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In the wake of the fall of the Berlin Wall, the late twentieth century was a time of unprecedented hope for democracy and freedom in Eastern Europe. The collapse of the Soviet Union left in its wake a number of independent countries where the Scorpions’ 1990 pop ballad “Wind of Change” became a rallying cry. Communist propaganda was finally being displaced by Western ideals of a free press.
Less than two decades ago, young writers, journalists, and adventurers such as Katya Cengel flocked from the West eastward to cities like Prague and Budapest, seeking out terra nova. Despite the region’s appeal, neither Kyiv in the Ukraine nor Riga in Latvia was the type of place you would expect to find a twenty-two-year-old Californian just out of college. Kyiv was too close to Moscow. Riga was too small to matter—and too cold. But Cengel ended up living and working in both. This book is her remarkable story.
Cengel first took a job at the Baltic Times just seven years after Latvia regained its independence. The idea of a free press in the Eastern Bloc was still so promising that she ultimately moved to the Ukraine. From there Cengel made several trips to Chernobyl, site of the world’s worst nuclear disaster. It was at Chernobyl that she met her fiancé, but as she fell in love, the Ukraine collapsed into what would become the Orange Revolution, bringing it to the brink of political disintegration and civil war. Ultimately, this fall of idealism in the East underscores Cengel’s own loss of innocence. From Chernobyl with Love is an indelible portrait of this historical epoch and a memoir of the highest order.
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About the Author
Katya Cengel is a freelance writer based in San Luis Obispo, California, and lectures in the Journalism Department of California Polytechnic State University, San Luis Obispo. She was a features and news writer for the Louisville Courier-Journal from 2003 to 2011, and her work has appeared in the New York Times Magazine, the Wall Street Journal, the Washington Post, Marie Claire, and Newsweek. She is the author of Exiled: From the Killing Fields of Cambodia to California and Back (Potomac Books, 2018) and Bluegrass Baseball: A Year in the Minor League Life (Nebraska, 2012).
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Journalists Invade Former Soviet Union
Three things you shouldn't do in Chernobyl are visit, drink home brew vodka, and fall in love. I did them all. Not exactly in that order, and not in a single trip, which leads me to a fourth thing you shouldn't do: go back. But then I didn't know any of these things before I spent several weeks in a Ukrainian hospital, where even toilet paper was a luxury. Before I met the Bulgarian doctor who insisted I needed a shot in the butt; that's how he said it, not me. And before the Orange Revolution, which really began after Georgiy Gongadze lost his head.
First I need to explain how I ended up in Chernobyl. The best place to start is Oakland, where I was born in the mid-1970s. Then fast forward through an overanalyzed California childhood, skip through an extremely awkward adolescence, continue beyond a sober and far too productive college career, and stop at a water fountain in the San Diego Union-Tribune building. The year is 1998, and newspapers are still being read. I was a college senior without a car, majoring in literature writing with a minor in history. I had stretched an internship at the paper into freelance work and wasn't really looking for anything more than a ride home when I spotted the flyer:
REPORTERS NEEDED IN FORMER USSR
Even without the all-capital heading it would have caught my eye. You don't grow up during the tail end of the Cold War in a place like Berkeley with a name like Katya and not wonder about the Soviet Union. (I think one of my aunts gave my sister, Anikke, a Vladimir Lenin ABC book. It was red.) The jobs were not in Moscow but in the capitals of Latvia and Estonia, two countries I could safely say I knew nothing about. But the rhetoric was enticing.
"If you like the idea of covering infant democracy and whirlwind business but cringe at the idea of living in a Brezhnev-era apartment building, don't apply."
I took that as a challenge. I was tough enough, as the posting put it, to Be among the "first significant wave of ambitious English-language journalists to invade Europe's wild northeastern corner." Brezhnev-era apartment buildings be damned. Little did I know that those words, written with such authority, had been crafted by a guy not much older than me. Later I would meet the author, Eric, a Wisconsinite who had a talent for rhetoric matched by no one I have ever known. He would later become a lawyer. He could go on and on in several languages on topics as undecipherable to me in English as they were in German or Russian. So of course I slept with him. When the only other option was a bed in a room lacking several walls during a Russian winter, you would share a bed with a verbose intellectual and several plastic coke bottles filled with warm water as well. Nothing happened aside from sleep. I am still waiting for him to run for office.
