Freeze Frame

Freeze Frame

by Heidi Ayarbe


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No matter how many times Kyle rewrites the scene, he can't get it right. He tries it in the style of Hitchcock, Tarantino, Eastwood, all of his favorite directors—but regardless of the style, he can't remember what happened that day in the shed. The day Jason died. And until he can, there is one question that keeps haunting Kyle: Did he kill his best friend on purpose?

Debut novelist Heidi Ayarbe delves into the depths of the human psyche as Kyle wrestles with inner demons that make him wonder whether the world will ever be okay again—or if the best thing to do is find a way to join Jason.

Product Details

ISBN-13: 9780061351754
Publisher: HarperCollins Publishers
Publication date: 05/04/2010
Pages: 376
Product dimensions: 5.00(w) x 7.10(h) x 1.00(d)
Age Range: 12 - 17 Years

About the Author

Heidi Ayarbe grew up in Nevada and has lived all over the world. She now makes her home in Colombia with her husband and daughter. She is also the author of Compulsion, Compromised, and Freeze Frame.

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Freeze Frame

By Heidi Ayarbe
HarperCollins Publishers, Inc.
Copyright © 2008

Heidi Ayarbe
All right reserved.

ISBN: 9780061351730

Chapter One

Gray slats of light slipped between the bars, only to be swallowed by blackness. I shivered and pulled the colorless blanket around me, squeezing my eyes shut, holding my breath until the pain swelled and exploded in my chest. I exhaled and counted. Each breath took me farther away from where I wanted to be. But I had to go back. I had to change it.

Almost all of yesterday played like a movie in my head. I could start it, rewind, stop, fast-forward, and replay scenes—except for one. That scene never came clear. It was as if the film from the reel had been exposed to sunlight and gotten blotchy.

In some scenes, I even thought about making changes, doing a director's cut.

Melanie, go back and flip your hair to the other side.

When I thought about it like that, I felt like I had control, like it was a Quentin Tarantino movie, all out of order. I could change anything. But then I would remember. No matter how much changed inside my head, it was the same everywhere else.

October 8, 8:52 A.M., Scene One, Take One

We got up from the table because Jason had used all the syrup. The guy really poured it on. Dad ran down to the store to stock up, as if he knew I needed breakfast to be perfect.

Mom ordered us to get ready for the homecoming game andscooted us out of the kitchen. "You can eat in a couple of minutes."

"Sorry about the syrup, Mrs. Caroll," Jason said.

I shook my head. "My pancakes are gonna get cold. You could've saved a drop."

"Big deal, Kyle." Melanie flipped her hair. "God, Mom, he can be such a dumbass."

"Mel, watch your language." Mom glared.

Jason swallowed a laugh. In his house, he'd be nailed for saying dumbass. "Sorry, man. I like a lot of syrup."

"I guess so." I rolled my eyes. "Pig."

"You shouldn't insult your guest," Melanie huffed. "Grow up, Kyle."

Jason wasn't a "guest." You can't consider your best friend since kindergarten a guest, even if he hasn't been around for a while.

I glared at Mel. "It sure wouldn't have hurt you to save some either." I puffed out my cheeks and gut. "If I were you and had to wear that cheerleading skirt, I definitely wouldn't be eating pancakes—and especially not with syrup."

"Mom!" Melanie yelled. "Did you hear what he just said?"

Mom shot me her you're-a-step-from-deep-shit look.

"What?" I asked. "I didn't do anything. I swear!" But by that time Mom was after me with a spatula, and Jason and I ran out the kitchen door before she began screaming too.

"Oh, man," I grumbled, standing barefoot out on the frostbitten grass. I danced from one foot to the other. The cold burned my toes.

"Things don't change around here, huh?" Jason's teeth chattered. "It's cold, man. I'm, like, still in my pajamas." He looked around. "Remember when we decided to go snow camping out here after watching Vertical Limit?"

We'd thought it'd be pretty easy, pretend like we were mountaineers or something. Eat beef jerky for breakfast. We didn't even last an hour. We might've lasted longer if Jase hadn't insisted that he had frostbite. And I didn't want to have to explain to his mom why his toes fell off.

I laughed. "Maybe the coast is clear. Let's go back inside."

Jason and I peeked in the kitchen window. We saw Melanie blabbering away at Mom. Mom pushed a plate of half-eaten pancakes in front of her.

"It doesn't look good. Mel's pretty pissed." Jason turned toward me. "You might not get to go to the game."

"Nah." I shook my head. "You think?" I was standing on my toes, trying to keep my feet from freezing off.

"Yeah, man. That's the kind of shit that gets me sent to Pastor Pretzer."

Jason's family was really churchy, and he always had to talk to his minister when he got in trouble. Whenever we did something wrong at his house, Mrs. Bishop quoted something from the Bible. Her favorite was "Do unto others as you would have them do unto you."

When we were in ninth grade, I asked Mrs. Bishop if that meant we could do unto Kayla Griffin as we would have her do unto us, and she sent me home. I didn't think Mrs. Bishop would get so worked up. It's not like we were twelve or anything, and it was pretty funny.

Mom told me I was being disrespectful. I had to write a letter of apology to Mrs. Bishop and was put on Jason's "probation friend" list. After nine years of being best friends, I became a probation friend. Only Mrs. Bishop could think of crap like that.

"Well, I wouldn't have called her fat if she really was," I told Jason. "I'm not that big of an asshole." I looked back in the window. "Plus, when did our sisters become such freak shows? I mean, Mel used to be pretty cool before all the cheerleading and diets and shit."

Jason shrugged. "I dunno. So, what's next?"

