Grace Barnum's life is precariously balanced on sensible choices and uncomfortable compromise. She dutifully edits textbooks that, she fears, may be more harmful than helpful to kids. She is engaged to a patent attorney who is steady and reliable. She has a cautious relationship with her fascinating father, a renowned New York painter, and she prefers her mom slightly drunk.
Always a planner, Grace feels prepared for most eventualities. Until the responsibility-challenged Tyler Wilkie shows up. Fresh in town from the Poconos, Tyler has warm eyes, a country drawl, and a smile that makes Grace drop things. Worst of all, he writes devastating songs. About her.
Tyler reaches something in Grace, something she needs, but can't admit to. Something she wants, but won't succumb to. Tyler Wilkie loves Grace Barnum and ruins everything. And Grace grows.
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SHELLE SUMNERS has worked as a waitress, actress, copy editor, bookseller, and wedding chapel receptionist. Sometimes she only pretended to do these things while furtively scribbling notes for screenplays and novels. Shelle lives with her husband, Lee Morgan, and daughter in Pennsylvania.
SHELLE SUMNERS has worked as a waitress, actress, copy editor, bookseller, and wedding chapel receptionist. Sometimes she only pretended to do these things while furtively scribbling notes for screenplays and novels. Shelle lives with her husband, Lee Morgan, and daughter in Pennsylvania. She is the author of Grace Grows.
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By Shelle Sumners
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day zero: my unravelment begins (unravelment: is that a word?)
The first time I met Tyler Wilkie, I was dressed like a call girl.
By pure, titillating coincidence, my strategy for work that day was cleavage. The big guns. Or, in my case, the medium, Bverging-on-C ones. Because yesterday, having dressed like a Mennonite librarian for our meeting with the textbook lobbyists from Texas, I'd sat there mute and limp while imagination was besieged by the powers of ignorance.
Forbes and Delilah Webber loved my blouse with the Peter Pan collar. Delilah called me "the sweetest little thing" and "precious." They promised to recommend our middle school Teen Health textbook for statewide adoption if we agreed to:
a) Remove all information regarding condoms.
b) Change the word imagine to suppose.Imagine being "too like the word magic — it might upset some people."
They also asked us to get them orchestra seats to The Lion King.
After the meeting, I begged my boss to refuse the Webbers. My traitorous coeditor Edward, who happens to be from Texas, capitulated and offered to do the edits, reminding me that we "don't mess with Texas" and its four-hundred-million- dollar book-buying budget.
We were meeting with the Webbers again today, to show them the changes. I didn't know what I could do to stop the anti-imagine machine. I had tried to come up with a plan all the sleepless night, and I had nothing. This ship was going to sink, but I decided that I, their "sweetest little thing," could at least try to look taller going down. I could project confidence and strength. Defiance. Sex. A tall, cruel, European dominatrix vibe.
It was so not me.
I donned the black pin-striped suit my mother gave me for Christmas two years ago, which I have worn exactly once. To a funeral. Only I hiked the skirt up a couple inches and wore my push-up bra. Found an ancient pair of stockings in the back of my drawer. Then I squeezed into the black, four-inch-stiletto-heeled, pointy-toed shoes I bought on sale at Lord & Taylor to go with the suit. I pulled my hair into a low, severe knot, and put on mascara and lipstick. Red.
I pulled on my raincoat and grabbed an umbrella, my laptop, and the twenty-pound green leather shoulder bag that contained All I Might Conceivably Need, which might include (but was not limited to):
big hair clip
book (Lolita, it happened)
bottle of water
bag of raw cashews
70% dark chocolate bar apple
red cardigan sweater
tacky vinyl zipper bag with photo of fuzzy kitten on it, stocked with:
small tube of antibiotic ointment
antihistamine and antidiarrheal tablets
Tylenol with caffeine
Tylenol with codeine
water lily oil
travel-size Shower Fresh Secret
tea light and matches
tiny fold-up scissors with needle and black thread
ginger tea bags
pocket copy of Strunk and White's The Elements of Style, for grammatical emergencies (memorized,
but sometimes a tired mind becomes uncertain)
Oh, and one more thing: the silver pocket angel Edward gave me, wedged deep into a rip in the lining of the bag. Thus aggressively attired and equipped for any eventuality, I headed down the three flights of stairs to the lobby. Big dogs, barking.
