A Hidden Affair

A Hidden Affair

by Pam Jenoff
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A Hidden Affair by Pam Jenoff

New York Times Bestselling Author of The Orphan's Tale

Past wars, past lives, past loves...Can we ever really let them go...And should we?

Ten years ago, U.S. State Department intelligence officer Jordan Weiss’s life was turned upside down when she was told her college boyfriend, Jared, drowned in the River Cam. In a shocking discovery, though, she realizes that things weren’t as they seemed and that she had been lied to and betrayed by those closest to her. Reeling from the shock— and the knowledge that Jared is still alive—Jordan resigns her State Department post and sets off in search of answers. Traveling to Jared’s last known whereabouts on the French Riviera, she encounters Nicole, a mysterious woman who flees after refusing to disclose what she knows about Jared.

Following Nicole across Europe, Jordan soon discovers that she is not alone in her pursuit— Aaron, a handsome and enigmatic Israeli, is chasing Nicole for his own cryptic reasons. Though distrustful of each other, Jordan and Aaron join forces on a journey that takes them half a world away, and only steps ahead of grave peril.

As Jordan draws closer to finding the answers that have eluded her for a decade, larger questions remain: Can she reconcile her attraction to Aaron with her unresolved feelings for Jared, the only man she ever loved? Will the truth be too devastating to handle or finally set her free?

Will she have a chance at happiness at last? Thrilling, romantic, and impossible to put down, A Hidden Affair gives us a brave and relentless heroine who never gives up on her search for the truth.

Product Details

ISBN-13: 9781416590729
Publisher: Washington Square Press
Publication date: 08/23/2011
Pages: 320
Sales rank: 169,874
Product dimensions: 5.30(w) x 8.20(h) x 1.00(d)

About the Author

Pam Jenoff is the author of several novels, including the international bestseller The Kommandant's Girl, which also earned her a Quill Award nomination. Pam lives with her husband and three children near Philadelphia where, in addition to writing, she teaches law school.

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chapter ONE

I GAZE ACROSS THE veranda, beyond the rows of yachts and sailboats bobbing in the Porte de Monaco toward the sparkling Mediterranean waters. To my right, the shoreline curves inward before jutting out to sea again at La Condamine, the cluster of tall gleaming buildings that rise against the steep, rocky hillside. A drop of perspiration runs down the glass carafe of water that sits before me and seeps into the white linen cloth. From the dozen or so other tables around mine comes the quiet murmur of conversation, mingled with spoons clinking against teacups and the gentle rustling of morning newspapers.

Inhaling the mix of salt air and coffee, tinged with a hint of citrus, I tilt my head upward. Above the canvas-and-bamboo umbrella, the sky is an unbroken blue. It is hard to believe that just two days ago I was in England. I took the last evening flight from Heathrow, rushing to the airport only to be predictably delayed by fog. We didn’t land in Milan until almost three in the morning, and I briefly considered getting a hotel room there, catching a few hours of sleep. But eager to reach my destination, I decided against it. Instead, I took a taxi to the train station, loitering over cups of burned cappuccino in the all-night café until the ticket office opened at four thirty. Half an hour later I boarded the train to Monaco.

We traveled through the gritty outskirts of the city in the darkness, stopping twice at remote stations for passengers before picking up speed and moving through the rugged border region between Italy and France. As we reached the coast, the sun seemed to rise suddenly behind us, a floodlight on a movie set, revealing the jagged peaks above, blue waters below. The terraced hills were broken indiscriminately by grand mansions and simple cottages that seemed to share the breathtaking environs with egalitarian ease.

The train slowed again to a leisurely pace, hugging the mountainside, unfazed by the sports cars and lorries that raced along the thin strip of road beside it. As the sun climbed higher in the sky, a man opened one of the carriage doors facing the sea and hung carelessly by his arms from the top, open shirt blowing in the breeze.

It was not the first time I had taken this journey. I had been here as a student during the summer holiday between my first and second years at Cambridge, on a monthlong backpacking trip across Europe with a few of my British classmates. We spent three nights sleeping on the floor of an apartment owned by a friend of a friend whose mother had remarried a Monaco native. After weeks of tents and public campground bathrooms, the tiny flat, with its washing machine and real shower, felt like paradise. I remember being struck by the dramatic terrain of the Côte d’Azur, the idyllic tropical beauty that seemed so improbable in my American view of what Europe would be like. I left reluctantly, hoping to return again someday. But I certainly never expected to be here now. Not like this.

