Ideas of the Heart: Where Relationships Lie

by Melinda Edwards

Overview

Poetry is a way to express yourself in a positive or negative light. I am giving you an insight on the various degrees of mental health and how you can help others.

Product Details

ISBN-13:	9781965732342
Publisher:	Workbook Press
Publication date:	04/28/2025
Pages:	118
Product dimensions:	6.00(w) x 9.00(h) x 0.28(d)

About the Author

Melinda Edwards is the name I was given at birth. She knows how to deal with the many ups and downs of so many mental illnesses. Other than her mental illness, I carry a Bachelor's degree in Social Work. I have a large family who keeps me busy, butstill makes time to help other by giving back.

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Ideas of the Heart

Where Relationships Lie

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By Melinda Edwards

AuthorHouse

Copyright © 2016 Melinda Eberhart
All rights reserved.
ISBN: 978-1-5049-8178-1

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CHAPTER 1

Argument of Acceptance

Looking into all I have done
Helping those around me
Helping those who need it most
Now!
Now I need a little bit of help
I do not like this at all
Why God?
Why would you make me need so much help?
I do not understand!
I do not want to understand!
I do not like asking for all this help!
I used to be so strong
I used to be so driven
I want so much to have my old life back
The life where I could do things on my own.


Never Going to Have
the Best of Me

So many times
So many tears
Runs out of my heart
Wishing and hoping
That things were different for us
Knowing you will never be mine
I will never be yours
Showing so much affection
So many tears again
Those same tears run over
They run over with a stream of emotions
Flowing and flowing
Whisking across the rocks of fate
We come across each other
Time and time again
Coming across each other
Again and again
Wanting so much more
There is so much to offer
You will never have the chance
That same chance you always had
Knowing more and more


I am the one who
can show you

The happiness you deserve
Those days
Those nights
We belong together
Too bad you will never know it
You will never know until I am gone


Sweet Surrender

Surrendering to the fact that no one will ever
No one will ever give me the chance
To truly be me
I want to be all I can be
To prove everyone wrong
Throughout my life story
Wanting so much to be me
Everything I do is for you
It has never been for me
No one will ever be able to prove to me
That you would ever let me be me


Temptations

Lust and desire are those sweet temptations
Giving into these temptations can break the soul
Given the chance to change the way you feel
Giving into the temptation of that someone special
Finding the only thing they want
Is that lasting temptation of lust and desire?


No More Tears

I am here to tell you
That no more tears will be lost
No more tears will be lost for you
I am tired of hurting
You said you cared
I believed you
You said you would always be there
I believed you again
No more will I cry a river of tears
For someone who wants to use me
Use me for their lust and desire or gain
No more will I be alright with this
I am tired
So tired of your lies
Therefore there will be no more tears lost for you


Too Distant for Me

I sit back and watch from a distance at
how much I truly want from you
I want you so much
Knowing it hurts to be with anyone again
Knowing where my heart lies
My heart lies in the hands of someone so close
Yet, you are too distant for me


Fellowship of Man

Following through with the fellowship of man
One finds no matter what
You will always live within the village walls
Those same walls in which will help you
No matter what
They will help you
Picking you up when you are down
Believing in the fellowship of man


Finding my Higher Power

I sit in blank room and stare
Waiting for the miracle to happen for me
I never knew it could happen for a girl like me
Never believing with such horrific things I have done
That some power greater than me could still love me
I knew all along that someone loved me
Sitting back and reminiscing of days past
Reaching to the sky above
Letting me know
This wounded and battered soul could be saved from insanity.


Pure Bliss

Linking my heart to those around me
Letting someone into help me
Life becomes a cherished path that God has set out for me
Working towards a brighter future
One day at a time
One moment at a time
Doing things of pure bliss for me
I have deserved bliss for so many years
Never taking the chance to maintain it
Never knowing how to do it
I have only learned how to maintain my pure bliss


To Feel Love Again

I am no longer sure if I could love again
Before I never felt love
I never knew how to feel it
Loving to get together more than anything else
After all is said and done
First impressions are all we have


Freedom of my Mind

The chains have finally been released of my mind
The thoughts have slowed down so much
No more racing
No more racing at all
I longed for so long not to race the marathon
in my head it has fi nally stopped
I have won the race
No more sleepless nights
Sitting up wondering when will I fall asleep
So many things were up there
Wandering around in such chaos
Chaos which harbors the mind, body and soul
So much time now to rest and relax
Enjoying the newfound freedom of my mind
That one night out of the clear blue


Rags to Riches

When someone thinks of rags to riches
They often think of money or prestige
My own rags to riches has nothing to do with either
I have went from broken spirited
To being a rich woman
Who now knows how to live
I love the gain I have received
Too many people believe money is everything
Money has been nothing but a delusion
A delusion of happiness
Gaining love in my life
The love I so desired is what has made me
The one that gave me a happy rags to riches story