I came around the last bend in the stairwell and saw them — our across-the-hall-neighbor Sylvia's prize-winning giant schnauzers — tugging at a guy who sat at the bottom of the steps with their sparkly leashes wrapped around his hand. He heard me coming and moved to one side, murmuring "sorry," as I stepped carefully around him.
When I reached the door, God help me, I looked back. Might as well have gone ahead and turned to salt.
He was rubbing his face.
"Everything okay?" I chirped, willing him to say yes so I could go. The dogs shifted their Batman-like ears toward me.
"Uh, not really. She left me a note." He spoke with a slightly countryish kind of drawl that reminded me, unpleasantly, of the Webbers. "Blitzen and uh ... Bismarck here have just been groomed for a show and I'm not supposed to get their feet wet."
Clearly Sylvia was even more insane than I had suspected. And the guy looked pathetically bleak.
"Hold on," I said, and went back upstairs. I grabbed a cheap umbrella from the pile of extras in our hall closet and a box of zipper bags from the kitchen, and rooted around in our junk drawer until I came up with an assortment of rubber bands and a roll of masking tape.
I tiptoed back downstairs (the shoes), sat next to the guy, and bagged one of Blitzen's meticulously pedicured paws while she tickled my neck with her beard.
Once I had just about successfully finished the first foot, I looked to see if the guy was watching and learning.
He lifted his eyes from my chest and said, "Oh hey, thanks!" He grabbed a bag and got busy on Bismarck.
It took the two of us about six minutes to double-bag all eight paws. Then I lurched back up en pointe, belted my raincoat firmly across my waist, and picked up my laptop bag. The guy stood too, handed me Big Green, and startled me with a smile that was blindingly sweet. I blinked and lost my grip on the strap, but he caught it and resettled the purse firmly on my shoulder.
"Thanks, you really saved me," he said.
I held out the umbrella. "Here, take this. I think the rain's just about stopped for now, but you might need it later."
He smiled the smile again and tucked the umbrella in the pocket of his army/navy outerwear.
"I'll bring it back to you," he said. "What's your apartment number?"
I waved a hand. "Don't worry about it."
He took up the dogs' leashes and pushed the door open for me. Blitzen and Bismarck pulled him toward the park and I tippy-toed double time in the other direction, toward the subway.
"Hey!" I heard him call out.
I turned around. He was at the other end of the block. He mouthed the words thank you.
I smiled and shrugged. No big deal.
day zero continues and I encounter my doom, again
Damn. The Webbers canceled the meeting so they could go on a Hudson River breakfast cruise. They promised their approval over the phone, and I had dressed like one of Robert Palmer's "Addicted to Love" video girls for absolutely no reason.
Ed came out of his office and saw me limping down the hallway. The shoes were killing me. "Oh, the fashion fuck-you!" he said. "Too bad they canceled, it almost works."
"What's wrong with it?" I asked.
"You're about a foot too short. Not even a little intimidating."
"Your blacks don't match. The suit is blue-black and the stockings are green-black."
"And I can see the lines of your granny panties."
"And they shouldn't be there." He patted my shoulder. "Grace, stick to your strengths."
I was still mad several hours later when Edward and I went out for dinner at Herman's Piano Bar. It was our Tuesday thing. My friend Peg would join us when she wasn't working on a show, but now she was assistant stage manager of the new Broadway musical Tie Me Up! Tie Me Down!, with Antonio Banderas reprising his movie role. It was a big hit, so Peg wouldn't be with us at Herman's for a while.
I dragged a large fragment of greasy onion ring through the puddle of ranch dressing and ketchup on my plate. "So what is wrong with you Texas people, anyway?"
He looked at me darkly. "Are you associating me with those yahoos?"
"You're from Houston. So are they."
"And am I like them?"
No. He wasn't, at all. It gave me hope that there were other sane Texans. "Okay, I'll shut up," I said.
"Yes, I believe you will!" he pretty much shouted. The sour was kicking in.
I slid his glass away. "Eat more, drink less."
Edward barked his distinctive, walruslike bellow of a laugh, and the woman sitting on the other side of him turned around and shushed us. "We're trying to hear the singer!" she hissed.