I take a sip of coffee, tearing my gaze reluctantly from the sea, and reach into the leather tote that sits by my feet. Feeling instinctively around the familiar contents, I pull out a manila file. My boss, Maureen, gave it to me at the embassy in London, just minutes after she dropped the bombshell that would change my life forever: Jared, my college boyfriend, did not drown in the river a decade ago as I believed, but had faked his death and disappeared from Cambridge.

I thumb through the file, which I took with me when leaving the embassy after I resigned my State Department commission. It contains all of the information Mo had about Jared’s whereabouts these past ten years, or so she claimed. Pictures, reports, and other notes form a tapestry of Jared’s life after he vanished. There are little snippets about the places he had been, how he’d lived, what he had done after he’d left. A few aliases he’d used in the early years. Mo gave me the file in exchange for my silence. I wonder now if it was worth the price. Most of the details are months or years out-of-date. Only one scrap of paper, bearing the address of a Monaco apartment building, is of any possible use. That’s what brought me here.

I close the file and take another sip of coffee, staring out once more across the water. The warm paradise is such a sharp contrast to gray, chilly England. It was just a few weeks ago that I requested the assignment to the London embassy in order to be by the side of my closest friend, Sarah, as she struggled against Lou Gehrig’s disease. Then, it seemed that returning to England for the first time since Jared died, confronting my memories, would be the hardest thing I would ever have to do. But Sarah had summoned me, or so I thought, and so, steeling myself, I asked the Director to reassign me to the embassy in London.

It should have been straightforward: take care of Sarah, do my job, try not to get too buried in my memories. But then, shortly after my arrival, our classmate Chris approached me, stirring up the questions about Jared’s death that I had always been too afraid to ask. What had really happened that night? The answer, we quickly learned once I agreed to help Chris do some digging, was not the one we had been given years earlier. Jared’s death was not an accident. But that only begged more questions, darker ones: Who had wanted him dead, and why?

Jared. My breath catches as his face appears in my mind. I see him, as I always do, standing on the deck of the boathouse the day we met, tall and handsome, silhouetted against the pale, predawn sky. Ours was hardly love at first sight. We clashed horribly, him unable to control his frustration at my relative lack of experience as a coxswain, me at first terrified and later angered by his terse ways. With such intense dislike, I hadn’t seen it coming, the heated kiss on the balcony overlooking the Thames months later. After, there was never any question that we would be together.

Together, at least, for a short while. We knew from the start that we had three months until my scholarship ended and I would be forced to return to America. And then, weeks before my scheduled departure, he was gone, purportedly drowned in the river. It was a story without an ending—until now. I still cannot believe that he is alive, that in hours or days I might see him again.

Might be alive, a voice in my head, not my own, reminds gently. He was last seen some time ago, perhaps, at a flat just minutes away from where I now sit. All I have is an address, no confirmation that he has been there recently or information as to the reliability of the source. But it was all I had to go on, and so I got on the plane. Finding Jared is the one thing that still makes sense, the only thing that matters.

But the revelation that he might be alive raised more questions than it had answered and even as I envision the reunion that for the past ten years had seemed impossible, nagging thoughts intrude: Why did Jared disappear without telling me? Why didn’t he come back, or at least contact me to let me know he was not dead, instead of allowing me to grieve all of these years?

I tuck the file back into my bag. There will be time for questions later; first I have to find Jared. I signal the waiter over to sign for the bill, then walk across the terrace and into the lobby. The hotel, with its fifty-odd rooms, is exactly the kind I like, intimate, yet large enough for me to be inconspicuous.

“Mademoiselle Weiss?” As I pass the front desk, a voice jars me from my thoughts.

Surprised, I turn to face the clerk who helped me check in the previous day. So much for inconspicuous. “Yes?”

He is holding out an envelope in my direction. “For you.”

I stare at his outstretched hand for several seconds, my heart pounding. No one is supposed to know I am here. Reluctantly, I take the envelope with my name typed on the front from him, tear it open. A card falls to the ground and as I scramble to pick it up, Maureen’s familiar handwriting, long and flowery, seems to leap out toward me.

I’m sorry, the note reads. Good luck, be careful, and thank you for understanding.

I relax slightly. Maureen is not coming after me. At least not yet. Her note is another apology for her betrayal. But how did she track me down?

I feel inside the envelope once more. There is a thin stack of traveler’s checks, held together by a paper clip. I thumb through them. There must be at least five thousand dollars. My anger flares. Does Mo think that she can buy my silence? But she did not intend it that way, I realize quickly. The money is a reaffirmation of our agreement: I will not report to the State Department the secret that would surely end her career when she is just a step away from becoming an ambassador. In exchange, she will not tell anyone else where I am, or stop me from doing what I have set out to do.

