Hannah, Delivered

Hannah, Delivered

by Elizabeth Jarrett Andrew


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Hannah, Delivered by Elizabeth Jarrett Andrew

Late one night in a busy St. Paul hospital, a nurse-midwife drags Hannah Larson out from behind her reception desk to assist with a birth. When Hannah witnesses that baby tumble into the world, her secure, conventional life is upended by a fierce desire to deliver babies. So begins Hannah's journey away from her comfort zone. In a midwifery apprenticeship in New Mexico, she befriends a male midwife, defends a teenage mom, and learns to trust women's bodies, then moves back to Minnesota to start her own illicit birth practice. Hannah's need to stay safe proves both an asset and a liability; home birth isn't legal in Minnesota in the 1990's. To deliver healthy babies, Hannah risks jail time, her community's respect, and her career. The key to unlocking her fear rests in one birth—her own. "Hannah, Delivered" tells the story of how inexplicable passion, buried strength, and professional skill delivers one woman from fear into a rich and risk-filled life.

Product Details

ISBN-13: 9781940192185
Publisher: Koehler Books
Publication date: 05/01/2014
Pages: 300
Sales rank: 353,017
Product dimensions: 5.90(w) x 8.90(h) x 0.90(d)

About the Author

Elizabeth Jarrett Andrew is the author of "Swinging on the Garden Gate", "Writing the Sacred Journey: The Art and Practice of Spiritual Memoir", and "On the Threshold: Home, Hardwood, and Holiness." She is a writing instructor and spiritual director and is a recipient of a Minnesota State Arts Board artists' fellowship, the Loft Career Initiative Grant, and a finalist for the Minnesota Book Award. Learn more about her work at www.spiritualmemoir.com and www.elizabethjarrettandrew.com.