Ed and I looked at each other. Who listens to the singer?
Apparently everyone. The room had actually gotten quiet; hardly anyone was talking.
The voice ... how to describe it? Piercingly soulful might be a start. He was singing a ballad I'd never heard before, and the words — something about trying to find home — combined with the quality of his voice, put a knot in my stomach. But not necessarily in a bad way. More in a Jesus Christ, who is that making me feel this way? way.
I stood on the rungs of my barstool and balanced against Ed's shoulder so I could get a look at the singer. He was hunched over the keyboard, mouth on the microphone, eyes closed, moving his body the same sinuous way his voice was moving — all over the place, but never out of control.
He finished the song and people clapped. A lot. And said woo-hoo! And whistled. He looked out at us all, a little surprised, it seemed. People quieted down and he launched into another song.
Ed looked at me. "He's amazing."
"I know that guy!" I said, not quite believing it myself.
He wasn't wearing the knit cap, and he had a terrible haircut — too short and choppy — but it was definitely him.
The dog walker.
He finished his allotted second song and I watched him squeeze through the crowd. He stopped a few times to shake an offered hand or listen attentively to a comment, but finally made it to the end of the bar, several people down from me. The next performer was up and talking into the mic, so the bartender had to speak loudly while he was pulling the guy a beer.
Bartender: You wrote those songs, man?
Dog Walker: Yeah.
Bartender: Awesome. You have more?
Dog Walker: Lots more.
The bartender leaned in closer to say something else and I lost the thread. I waited till they finished talking and told Edward I'd be back in a minute.
On approach, I studied him more closely than I had this morning. He was pale, rather gawky, all Adam's apple and bad haircut. A kid, really.
I reached up and tapped him on the shoulder. He turned.
"Hi," I said.
"Hey!" he said. "It's you!"
He gave me that radiant smile and the gawk factor inexplicably transferred from him to me. Suddenly he was grace, and I wasn't.
"You're shorter than this morning," he said.
"Oh, yes." My face was getting warm. Annoying! "I had on those tall shoes."
"Yeah, they were pointy."
"Yes, I was trying to — well, I don't usually dress like that."
He nodded. "It looked hot, but painful."
"What's your name?" I asked.
"Tyler Wilkie." He definitely had a drawl. "What's yours?"
He lit up. "Like the circus?"
We looked at each other and it occurred to me that he was autumn-colored. Auburn hair. Hazel eyes. He tilted his head and the corner of his mouth turned up, and I became aware that it was time to go. Edward had a late date and would want to leave. And Steven, my boyfriend, was probably home from work by now.
"Nice to meet you again, Tyler. I liked your singing."
"Thank you, Grace," he said courteously.
I turned to leave, but he tugged on my sleeve. "Your eyes are this color."
I glanced down at my sweater. Yes, pretty close. Bluish gray.
"And your face is shaped like a heart," he added.
How charmingly random! "Oh, is it?"
"Yeah. I noticed it this morning." His finger traced the air, following the curve of my cheek.
"Well, I really have to go now."
He shoved his hands into his pockets. "Okay, Grace Barnum. See ya."
* * *
I huddled under Ed's arm as we headed down Columbus. The temperature must have dropped ten degrees since the morning.
"I don't feel good about the health book, Ed. What if we were teenagers in Texas?"
"And how did you learn about condoms?"
Ed shrugged. "Word of mouth?"
"It just doesn't make any sense. They don't want people to have abortions, but they don't want them to learn how to prevent pregnancy!"
"Baby girl, it drives me right up the wall too."
"And imagine! I mean ... imagine? How can we participate in this travesty?"
"I hear you."
"And Bill. What is it with him? He's so deadpan. Doesn't he feel?"
"He's just doing his job."
"If you're not careful with Bill he'll transfer you to the New Jersey office. And I would miss you."
I sighed. "It doesn't feel good, Ed."
"Listen. It would be nice to try to save the children, but first we have to put the oxygen mask on ourselves."
"You know, when you're on a plane and they give you those instructions —"
"Boy, you are really bugging me."
"It's just a fact, Grace. We can't fix everything."