Of course, her note is wrong in one respect: I do not understand. Mo had been my mentor and friend. Yet she lied to me, and made me a pawn in her political game. My fury rises to full boil. I cannot imagine understanding or forgiving what she did, not now. Not ever.

My shoulders slump with fatigue. I suppose I should be grateful; in the end, she gave me the one piece of information that matters. Without Mo and her elaborate subterfuge, I might never have discovered that Jared is alive.

I approach the clerk at the desk once more. “Checking out,” I say, thinking ruefully of my room with its crisp sheets, the small patio overlooking the harbor. But I cannot stay put any longer, not with Mo knowing where I am. No, I will move to one of the smaller pensions, somewhere nondescript that will take a cash deposit in lieu of a credit card without looking too closely.

I reach for my wallet, then pause, considering the traveler’s checks. In principle I hate to touch them, to imply that my silence can be bought. But I don’t know how long I will be on the road, how far my savings will go having quit my job. I hand the clerk three of the checks, accepting the change he hands me in euros.

“Would you like help with your luggage?” he asks.

“No, thank you.” I have nothing other than the tote I carry. I’ve always been a light traveler, and the two suitcases I brought to London were destroyed in a gas explosion at my flat. In my mind I see the charred rubble, the rescue workers carrying a body bag from the site. Tears fill my eyes. I was supposed to have died in that explosion. Instead, my colleague Sophie lost her life when she stopped by to pick something up at my request. Guilt mixes with my anger. I will honor my agreement with Mo and not turn her in, at least for now. But she and the others will pay someday for the lives that were lost for their gain.

Swallowing my rage, I walk out of the hotel and start up the sloping, palm tree–flanked street, my sandals scuffing lightly against the pavement. The shops that line the sidewalk are a parade of expensive boutiques touting couture clothing, Swiss watches, fur coats that seem ludicrous in this tropical climate. Tanned tourists dart in and out of the stores with large shopping bags, ants carrying food back to the nest. The conversations around me are in a mixture of French and German and other languages I cannot quite discern.

I pause, catching a glimpse of my reflection in the window of a gourmet chocolate shop. Though my complexion is a bit pale, the white linen blouse and khaki capris I bought after arriving blend in easily. I put on one of my other purchases, a pair of oversized tortoise sunglasses, and continue walking. My gait slows, stride growing more relaxed. There is something comforting about being anonymous in this strange city, lost in the crowd. Of course, at some point I will have to check on Sarah, let my parents know I’m no longer in England. But for now, I am completely alone.

A few minutes later the street grows narrower and the throngs of shoppers thin, a rare quiet enclave in this crowded, tourist-soaked principality. The stores here are less grand, an easy mix of art galleries, booksellers, groceries, and wine shops. I turn a corner, then stop in front of a familiar café, weaving through the close-set outdoor tables, choosing one midway back to the left. A barista appears and takes my order.

When she has gone, I pull a notebook from my bag and lean back. I spent most of yesterday afternoon here, sipping cappuccinos. I placed the notebook in front of me, pretending to scribble in it like a traveler with a journal. In reality I kept my gaze fixed on the terraced building across the street to the right—number 12 rue des Lilas. It is the address in the file that Maureen gave me, the one where Jared was last seen months earlier.

The file did not contain an apartment number, though. Not knowing which unit in the four-story building might be Jared’s, I fought the urge to pound on every door, instead taking a seat at the café to watch and wait. But there was no sign of Jared. The residents who came and went from the building were mostly old, leathery, hunch-shouldered seniors shuffling to the taxi stand at the corner or pushing wheeled shopping carts down the block. I found myself studying them, wondering what they had done to earn the millions of dollars needed to be residents here and afford this opulent lifestyle.

I didn’t see anyone resembling Jared, and as the afternoon wore on, I grew frustrated. Did I really expect to find him here at a flat he might have happened to visit or occupy briefly some time ago? But the address was the only thing I had to go on, and I did not know where I would go next if the lead proved futile. So I came again today, ready to wait and watch the building like a dog hovering over a rabbit hole.

