Don't Close Your Eyes

Don't Close Your Eyes

by Holly Seddon


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ISBN-13: 9781101885895
Publisher: Random House Publishing Group
Publication date: 07/04/2017
Pages: 336
Product dimensions: 6.60(w) x 9.30(h) x 1.20(d)

About the Author

Holly Seddon is the author of Try Not to Breathe. She was born and raised in the southwest of England and now lives in the center of Amsterdam with her husband and their four children. In a fifteen-year career, Seddon has been privileged to work in some of the UK’s most exciting newsrooms. She has been published on national newspaper and leading consumer websites, and in magazines. Seddon has been writing short stories since childhood. Don’t Close Your Eyes is her second novel.

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Robin drags in thin breaths of stuffy air before puffing it out quickly. Dust dances in the foot of a sunbeam. Robin tries not to imagine those tiny specks filling her lungs, weighing her down.

Outside, the Manchester pavement is gray and wet but the air carries a tang of freshness, a flirtation with spring. Robin won’t feel this. She won’t let the dampness tingle against her skin. It won’t slowly sink into the cotton of her faded black T-­shirt.

A bus rushes past the window, spraying the front of her house and its nearest neighbors with a burst of puddle water temporarily turned into surf. But Robin doesn’t see this. She only hears the gush of water and the irritation of the woman whose jeans got “fucking soaked.”

Robin did not go out yesterday and she will not leave her house today. Bar fire or flood, she’ll still be inside tomorrow. Just as she has been inside for nearly three years. Until a few weeks ago, everything in Robin’s world was fine and safe. A cozy shell. She still spends her days pacing her three-­bedroom prison, watching television, lifting weights and aimlessly searching the Internet. But now a new fear sits on her shoulder throughout.

Robin is careful and controlled. She answers her door only by prior appointment. Deliveries that arrive outside of designated time slots get lugged back to the depot by frustrated drivers. Unexpected parcels are left unclaimed. There is an election soon, but Robin is not interested in debating with an earnest enthusiast in a bad suit, shuffling on her doorstep.

Someone is knocking on her door right now. They were polite at first but now they’re building to a crescendo of desperation. Or rage. Robin stares forward at the television in grim determination, jaw jutting ahead. The screen is filled with bright colors and mild voices. Television for toddlers. The minutes are filled with stories of triumph in simple tasks, of helping friends or learning a cheerful new skill. There is no baddie; there is no guilt or fear. Everyone is happy.

As the knocks grow more frantic, Robin deliberately takes a deep breath. She focuses on her chest filling and expanding and the slow seeping of air back out between her teeth. Still she stares doggedly at the screen. People have been angry with her before. When she couldn’t fight them anymore, she ran. This time, she ran herself into a corner.


My child has been torn from me and there’s nothing I can do. Four days ago she walked off, happily holding her uncle’s hand, and that’s almost the last I’ve seen of her golden hair, doe eyes and tiny pink nose. Violet was smiling and oblivious as she left me; she waved while I was firmly seated at my dining table and confronted with accusation after accusation, with no right of reply.

Jim was flanked by his parents. We’d just eaten a “family lunch” that I’d spent all morning cooking. Instead of letting me clear the plates, as I usually would, Jim had cleared his throat, nodded to his brother to take Violet away and started reading out his list. Line after line, like bullets.

For a moment afterward we all sat in stunned silence until Jim looked at his mum and, on seeing her nod of encouragement, said, “Let’s not drag this out. You need to pack your things and get out of here. We’ve found you somewhere to stay until you get on your feet.”

I was marched upstairs, hands on my back. They watched me while I packed my bags, then Jim and his father escorted me from my home and into a taxi, where I spent fifteen minutes dumbly staring out of the windscreen, too shocked to even cry.

As the window vibrated against my cheek, the blood drained from my skin. In my mind, I went over and over the list Jim had read out, trying to make sense of it.

1. Jealousy

I thought he was going to say more. But he’d said the word “jealousy” alone, quietly and firmly, without taking his eyes off the piece of paper in his hands.