His complacency was driving me crazy. But Edward grew up a gay black kid in Texas in the late seventies, and probably had a lifetime of sublimating injustices and sad things he couldn't change. You'd think I'd be that way, too, from some of the hard stuff in my childhood. But I grew up watching my mother forge platinum out of rust. It was going to take me a while to accept this imagine thing.
We said good-bye at the corner of Seventy-ninth and Columbus.
I turned around. It was Tyler Wilkie, half a block behind me. I waited till he caught up.
"Hey," I said.
"Hey." He was wearing his fatigue jacket and knit cap, and had a canvas guitar case strapped to his back. "Are you headed home?"
"You shouldn't go alone," he said. "I'll walk you."
"Thank you, but that's really not necessary," I said.
"I'm going this way anyway."
I shrugged and started walking.
He caught up. I looked at him sideways. "You play the guitar, too?"
"Yeah. Mostly guitar. I play piano if they have one."
I could see our breath. I wound my wool scarf around my neck an extra rotation and pulled it up over my ears. "Are you from Texas?"
He laughed. "No!"
"The Poconos. Monroe County. Why?"
"You just sound kind of ... Southern, or countryish, or something."
"Maybe you're mixing up small-town Pennsylvania with Southern."
"Yeah, I guess so. And now you live in the city?"
"Yes, ma'am, for six whole days." I looked up at him, probably kind of sharply, and he smiled. "You're by far the nicest person I've met."
I laughed. "Six days? Are you serious?"
"Why'd you come?"
"To see if I can get people to listen to my music. Maybe get some paying gigs." He looked at me. "How long do you think I should give it?"
"Gosh, I have no idea. ..." How old could he be? Nineteen? "Maybe you should go to college first."
"I tried that already."
"Oh? Where'd you go?"
"Community college. For a year. I didn't like it."
"Well ... maybe it just wasn't the right school?"
He shook his head. "School's not for me. Not now, anyway."
The light changed as we came to the corner of Amsterdam and we crossed the street. I couldn't imagine taking such a gamble, moving to Manhattan with no education.
"Well, I hope it all works out," I said. "You're certainly very talented."
"You'll probably need to give it some time."
"I been thinking five years, and then I'll know."
"Oh, yes." I felt somewhat more cheerful for him. "And you'll still be young, you can go back to school."
"I won't be that young," he laughed. "I'm twenty-eight."
Twenty-eight? He couldn't be my age, with that boy face. "I'm the same age," I said. "For some reason, I thought you were a lot younger."
"Really?" he said. "I figured we were about the same, or maybe I was older. When's your birthday?"
Turned out he was older. By two months.
We came to Broadway and before the walk signal came on he took my hand and pulled me into the crosswalk. Halfway across we had to dash to the corner to miss being tagged by a homicidal taxi driver. It didn't bode well for Tyler Wilkie surviving five more days, let alone five years.
My building was just a couple of blocks up. "I'll be fine from here. Thank you."
"Okay," he said, blowing into his cupped hands and pulling his collar up around his ears.
"Where do you live?" I asked.
"Forty-seventh, between Ninth and Tenth."
"You can get the train right there." I pointed to the subway entrance across the street.
"Oh yeah, thanks. Well, 'bye, Grace." He leaned down. To my embarrassment I reflexively leaned away, and the kiss he must have been aiming at my cheek landed on the tip of my nose. We both laughed.
"'Bye. Thank you." I headed across Seventy-ninth.
Halfway up the block I peeked back over my shoulder. He had bypassed the subway and was walking briskly down Broadway, head down, hands tucked under his arms.
* * *
Steven was on the couch, watching The Matrix. He probably had a rough day. He rewatched The Matrix the way I rewatched Chocolat. And how about that Carrie Ann Moss!
"How long have you been home?" I asked, shedding my coat.
"A couple hours."
Steven is a big, bearlike guy, six-four. Solid. Gentle, with kind blue eyes. I sometimes jokingly called him Even Steven.
I kissed him lightly on the cheek and went to bed. I didn't want to disturb him in the middle of the "I know kung fu!" scene; it was probably recalibrating his entire outlook on life.
