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Engage by June Gray


The past has a way of catching up...

A long time has passed since Elsie's heart was broken, since the person who always shielded her from pain broke her heart. Just when she begins to rebuild, Henry returns and upends everything all over again.

Don't miss Capture, part six of the Disarm series!

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ISBN-13: 9780698149816
Publisher: Penguin Publishing Group
Publication date: 05/28/2013
Series: Disarm Series , #5
Sold by: Penguin Group
Format: NOOK Book
Pages: 52
Sales rank: 361,020
File size: 578 KB

About the Author

June Gray is a daydreamer who, at the age of ten, penned a short story inspired by a Judy Blume novel and has been unable to stop writing since. She loves to tell stories that titillate and enrage, that break the reader’s heart and put it back together again.

Her fairy-tale life has been lived on four different continents—most recently, in a two-hundred-forty-year-old castle in rural Germany owned by a Graf. She was born in the Philippines, raised in Australia, and now calls the United States home, and she can currently be found enjoying the shores of Miami with her husband, two daughters, and a miniature schnauzer.

Her Disarm series includes: Disarm, Besiege, Retreat, The Henry Sessions, Engage, and Capture

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The Disarm Series








A Disarm Novella

June Gray



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Copyright © 2012 by June Gray.

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To you, the reader, the lover of words.


I walked into my apartment and locked the door, slipping out of my shoes before venturing into the living room. I collapsed onto the tan suede couch, the stack of mail still in my hand. The answering machine still blinked at me from the counter, weighed down by all the messages that had accumulated since August, messages that I hadn’t been ready to listen to yet.

Five months had elapsed since my disastrous trip to California, since Henry pulled the rug out from under my feet and made me question everything I’d believe to be true. If there was one thing I would have bet my life on back then, it was that Henry would never intentionally hurt me: but he had and in the most brutal, unexpected way possible. He loved me then left me, and the most infuriating thing was that after I listened to his therapy tapes, I kind of understood. His underlying anger stemmed from a case of not knowing who the hell he really was. It wasn’t from some deep dark secret from the past; it was just about a man with a serious case of identity crisis.

I understood his issue, which is not to say I liked it or had even come to accept it.

I had come home from Monterey to an empty apartment and a note from Henry saying he was staying with a friend and would give me the next day to recover alone. I had used that time to enlist the help of every single friend I had so that I could move out of the apartment as quickly as possible. Thankfully, Beth had allowed me to stay with her while I searched for a place of my own, and the situation had improved when she moved into Sam’s house after he proposed, leaving me with the apartment. It had all worked so seamlessly that I’d wondered if maybe the universe had finally decided to throw me a bone after screwing me over so much.

There, alone in my apartment, I cried myself to sleep and when I awoke to nightmares, I had nobody but myself for comfort. It was a truly miserable and lonely existence I would never wish upon my worst enemy. Not even on Nina-freaking-Yates.

Still, I liked to think I’d moved on since the breakup. We were in a new year now, and I decided I needed a new attitude. I’d certainly cried enough to last a lifetime. This new Elsie was going to be happy, damn it, and she was not going to hide from the past any longer.

I heaved myself up off the couch and walked over to the answering machine, pressing play before I could change my mind.

Henry’s voice filled the small apartment, instantly suffocating me with memories.

“Elsie, it’s Henry. Beth gave me your new number.” He sighed. “I wish you’d told me you wanted to live separately. I could have moved out. It wasn’t fair that you had to be the one to move all your stuff. Hell, I could have helped you.” He groaned. “I’m sorry. I just worried when I got back and you weren’t home; I freaked out. I haven’t seen you since you came back from Monterey, and I’m really worried. I hope you’re doing okay.”

I felt the familiar pressure behind my eyes but I was determined not to cry. I’d managed one entire month without tearing up and I wasn’t about to break that streak now. I took a deep breath and readied myself for the next message.

“Me again,” Henry said. “I just wanted to wish you a happy birthday. I bought you a gift, but I don’t know how to get it to you. If it’s okay with you, I’d like to come by and drop it off later, around six. Call me back and let me know. My number’s still the same.” I had come home that day to find he’d taped a blue envelope on my door. Inside were a birthday card simply signed, Henry, and a fifty-dollar gift card to Best Buy. He couldn’t have been more impersonal if he tried.

