, next to the dash on the driver's side, and he was coming up with a gun. I immediately jumped out of the car, which was not easy because we were going at least twenty-five miles an hour. I hit the ground. He stopped the car to come after me, and I yelled at the top of my lungs, "Help, help! He's trying to kill me!"
We had reached a residential area, so some lights came on and fortunately for me, he drove off. God was with me right then. I was in a lot of pain, but I made it home. My mom was upset with my appearance and my lateness and was even more upset when I explained to her what had happened. I had made some money selling drugs that night, however, so at least we could have food the next day.
by Mitchell Rutledge, written years after his childhood
It goes without saying,
I came up very poor.
Which means there were times when there
At an early age I can't remember
The importance of food.
Food had no real value to it
Because I looked at it the same way
I looked at everything else given to me
At that time on a regular basis.
How was that?
The same way I looked at night and day.
It came and went
Without any knowledge of where it come from.
But once I became older
Old enough to understand the importance of it
Everything became clear.
Now it was different for me. I was aware
There was no food to eat
In the house for the moment.
There was more to it
Than just eating it or desiring it.
All types of questions were coming into play.
At the sight of no food
My heart went out to my younger brothers,
Sister and mom.
Not myself, why?
Because I was 15
I could take care of myself.
So I decided to bring
Some of the stolen things to the house.
If there was money I would give that.
At that age I was also very selfish and into
Yes, the look.
That cost money, if you can't steal it.
I really didn't like being around the house
With all those things going on.
No food, no money, it was very sad.
I consider this to be the lowest moment in
My mother is in her room,
My two brothers and one sister in the living
I walk into the house,
Walk into the kitchen,
Open the refrigerator,
I find one jug of water ...
The only thing in the refrigerator.
My heart fell to my feet.
I walked into my mother's room
And asked her, "Have you and the kids ate?"
She started to cry.
I went and got something for them to eat.
I hadn't been home for days.
It was a major turnaround in my life.
The year after the break-in at our apartment, I was out one day spending time with my friend Jerry. My mother called Jerry's mother and then spoke with me, asking me to come home because I had been gone for three days. So I went home. When I opened the door, my mother said, "Boy, where you been?" Before I could respond, she said, "Get in there and get you something to eat." So I did. While I was eating, she called me. I answered and she said, "Come here."
I thought I was about to get reprimanded for being gone so long, so I stayed in the kitchen to eat a little more before facing her. Then I opened the door to her bedroom and saw my mother with her head hanging over her shoulder as she lay on her back. I ran to her. I said, "Momma, Momma," as I shook her. After I saw there was no response, I flipped out. I called my aunt (her sister), and she called the ambulance. They arrived in about fifteen minutes, took my mother's pulse, and told me she was dead.
I felt terrible because I hadn't called the ambulance sooner and hadn't obeyed her instructions. I blamed myself. That whole situation stunned me. My mother was dead at age twenty-nine. The coroner wrote "pulmonary embolism" on the death certificate. My mother was gone.
Now, at age sixteen, I was really on my own. My brother Anton was farmed out to my grandmother's brother, and Jackson went to my grandmother's sister. My sister Caroline did best. She went to be with sweet Aunt Dewbell, my grandfather's aunt.
I went with my grandmother for about three months, and then I moved into an apartment. It had only one furnished room, which included a small kitchen. I shared a bathroom with other tenants. My grandmother gave me a stereo and a TV, so that was nice, but I had to pay $20 per week for rent, and that was not so nice. I had no job and wasn't able to get one. When I would go into a place looking for a job, they would give me a form. But since I couldn't read, I could never fill it out. I was ashamed to admit I couldn't read, and the employer wouldn't have hired me knowing I couldn't read. So between my pride and my lack of skills, I had no job.
What did I do? I lived off the streets. I robbed and I stole. I dealt in prostitution, and my little apartment became a way station for runaway girls, many of whom ended up in prostitution. I didn't know how to cook and had no income. I just stole and lived mostly on the streets. That was my life for the next three years.CHAPTER 3
The red-light district of Columbus, Georgia (population 150,000 in 1970), was totally alive at night — especially through the eyes of a fifteen-year-old soon to be sixteen. My drug business worked this way: I started out selling "dummy drugs" to soldiers and young white guys who had come to the red-light district looking for action. Columbus was, and is, a soldier town because Fort Benning is about twelve miles away. The red-light district, and even beyond, had strip clubs all over.
"Dummy drugs" is just a street name for fake drugs. I went to the herb shop and bought some herb grass that looked just like real pot. Then I mixed the seeds from real pot in, so the mixture looked and smelled like real pot. I would buy a grocery bag of herb grass for one dollar and fix it all up to sell as marijuana. I also concocted some fake cocaine by using baking soda. Once I had packaged my stuff, I would go downtown.