Powerless Over Me

I have gained so much power over me
I have gained so much power over you
At least that is what my ego believed
Manipulation is what I thought as guidance
I learned manipulation was my own powerlessness
Actions and behaviors prove amends
Not just saying something to you
You stopped believing me
I cannot control that
I cannot blame anyone for that
All I can do is change for me
No one believes in fault
I know I have been that way
Not believing in anyone
Nor anything either
I want to control so many things
I cannot control anything
For I am powerless over everything except for me


Changes

Time and time again
One transition into something more
Sometimes the changes are tolerable
Sometimes the changes are horrible
No person has a written path
The only path written is through destiny
Or is it fate
I would love to know
For the chaos is sometimes great
Good times and bad times
Those are the unwritten tests of fate
Only through understanding of something more
Can one accept changes unconditionally?


My Family Matters

Without my family
Nothing else really matters
They try to stay around
They stick around through thick and thin
When in times of desperation
When nothing else really matters most
I didn't even want to be here at one point
Someone told me my family is what matters most
When I didn't want to believe it
They showed me again that family matters most
For good times and bad times
Again no matter what
My family truly matters most to me


Freedom to be me

Sitting back in the eclipse of wanting to be me
No one would allow me to try
No one would allow me to fall
No one wanted to see me fail
I just sit back and wonder why
I want to be able to fall when I have tried
To have you there to help pick me up after the fall
Rushing in at all times before the fall
Makes me weak
It makes me oh so weak
I feel the need to prove myself
I want to prove myself to all of you
I do this
Only to have the freedom to be me


Proud

So many say that being proud
Is a sign of an enlarged ego
So many say being proud
That you can no longer believe in anything
Nothing at all, but yourself
Being proud is finally alright
For without being proud of you
I can no longer be proud of me
Accomplishments come and go
Sometimes there is gain
Sometimes there is loss
No one can take them from you
You have earned them
Over time always maintain your idea of being proud


Reaching For My Moment

So many times I have said
I never want to fi nd the one I want
To be with for all eternity
That is what I believed
I didn't believe I wanted anyone else
Finding true love is all anyone wants
I never believed that either
Finding that someone is hard
Keeping them is even harder
Wanting to cherish each other
To live and to learn
The things about them
The things about you
Then the things about us
Giving up is never key
For someone holds the key to your heart


Awakening

Losing faith is more difficult than living
Without faith
There is nothing left
I found that out the hard way
Rocking back and forth
Sitting up in my room
Curled up
Waiting for some sort of miracle
Never finding it before
Until the one day I was sitting there
Sitting there praying to God
Praying for help
Praying when I needed it most
For guidance
For guidance to live
I mean truly live
Today was the day I felt acceptance
Today was the awakening of my life


Peace of Mind

Freeing my mind of such chaos
Creating a sense of serenity
Within the chains of chaos
Never finding that peace
No way ever giving up
Never going to take from me again
Never again are you going to take away my peace of mind


No Longer Alone

I am no longer alone
Never ever truly being alone
I have had my family
I have had my friends
Best of all I have had my God
Nothing worse than feeling alone
No longer do I feel alone
I have been reached out to
By so many
Grateful to those who care
To those who do not want to hurt me
I am grateful for no longer being alone


Forgiven

I have forgiven the ones who harmed me
Better yet
I hope the ones I have harmed can forgive me
Acting in such ways
Brings peace to the mind and soul
No longer waking up
Night after night
Watching over your shoulder
No longer wondering where someone is
That same person you harmed
Feeling the graciousness of love
Not the love of lust
I mean the love with no intentions
I mean the love which means the most
To those who care


Letter to My Children

Mommy has been here for so long
Loving and cherishing you
Never believing that I would ever have you
Holding onto you tight
Rocking you
Night after night
Reaching to you
For the love I never felt
So many blessings happened
So many since I have been with you
You with me
Our hearts bond as one
For the love of a mother and child
Is more remarkable than any other
Loving you is all I truly feel
Loving you is all I truly need
Loving you is all I want
My children have always been my blessings in disguise


Flight of Ideas

Going from moment to moment
From time to time
Ideas fl y from one place to another
Not knowing where to go
Finding myself in each of these ideas
Not knowing where to go
One moment I am quiet and content
One moment hostile and angry
Not knowing where to go with the ideas
The flight of ideas suffer inside of me
To those inside my mind
Fleeting thoughts have taken port
Taken port inside my mind
Loving every moment of peace
Despising every moment of hate
Not knowing where to go with the ideas
The flight of ideas has finally landed


