Getting It Through My Thick Skull: Why I Stayed, What I Learned, and What Millions of People Involved with Sociopaths Need to Know

Getting It Through My Thick Skull: Why I Stayed, What I Learned, and What Millions of People Involved with Sociopaths Need to Know


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ISBN-13: 9780757313721
Publisher: Health Communications, Incorporated
Publication date: 07/21/2009
Pages: 256
Sales rank: 558,657
Product dimensions: 5.90(w) x 9.10(h) x 1.10(d)

About the Author

After a five-year courtship and a twenty-two-year marriage to Joey Buttafuoco, Mary Jo Buttafuoco now lives quietly in Ventura County, California, with her fiancé, Stu, and their "Brady Bunch" blended family. Visit the blog at

Julie McCarron is a New York Times bestselling author and celebrity collaborator. Her work includes Tracy Gold's Room to Grow, rocker Gene Simmons's Sex, Money, Kiss, and Why I Love Baseball with Larry King, among others.

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April Showers Bring May Prowlers

A bright, white light shone directly on my face, hurting my eyes as I opened them and struggled to focus. I could barely see; the light was blinding. Suddenly, a female figure dressed all in white appeared over me. She put her face near mine and immediately started calling my name: 'Mary Jo, Mary Jo!'
Who is this, and how does she know my name? I wondered groggily.

'You are at the Nassau County Medical Center, Mary Jo. You've been shot. But you're going to be okay. You're in the hospital; we're taking good care of you,' the woman said, enunciating very loudly and clearly.

Shot? I'd been shot? How very strange. I pondered this for a couple of seconds, and then the lights went out again.

I awoke sometime later gasping for air, panicking because I couldn't breathe and didn't know why. I vaguely recalled being told I'd gotten shot, though it seemed like a dream. I cast my mind back to the last thing I remembered: the girl I'd just seen. That girl who'd been at my house, some teenager, just a kid.

'Mary Jo! Mary Jo! Do you know who did this to you?' the nurse asked. I nodded my head 'yes.' It was that girl. I tried desperately to speak, but I couldn't breathe, I couldn't talk; it felt like a hundred-pound weight lay squarely on my chest, sucking all the air out of me. I can't breathe, I can't breathe! I made a motion of scribbling in the air, and a yellow legal pad and pen were produced and put into my hands.

I'm suffocating, I wrote. The word trailed off at the end, all over the paper, but the nurse was elated. Not only was I going to live, but clearly I wasn't paralyzed—I was still able to write. And I couldn't have much brain damage, since I'd spelled suffocating correctly. The machine that had been steadily breathing for me for the past few days was too slow now that I had awakened with anxiety flooding my system. The nurse took the breathing apparatus out of me and off of my chest. The relief was immediate; I could breathe again. I wrote, Was I shot?

'Yes,' the nurse replied simply.
'Why?' I wrote. She had no answer. I drifted off again, waking to see my husband, Joey, at my bedside examining the words on the pad. He handed it to me.
'Mary Jo, do you know who did this to you?' he asked.
'Nineteen-year-old girl,' I scribbled.

A girl? The police had been operating on the assumption that I had been attacked by a man in my backyard. This really threw Joey and the nurse. In fact, now they worried that I really did have brain damage, because what kind of girl would do this?

'Anne Marie,' I wrote down. 'T-shirt.' Little flashes were coming back to me. 'She said she . . . ' I was trying to explain to them what she told me—that her little sister was having an affair with Joey. But the effort exhausted me, and out I went again.

When I woke up again, my whole head was pounding, and there was a maddening ringing in my ears. I raised my hand to gingerly examine where the excruciating pain was centered, on the right side of my head, just in front of my ear. My fingers traced over a thick bandage, but I couldn't feel anything as I carefully examined my head. The entire right side of my head was completely numb, as if it had been shot full of Novocain. It felt like my face was hanging off of my skull. A couple of inches behind the bandage, I felt my hair—or what was left of it. The tracheotomy tube had been removed, and I could finally speak. My voice emerged for the first time in days.

'What happened to my hair?' I croaked. The right side of my head had been completely shaved for surgery; I had been given a radical buzz cut. Two uniformed police officers were in the room, along with Joe, his brother Bobby, and my parents. They all raced to my bedside, and even in my condition I was alarmed at how tired and haggard their familiar faces were. It hit me then. This is really bad. What a commotion I've caused! I tried my best to reassure my family that I was all right by making light of the situation, like I always did. I grabbed my mother's hand. 'You see, Ma? This thick skull really came in handy!'

'Do you remember what happened? Who did this to you?' That was all they wanted to know. Amazingly enough, I remembered everything.

I was outside on our backyard deck, painting the built-in wooden bench white to match my wicker furniture, which I'd recently removed from the garage, shaken off, hosed down, and covered in bright flowered cushions. It was a sunny morning in May, my favorite time of year. Prior to that, we muddled through the snow, ice, and endless gray days, knowing that with each passing day of gloom, spring and summer would be one day closer.