"Let's hang in the shed until things cool down, unless you want to go around through the front door."

"Our feet would freeze off before we got there."

We crossed the backyard to Dad's work shed. The dew soaked my pajama pants. The door was locked, but I knew where Dad kept the key and grabbed it from the ledge. The shed had metal doors, kind of rusty; they screeched when we opened them.

"Shhhh," Jason said. "Keep it down."

The shed smelled like a mixture of oil, fertilizer, and wood shavings.

If I were a director, I could change everything. Jason and I could've gone into the garage and waited. We could've sucked up the cold and snuck in the front door. We could've gone down the street to his house. Maybe I wouldn't have told Mel she was fat. As a director, I had so many choices.


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Freeze Frame 4.8 out of 5 based on 0 ratings. 19 reviews.
misstiki More than 1 year ago
With Freeze Frame Heidi Ayarbe hit a home run. This debut novel is well written and will grip you from the beginning to the end. The characters and situations are very real. What would you do if your world changed irrevocably from one second to the next? This is what Kyle must decide. I had read that Ayarbe used a movie director "approach" in her novel. This worried me because I am not a movie buff. However, the book was so well done that my lack of movie sophistication (or even interest) did not get in the way. I loved the book. I got sucked into Kyle's world and stayed up way to late to finish it. And, yes, I was moved to tears by the end. I look forward to her next novel.
madaven More than 1 year ago
Heidi Ayarbe's debut is haunting tale of forgiving oneself. With vivid characters and a gut-wrenching story, Freeze Frame is a book that will stayed with me long after a I read the final word.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
And now he wants to fight so im gonna g deal with that sorry about all of this
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
I read the sample and it was ok. I think I might try this book.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
A great book, YOU would nit be able to put it down
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
Its starts of somewhat confusing but be the end i loved it
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
If you havn read this book you NEED to!! :) ;) :) ;) :) ;) LOVE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
This is my all time favorite book. Nothing else Ive read has ever touched me as strong emotionally as Freeze Frame. The author frequently makes connections to directors and other works which I loved. I highly recommend this book. Anyone who reads it will get attached. The second I layed eyes on the first page I couldnt put it down. Id give it 500 stars if possible.
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shawn164 More than 1 year ago
freeze frame was one of the best books i have read.i really like this boook beacuse there is alway something going on with their lives. i would recomened this book to teenagers and some adults. i really liked this book and you might to. so read it!
breathingfortomorrow More than 1 year ago
i never thought i could cry so much reading a book. ive read the twilight saga and im not sure which one i like more. if parents want their kids to get into reading, hand them this, then read it yourself. this book is just to amazing for words. i cant even begin to explain, but im begging you to read this book! there is no possible way youll be disappointed!
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Anonymous More than 1 year ago
"Freeze Frame" is a book that will stick in your head forever. The setting and characters blend into an unforgetable murder mystery. Kyle is a character who can make you wonder if the guilty murderers of the world are truly guilty at all, or if they are innocent. This is an amzing story that any teenager would like.
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TheVoice More than 1 year ago
i can't begin to describe the depth of this book. one minute it had me crying the next i would gain composure again, and then the next i'd be bawling. this pattern continued all the way to the end. it was so good, and gripping. I really became attached to Kyle and Jason. really portrays Kyles feelings well. and gives you a background of there friendship that only deepens your interest in amazing book.
i highly recommend this book.
TeensReadToo More than 1 year ago
No matter how hard he tries, Kyle just can't figure out that one scene that completes the movie he feels like he's in.

He has the beginning scenes. The first scene where Kyle and his best friend, Jason, are eating pancakes. As always, Jason uses up all of the syrup, making Kyle's dad go out and buy some more. After a little quarrel between the two, followed by an insult to his sister, Kyle and Jason run outside into the freezing cold. Not wanting to go back in, Kyle suggests the shed.

Once inside the shed everything goes blank - from here Kyle just cannot figure out the scene, the most important scene.

After the blackout, it's complete chaos - there's blood, calling 911, an ambulance, a trip to the hospital, and then off to a holding cell. Questioned, confused, Kyle just doesn't understand what has happened, or how it happened.

How he killed his best friend.

No matter how hard he tries, Kyle just cannot figure out the one scene that explains it all, the scene that decides whether he is innocent or not, the scene that ended with his best friend dead. Yet, if he can figure it all out, is it the end of the world for him, can he live with knowing the truth, or will it be too much for him to handle?

With brief interruptions of past events that Kyle and Jason shared, Heidi Ayarbe takes us on a breathtaking and thrilling journey of a boy trying to solve a mystery that leaves even the reader at the edge of their seats. Ayarbe creates a work of art using realistic thoughts and images that helps in developing a novel that will be gripped in the reader's hands until the very last page.

FREEZE FRAME is a great debut from a talented new author.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
A friend of my son gave him the book to read, they are 14-15. He passed it on to me and said "read it, please." I read it in one night, and the next morning my eyes were swollen from crying. He said "yeah...I teared up quite a bit too." I recommend this book to all teenagers and their parents, males and females alike. I really dont think anyone can come away from it without feeling the emotion that the writer wants you to experience. It also was enjoyable that the writer was a native to Carson City, our hometown, and the places she describes in her book about our town helps make a few scenes in the story that much more believable. Enjoy it!!! Have a box of tissues by your side!!!
Cool56 More than 1 year ago
I read this book in about three hours, and I recommend it to everyone :) It quickly became my favorite book.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
This is now one of my favorite books because it is such a great read. These are my favorite type of books.Great for teens.You would love it!