God-Jesus-Wild Horses is not your normal story, but rather a culmination of my
thoughts and feelings during my first year of intense psychotherapy for childhood-related
post-traumatic stress disorder issues, and how my belief in God, Jesus, and
wild horses gave me the strength to survive the torture and humiliation I was forced
My therapist asked me to write down my thoughts and when I started, I could not
stop. I wrote and wrote and the more I wrote, the more memories and intrusive
thoughts would come to mind. It was as if I didn’t have any choice in this matter,
I had to get the thoughts out of my head and onto paper; otherwise, I was sure I would
go completely insane. The more I wrote, the more I was encouraged by my treatment
team to publish my writings. My primary goal in publishing is to help others that did
go through similar experiences and/or to help those that are currently being abused.
My abuse was physical, emotional, and sexual at the hands of my father. I was brought
up to honor thy father and mother and didn’t fully comprehend what my father was
doing was wrong. I thought since he was my father, he had every right to treat me
however he chose and my punishment was warranted because I was not able to do
anything right. I thought I had a defective brain.
The person that was put on earth to love and care for me didn’t just abuse me, he
tortured me using all means that were available to hurt and humiliate and try to do
whatever it took to break my spirit.
My father never did break my spirit because God, Jesus, and wild horses were always
there for me when I needed them the most.