What was Jared doing in Monaco anyway, I wonder now, as the barista returns with my drink. He always hated places like this, crowded and pretentious. Even college life in bucolic Cambridge had been too claustrophobic for him. Jared was drawn to quiet, remote locations—the roof of the chapel where we perched so improbably the night of the boat club dinner, talking and putting some of our initial dislike for each other behind us as we watched the party unfold below, or the spot by the riverbank where he would go to think so often in those final haunted days before he was gone. When Jared was forced to be part of a group, he was usually listening, taking things in quietly from the outside. That’s why he loved being on the water, I realize now, picturing him in the seven seat of the boat behind Chris, face locked in grim determination. There was an escape, a meditative quality to the rhythm of each stroke that communicated without speech. No, I conclude, taking in the street once more, it is impossible to picture Jared here.

Stirring the drink, I observe the other café patrons: a group of women clustered by the periphery, babies on their laps, miniature dogs half-sleeping at their feet; an elderly couple sharing a croissant, not speaking. At the far edge of the patio a man sits by himself, holding an open newspaper in front of him. He does not belong, I decide instantly, taking in his profile. Though his skin is appropriately bronzed, his features are strong, the square jaw and pronounced brow more Slavic than Mediterranean. His white T-shirt clings just a shade too closely to his raw, masculine frame to be fashionable. Of course, Monaco is a city of foreigners. But this thirtysomething man, with his broad shoulders and close-cropped brown hair, looks more military than tourist.

The man turns slightly and his gaze catches mine. I drop my eyes hurriedly to my notebook. Did he notice me watching him? Unlikely, I remind myself, remembering my sunglasses. But I can feel my cheeks redden as a surge of warmth runs through me. The stranger is more attractive than I anticipated from studying his profile. I push the thought away. In the years since I was with Jared, I almost let my guard down once, becoming close to Sebastian, the Scottish agent assigned to our investigation team in London. But I allowed my feelings to cloud my judgment—a mistake that nearly cost me my life.

No, there is only one man I am interested in, and he is Jared. I’ve pictured it a thousand times in the past few days, finding him again, seeing him alive. The vision, banished from my mind for all of the years I thought he was dead, comes unbidden now with every breath. I imagine his face breaking into one of its hard-won smiles that crinkled the edges of his emerald green eyes, strong arms encircling me. But what would our reunion really be like? Would it be awkward or would our feelings, easy and unspoken, resume as though uninterrupted by the years?

I glance up once more, avoiding the direction of the stranger, watching the apartment building as I sip my tea. A blond woman in a flowing print skirt strides down the street and opens the gate to the building. I saw the same woman leaving the previous day, her hair pulled back in a sleek chignon. She stuck in my mind because she was so much younger than the other residents that I wondered if she was visiting a grandparent. But she carries a bag of groceries, unlocking the door to the building with an ease suggesting she lives there. Her hair is loose today, falling straight just below her shoulders.

Watching her, my pulse quickens slightly. Easy, I think. Though the woman stands out among the elderly residents, there is no reason to assume that she is connected to Jared. But something, instinct or my training or perhaps some combination of the two, makes me think she could be a neighbor, someone who has seen him.

When the door closes behind the woman, I turn away, studying the man at the nearby table once more out of the corner of my eye. He continues to focus on the newspaper in front of him. But even from this distance, I can tell from the bold print of the advertisements that it is still open to the same page as before, despite the fact that several minutes have passed. Something is not right. What is he doing here, sitting alone in the middle of the day? Is he following me? Though Mo promised she would leave me to my hunt for Jared in peace, there are others she cannot control who might try to stop me.

I force myself to breathe normally, fighting the urge to stand up and leave. Paranoia has never served me well. There could be lots of reasons why the man is sitting here. Still, this will be my last visit to the café. Varying one’s schedule and route is a basic counterintelligence rule; repetition is the easiest way to get caught. And I cannot keep returning here day after day, just waiting. If Jared isn’t here and the trail has gone cold, I need to know so that I can decide what to do next. I have to figure out if Jared is still connected to this address.

I think once again of the blond woman, who has disappeared into the apartment building. Should I try to speak with her to see if she knows Jared? It’s a long shot but seems as good a way as any, and better than sitting here indefinitely.

I put some coins on the table, then stand and walk from the café. As I cross in front of the man with the newspaper, I feel his eyes on me. My stomach twitches. Easy, I think. He could just be, as the kids say nowadays, checking me out. Men in the Mediterranean tend to be much more unabashed in their admiration of women, I remind myself, remembering the catcalls on the streets during my student travels through Italy and Spain that intimidated me so. But I will not approach the apartment building directly, just to be safe. I go to the corner and make a left. As I turn, I glance over my shoulder at the man, who seems engrossed in his newspaper once more.

At the next intersection I turn left again, continuing around the block. The sun has climbed higher in the sky now, the late morning May air as hot as a midsummer afternoon in Washington. I pick up my pace, completing the circle. When I reach the corner by the apartment building, I stop, scanning the café across the street.