Grasping My Sister Back

So many years we were best friends
For so many years we were great enemies
So many changes over time
To grasp my sister back
Never knowing along we never stopped caring
We never stopped loving each other
Come hell or high water
We have always been there for each other


Dancing in the Moonlight

Looking under the stars
Glistening so brightly
Gazing into your gorgeous blue eyes
Turning to you so quietly
Holding you close
So close
Embracing to dance tightly under the moonlight
Feeling a sense of protection
That sense of security
So much I love to feel you close
With a refreshing sense of us


To Want My Mommy

I for so long thought no one really wanted me
When I am sad
All I do is sit in my room
Curled in a ball
Rocking back and forth
Calling for my mommy
I am sad
Oh so sad
Wishing so much that you could hold me
I am rocking here wanting you to help me
Please help me up
Loving me is all I wanted from you
I found that I wanted you more and more
Mommy I knew you loved me all along


Brokenhearted

I have come to accept I will never be good enough for you
What makes me think I will be good enough for anyone?
I do not want to love again
The pain is too great
Too much to handle
Never gaining the freedom of having the one I love
Never wanting to open up my heart to another man
Why would you do that to another
Why would you hurt me so bad
Then the next minute tell you
I am your friend
No!
I am afraid not
A friend doesn't hurt you
Love is supposed to be friendship
Friendship is supposed to be love
No longer is that friendship alive
No longer will keep me broken hearted


Lonely and Confused

Which way should I go
Should I go this way
Or should I go another way
I do not know
To stay here with the one I love
Or stay with the one who was their first
Feeling the need to choose
The feeling of loneliness
The feeling of confusion in a state of chaos
I don't know which way to go
I love someone so much
I hate having to choose
That isn't fair
Why do I have to choose between you and the one I love
No longer will I be lonely and confused
I will be gone from both of you
Gone so then I don't have to choose


Waterfall of Rage

Rage is so intense for me
Flowing so fast
Then running over
Crashing so hard
Hard against the surface of my heart
You want to leave me
I want you to leave me
When will it all end
Why should I have this rage
When will you let me go
Please let me go for good
I am not what you want
You want something else so much more
All you ever wanted from is what I don't want to give
Rage of red fl ashes across my face
Through my veins blood boils
So hot
Then so cold
The rage against my waterfall of emotions
You make them worse
Day in and day out
Night after night
Stop playing the tears of rage against me
No longer does anyone want this
I can't handle the rage
I want so much for it to go away
Those raging waterfalls of emotions


Home

Home is where my heart tells me I should be
That place you go when you are happy
The place you go when you are sad
The simple place and time where one raises their family
A place to be proud of
When things get rough
When things are going superior
I want to be able to sit in my room
Not rocking back and forth
Living and existing in the place I call home
The place my children will be raised
The place I survive
The place I want to go home to
This is the place I want to call home

(Continues...)

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Table of Contents

Contents

I. Introduction, vii,
II. Purpose, ix,
III. Poetry, xi,
* Argument of Acceptance, 1,
* Never Going to Have the Best of Me, 3,
* I am the one who can show you, 5,
* Sweet Surrender, 7,
* Temptations, 9,
* No More Tears, 11,
* Too Distant for Me, 13,
* Fellowship of Man, 15,
* Finding my Higher Power, 17,
* Pure Bliss, 19,
* To Feel Love Again, 21,
* Freedom of my Mind, 23,
* Rags to Riches, 25,
* Powerless Over Me, 27,
* Changes, 29,
* My Family Matters, 31,
* Freedom to be me, 33,
* Proud, 35,
* Reaching For My Moment, 37,
* Awakening, 39,
* Peace of Mind, 41,
* No Longer Alone, 43,
* Forgiven, 45,
* Letter to My Children, 47,
* Flight of Ideas, 49,
* Grasping My Sister Back, 51,
* Dancing in the Moonlight, 53,
* To Want My Mommy, 55,
* Brokenhearted, 57,
* Lonely and Confused, 59,
* Waterfall of Rage, 61,
* Home, 63,
* Inner Beauty, 65,
* Sacrifice, 67,
* Bleeding of Me, 69,
* Heartless Soul, 71,
* Too Much, 73,
* The Fight is Over, 75,
* First Impressions, 77,
* To the One I Love, 79,
* Farmer, 81,
* Serenity, 83,
* Blessings to my Soul, 85,
* Loyalty, 87,
* Wedded Bliss, 89,
* Breeze, 91,
* Catching Dreams, 93,
* Lasting Sensation, 95,
* Seduction, 97,
* Self-Resilience, 99,
* Memories, 101,
* Awakening of the Soul, 103,
* Believe, 105,