After her mother took her own life, Wendy Parmley learned firsthand the heartache, despair, and loneliness that accompanies suicide loss. Reinvent your definition of saved, perfect, and forgiveness as you read this true narrative of a woman opening her heart years after her mother's suicide and learn how to overcome any loss in your own life.
|Publisher:||Cedar Fort, Incorporated/CFI Distribution|
|Product dimensions:||1.00(w) x 6.00(h) x (d)|
Table of Contents
1 And the Day Turned Into Night 5
2 One Last Kiss 9
3 I Am Dead 13
4 She Didn't Die Of A Heart Attack? 17
5 Rocks 21
6 Mom Wanted Heaven 25
7 Dressed In White 31
8 Buried Alive 35
9 My Broken Heart 39
10 The Valley Of Death 43
11 Just Twelve, But All Grown Up 49
12 Darkness Falls, I Am Dark 55
13 The First Bandage Removed 59
14 Who Will Save Me Now? 67
15 Etched In Granite 73
16 The Lone and Dreary World 77
17 My Mom Is Missing 81
18 Make Room for the Other Lady 85
19 A New Family Picture 91
20 A Broken Brain 95
21 Birthdays Alone 103
22 The Stain 107
23 My Perfect Mom 111
24 The Secret 117
25 Let There Be Light 125
26 Coming Home 129
27 The Lady I Could Never Call Mom 137
28 Big-And Little 143
29 Cast Out The Darkness 149
30 Angels In The Night 153
31 Mom Lives! 157
32 Buried Treasure 161
33 I Needed a Savior 171
34 God Sent an Angel-God Sent His Son 177
35 Angels on Earth 183
36 Guardian Angels-My Angel Mom 187
About The Author 197
Mental Health Resources 199
Most Helpful Customer Reviews
This is a tender, powerful, and candid--even raw--story of Wendy's experience with her mother's suicide. It reveals a realistic picture of the trauma, devastation, and pain a suicide leaves the family to deal with. It is riveting, painful yet encouraging, and a great tribute to the ability to heal from great tragedy. It is beautifully written and compelling to read.
Wendy was just 12 years old when she was awoken by the cries of her father. Her life would never be the same. Her very young mother had just died, and Wendy was left as the oldest of 5 children. To make things even more difficult, Wendy soon discovered that her mother had actually taken her own life. It's not until Wendy is an adult that she begins to truly process what happened. As she begins her journey to deal with the pain of her mother's suicide, Wendy manages to discover that a wound she thought would remain raw forever can in fact be healed. Wendy shares her journey in this book. Suicide and mental illness have been brought to the forefront of public awareness due to the recent suicide of actor Robin Williams. This is a subject that is very difficult for a lot of people to understand. What drives a person to take their own life? The author of this book had to try and figure that out for herself very early in life. This book gives a very realistic and emotional view of what it is like to be the child of someone who must deal with the suicide of a very close loved one. Wendy thought her mother could do virtually no wrong, and yet her mother had demons that she could not escape. However, Wendy manages to find great hope in her religion and beliefs. Unfortunately she must first progress through the pain again first. Wendy doesn't hide anything in this book, and a lot of her family's skeletons are laid out for all to see. I think this is a good thing though. None of us come from perfect families or ideal situations in life, and the more we see that others have issues too the more we can truly bear each others burdens. This book takes an unflinching look at suicide and loss, but the author manages to keep anyone from looking like a bad guy. She is able to see the good in so many things. While this book wasn't an easy read per se, it was a very interesting read. I couldn't put it down. It helped me to see that even in the darkest of times, we can find hope. That is a very inspiring thing. Book provided for review.
Words cannot adequately describe the beauty and sacredness of this book and the events that unfold. Wendy was only 12-years-old when her mother took her own life. Wendy's only defense from the "heartache, despair, and loneliness" was to build a wall around the hole left in her heart when her mother shot a hole in her own heart. But that wall never allowed healing to take place... Openly and with tender details Wendy shares her life... The life of her father and her siblings... Her years of pretending she was okay... Her therapy assignments... Her protection of her badly wounded heart... And how she found the love and forgiveness she has always been seeking. Your heart will be touched as you read of this very brave woman and her willingness to share her story so that others might understand better their own struggles of loss and despair. A book DEFINITELY worth reading! VERY INSPIRATIONAL! *Forgive yourself and others *Open your heart *Seek help when you need it *Draw closer to the divine
Wonderful story - from the depths of despair to the ecstasy of finding joy in understanding and light! Even though I have not lost a loved one to suicide, I had friend who lost two family members. This book really helped me have more empathy for those who are going through depression and others who have contemplated ending their own life. Wendy writes with pure emotion and from the depths of her heart. This one really is a must read for all of us!
Beautifully written!!! Wendy takes us with her on her journey, which is not always an easy one, as she struggles to accept the darkness of her past, deal with it head on, and then emerge into the light. I appreciate the honest way in which she tells every detail, including things that must have been hard to share. Nothing is sugar-coated here, but still, the overwhelming theme is one of hope, unconditional acceptance, and love. This is a book about healing, not despair. Well-done!
Wendy Parmley is a gifted writer who can bring the reader through the feelings of despair, loneliness and sadness of suicide and then give the reader the feeling of hope and peace that can occur for those who suffer. I highly recommend this book to all who want healing or understanding of this disease.
After decades of burying unimaginable pain, anger, fear, and shame, Wendy slowly embraces, and owns, her story of her mother's suicide and it's ramifications. She shows us how to love unconditionally and to have a deeper understanding of the depths of pain and suffering. It is incredibly brave and courageous to write with such honesty. She holds no grudges or blame, and learns to truly love and heal by writing her story for us all to read and learn from. I loved how she wove together the present and the past and shared her most intimate thoughts and feelings no matter how hard it must have been to write.