I felt lucky and grateful to be a stay-at-home mother in the most wonderful community I could imagine. Paul was in sixth grade, and Jessica was in third. My days were full with homework, after-school activities, volunteering at their grammar school, and serving on the board of the Biltmore Shores Beach Club. There was a constant round of birthday parties, bar and bat mitzvahs, holidays, communions, confirmations, and christenings throughout the year, but the social calendar really kicked in to high gear in the summertime—living as we did just a stone's throw from the water.

It was truly my dream house, and I lavished it with care and attention. Nothing too big or fancy, but perfect for our family of four. The front door opened into a small foyer, with stairs leading up to the second-floor bedrooms. To the left was the living room, which was light and airy. I had decorated in blues and whites. The walls were painted and wallpapered in pastels, and I had hand-stenciled the doorways. Large area rugs were scattered on top of light hardwood floors. Dried flowers and framed family pictures softened the room. The house was warm and cozy—a real home; it was a place I envisioned growing old in and someday having our grandkids visit. My fifteenth wedding anniversary was just around the corner. The plane tickets for our getaway celebration to Jamaica were upstairs on my dresser. I had a long list of projects I wanted to accomplish before we left.

I left the front door to the house wide open to let the fresh air circulate through the house while I painted. This also made it easy to see which friend was dropping by today. Massapequa was a small, close-knit community. I'd gone to high school and even grade school with many of my neighbors. We routinely ran over to one another's houses to borrow ingredients, have a quick cup of coffee, or plan upcoming club events.

I had only been working for about twenty minutes when I heard the doorbell chime. I shaded my eyes and looked through the glass French double doors that led from the dining room to the deck. A young girl was standing at the front door. I set the paintbrush on top of the open paint can and walked through the house, removing my painting gloves one finger at a time. 'What can I do for you?' I asked when I reached the front door.

'Are you Mrs. Buttafuoco?' she asked.
'Yes,' I said.
'Can I talk to you for a minute?' the girl asked.
'Sure, no problem,' I replied, as I opened the screen door and walked out onto the stoop.

The reassuring sounds of suburbia surrounded us: a car going down the street, lawnmowers and leaf blowers whining as neighbors tidied their lawns for summer. Noise from hammers and drills, along with faint laughter and teasing voices, drifted over from the beach club as my neighbors made repairs before the club officially opened for the season in four days.

I glanced at the unfamiliar car parked across the street and saw a young man sprawled in the driver's seat. My first thought was that these were teenagers looking for an estimate on a car repair. Over the years, people occasionally stopped by the house to ask my husband, Joey, an auto body specialist, to do a preliminary assessment. He and his brother Bobby worked in the family business his father, Cass, had founded: Complete Auto Body and Fender, Inc., located just a few miles away in the neighboring town of Baldwin. I stood outside now, gloves in hand.

'I need to talk to you about your husband, Joey,' the girl began. I leaned against the wooden railing on the right side of the front stoop. The girl faced me, leaning against the left side. There were about five feet between us. She took a deep breath. 'I came here to tell you that Joey is having an affair with my little sister,' she blurted out. This kid standing in front of me appeared to be about fourteen years old. My first reaction to this was simple disbelief. I didn't feel upset or threatened. I just looked at her skeptically. 'Your little sister?! How old are you?'

'I'm nineteen.' She started to get nervous.
'And how old is your little sister?'
'She's sixteen . . . didn't you hear what I just told you?'
'I heard you, but I'm having a little trouble believing you. What's your name?' She hesitated.
'Anne Marie.'
'And where do you live, Anne Marie?'
'In Bar Harbor . . .' the girl pointed directly behind me.

I had lived in the area all my life. I knew where Bar Harbor was, and she had pointed in the wrong direction. Something was wrong here, but I couldn't figure out what she was doing. Why was she so nervous? What was she lying about?

'Aren't you upset by what I'm telling you?'

'What are you so nervous about, Anne Marie?' I asked. Apparently, I wasn't reacting the way she'd expected. To be completely honest, though I acted nonchalantly, I was a little caught off guard by what she said, but I knew she was lying about something. I had a twelve-year-old son and a nine-year-old daughter, and this encounter reminded me of the times I had caught them both in lies. This is exactly what I was dealing with now. Only this wasn't my kid.
The whole incident was starting to annoy me. I was busy. I had painting to do, and I wasn't sure where this conversation was going, but I was tired of it already. She was becoming quite indignant; she could see that she wasn't getting through to me.

'Don't you think it's disgusting that a forty-year-old man is having sex with a sixteen-year-old?'
What could I say to that?

'Well, sure, but don't make him forty yet; he's only thirty-six.' I was half-smiling because I was being nice to her, trying to humor her. 'I'm also having a hard time believing what you're telling me,' I said. I pointed to the car across the street. 'Who's that?' I asked.

'That's my boyfriend. I have proof!' she said abruptly. Suddenly, she thrust a Complete Auto Body shirt at me. I took it from her and examined it. It was one of the new white polo-style golf shirts with the company name and logo of a race car with checkers stitched on the left breast. Joey had just brought a stack of them home a few days before. 'I found this in my little sister's bed when I was making it! He came over during work and had sex with her and left his shirt!'

