This is the first of the three books of my life growing up. This book is written in hopes to help others deal with surviving a child napping, rape and left on side of road to die. This is written with hopes to help others survive a shootout that took 6 brothers and 5 sisters lives, including his baby brother, age 11 who died in his arms. And also this is written to help others deal with drug addiction, teenage alcoholism. Finally, this is written to help others deal with revenge, deaths, and many things in the first 18 years of his life. He hopes that it will help many overcome whatever they may be dealing with.This shows the first 18 years growing up with 8 brothers and 6 sisters and a single hard working mother. It deals with hope, tragedies, wishes, joy, sadness, abuses, drugs, fighting, and death. It is my hopes that through this, people can see hope and get help because you are a survivor, not a victim.