There were a few messages from my parents and friends in between before Henry’s voice came on again. “I just wanted to let you know that I won’t be coming to Monterey for Thanksgiving or Christmas, so you don’t have to worry about running into me. Merry Christmas, Elsie.”

And finally a weary, “Happy New Year.”

I took a deep breath. There. That wasn’t so bad.

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Disarm: The Complete Novel 4.5 out of 5 based on 0 ratings. 18 reviews.
Justpeachy1 More than 1 year ago
June Gray's serial erotic love story has finally been compiled into one book, Disarm The Complete Novel. Readers can finally experience this immensely satisfying tale of the ups and downs of love and the military all at one time. Gray's story still reads in part like a serial because it was originally released that way, but that doesn't make it any less intense and emotionally evocative. Readers will go from tears of happiness to tears of sadness and back again as they read the struggles Elise and Henry face in finding their own happy ending.  What I liked: Elsie has been in love with Henry practically all her life. But there were obstacles to their relationship even from the beginning. Henry was Jason's best friend. Her brother meant the world to her and Henry only thought of her as his best friend's little sister. Or so she thought. I liked the fact that Elsie didn't let her life pass her by because of her crush on Henry, but she also didn't give up on the hope that one day things might be different. I enjoyed the fact that through out the book, she kept that hint of love in the back of her mind of him, even as he took over the role of a surrogate brother when Jason is killed in combat. It was like the romance was lying dormant between them until the time was right. A very realistic rendering of how the heart works. Henry was a piece of work. He was a great friend to both Jason and Elsie and he wanted to protect her when he knew Jason no longer could. Now the two of them are roommates and things are a bit more complicated. I loved the fact that they had been friends for so long. They really knew each other, or they thought they did. Henry is a bit closed off as a character, he has a lot of issues within himself that he needs to sort out. Issues with survivor's guilt, issues with feeling worthy of love and Elsie stands by him throughout it all. She even lets him go when she wants nothing more than to hold him close. It is a very intense romance, with a lot of emotional upheavals. I think more so because of the way it was originally written. The author had to create a conflict for each individual part of the story and that meant a lot more shaking up of things than in a normal novel. The struggles that Henry had within himself created a lot of the necessary conflict that carried the story and Elsie stands as the stopgap, the port in the storm. The military aspects of the book were well written and had a lot of depth as well. Gray does an excellent job of showing the reader how a military family copes with the hard questions. What if my love one doesn't return? What if he or she is fundamentally different when they do come back?  What I didn't like: Not much to talk about here. I liked this one a lot. Gray is obviously a very gifted writer. If she could pull this off in an erotic piece that was originally meant to be read as a serial, I can only imagine was she could do with a feature length novel and more time to tell her stories. An excellent romance! Bottom Line: If you are looking for a romance that is extremely emotion based, this is the book for you. I actually liked the serial dynamic of the book and I didn't think I would. The chemistry between the hero and heroine is literally blinding at some points and the love scenes are definitely worthy of the erotic genre. A great book about the ins and outs of a military romance.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
It was so hard to put this book down. I absolutely fell in love with this book; so many emotions running through the book as you flip the pages. A great read for readers who love romance and great for readers in their twenties.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
Loved every second of this book.. I did not want to see it end.. There could be so much added onto this to make a few books in a series
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
great read
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kimberlyfaye More than 1 year ago
Holy crap. By now, I should realize that books featuring military characters pack a special type of emotional wallop. I thought I was prepared going into this one, but I underestimated the range of emotions I would go through while reading it. Days after finishing this book (and the sequel, Arrest!) and I still haven't stopped thinking about Elsie and Henry. What characters. What a story.  One thing I can say for sure is that I'm glad I never tried to read this book when it was a serial. With the way some of the parts ended, I think I would have curled up in a ball and cried if I hadn't been able to begin the next section immediately. I mean, half the time I was ready to curl up and cry anyhow, but that was just from the feels. Having to wait would have just made it worse. This is billed as an erotica novel, and while it was sexy and steamy, I didn't see it being that much more explicit than most of the other new adult and adult titles I read. Not criticizing, just felt like I needed to mention that.  