Back up a bit to a time of dial-up internet. A time before there were programs that brought laptops to children in third world countries. A time when I was trying to figure out where and what Latvia was on a library computer. The first website I checked was the one listed on the job posting, the one For the newspaper doing the hiring, the English language Baltic Times, which covers the tiny Baltic countries of Latvia, Estonia, and Lithuania. Like so many websites back then, theirs was "under construction." Luckily for me my British stepfather — who had left his island homeland long before I entered the picture but had yet to become an American citizen — also remained loyal to the most British of publications, the Economist. It was within the pages of that hallowed magazine that he found articles on the Baltics and faxed them to me via a perpetual student friend who was crashing at the home of an old man down the street who owned a fax machine. Looking back, I think the man was probably in his early fifties, but I was twenty-one, and he limped, had white hair, and no longer worked.
The descriptions I read of the Baltics were slightly intimidating. A rest- less and, in some cases, rootless Russian population, leaders who tended toward nationalism, and a business model that seemed to include mafia involvement were just a few of the red flags being raised. But the job posting had hooked me, and the idea of working in a former Soviet outpost was only slightly more daunting than my other plan, which involved trying to get a writing job in the movie industry.
Today it may be hard to understand quite how rare a move this was. With email and the internet still in their infancy, knowledge of and com- munication with far-off countries was less common than it is now. It hadn't even been a decade since the fall of the Berlin Wall. And despite my name, I was not Russian. I was a California native who had spent the last four years in sunny, self-absorbed Southern California. I was tall and athletic with a perpetual smile. I rode my bike or rollerblades everywhere, worked as a waitress at a bakery restaurant, and went for runs on the beach. I lived on a street with a Spanish name that translated to "quiet road" and survived on frozen yogurt and bagels. The former USSR was about as far from Camino Tranquillo as it gets.
Latvia was not a place anyone I knew had ever heard of, let alone lived in or visited. Lithuania was vaguely familiar due to the bronze medals won by their tie-dye outfitted men's basketball team at the 1992 Barcelona Olympics. But the jobs were in Latvia and Estonia, another complete unknown. Applicants were supposed to state where they would prefer to work. I chose Latvia based on its geographical position between the other two countries, the paper's main office being there and a rumor that Estonians were standoffish.
My mother tried to prepare me for the eventual rejection by explaining that this was the first, and so far only, professional job I had applied for, and it usually takes several applications before an offer is extended. I knew this. But for some reason I felt I had a good chance of landing this job. I have no idea now what made me so sure of myself other than a few good clips from a decent-sized daily newspaper and extreme youth. But when the email arrived asking for a phone interview, the only one taken by surprise was my mother. I prepared with a little more Economist reading and as much surfing of the internet for Baltic stories as my patience would allow — the age of dial-up and "website under construction" notices meant you could spend ten minutes waiting for a single page to open.
The phone interview went as well as can be expected when two strangers separated by various time zones and bodies of water attempt to converse. The editor of the paper was not a Boris or a Vladimir but a Steve from New Jersey. He didn't sound much older than me and in fact wasn't.
A few days later he emailed with a job offer. I didn't pay much attention to the details. All that mattered was that I was going to the Baltics. At the time plenty of my fellow college students thought they had heard of the Baltics.
Didn't we bomb them?
Why do you want to go there?
Um, be careful.
But they were thinking of the Balkans, an area plagued by various wars since Yugoslavia began to break apart in the early 1990s; it was an area of the world Americans recognized. Now we also recognize not just Afghanistan but Iraq as well. Of course the Baltics are still a mystery to most. They probably would have remained so for me if I had not ended up living there. It was Latvia that would later draw me to Ukraine. Or, more precisely, my experience in Latvia led me to Ukraine. As a young reporter, my job options after returning to the United States were likely to include covering school board meetings and neighborhood zoning issues, neither of which held much appeal after I had interviewed diplomats, dignitaries, and former ss members for the Baltic Times. Ukraine, with its crumbling coal mines, organized corruption — and of course Chernobyl — had a strange appeal. My peers were chasing the riches of the original dot-com bubble. I was hungering to return to Soviet-era apartment buildings and borscht, neither of which I had ever experienced prior to Latvia.
I had been abroad before moving to Latvia. My family lived in England for a while when I was a teenager. I enjoyed the experience of baselessly being taunted as an American slut and getting shingles so much that, once back in California, I vowed never to leave my country or home state again. So I moved to Latvia. The decision may have had something to do with not knowing what else to do. My sister was in medical school, and my parents had made it clear when I graduated from high school that "home" was no longer with them. If the suitcase they gave me for graduation wasn't enough of a hint, their relocation to England and then a hippy ranch reachable only by dirt road did the trick. Communication was strained; my mom was never at the ranch, and their answering machine worked on solar power and tended to get fried. Eventually they settled in a small Northern California town reachable by both paved roads and societal norms. But by then I no longer connected them with "home."