At that point I still thought the whole thing might be some kind of joke. His mother and father at the dinner table, his normally pally younger brother in another room with Violet.

But no punch line came. Instead, he just carried on reading his list. His parents sat there with their hands in their laps, curled in on themselves while their son made terrible claims about me. About me and our almost-­four-­year-­old.

Jim thinks I was jealous of his affection for Violet. Jealous of their bond, which was apparent from the earliest days. Jealous that he would come in from work and say, “Where’s my girl?” and mean her. Our little baby. And—­even though I had nourished her all day, run ragged trying to do everything in the house single-­handed while my koala baby stuck to me—­as soon as she saw Jim come through the door at 6:15 p.m., up her little arms would shoot and she’d make monkeylike straining noises as she tried to reach him.

I wasn’t jealous of her. If anything, I was jealous of him. I wanted her love all to myself, but I didn’t begrudge their bond. I loved to watch it. Love in action. A hardworking, loving man, our comfortable home, our beautiful little baby.

All lined up in a row, like dominoes.


ROBIN | 1989

Robin drags the toes of her patent-­leather shoes along the wall. Just because she’s small, that doesn’t mean she should be dressed like a stupid little doll. Sarah’s the one who likes to look shiny and neat. Sarah’s the one who turns herself this way and that in the mirror and admires her golden hair, like Rapunzel. Their mum and dad would love it if Robin acted more like Sarah. The thought of it fills Robin’s mouth with sour spit.



“Don’t spit on the floor; what’s wrong with you?”

Robin scowls up at her mother. “I had a bad taste,” she says, and, without thinking, carries on scuffing her shoes along the wall.

“Robin! What on earth are you doing?”



“Those are brand-­new, you naughty girl.”

Her mother stands with her hands on her hips, legs apart. With the sun behind her, her silhouette is sharp, but really her mum is quite soft.

“They’re too shiny,” Robin says sulkily, but she knows she’s already lost the argument.

Sarah stands to the side of her mother, mirroring her look of concerned dismay. Even though they’ve spent the whole day at school, Sarah’s perfect plaits remain intact. Her gingham summer dress is clean and she doesn’t have an ominous line of black muck under her nails. Robin’s own dark brown hair had burst out of its band before the first playtime. There’s so much of it, the curls in a constant state of flux, that no hair bobble stands a chance.

Robin and Sarah are still lumped together as one: the twins. But in reality they could scarcely be more different. Blonde and brunette; tall and tiny; rigid and rowdy.

When they were very little, their mother, Angela—­Angie—­had done the usual twin thing. Matching bonnets, dresses and shoes. But Sarah had been so much longer and acted so much older—­almost from day one—­that the coordinated clothes only highlighted how different they looked. There were even times—­as had gone down in Marshall family folklore—­that perfect strangers had argued that the girls could not possibly be twins.

“I should know,” Angie would say with a pantomime sigh. “I had to squeeze them both out.”

“My little runt,” Robin’s dad, Jack, calls her as she sits by his side on the sofa, swinging her feet, which cannot yet reach the ground. Or when she spends long Sundays contentedly passing him bits of wood, nails or glue in the garage while he fixes household objects that Angie would prefer to just replace. “I’m not made of money, Ang,” he says. “Ain’t that the truth,” she agrees with another of her sighs, for show.

Robin and her sister have just started walking home from their first day of the new school term. Their heads sag on their shoulders, lunch boxes rattling with sandwich crusts. Their talking fades into yawns and complaints. The first day back is always tiring after six weeks of playing and watching TV. They won’t usually be collected by their mum—­they’re big girls now, turning nine next month—­but this is a first day back “treat.” Robin has already been told off twice, so she can’t wait to be left to trudge her own way back tomorrow, albeit with her sister acting as substitute adult. Amazing the difference that sixteen minutes can make. “I’m the oldest,” Sarah says all the time while Robin rolls her eyes. It would be different if I were taller, Robin thinks, frowning.