If you follow my reviews with any type of regularity, you know I'm a sucker for friends first stories. This is one of my new favorites. While it's true Henry was really Elsie's brother's friend first, after Jason's death, Henry and Elsie became very close friends. What neither knew about the other is that they both were harboring crushes on each other. We readers come in after their friendship is already solid and they're flirting with the lines and thinking about being something more, but there was no doubt this was not insta-love and what they shared was very real.  It all sounds great, right? Well, then there's the other thing. The thing where Henry's in the military and about to be shipped off overseas. They love each other and once he returns, everything will be great for them because the biggest obstacle possible is behind them, right? Oh, if only it was that easy. When Henry returns, he's not the man Elsie fell in love with. It's obvious he's struggling to deal with something, but he's also not very forthcoming with his feelings. They're both hurting and while neither makes the conscious decision to hurt the other, it's what happens. Thus begins the most painful part of their journey. I lost track of how many times I got all teary-eyed and upset with both of them. I was mentally and physically exhausted when I finished this book. I also jumped immediately into the sequel thinking that would help give me some closure and make everything right again. But no, there was more feels to be felt... and that's another review for another day.  I loved both of these characters, but they both frustrated me beyond belief. Elsie was strong and stubborn and was sure her love for Henry could make everything better. If only it was that easy. Henry wasn't your typical alpha male. He was fiercely protective and had dominant tendencies, but he was also vulnerable underneath it all. The things he experienced and saw overseas changed him. He definitely had a hero complex and trying to deal with guilt, too. I hated watching these two struggle, but I knew the only way they could be together was to go through it all. Hiding wasn't going to help.  I was afraid Disarm would destroy me. It didn't, but it damn sure left a mark. Secrets were revealed – and not just by Henry and Elsie. There was one moment during the book that I won't spoil for you, but it was so perfect and unexpected that I found myself sitting with tears streaming down my face as I read. It was a beautiful touch and a welcome addition and now I can't imagine the series without it.  If you decide to pick up this book – which I totally think you should – be prepared. Have tissues on hand. It might not hurt to have your favorite adult beverage around, too. I think you'll be happy in the end, but the journey is seriously rough. You'll also want to make sure you have enough time carved out that you can read it cover to cover in one sitting. You won't want to walk away from it once you've started. I received a copy of this book from the publisher, via NetGalley, in exchange for an honest review.
Blamjam More than 1 year ago
LOVED this as a series when I first read it. You will need to devour this is one sitting because you will not be able to put it down. Believable characters and an adorable love story. My only wish is I could get a signed copy to proudly display on my shelf. I had to edit this because I actually did win a signed copy with a very sweet note from the author. This series is one I always go back to in my mind as one that touched my heart and soul. I simply adore it.
NerdAlertBL More than 1 year ago
I received a copy of the book from the author for an honest review. This book had me hooked from page one. The emotions that run through this book made me feel like I was on a rollercoaster. When I was done with the book the 1st thing I could think of was they have to make this into a movie. This book reminds me of the emotional rollercoaster of “the Fault of our Stars.” The way all emotions were used in this book had me going from crying to laughing and then back to crying. I don’t think that I have cried so much over a book. Warning have a box of tissues right beside you. I had to stop many times to gain my composure to continue reading. There was not a bad thing about this book. The way you get addicted to the characters sucked into their story made this book so amazing. I felt so bad for Elsie it was like everything was going wrong. Hearing the story of how she lost her brother was just heart wrenching. I bawled like a baby. And then you add in the relationship between Elise and Henry, wow, at times I wanted to hate Henry but then something would explain why he did what he did and then I would fall in love with him again. My favorite part of the book without giving too much away was when Elsie was listening to Henry’s recordings. That brought a whole new life to the book. I fell in love right then with Henry, and how he really only wants what is best for Elsie. 4.5 out of 5 stars reviewed by Jessica Z Review courtesy of nerd alert
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Great series! 
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OMG. I LOVE THIS SERIES. I LAUGHED , I CRIED,CRIED MORE. June Gray is great author. it took me two days to read the whole series.697 pages, A MUST READ BOOK. Just make sure you have a full box of tissues next to you.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
Worth reading
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hzleyes52 More than 1 year ago
i love this book... it was excite too and keep me going...
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
Just looking through the books at B&N and came across this series. Read a few reviews and figured I'd give them a try.  Omg! I absolutely loved them .  I read them all in 5 hours.  I loved that these books got to the point and didn't leave anything out. Really good read with some pretty good smut mixed in.  I would highly recommend this series.