My sister found security with her boyfriends' families. I didn't have a boyfriend. My best friend had recently married. I had felt comfortable in San Diego, but I had never fit in. I moved off campus the second week of my freshman year because I missed seeing old people. I didn't drink. I looked like your typical California golden child, but I had a tendency toward severe depression. Latvia offered a job and possibly an escape from the weighty emptiness that had returned in college after an almost decade-long absence. At the paper I would be with writers, a breed that I knew had its share of loners and lost souls. In my inexperience I took that as a good sign.
My unfamiliarity with cold climates, the former USSR, and professional jobs made packing rather challenging. I relied on the L. L. Bean catalogue for my coat, hat, gloves, and scarf. I figured a Maine company probably knew something about winter. The boots I special ordered weighed about twenty pounds and cost almost a hundred dollars. I was figuring out fast that the whole season thing made life more expensive when it came to apparel. Wags was a more reasonable, but just as necessary, purchase. A stuffed toy dog, Wags, I decided would be perfect to crush in my arms when I was scared and lonely and far from everyone and everything I knew. He cost twenty dollars, name included.
Fitting my new purchases in the two bags the airline allowed was not easy. Warm clothes take up far more space than summer shifts. And my list of necessities included rollerblades. I also packed a small pile of books, including a Baltic guidebook, and an even smaller pile of magazines. Laptops and cell phones were not common then, so the only electronics I took were a walkman and a travel alarm. I planned to rent a furnished apartment, so I didn't pack sheets or towels or other household items. But I did add some decorations, including a small dragon figurine and a cloth moon and star that would hang from a door knob. There were also photos of family and friends and a package of single-use medical needles and syringes. The needles were difficult to obtain but not nearly as difficult as the next item on my packing list: police clearance.
The difficulty did not arise from my having grown up in Berkeley, where just about everyone I knew had been weaned on marijuana. The problem was that there isn't really such a thing as police clearance in the United States, at least there wasn't pre-9/11. My new employer required that I prove I had a clean criminal record in the United States and wanted me to have a police officer state as much.
"You want what?" the cop on the other end of the phone line asked.
I repeated my request for the third time: "I'm moving to the Baltics, and I need a paper that says I have no criminal record in the United States."
"You're going to the Balkans and you're worried about criminal records?" "No, the Baltics, in the former Soviet Union."
"Oh Russia; I get it."
I decided not to correct him. "So can you write me a paper that says I don't have a criminal record?"
"That's not something we can do. But good luck in Russia."
I opted for an in-person request my second time round and after talking to several people finally was told to send them something in writing. A week or so later I received a letter back saying in effect that I had no record in their town but that I might be a mass murderer in Alabama. I got it notarized to make it look more official.
A slightly larger problem was the request that I bring my college transcript. I had not officially graduated when I accepted the job. In fact I was scheduled to graduate from the University of California at San Diego in fall 1998, three months after I moved to Riga, Latvia. I convinced two of my favorite professors to let me do independent study and brought an unofficial transcript with me. No one has ever questioned how I managed to graduate from college in San Diego while working in Riga. Before I left that summer, a friend bought me fleece pants, and my mom and stepdad held a surprise going-away party. The guests were as surprised as I was.
It was a warm day when I left, made even warmer by the fact that I was outfitted in full winter gear too bulky to pack. Wags went under my arm and a copy of Gogol's Dead Souls in my jacket pocket. My new editor spot- ted the book when we met and was instantly impressed. I didn't have the heart to tell Steve I had barely gotten through the first twenty pages. But I didn't know him yet and didn't know how important he would consider an appreciation of Gogol to be. I also figured I couldn't afford to dismiss any serious impression I had made since I was carrying a toddler-sized stuffed toy under my arm and a pair of rollerblades over my shoulder.
Actually the fact that I didn't know Steve — or anyone else in Latvia for that matter — didn't really cross my mind until I was somewhere in Europe waiting for a connecting flight. I got to talking with a group of American teenagers traveling to Poland on some sort of mission and realized that maybe I should have thought about more than winter boots and police clearance before moving to an unknown land. I would have been even more worried had I known what a departure from protocol it was for missionaries to be quizzing me on my language skills instead of my belief system. But this was before I spent almost a decade in Kentucky and became familiar with the ways of hard-core Christians.