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Table of Contents
I. the first autumn,
1. day zero: my unravelment begins (unravelment: is that a word?),
2. day zero continues and I encounter my doom, again,
3. lunch with Julia and my subsequent urge for cloistration,
4. book lady Boo Radley and warm vanilla,
5. new faces, old songs, hungry girls, and the importance of apostrophizing,
6. drinking at work: the dream and the reality,
7. arson becomes a subconscious possibility,
9. sad, inevitable, winter wedgie,
10. learning the Heimlich/hearing the song,
11. reassigning the angel,
12. blue Fiji swimming head,
III. autumn, again,
14. my bff, the Lizard King,
15. songs of love or concealing the bling,
16. a country herbal,
17. Barcalounging, bloat, and bouquets,
18. Gram is crackers,
19. the fall,
20. ruin and resolution or the smell of cloves still makes me sad,
21. Big Green declares independence me, too,
23. bird's-eye view,
IV. autumn, schmautumn,
25. voracious reversion to virgin try saying that a few times,
27. plans b and c and the Walrus, laughing,
28. my angel returns,
28. the chapter where, understandably, certain people get very upset with me,
30. the father,
31. family matters,
32. Susannah Grace, 2.0,
34. a breath away,
38. the weird summer,
39. the fourth autumn,
Ty's songs for Grace,
Grace and Ty's playlist,
About the Author,
Most Helpful Customer Reviews
Grace Grows is one of those deceptive books that sucks you in without you realizing it. You find yourself slowly enveloped by Grace's world and her very real character. And that's what's so wonderful. Sumner gives us someone in Grace with whom we can identify--if we are truly honest with ourselves. She's refreshing, funny, scared, and eventually brave. I loved her.
This book was amazing and really sucks you in! I read it in one day and just couldn't put the book down. Wonderful characters and story line. Definitely a must read!
I absolutely LOVED this book, it was raw and real. Sometimes Grace made me so mad for her decisions regarding Ty but she was true to herself. I am in love with Ty. I vote for a book 2! HIGHLY RECOMMEND!
I got this book as a gift and read it in 2 days. I loved it! Sumners' knows how to draw characters that are real and tells their story with sharp wit and engaging dialogue. I cared about Grace (Big Green!) and Tyler and their story will stay with me for a long time. Where is Sumners' next book? I'm ready for it!!
I loved loved loved this book! This book will be one of the few that I will probably read over again. I was very disappointed to learn that there are not more books by this author out yet. I will definitely be on the lookout for her next one.
Every once in a while I'll read a book I'll fall in love with. It's the characters, the story, the emotions they evoke in me, and how I feel and think about the book long after I've put it down. When I fall for a book, I also fall for its author because ultimately it's their blood, sweat, tears, and hard work I'm enjoying. Grace Grows was a book I wasn't expecting to love. Enjoy, maybe, but not love. Especially since I dragged my feet on starting the book. Boy did that change the moment I met Tyler. You wouldn't expect Tyler and Grace to work together, especially since they are so different, but they did. I loved the dynamic between them and was rooting for Grace to let Tyler in from almost the beginning. Granted, their initial meetings weren't so great, but I could see that spark between them. I find it funny I liked Grace as much as I did. I've already mentioned she and Tyler are almost polar opposites in personalities. Tyler was ready to jump in and commit himself while Grace was hesitant and reluctant. I loved that their chemistry wasn't instant so much as it slowly developed over time. It felt a lot more like reality as opposed to fiction. This book had some really feel good moments. I did a lot of laughing, some crying, and a whole bunch of groaning. Both Grace and Tyler made some choices that I didn't agree with, but I couldn't judge or condemn them for it. They always had the best interests of each other at heart. I honestly do not understand why this book didn't go viral and have all 5 star reviews everywhere. I sincerely feel like this book is a hidden gem and you can't help but fall for Grace and Tyler once you meet them. I've been stalking, well following Shelle Sumner on Facebook and Twitter. I'm really excited to see she's been writing a new book. I honestly can not wait to read it. Her debut book stole my heart and I'm just eager to see what she does with the next one. If you happen to see this Shelle, I wouldn't mind more Grace and Tyler! :)
I LOVED this book! I couldn't put it down. Grace is your sister or best friend. You follow her through heartbreak and discovery. I also liked the soundtrack on Sumner's website. Since music is important to the characters, it's nice to be able to actually hear the music!