It was definitely time to end this meeting. It had lasted no longer than two minutes, but this kid was sounding more and more like an idiot. 'He left this in the bed and went back to work with no shirt on?' She didn't have an answer for that one. 'Look, Anne Marie, I don't know what you want me to do about this, but I'll go inside and call Joey and tell him you came by.' I was calm. Possibly a little annoyed, but my annoyance was directed more toward my husband at that moment. Joey was a big overgrown kid, my number one child. Long experience had taught me that whenever there was trouble, Joey was usually the culprit. What misunderstanding had he gotten mixed up in now? This Anne Marie was so obviously lying to me, but why? And for what?

And then, because my parents raised me to be polite, I said briskly, 'Thanks for coming by.' I turned to my right, and got my thumb caught on the handle of the screen door. That split second would be the end of my life as an anonymous housewife in suburban Long Island. An explosion went off on the right side of my head—and everything went black.

©2009. Mary Jo Buttafuoco. All rights reserved. Reprinted from Getting It Through My Thick Skull. No part of this publication may be reproduced, stored in a retrieval system or transmitted in any form or by any means, without the written permission of the publisher. Publisher: Health Communications, Inc., 3201 SW 15th Street, Deerfield Beach, FL 33442

Table of Contents

Introduction 1

Chapter 1 April Showers Bring May Prowlers 7

Chapter 2 Wheels of Justice 27

Chapter 3 A Match Made in Massapequa 45

Chapter 4 Going Bonkers in Baldwin 62

Chapter 5 The Narcissist Next Door 77

Chapter 6 Notorious J.O.E 84

Chapter 7 Good-Bye L.I., Hello L.A 99

Chapter 8 Rehabilitation 122

Chapter 9 Gumption Junction 143

Chapter 10 Flying Solo 164

Chapter 11 Love Redux 185

Chapter 12 Stu to the Rescue 203

Chapter 13 The Life Lift 218

Afterword 243

Acknowledgments 247

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Getting It Through My Thick Skull: Why I Stayed, What I Learned, and What Millions of People Involved with Sociopaths Need to Know 3.5 out of 5 based on 0 ratings. 16 reviews.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
Even though we know the plot, we don't really know the story. Mary Jo is generous in sharing memories that I bet she would really rather forget in this book. Don't start with this book until you've got the time to read it all the way through. It's hard to put down. I think every woman needs to read this book so that they will have a benchmark for crazy relationships. You may think that what your significant other is doing is "normal," but read this book, think again, and save yourself. Mary Jo Buttafuoco is a better woman than I am. I am truly humbled by her strength, courage, and indomitable spirit. She is a true inspiration to all women IMHO.
toenails More than 1 year ago
I bought it...I loved it...I recommend it!! It's about time Mary Jo tells her side of the story and how she got through it. She is very honest about her reasons for staying with Joey, her healing, her troubles, and how she survived it. She is a remarkable woman and can teach us all something about family, forgiveness, and perseverance. I hope everyone reads this and finds a way to make peace with their own demons, as she's done.
SuzieA More than 1 year ago
I was interested in the book because of the title. What I liked about it was her story---she was truthful but did not come across as a "poor me victim". This is a sad but true story of a woman who fell in love with a selfish, self-centered man and her journey to the discovery and truth of her situation. She deserves all the happiness she has found.
Anonymous 13 days ago
Appreciate this story. I can't imagine how hard it would be for Mary Jo to have to tell it. But, glad she did, I learned much. Thanks !
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
Mary was an ordinary woman in extraordinary circumstances . That she lives life with such grace is more than one might expect . Moreover hers is a cautionary tale.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
While it does tell her side of the story, it doesn't live up to the claim on the front cover of "what millions of people involved with sociopaths need to know". There are better books available for learning about sociopaths. This book is all about Mary Jo, from beginning to end. If that's all you're interested in, you will love this book.
voyager8 More than 1 year ago
I am so sorry Mary Jo for looking down my nose all those years ago at a starnger's pain and thinking ugh what an idiot for being Mrs Joey Buttafuoco. I was young and judgemental and needed to learn compassion. Mary Jo is a hero who put herself aside in such extreme circumstances to hold her family together. She was fighting a loosing battle but her selflessness is clear in this book. Mary Jo is one tough cookie,a fighter and an honest and interesting person. Thanks for setting the record straight. A good read tells us about ourselves as this book certainly does and for me explores the curious phenom of blaming the victim that permiates our society.
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Mary Jo gives us all the gory details about her suffering after Amy Fisher shot her in the head. She explains how blind she was to her husband's motives and behavior. Like so many people, she was raised in a happy home and had no idea that sociopaths are among us. Her purpose in writing the book is to tell people the story behind the lurid headlines. Thank you, Mary Jo. If I had a teenager, I would give her or him this book.
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Some errors on some pages.