I lived seven blocks from the red-light district. I discovered that soldiers and white college kids were the best sources for sales. Why? Because you could catch the college students and soldiers right there in the strip clubs drinking and looking for something to get high with. And they weren't too picky about what to use, especially after they'd had a couple of drinks. Almost all the women who ran the strip clubs were from Vietnam. Only the strippers were black or white.
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Table of Contents
ContentsAUTHOR'S NOTE, XIII,
1. THIS IS MY STORY, 1,
2. TRAGEDY, 10,
3. COLUMBUS, GEORGIA, 13,
4. RUNAWAYS, 18,
5. DRUGS, 22,
6. JOB CORPS TO PRISON, 25,
7. CHAIN GANG TO PAROLE, 30,
8. HALFWAY HOUSE, 33,
9. I KILL A MAN, 39,
10. JANUARY 6, 1981, 42,
11. I MEET GOD, 47,
12. AN ANSWERED PRAYER–A LAWYER, 51,
13. THE FIRST TRIAL, 55,
14. HOLMAN PRISON, 58,
15. I MEET SWAMP BEAR, 64,
16. DEATH ROW, 68,
17. LEARNING TO READ, 74,
18. TIME INTERVIEW, 78,
19. NEW FRIENDS–AT LAST!, 80,
20. JOHN LOUIS EVANS III, 84,
21. GET TING TO KNOW MY NEW FRIENDS, 89,
22. ANOTHER CHANCE, 95,
23. PRISON POLITICS, 97,
24. 1985 SENTENCING HEARING, 104,
25. BACK IN HOLMAN ON DEATH ROW, 112,
26. VISITING MITCH, 116,
27. SERENGETI PLAINS, 123,
28. NEW FRIENDS, 127,
29. ONE LAST TRY TO ESCAPE EXECUTION, 132,
30. MITCH'S LAST CHANCE, 135,
31. THE JURY'S VERDIC T, 140,
32. SEG AND POP, 144,
33. A PRISON MURDER, 148,
34. THREE PRISON VICES, 153,
35. GED, 160,
36. MIND GAMES, 163,
37. PRISON CULTURE, 167,
38. COLLEGE, 171,
39. SICKNESS, 177,
40. SORRY, CHARLIE, 185,
41. HONOR DORM, 189,
42. PRISON REFORMS, 194,
43. CLARENCE THOMAS, 200,
44. PRISON INCENTIVES, 203,
45. NO REHABILITATION, 208,
46. LEADERSHIP IN THE HONOR DORM, 213,
47. BIRDMAN OF ALCATRAZ, 219,
48. BURT'S STORY, 222,
49. I DO A VIDEO, 228,
50. SPEAKING TO AT–RISK YOUTHS, 234,
51. TEACHER, 239,
52. I SAVE A LIFE, 243,
53. FINAL CHAPTER: WHAT I HAVE LEARNED, 245,
EPILOGUE: BURT AND ANITA FOLSOM, 247,
ABOUT THE AUTHORS, 251,
Most Helpful Customer Reviews
I've never heard of this book until the movie and never knew it was a book until the movie came out. I read a sample, now I have to finish reading the book.
If you’re reading this blog, it’s no stretch to say you and I are both fans of story. People’s lives and legacies can impact others greatly. That’s just one reason why I love reading memoirs. This one was excellent for many of those same reasons. This book truly made my heart happy. Stories of redemption always do. Written mostly from Mitch’s point of view, you learn the story of a man who made terrible choices and had to deal with those consequences (not only of the law, but guilt as well). Instead of his story ending there, he encountered a God who is about grace and changing lives. Even how Mitch connected with his friends has God’s hand all over it. If you’re looking for a story showing there’s still hope for those the world says don’t deserve it, this book is for you. This book is also eye opening, as it openly talks about prison life. I think it’s safe to say the movies don’t lie. Not only that, but some of the insight into the prison system was disheartening (like some involved deeming life less worthy because people are in for life without parole). “Love transcends race.” This was something Mitch said while talking about the friends that came into his life. There’s definitely more in the book, but these friendships give me hope when it comes to race in America. I’ll close with a quote from Mitch about people who became his friends (those who wrote to him once hearing his story in Time): “Best of all they told me they loved me and believed in me. In my entire life, the only family member who ever used the word love toward me was Aunt Dewbell.” This story was such an incredible reminder of the power of loving people has (this book is about multiple friendships Mitch has). Reaching out, taking a chance…it can make all the difference. No one is beyond redemption or the Grace of Jesus. This quick read is well worth your time. Do you like reading memoirs? (Thank you to BookLook Bloggers for a copy of the book in exchange for my honest review) Originally posted: http://booksandbeverages.org/2016/02/11/death-on-hold-by-burton-w-folsom-book-review/
I received a complimentary copy of this book from BookLook Bloggers to review, and I must say I read this book in almost one sitting. It is a very moving and touching story of Mitchell Rutledge who's one really bad choice led to him ending up on the death row. This is a must read for anyone who needs a little reminder that no matter what there is always something good around the corner.