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ISBN-13: 9780825305931
Publisher: Beaufort Books, Incorporated
Publication date: 09/08/2008
Pages: 254
Sales rank: 44,512
Product dimensions: 5.40(w) x 8.10(h) x 0.90(d)

About the Author

Fred and Kim Goldman are the father and sister of Ron Goldman, who was brutally murdered along with Nicole Brown Simpson in Brentwood, CA on June 12th, 1994. Although O.J. Simpson was acquitted by a jury in the criminal case, he was found responsible for the crimes in a civil case which awarded the Goldmans a judgment of $19 million.

Table of Contents


Acknowledgments     ix
"He Did It"$dthe Goldman Family     xiii
Prologue   Pablo F. Fenjves     xxvii
The Luckiest Guy In the World     1
So Happy Together     30
Period of Confusion     56
The Two Nicoles     84
Things Fall Apart     97
The Night In Question     116
The Interrogation     148
The Fight of My Life     177
Afterword   Dominick Dunne     197
Resources     203

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If I Did It: Confessions of the Killer 3.6 out of 5 based on 0 ratings. 88 reviews.
Kellie_Grabher More than 1 year ago
I was absolutely against O.J making a dime off this book! I would take a stand against reading it & putting money into the pocket of a murdering psychopath profiting by ending the lives of 2 people! BUT, then I saw the Goldman Family on Oprah & I believe Dr. Phil's show also. They talked about how they felt some vindication when they were able to take the book rights away from O.j. They encouraged people to buy it & the proceeds will go to the Goldman's & fulfilling the Civil Judgment they won against O.J. In turn the Goldman's would give proceeds to their lawyers who would fight to get O.J off the streets & make good on the civil judgment he lost. Unfortunately that's the only justice the Goldman's will ever get. They sold me & any little part I can play to give my support & get a murderer off the street - I'M IN! I am proud of the Goldman's & how they fought! It wasn't easy for them but I'd like to think if I were in their shoes I would have fought that hard for my family!
Guest More than 1 year ago
This book is a fascinating read for anyone interested in the psychology of a narcissistic psychopath. You just sit back and are amazed at the rationalizations O.J. creates, and how he truly believes what he says...but it's those little verbal slips he makes that are most intriguing! I read a lot of true crime, and this book, although deemed a 'hypothetical' confession is right in line with those stories told by ciminals who are happy to brag about what they did. I bought this book because the money went to the Goldmans and to the Ron Goldman Charity. I watched all of the trial. There was never any doubt in my mind that O.J. murdered Nicol and Ron, so I didn't need convincing...but all the evidence is there...straight from the murder's mouth.
Guest More than 1 year ago
This book didn't seem to me to be a confessional like it was portrayed in the media, not that I expected that. It shed some light on the case and it was 'sensational' just as I expected. Basically I got just exactly what I expected to get, OJ Simpson's side of the story, just like you can buy everyone else's side of the story! It was very entertaining. I couldn't put it down!
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
I purchased this e-book NOT to support Simpson's skewed vision, but to support the Ron Goldman family. It was not a difficult read, although I thought the "explanations" from the Goldmans, their publicist and their lawyers was too much information - too much explanation - too much justification. The book itself was a self-serving attempt by Simpson to absolve himself of responsibility for these murders. Additionally, it becomes very easy to destroy the character of Nicole and Ron, as they are not available for rebuttal. Simpson justifies his murder, fueled by jealous rage. Do I believe he did it ? Absolutely. Does he believe their deaths were "justified" ? Absolutely. The interesting thing is that he claims no knowledge/memory of committing these murders. Yeah, right. One good point of the book: Simpson comes across as a larger-than-life jerk, football hero status notwithstanding.
Guest More than 1 year ago
Once, in being questioned about some commment in his first autobiography. Simpson said that he had never read the book. The same seems to be true here. First, he gives himself an additional motive for the murder. Not jealousy, but the irrestible urge to silence a whining bipolar woman whom he thought was a bad influence on his kids. Driven-to-the-wall nuts like many a murderer before him. Second, as Sam Goldwyn would say, it's 'chock full of omissions'. Simpson presents the murders as spontaneous, and gives a reason for happening to have gloves and a cap in his car. He does not explain why he was wearing black dress socks and thousand-dollar teal shoes with a midnight blue track suit. In reality, of course, he wore dark socks to minimize the show of blood, and wore a pair of shoes he had decided he disliked and had not often been seen in. 'But he had worn them at least once, since a picture of him wearing them had been published in a magazine 6 months before the murders.' He says that he talked with a fan at the airport about his Hall of Fame ring, and there was no cut on his ring finger. THEN he reproduces his first police interview in which he admits he cut his finger in L.A. and the cut opened up again in Chicago. Mr. Simpson, please read the books you 'write'! He invents an accomplice called Charlie, a casual acquaintance who just drops in on a first visit to tell him Nicole was doing immmoral things. He and Charlie rush off to Nicole's house and Simpson does the deed while Charlie stands guard. This Charlie never comes forward and leaves no trace at the scene. Charlie also takes Simpson's bloody clothes right at the crime scene and ditches them, although when limo driver Alan Park saw Simpson run into his house, Park did not mention that the man was in his underwear. Simpson unwittingly explains what many people have wondered about: how he could take on two people. His malice, element of surprise, physical strength, probable high on crystal meth, and weapon were enough, but he tells us he knocked out Nicole first, killed Ron, then finished off Nicole. Thank you, