I Can See Clearly Now: A Novel

I Can See Clearly Now: A Novel

by Brendan Halpin

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1972. A TV network under congressional pressure hires a group of young singer-songwriters to create educational cartoons. Holed up in a studio with unlimited pot, acid, and sex, the young artists and their self-serving mentor seem to have found an artistic utopia. But when jealousy and betrayal replace grammar and multiplication as the musicians’ focus, they struggle to pull their project together before it tears them apart.

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ISBN-13: 9781504009676
Publisher: Open Road Distribution
Publication date: 03/31/2015
Sold by: Barnes & Noble
Format: NOOK Book
Pages: 272
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About the Author

Brendan Halpin is a teacher and the author of books for adults and young adults including the Alex Award–winning Donorboy, Forever Changes, and the Junior Library Guild Selection Shutout. He is also the coauthor of Tessa Masterson Will Go to Prom, with Emily Franklin, and Notes from the Blender, with Trish Cook, both of which the American Library Association named to its Rainbow List. Halpin’s writing has appeared in the Boston Globe, the Los Angeles Times, Rosie and Best Life magazines, and the New York Times’ “Modern Love” column. Halpin is a vegetarian, a fan of vintage horror movies, and an avid tabletop gamer. He lives with his wife, Suzanne, their three children, and their dog in the Jamaica Plain neighborhood of Boston.

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I Can See Clearly Now

A Novel

By Brendan Halpin


Copyright © 2009 Brendan Halpin
All rights reserved.
ISBN: 978-1-5040-0967-6



He didn't even want to do the encore. The idea of staring at a half-empty theater for even five more minutes was just depressing. But the pathetic little crowd that had shown up had to hear "Shadows in the Twilight," and Dingo was enough of a professional to know that they owed it to them.

So he stared at his crash cymbal while Pamela sang her heart out. In her way, she was a professional too. The song ended soon enough, and the applause was enthusiastic; it only sounded pathetic when compared with the sound of a full house applauding.

They walked offstage, and Pamela seemed to be as elated as she always was after a show. She floated backstage, held aloft by the adoration of the crowd.

Dingo looked at Alec and Keith. They all just shook their heads. They'd been in the business long enough to know that this was the end of the line of the Pamela Sanchez gravy train. First she'd been dropped from her label due to what she insisted was the "crypto-fascism" of the head of the label. The label stiffed her on distribution of her latest album and made no effort to get it onto the radio, so without the sales and the airplay, the crowds just weren't big enough anymore for her to justify paying them. Especially not when she could tour around college campuses with no more expenses than gas and guitar strings and play little coffeehouses surrounded by worshipful eighteen-year-olds. She'd tell Rolling Stone, if they asked, if they cared anymore, that she had decided that the full electrified band experiment wasn't really working, and that she'd decided to go back to her roots and really connect with her fans.

They got backstage, and Dingo went to change clothes. When he emerged, Pamela was holding court with the usual crowd of girls dressed in peasant blouses like the one Pamela was spilling out of on the Shadows in the Twilight album cover and boys with big beards. After an hour or so of hearing about how far out the show was, how it really blew their minds, man, Pamela would leave with one of the boys, and, since this was a special night, last night of the tour and all, probably one of the girls as well. Alec and Keith would take whichever of the unshaven, disappointed girls didn't get to go worship more intimately at the altar of Pamela.

Alec, who was English, was particularly bitter about this end of the arrangement. He claimed to have gone to high school with members of Foghat, and he would periodically complain about how he could be shagging groupies far more attractive and less hairy if he'd only gone along when those blokes begged him to join their band. Dingo found Alec tiresome. Actually, this being the end of the tour, he found everyone tiresome. He just wanted to be home. The hotel was only two blocks away, so he decided to walk while everybody else was deciding who'd get to ride the limo back to the hotel. Well, no more limos, Dingo thought. He'd better get used to walking.

As he walked, he tried not to worry, but he didn't succeed. When he got home tomorrow, he'd have to think about exactly how they were going to pay the mortgage once the money from this tour ran out. Would Cass's job at the doctor's office be enough? Why had he listened to her? If they'd stayed in the city, paying next to nothing in their rent-controlled building, they would have plenty of extra money to get through times like this. But no, Davey and Jenny deserved a yard, and Cass wanted a real house to take care of while he was on the road, she wanted to be a Jersey mom like all her friends, so she was a Jersey mom, which meant she needed a car, because you couldn't walk to anything, so that was more money, and all of this was fine as long as Pamela was still selling records and selling out concerts, but what about now? What the hell were they going to do?

Back at the hotel, Dingo kicked off his shoes and flopped on the bed. He reached over to the phone and called home. Running up hotel long-distance bills was another perk of being on the road with Pamela that he would have to get used to doing without. Then again, if he wasn't on the road, he wouldn't need to make long-distance calls. Cass picked up on the first ring.

"Hey, sweetie," he said.

"Hi, baby! How was the show tonight?"

"Depressing. Half empty."

"I'm sorry, honey."

"Yeah. Thanks. I guess I'll call Tony when I get home and see if I can get some commercial work." Dingo didn't really want to go lay down some drum part for a song about the joys of extra-soft toilet paper, but he had a family to support.

"Okay, honey. We don't have to worry about that right now. Let's just talk about how we're gonna celebrate you getting home. Davey is going to be thrilled. He's got a game at three tomorrow, by the way—do you think you'll be home by then?"

"Well, I mean, it's going to depend on how late Pamela sleeps. I sure as hell hope so."

"Well, you can take a train. It's only an hour and a half."

"You know what? I will. If she's not up by eleven, I'll just go take a train. I can't wait to see you. I miss you so much." Alec and Keith both had girlfriends they said the same thing to, sometimes while a groupie was down on her hairy knees in front of them, but Dingo really meant it.

"I miss you too. Now, I thought we were going to talk about how we were going to celebrate."

Dingo unbuttoned his pants and smiled. "Yeah. I'd like that."

Dingo woke at eight, showered, packed, had a disgustingly huge breakfast in the hotel restaurant, and was not even all the way through The Philadelphia Inquirer when Pamela appeared in the lobby. Dingo was shocked and delighted. He'd be home in time for Davey's game.

"You're up early," he said.

"I have to meet someone," Pamela said. "Oh, there he is now." She was looking across the lobby at a man in a suit. Suits. That couldn't be good news. And yet, as Dingo took the guy in, he thought he didn't look sleazy enough to be a record company suit, so this wasn't about Pamela's career getting a new lease on life with a new record company. The guy was tall, blond, and good looking, but not stoned, adoring, or young enough to be Pamela's type. So what the hell was this?

It was mysterious. As Pamela walked over to meet with the suit, she said, "I left wake-up calls, but we're pulling out in half an hour, so maybe you want to go pound on Keith and Alec's door. Or maybe you don't. We'll go either way."

Dingo smiled, just imagining Davey fielding grounders, and imagining what Cass was going to do after Davey went to bed. He didn't particularly feel like facing Keith and Alec hung over and tired if he didn't have to. She'd left them wake-up calls; they'd have to pretend they were grown-ups and fend for themselves.

As it turned out, Keith staggered onto the bus with ten minutes to spare, reeking of sex, booze, and stomach acid. Dingo wondered idly if the spots on Keith's shirt were his own vomit or someone else's. Alec was left in the hotel in Philadelphia, and would probably wake up in a couple of hours bitching about how Foghat never would have left him behind at the end of a tour. Good riddance.

Pamela huddled with the suit for the whole ride back to the city. The bus pulled up at Penn Station, and the suit got out, as did Keith, who gave a visibly repulsed Pamela a big hug.

Dingo headed to the front of the bus, and Pamela said, "Wait, David." (When Dingo's mother had died two years earlier, she'd left Pamela as the only person on earth who called him David.) "We'll drive you home. I want to discuss something with you."

Well, Dingo thought, he did appreciate the fact that she was going to give him a ride home when firing him. It showed professionalism and a certain amount of consideration for all he'd done for her.

"Okay," he said, already mentally preparing his burn-no-bridges speech, something about how much he'd enjoyed working with her, how she was a real professional and an artist as well, and how he hoped if things changed in the future she'd keep him in mind. He would probably leave out the part about how he didn't really mind her screwing him out of a producing credit on the albums she supposedly produced herself. Not fighting that one had been a conscious choice—Cass had been furious, but Pamela had already had a number one single under her belt at that point, and Dingo figured that not making waves and sticking with her would be better for maintaining the kind of steady income that pays your Jersey mortgage than winning the credit and then not being able to work because he was "difficult."

"So, David, that man I was speaking with was Clark Payson."

Dingo looked at Pamela blankly.

"Briggs Payson's son. We've been in touch since I co-hosted Mike Douglas. Of course that was NBC, but Clark took me to lunch and told me to look him up if I had a yen to perform on the boob tube again. I thought my falling-out with the fascists at Antigone Records might provide an opportunity to branch out."

"Well sure, of course." The ATN Paysons. All of a sudden, things were looking very different. Were they going to give her a variety show? It seemed unlikely—Pamela, despite having held her own on Mike Douglas, wasn't exactly Sonny and Cher, and Dingo had a very hard time picturing her cracking jokes with Special Guest Star Joey Heatherton on a weekly basis. Still, maybe they'd tape six or eight episodes before they canceled it, and that would be a nice chunk of change.

"He's given me the opportunity to guide a group of young songwriters through the creative process as they work on an educational project—educational songs to run between cartoons on ATN Saturday mornings."

So he was getting fired after all. Well, the TV show had been a nice, momentary dream.

"I see," he said.

"So I will be needing a drummer for this project, and they've asked me to produce the recordings as well. And, well, I've really appreciated everything you've brought to the recording process, so I was hoping you would work with me on this. They'll expect the first results on the air in a few months, but it's a yearlong project, and Mr. Payson said he'd pay you twenty thousand dollars."

Twenty thousand dollars! More money than Dingo ever could have hoped to make in a year of commercial gigs. They could pay off the Ford Torino station wagon. Hell, they could trade it in and upgrade to a Gran Torino. Actually if he was going to work in the city, Dingo would need a car, and that beautiful five-year-old GTO over at the used-car lot could actually be his if he was making this kind of money.

A year of steady work, a regular paycheck, and enough money that they could actually put some away for leaner times. If Cass didn't decide she needed to do some big home improvement projects. He'd probably tell her it was fifteen just so she didn't start planning a new kitchen or something.

Sure, he'd be doing producing work that Pamela would take credit for, but Davey would have back-to-school clothes, they'd keep the car running, and maybe they'd even take a nice family vacation.

"I'm in," Dingo said, and when the bus pulled up outside his house, it was all he could do not to kick up his heels as he ran off the bus and picked up Davey in a big, joyful hug.

Two weeks later, Dingo climbed behind the wheel of his GTO and fired up the engine. Well, he actually coaxed the engine to life. Pamela hadn't wanted his input as she and the ATN guy chose the young songwriters to work on the project. Which was fine with him. He'd gotten reacquainted with his family (with a special stab of regret at how big Jenny had gotten, all the things she was able to do now that she hadn't been able to do when he'd left on tour). He'd then spent most of the last two weeks making the GTO look shiny and beautiful—cleaning the seats with a toothbrush, shampooing the floors, filling in scratches with the paint he'd gotten from the Pontiac dealer, and washing, waxing, and buffing the exterior. He'd neglected the mechanical side because everything had been running fine. But today the GTO seemed to be deciding that it needed a new starter.

Traffic was so heavy that Dingo never really got a chance to open the GTO up, which just seemed like a shame. He pulled into the ATN garage and showed his pass to the guard, who smiled and waved him through. It was surreal—most of Dingo's encounters with guys like that involved them kicking him out of places.

Inside the building he asked another uniformed guy for directions, then took the elevator up to Clark Payson's office. He checked his watch. He was five minutes early.

Sitting in the office were four kids who must have been the songwriters—they all looked really nervous, and the mousy girl with the brown hair really looked like she might actually vomit. Dingo was nervous too—you don't spend fifteen years in the music business without developing a fear of suits. Dingo's heart was in the garage rather than the coffeehouse, so he didn't really like most of the music Pamela listened to (or, for that matter, played) on the bus, but when she'd been in her fourth or fifth Woody Guthrie revival, Dingo had been struck by the line "Some will rob you with a six gun, and some with a fountain pen." Meeting with the suits almost always led to getting screwed.

Still, he was the elder statesman here, so he felt like he should try to put the terrified kids at ease. "Hi, everybody," he said as the secretary behind the desk glared at him. "I'm Dingo Donovan. I've been Pamela's drummer for the last three years, and I'm here to play drums and help on the production side." He grinned as broadly as he possibly could.

The first one to stand was a tall, thin blonde. "Julie Waterston," she said, extending her hand. Dingo shook it and turned to the person next to her since they were all standing now. "Peter Terpin," said a young white guy who really should have shaved this morning.

The mousy white girl mumbled something and gave a weak handshake.

"I'm sorry?" Dingo said. "You've gotta forgive me, because I'm old and I've spent most of the last fifteen years sitting in front of a drum kit and next to a stack of amps, so I can't hear for beans."

This got a smile out of the timid girl. "Sarah Stein," she said.

The last one to shake his hand was the black guy. "Levon Hayes," he said, and shook Dingo's hand firmly. Dingo looked at him for a minute.

"I think I know you. You look really familiar," Dingo said. He paused. "Did you play with the Soul Starrs?"

"Nahh," Levon said, smiling, "Supersonic Funketeers."

"Right!" Dingo said. "I knew it was one of Calvin's bands! I saw you guys last year—that was one tight band! You were, what, Captain Butthole or something, right?"

Levon looked embarrassed. "Uh, that was actually Apollo Von Funkenburg."

"Huh. I could have sworn there was a butt thing there."

"Nah, it was a planet thing. My full title was Apollo Von Funkenburg, Duke of Uranus."

Dingo laughed aloud. "Right! I knew it! That's fantastic. Say hi to Calvin for me, will you?"

"Yeah, if I ever see him again. They left on a big national tour."

"And you stayed here?"

"Yeah. I ... well, yeah, it's a long story."

"Smart move. Touring sucks." The kids looked like they were relaxing a little bit, and Dingo looked around to see them all hanging on his every word. He thought he might elaborate on how much touring sucked, but just then Pamela made her entrance.

"Good morning, everyone!" she said. She was wearing a peasant skirt with a purple blouse, and she had feathers randomly sprinkled through her black hair.

The kids left Dingo and crowded around Pamela. "Today is the first day of our—" she began, but the secretary interrupted her.

"Mr. Payson will see you now," she said.

"Well—we'll have more time later," Pamela said as she led the way into Clark Payson's office.

Clark Payson, though he was older and better dressed than any of the kids, looked just as nervous as they were.

"Why don't you all have a seat ... oh," he said. "There aren't enough chairs, are there. All right, I'll tell you what. Let's just meet Dr. Andrews, and then we'll go downstairs and I'll show you around your work space, and we'll talk down there."

They walked down the hall and into an office that surely must have begun life as a closet. Sitting at a desk surrounded by bookshelves on all the walls, a short, bespectacled man with graying hair and a Vandyke beard scribbled in a notebook. He didn't look up despite all the people standing in the hallway staring at him.

"Uh, Dr. Andrews?" Clark Payson said.

"Geh!" Dr. Andrews, startled, jumped back from his desk. "Oh, Mr. Payson, I'm sorry, you startled me. I was so deep into the project."

Clark Payson smiled. "That's perfectly fine. Dr. Andrews, I just wanted to re-introduce you to all of the young songwriters we'll have working on this project. Guys, you probably remember Dr. Andrews from the auditions. We're very lucky to have Dr. Andrews here on loan from the Early Childhood Education Department over at Teachers College. He's been busy putting together guidelines for your work, and ... well, Dr. Andrews, perhaps you can explain?"


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MeganZ on LibraryThing More than 1 year ago
It took me a long time to get into this book and by the end it was more of a push to get through it verses really enjoying it. It would be more appropriate for college age or high school students.