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1. Lit Match 
Have you ever noticed that a midwife’s quickest route to fame is screwing up? 
I’m a lucky exception—my screwiest birth was a success, and that’s what rattled the authorities.  A soft-faced mother, a glowing father, a filmy newborn flopping into my hands… But birth done quietly, naturally, in the bowels of the night, can make medical institutions go ballistic and upend our country’s laws. 
You asked about my night in jail and how I felt the next morning when I found my name headlined on the front page of the Minneapolis Star Tribune.  You and everyone else!  If you want to be my apprentice you need to understand that the sensational births are insignificant compared with the thousand ordinary moments that come before, private moments when we choose life over death and allow ourselves to be imperceptibly changed.  These are what make a midwife. 
So yes, I’ll tell you the story.  
It begins with a mother, as all midwives’ stories do:  My beautiful mother, her silvery blond hair clipped back, hands clasped, the wedding ring a bit loose on her finger, her cheeks more heavily blushed than she would have liked, her mouth relaxed.  Against white satin her practical wool skirt and chunky shoes seemed dowdy.  Before the doors opened for the viewing I hesitated over her, shocked, regretful, trying to trace my origins back into her elegant body.  She seemed so self-contained!  I wanted desperately to touch her hands, but didn’t.
She’d been collating the church newsletter, walking around a Sunday school table piled with multicolored pages with her Elsie Circle friends, stacking one sheet of mundane church happenings beneath the next and smacking them with the stapler, just as she’d done on the fifteenth of every month for as long as I could remember.  Those women had worn a path into the Berber carpet over the years.  She collapsed—an aneurism.  She was sixty-one.  After the funeral, her friend Maggie placed one frail hand on my shoulder and handed me a stack of pastel pages.  “Her body hit the floor first, dear,” she said.  “Then these floated down.  Just like angels’ wings.  You should have them.”
I’d taken the unstapled pages and passed them to Leif.  Later, when he slid them to me across the kitchen table, we couldn’t stop laughing at the absurdity, but in that moment after the service, I was numb, robotic, shaking hands with the parade of Chester Prairie folk in their gravest summer church clothes, nodding at condolences I heard but couldn’t comprehend.  I kept glancing sideways at Dad, who despite wearing a suit and tie seemed naked without his clergy robes.  The narthex closed in on me.  I’d known this same strangle-hold I’d felt as a teenager, only now, standing shoulder-to-shoulder with Dad, I felt strangely complicit.
Once again here I was, the pastor’s daughter, object of sad, sympathetic smiles.  Mom, I kept reminding myself, was not down in the kitchen filling warming pans with ham and mashed potatoes.  Mom would not dote on Leif over dinner, nor would she fold my hand around a paper bag of soup containers, left-over roasted chicken and fresh-baked cookies when we headed home.  Leif hovered respectfully behind my right shoulder; I was glad for his company, I couldn’t wait to collapse into his arms, and yet I wanted Mom more.
Mom had adored Leif, and now she wouldn’t be at our wedding.  Leif’s quiet Danish demeanor made up for what I had worried would be three serious counts against him—that he sweat for a living, preferred to go birding on Sunday mornings, and cohabited with me.  But Leif grew up two towns west of Chester Prairie.  He had straw-blond hair and limbs like a yoga instructor.  We’d bonded in Community College English class when we discovered we were both recovering Lutherans.  Leif had been my passport to freedom; after graduation we rented a studio apartment in St. Paul and consoled one another in the early, overwhelming days of job hunting and city driving.  I scored a job in a big city hospital, Leif began trimming trees for St. Paul, and we toasted our liberation with cheap champagne.  
I loved seeing Leif tethered to high elm limbs, swinging from branch to branch with his chain-saw.  When he came home after work he smelled of gasoline and sap.  I picked woodchips from his hair.  Sometimes he brought me abandoned bird nests.  When we visited the parsonage, Mom poured him black coffee in her best china and warmly inquired about his parents.  Dad glowed as though Leif were the son he’d always wanted.  With Leif I knew the rare satisfaction of having done something right.
Down in the church basement I ate pickles for lunch while Mom’s friends relayed fond anecdotes (“She was a dear, bringing over hot dishes when Toby was sick”) and Dad worked the room with his shoulders strangely hunched.  Once the crowd thinned I couldn’t bring myself to return to the parsonage where Leif would pat me and Dad would stoically wander from room to room, touching Mom’s knick-knacks as though for the first time.  I told them I needed to be alone and drove out to Little Long Lake.  
The lake had been my refuge ever since I’d been old enough to walk a mile on my own.  In a town where kids avoided me because I was the pastor’s daughter, where I monitored my every decision for fear of reflecting poorly on my father, the lake was a wide, expansive breath.  It dissolved me.  Upheld by glacial melt, anything was possible.
I parked at the public boat launch.  Our bags were still in the trunk; I pulled out my suit and changed in the port-a-potty at the edge of the lot.
The south and west ends of Little Long are swampy, bordering the sparse woodlands of a county park; to the north and east are houses, their lawns that day littered with boats, picnic tables, and half-inflated inner tubes.  Given the heat the beach was strangely silent, but it was early September, a weekday, and kids were in school.  A few maple leaves floated at the lake’s edge.  Geese had left their slimy mess and webbed prints all over the sand.  I strode into the shallows, grateful for the sharp cold.
With a gasp and push I was under, madly paddling and kicking until I could breathe again.  Then I stopped, my arms and legs splayed, all of me suspended.  Air was a warm bubble in my chest.  Where was Mom now?  Released back into creation, surely, part of the water’s chill, the comforting sun, the enormous darkness holding me.  I hadn’t connected with her dead body but now I imagined a cord spiraling like lakeweed from my center downward through tannin-stained sunlight into muck, into her.  The cord swayed in the lake’s currents.  Quiet pressed my eardrums.  Here, finally, I knew her.  I accepted the silence, the water’s embrace, and the sustenance seeping up, up. 
Not two weeks after Mom’s memorial service there was a rush on the maternity ward.  Birth always comes this way, coupled in a twisted dance with death.  You won’t learn that in medical school.  I was a health unit secretary, thirty-two years old, and I had admitted five women since my eight p.m. coffee.  I kept misplacing things—files, messages, my keys.  The phone’s perpetual buzz and nurses’ requests, usually so stimulating, now grated on my nerves.  I couldn’t wait to get home to Leif for our Friday night ritual.  He would warm Chinese take-out in a 200-degree oven.  We’d crawl into bed, eat egg rolls, and have sex while ignoring a movie.  I trusted Leif not to mention Mom. 
You have to understand:  Back then I navigated the world in a tiny bubble of competence.  Now I see that Leif was a safe bet and what I’d thought was an adventurous job—Spanish and Hmong spoken in the hallways, doctors passing me orders, new babies wailing from the nursery—was dead-end and secretarial.  In school I’d chosen a business degree and done an accounting certificate because, unlike the looser liberal arts subjects, success had measurable outcomes.  I could organize a ledger or file drawer; I could manage orders and schedules.  As it turns out, being capable gets results but isn’t exactly an inspiring life goal.

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Anonymous More than 1 year ago
I thoroughly enjoyed reading this book and I especially liked the going back and forth in the telling. The only complaint I have is towards the end, where she assumes the reader knows that she married her father's assistant when there had been scant mention of any relationship between them (at least on the eReader version I had) and the other complaint is that in the middle of Milinda's labor, she talks about spending the night in jail and having to get bailed out by her dad, losing her backup with the doctor, and then in the next sentence, she is giving Milinda instructions, as if she had just been in some sort of dream. What happened? Did she get arrested right after getting Melinda cleaned up and in her own side of the bed. This should have been more fully explained. Other than this one glitch, this book was awesome! I would definitrly recommend it!
emelMM More than 1 year ago
Interesting premise, I liked the way it jumped back and forth from the past to the present. Not usually my type of book but I did enjoy it.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
Poignantly written journey through life. You learn about the special world of obstetrics, with the emphasis on midwifery. The characters are well written and the detailed descriptions make you feel as if you are in the room.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
Good character development but I felt as if a part of rhe story was missing