The man with the newspaper is gone.

My suspicion rises once more. If he was watching me, he would have had no further business at the café once I left. I search the street for the man but don’t see him. Perhaps he just finished his drink and went on his way. In any event, I cannot worry about him now. I need to speak with the blond woman.

Taking a final look in all directions, I start toward the iron gate of the apartment building and slip into the front garden. I try to walk normally down the path, to appear as though I belong there to anyone who might be watching. I reach the door and turn the handle, but it is locked.

Hesitating, I study the dozen or so buttons beside the door. Each is labeled with a surname. None, of course, is Jared’s, and I cannot tell which might belong to the woman. For a minute I consider pressing all of them, but that would attract too much attention. And what would I say, that I am looking for a man who might have been here once, for anyone who might know him?

There is a scuffling sound on the other side of the door and I step back quickly as it opens, moving to one side to let an elderly man exit. His eyes flick in my direction. “Bonjour,” I say, managing a smile, hoping to disarm any suspicions. A look of confusion crosses his face and I instantly regret not remaining quiet, fearful that my abysmal French accent will only make more obvious the fact that I do not belong. But foreigners are more the rule than the exception here, and the man nods, then shuffles down the walkway.

I move swiftly toward the door of the building, grabbing it before it closes. Inside, the lobby is simple and elegant, with a black-and-white tiled floor, a marble staircase curving upward. A large bowl of gardenias sits on the table in the center of the foyer, their perfumed aroma trying unsuccessfully to mask the musty older-building smell.

I peer up the staircase uncertainly. Despite my earlier hesitation, I have no choice, it seems, but to simply begin knocking on apartment doors. But where to begin? The top floor, I decide, picturing the elderly residents I’ve watched come and go these past two days. Perhaps since the building has no elevator, they are more likely to occupy the lower levels, leaving the upper floors to younger residents like the blond woman.

I start up the stairs, my heels echoing loudly. Each level has two separate apartments, I notice as I pass the second floor, then the third. But when I reach the fourth-floor landing, the apartment door farther down the hallway is open, painters working on ladders, readying an empty space for new residents. Only the near apartment appears to be occupied.

I pause before the mahogany door. I do not know if the woman lives here, or what I will say to her if she answers. But I have to try something. I raise my hand, lightly tap the brass knocker twice.

“Oui?” a young female voice calls. The door opens and the blond woman appears before me. I inhale sharply. So it is her apartment after all.

A look, surprise or confusion, maybe, flashes across her face before disappearing again. “Bonjour . . . ”

I hesitate, wondering if I should try to speak French, then decide against it. “Hello . . . ” I am suddenly at a loss for words. Behind the woman, the apartment is large, a sprawling open room with smooth wood floors, trim, modern furniture giving it an even more expansive feel. The far wall is lined with glass doors opening up to a balcony, framing a distant view of the sea. Jealousy washes over me as I imagine Jared here, sipping drinks on the balcony, laughing with this woman beneath the sparkling sun.

“May I help you?” the woman asks in accented English, now with an edge to her voice.

I study the scalloped edge of her crisp white blouse, trying to think of an alibi for my presence, a way to ease into the questions I need to ask. Finding none, I decide to be direct. “I’m looking for a man called Jared Short.”

“I’m not familiar with him,” she says, a second too quickly.

“Or maybe he isn’t going by that name. Michael Laurent? Joseph McVey?” I ask, reciting the aliases I’d memorized from the file Mo gave me. I reach into my bag and pull a photo of Jared, taken on a crowded street sometime in the years since his disappearance, from the file.

She opens her mouth, eyes darting from the photograph to the ceiling, then back again. “I told you, I don’t know him,” she replies, her voice wavering.

I take a deep breath. “I know that Jared was here.” The bluff is a calculated risk.

“You’re wrong,” she says forcefully, regaining her footing. Her terseness is more than mere annoyance, I decide instantly. She is nervous, perhaps hiding something. “This is my grandmother’s apartment. I came here alone on holiday.” For a second I almost believe her. But the décor does not bespeak an older person’s home. “Now I really must ask you to leave.”

I look down, contemplating my next move. Jared apparently isn’t here and I can’t force her to admit he has been. “Okay, but please tell Jared that I am looking for him.” She starts to reply, but before she can deny knowing him again I raise my hand. “It’s vitally important that I find him.” I reach into my bag once more and hastily pull out the cell phone I purchased shortly after my arrival yesterday, then scribble the phone number on the back of an old receipt. “Ask him to call me,” I say, handing the paper to her. “My name is Jordan Weiss.”