Did I know Latvian?
Did I know anyone in the country?
Had I ever seen a hard copy of the Baltic Times?
Did I know if the company had money to pay me?
Did I have a phone number for Steve or an address for the newspaper?
Did I know if anyone would meet me at the airport?
My answer to pretty much all of their questions was the same: no. Except the last one. Steve knew my flight details, so I figured someone from the paper would be at the airport. But I wasn't sure. The missionaries seemed concerned. I figured it was too late for that.CHAPTER 2
A Festive Welcome
The missionaries had been right to worry.
As I scanned the crowds at the Riga airport for a "Welcome Katya" or "Baltic Times Reporter" sign, I wondered if I had been too quick to abandon my Catholic upbringing. Maybe if I had paid a little more attention at church, I would be in Warsaw now with a bunch of chipper Americans instead of alone in Riga surrounded by a crowd of dour Latvians.
I had noted the dark mood the minute I approached the gate for my Riga flight, and I would notice it whenever I returned to the region after spending time away. It was as if no one had told the people in the waiting area that the Soviet Union had collapsed and they were no longer prisoners of their government. I have since traveled to countries on four different continents, and at no airport gate have I encountered a darker mood than at those where the destination is a former Soviet bloc country. The usual airport types — crying babies, misty-eyed couples, and impatient professionals — are replaced at these gates by a uniformly subdued group of zombie-like creatures who appear to neither smile nor talk nor move. That the men favor short hair and black clothing and the women high heels and short skirts only exaggerates the general feeling of degradation.
Later my Latvian friends would say my smile gave me away as an American. Even with no one to greet me and a baggage cart weighed down with a year's worth of clothes, I smiled. That is probably how Steve spotted me. I was both relieved and disappointed to see him. I had been hoping for a welcome sign. No one had ever held one for me, and I figured landing alone in Riga, Latvia, was probably my best chance of anyone ever doing so. I was just out of college and still thought the whole sign idea rather romantic. I blamed Steve for ditching it and turning the thing into a game to see if he could spot his new employees. About five of us — three Americans, one Canadian, and a British girl named Denise — were hired around the same time and arrived within a few weeks of each other. Steve picked out all his staff members except one. Denise was barely five feet tall and literally slipped past the six-foot-plus Steve. Only after the crowd had thinned and they were the only two left did they locate each other. When I voiced my disappointment at the missing sign, Steve explained his game of guess-the-new-employee. If I had ever held a job other than waitressing and youth sports instructor, I might have been a little nervous on learning that basically half the writing staff had recently abandoned ship. But right then I was just happy that the man who had promised me a job had actually shown up.(Continues…)
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Table of Contents
List of Illustrations, ix,
PART 1. LATVIA,
1. Journalists Invade Former Soviet Union, 3,
2. A Festive Welcome, 10,
3. The Elusive Dane, Friendly Canadian, and Other Post-Soviet Workers, 18,
4. Happy Girl and the Flasher, 27,
5. Big Bad Accidents, 37,
6. Exile, 41,
7. The Nice Nazi and the Mean Jew, 47,
8. A God Other Than Lenin, 55,
9. Everything Is Normali, 60,
10. Pagans, Communists, and a Hill of Crosses, 64,
PART 2. CALIFORNIA/ENGLAND,
11. Back in the USSR, 75,
PART 3. UKRAINE,
12. A Wife Named Katya, 81,
13. Downing Vodka Shots at Chernobyl, 90,
14. Pirates, Mobsters, and Other Eligible Bachelors, 99,
15. The Enemy Outside, 107,
16. Heroes and a Woman Named Hope, 114,
17. Darkness at Dawn, 121,
18. Radioactive Romance, 129,
19. Children of Tomorrow, 134,
20. Wet Dreams, 141,
21. Home Remedies, 148,
22. Paddington Bear Gets in a Brawl, 157,
23. Atonement, 164,
24. Justice, 170,
25. London Calling, 179,
26. A Western Town in Ukraine, 186,
27. An Internal Attack, 191,
28. A Chance Engagement, 198,
29. Ukraine Accidentally Enters the War on Terror, 207,
30. Shallow Graves, 213,
31. Homeland, 217,
32. Disappearing Acts, 223,
33. Taken, 228,
34. The Missing, 228,
35. Shot in the Butt, 243,
PART 4. KENTUCKY,
36. A Revolution, 255,
37. Repeat Performance, 258,