I should have known that perhaps that we just were never meant to be together but it isn’t that easy to just let go. It’s been years and I tried, however he had a grasp on my mental and emotional being more than anyone else I had met in my life. I believe things happen for a reason yet I wasn’t truly satisfied eternally with my life’s direction. My feelings are as strong as I remembered each moment I had spent with him, some of those memories were not really good yet I wanted to relive them once again. If I had the opportunity I would have left everything just for him. My life became a mockery and all I could do now was laugh at my interesting fate. Life brought me to him in an interesting way and to separate us equally as such. Here I lay on the hospital bed reliving the moments of him once again before my passing.