She does not respond, but takes the paper from me and starts to close the door. Before she can disappear, I catch her gaze again.

This time, the look of fear in her eyes is unmistakable.

© 2010 Pam Jenoff

Reading Group Guide

This reading group guide for A Hidden Affair includes an introduction, discussion questions, ideas for enhancing your book club, and a Q&A with author Pam Jenoff. The suggested questions are intended to help your reading group find new and interesting angles and topics for your discussion. We hope that these ideas will enrich your conversation and increase your enjoyment of the book.


Former intelligence officer Jordan Weiss has embarked on the most important mission of her life: to locate a man she believed died ten years ago. Still reeling from the betrayal of her colleagues at the State Department and the revelation that her college boyfriend, Jared, is alive, she sets out on her own to find him.

Jordan’s search begins on the French Riviera, where she encounters a mysterious woman, Nicole, who has a connection to Jared. When Nicole flees, Jordan follows her across Europe—and she’s not alone in her pursuit. She joins forces with Aaron Bruck, an Israeli operative with a haunting past, who is chasing Nicole for cryptic reasons of his own.

As Jordan gets closer to finding Jared and the answers that have eluded her for a decade, she is faced with challenging new questions. How can she reconcile her growing attraction toward Aaron with her unresolved feelings for Jared? And will the truth about the past prove too devastating to handle, or will it finally set her free?

Discussion Questions

1. What compels Jordan to resign her position with the State Department and set out on her own to search for Jared? What are her main reasons for wanting to find him?

2. “The fact that Jared is alive means that the past ten years of my life, every thought I had and decision I made, was predicated upon a flawed assumption” (pg 22), says Jordan. In what ways did her belief that Jared was dead affect her life and the choices she made, both personally and professionally?

3. Jordan initially dislikes Aaron, finding him “dismissive and condescending” (pg 39). When does she begin to feel differently about him? What conflicts develop between them, and are they things that can be overcome? Is the fact that they’re both intelligence operatives an advantage or a detriment in their romantic relationship?

4. Why is Jordan even more determined to find Jared after she finds out that he’s married to Nicole? Why does Nicole encourage Jordan to go see Jared alone after their confrontation on the dock?

5. Jordan and Jared were college sweethearts, together for less than three months before his presumed death. Would their relationship have withstood the test of time? Why or why not? Who is the better romantic partner for Jordan, Jared or Aaron?

6. Discuss the historical and political aspects of the novel, including how wine was used during World War II. Regarding Jordan and Ari’s difference of opinion about Israel, which one do you think presents the stronger argument?

7. “[Jared] has the life that I do not, that I could not have while I was eternally grieving for him. I feel angry and foolish at the same time” (pg 225), admits Jordan. Why was she unable to get past Jared’s “death,” while he moved on with his life? Discuss whether or not you think Jared was justified in faking his own death.

8. Discuss Jordan’s reunion with Jared. How is it different than what she had imagined? Ultimately, what realizations does Jordan come to about herself and Jared? Does she find the closure she was seeking? Why or why not?

9. When Jordan finds out that Noah has been kidnapped, she offers to help rescue him. Why does she put her life at risk to save Jared and Nicole’s son?

10. How compelling did you find the suspense aspect of the storyline? Were you able to predict any plot turns, or did the author keep you guessing until the end?

11. Have you read Almost Home, the prequel to A Hidden Affair? If so, what are your thoughts on the continuation of Jordan’s story? If not, share whether or not you’re now interested in reading Almost Home.

Enhance Your Book Club

Wine features prominently in the storyline of A Hidden Affair. Discuss the novel over a bottle of your favorite vintage, hold your meeting at a wine bar, or take a tour of a local vineyard.

At one point in the story Jordan and Aaron discuss the meanings of their names. Do the same for each book club member by visiting www.behindthename.com.

Along with A Hidden Affair, read and discuss Almost Home, the first novel featuring Jordan Weiss.

Visit www.pamjenoff.com to learn more about the author and her books.

A Conversation with Pam Jenoff

Q: A pivotal aspect of the plot is the use of wine during World War II. How did you discover this fascinating fact? What sort of historical research did you do for the novel?

A: I knew that I wanted the book to have a World War II back story, and some of the possible angles I considered, like Nazi gold, seemed to have been covered a lot previously in other books. I found an article on wine counterfeiting which got me started thinking about using wine generally, and then I found a fascinating book, Wine and War: The French, the Nazis, and the Battle for France's Greatest Treasure, which provided lots of historical background which I used as a starting point.