Up ahead, there’s a shiny black BMW parked partially on the pavement, its hazard lights blinking on and off. The mums who have younger kids in buggies are huffing loudly as they exaggerate how hard it is to negotiate this intrusion to their paths. The driver’s door springs open and a woman glides out. She has bouncy, shiny hair and wears an expensive-­looking coat. “I’m so sorry,” she says in the general direction of other mothers. “I didn’t know where to park.”

As the women ignore her, the shiny, bouncy BMW mum sees someone and waves excitedly. It’s the new boy from Robin and Sarah’s class. As soon as he sees her he runs up to her, his backpack bobbing up and down. His hair must have gel in it, because it doesn’t move. He climbs into the front seat, and the car eases off the pavement and whooshes away almost silently. Robin is unimpressed.

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Don't Close Your Eyes 3 out of 5 based on 0 ratings. 4 reviews.
Valerian70 More than 1 year ago
2.5 Stars In an attempt to enthrall the reader the author has turned what should have been a great in to a muddy confused mess. I read A LOT and from a lot of genres but this particular niche is one of my favourites so I am well versed in the perspective and timeline shifts throughout a book. Somehow in this one it all feels rather clunky and contrived and jolts you out of the story each time it happens. It doesn't help that Robin and Sarah are completely unlikeable characters. I know the book is, in lots of ways, about mental health and the impact their childhood had on them has no doubt brought them to where they are. However, I did not find even a glimmer of humanity within either character that allowed me to empathise with their situation or make me want to make their lot better. This is unusual for a Holly Seddon book as all the other books of hers I have read had exceptional characters. The plot itself is well crafted and you are never really 100% certain what is going on. There are some nice twists thrown in, for both sisters, but they are not enough to save the book. Intrinsically this is a book about people and if you don't like the characters, or feel anything for them, then you are probably going to find it tedious and hard going. Sad to say that is pretty much how I felt; the only reason this got more than 1 Star was because of the plotting and quality of the writing.
SmithFamilyInEngland More than 1 year ago
"Don't Close Your Eyes" for one minute when reading this or you really will miss something interesting and engrossing! Told from the points of view of the two main characters - twin sisters Robin and Sarah - in the past and present, this story will definitely have you gripped from the first page, I loved it and found it very compelling. I thought the 'Rear Window' part of the story with Robin and her curtain twitching was fascinating, we all probably notice what our neighbours do along with any changes in their routine and I can imagine how interesting and comforting it could become for someone like agoraphobic Robin to spend so much time 'spying' on her neighbours and then wanting to help when realising they were in trouble. Even though I didn't particularly endear to any of the characters I found it didn't stop the enjoyment of the book and that it's sometimes almost expected in order to fully engage with the story. It's well written by a very talented author, fast flowing, easy to read and that ending - you really won't see it coming. I finished this pretty quickly, with nice short chapters that keep you reading well past when you should have stopped. I could easily have read more - I thoroughly enjoyed it and know that this book will certainly do well. "Don't Close Your Eyes" by Holly Seddon is one of the better psychological suspense thrillers I've read in a while and considering I feel this is quite an overcrowded genre at the minute, this one well and truly stands head and shoulders above the others. A well deserved 5 stars.
CrazyCat_Alex More than 1 year ago
This is the story about Robin and Sarah, twin sisters, once close, but now they haven’t spoken in years. Both have problems and need help. Robin hasn’t left her house for a long time, she can’t. She spends her days looking out the window, spying on her neighbors, making up stories about their lives. Her sister, Sarah, can’t go back home to her husband and little daughter. He husband had her thrown out of the house and won’t let her see her girl. But Sarah won’t stop trying to get her daughter back and she will do anything. The story is told in alternating chapters between Sarah and Robin. Telling about a family, broken apart and two sisters becoming strangers, both emotionally damaged. It’s not a fast paced novel, but the last 10% really make up for that. The pace quickens and there’s happening so much, that it is impossible to stop reading. A gripping novel, hard to put down. I chose to read this book and all opinions in this review are my own and completely unbiased. Thanks to NetGalley and Atlantic Books!
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
If a book hasn't grabbed my interest by page 100, I give up on it. I tried to give this a chance but gave up at page 58. Boring and not only does it jump back and forth between characters, it jumps between time periods too.