It often takes a crisis to see what a life's shape has been, to show what really matters. For Peter Conradi, the moment came in 1982. This is his account of the new life-journey he embarked on back then. It is a self-help book for cynics, totally unpatronising, full of wise comedy, in which it quickly becomes clear that 'going Buddhist' is neither a quick fix, nor a one-shot deal. The book is dedicated to the memory of his friend and mentor. Iris Murdoch, with whom over many years Conradi discussed the meaning of religion, its place in the world, and the Buddhist pursuit of 'Good'. Drawing on these conversations, and the remarkable letters they exchanged, he seeks to explain the beauty of Buddhism, a religion now more relevant than ever to Westerners, perishing from the nihilism of the age.