Q: The Hobbit and The Lord of the Rings trilogy feature in the storyline of A Hidden Affair. Are you a fan of Tolkien’s novels? What are some of your favorite books and authors?

A: I adore Tolkien but I wasn’t introduced to his work until college, when someone read me the entire Lord of the Rings trilogy aloud, and I took a course on the writings of Tolkien and C.S. Lewis. Some of my favorite authors presently include Tracy Chevalier, Anita Shreve, Barbara Kingsolver, Laura Lipman, and Kate Atkinson.

Q: “Despite the advances that women have made in the profession, it’s still not as easy for a female diplomat to find a partner who is willing to forgo his own career to follow her around the world as it is for her male counterparts,” you write in the novel (pg 179). Having worked for the State Department, as did Jordan, what can you tell us about some of the other challenges that women diplomats face?

A: I think women diplomats have made great strides, but they still face cultural barriers when working in countries where women are perhaps not as readily accepted in the professional world or where women’s roles in society may be more limited. But I didn’t experience these challenges firsthand – my most vexing experience as a female diplomat was once being asked out on a date, only to discover that the person who invited me really wanted to ask for a visa to America!

Q: Jordan talks about a game she played as a child, Spend A Day With Anyone. Which person would you choose to spend the day with and what would you discuss?

A: I would collectively choose my grandparents because three of the four passed away when I was very young and I didn’t get to have the time with them that I would have liked. (Seeing my son spend a ton of time with his grandparents is one of the great joys of my life.)

Q: You were a graduate student at Cambridge University, a place that is significant to Jordan. What personal connections, if any, do you have to the settings in A Hidden Affair, such as Monaco, Vienna, and the Greek Islands?

A: Though I’ve never lived in the places Jordan visits in A Hidden Affair, I love writing about some of the places I’ve been. For example, I really did visit Monaco while Eurorailing, as Jordan describes, and so her reaction to the place was based partially on my own impressions. I frequently passed through Vienna while living in Eastern Europe and traveling by train to various cities. And I once made an unplanned visit to Trieste while on a solo excursion to Slovenia.

Q: A point of contention between Jordan and Aaron is their difference of opinion about the actions of the Poles during World War II. Did living and working in Poland during your tenure with the State Department inspire you to include this in the book?

A: Yes, definitely. During my years in Poland, I worked extensively on Holocaust related issues and Polish Jewish relations and those experiences, as well as living among Poles for over two years, greatly challenged many of the assumptions I’d had about Poland during World War II. I came back from Poland with a much more positive, nuanced view of the people and history and a sense that nothing was as black and white as I previously perceived. But when speaking to groups in the Untied States, I frequently come across people with more negative opinions (perhaps understandable in light of their personal history or experiences) like Aaron has in the book and they often have trouble understanding my more Jordan-like point of view.

Q: How do you successfully balance your two careers as a novelist and a lawyer? What time management secrets can you share?

A: I decided to get serious about writing a novel following the events of September 11, 2001 and the epiphany that I didn’t necessarily have forever to make my dreams come true. It wasn’t the most ideal time to take on the challenge — I had started working as an attorney just weeks prior and had a demanding job working sixty hour weeks as an associate at a large law firm, not to mention almost a hundred thousand dollars in student loans to repay. So I devised a plan whereby I would write every morning from 5-7 am. It wasn’t pretty. I was tired and overwhelmed and many days as I dragged myself to the computer I had no idea what I was going to say. But a year later, I had my manuscript.

I’ve used the early morning timeframe to write for many years since. I often say that I’m tired and grumpy, meaning I go to bed early and don’t go out nights much or take on other commitments that interfere with my writing time. I’m no longer at the firm, but I still have the day job teaching law school and growing family commitments, and I still fit in the writing in the hour or two in between. It isn’t always easy or pretty and there are certainly days when I fail, but I always come back to it and that’s what has kept me in this game. I would suggest to others: Figure out when you can carve out that hour or two of writing time a day, then protect it zealously. You must pay yourself first and schedule that time or life’s commitments will run over it.

Q: What do you most enjoy about writing romantic suspense novels? Have you ever considered writing legal thrillers, given that you’re a practicing lawyer?

A: The thing I like about romantic suspense is that there are two stories going on at once, the romantic relationship between the characters and the challenges they face as part of the suspense. Putting those two elements together in a way that works is tremendously challenging and rewarding.

I think it takes me a really long time to process the life experiences that contribute to my work. My experiences in Europe over a decade ago are still the driving force behind my novels. But my legal work, which has been more recent, might someday influence my novels (in fact, the main character in my next book, The Anniversary Clock, happens to be an attorney.)

Q: When you began writing A Hidden Affair, did you know how the story would end for Jordan or did her path unfold during the writing process?

A: It unfurled as I wrote. I generally have some idea where I want the book to go, but I’m always surprised where it ultimately winds up and the twists and turns it takes along the way.

Q: What are you working on now? Will there be any future adventures for Jordan?

A: I’m wrapping up a novel called The Anniversary Clock. It’s the story of Charlotte, an attorney, who along with her ex-boyfriend’s brother Jack, gets pulled into defending an accused Nazi collaborator. The key to his guilt or innocence lies with an antique timepiece (we see the clock at various points throughout its history in twentieth century Europe) and Charlotte and Jack race to find the clock while confronting their feelings for one another. But as for another adventure for Jordan, never say never - a British newspaper recently described A Hidden Affair as the second book in a trilogy and that really got me thinking…

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Anonymous More than 1 year ago
I wish I had know that this was a sequel. Perhaps Jordan's character is so fully developed in "Almost Home" that the author feels it was unnecessary to develop her character in this book. Because of that, and with only hints of what happened in the past, I couldn't help but wonder why this woman would continue to chase after closure of a college romance. I found the male lead, Ari, to be much more interesting and wish I knew more about him. With her shallow character and his intriguing one, their "match" never quite hit the mark for me. I've really enjoy Jenoff's other books and will continue to read this author. Perhaps if I read "Almost Home" first, this book would have been much more enjoyable.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
I loved this book! A great sequel to Almost Home. I had to ration the pages to try to make it last longer. The story has lots of twists and surprises plus a security ending so you're not left hanging.
llh0803 More than 1 year ago
I really loved the first book and was so excited to start the sequel, and although the events of the sequel pick right up where the first one left off I felt like I was reading about completely different characters. Jordan was completely different from the first book, and to be honest the ending was a big let down. Very little chemistry between the characters.
Suspensemag More than 1 year ago
Jenoff writes in the afterward of this book that the story started in “Almost Home” was to have ended with that first book. Later, she felt the rest of the story needed to be told. Hence, “A Hidden Affair.” She puts a little romance, a little mystery, a few secrets and surprises along the way. Ex-state department intelligence officer Jordan Weiss is on the trail of a college boyfriend, Jared Short, who supposedly died ten years previous. She has discovered he has faked his death and close friends have lied and betrayed her. Tracking Jared to an address in Monaco, she first meets a mysterious woman named Nicole who has a connection to Jared. She promptly disappears. Next she meets Aaron Bruck, an Israeli with his own reasons for finding Nicole. Together, Jordan and Aaron travel Europe, following leads and becoming romantically involved. But what secrets will both uncover about Nicole and Jared and how will Jordan solve the problem of her attraction to Aaron as opposed to her still lingering feelings for Jared? Jenoff provides a little background from the first book and I appreciated that information. The first person narrative was also a nice change because I enjoyed the perspective from one character and how she sees the other people and the world around her. This book has the requisite romantic scenes along with the emotional self doubt. This was a very nice read. Reviewed by Stephen Brayton, author of “Beta” for Suspense Magazine
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carrielef2 More than 1 year ago
This book was everything I wanted in a sequel. Surprise and intrigue kept me wanting more. A great read!
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harstan More than 1 year ago
At Cambridge University Jared Short and Jordan Weiss were lovers until he accidentally drowned. At least that is what Jordan thought. When the U.S. Foreign Service diplomat learns the truth that her grief for years was for a sham, she needs to know why he faked his death. She leaves the State department to pursue the truth while someone wants her to be silenced on this matter. Jordon follows leads that take her to Nicole Short who apparently knows Jared and where to find him, but conceals everything. She follows Nicole, which takes her to widower Ari Bruck, whom Jordon believes is an undercover Mossad field operative also interested in Jared though not revealing why. Distrusting each other in spite of their attraction, they agree to team up in search of the elusive Jared as clues taken them all over France from the Riviera to the wine country and onto the rest of the continent. A Hidden Affair is an intriguing romantic espionage starring a brave female who seeks the truth about the only man she thought she loved until her attraction with Ari. The pair shares in common grief; hers is for her college lover who allegedly drowned in the Cam and his for his late wife and daughter. Filled with twists, fans will want to know what happened to Jared. With a tie to vanished rare wine lost in WWII that enhances the exciting story line, A Hidden Affair is a super thriller. Harriet Klausner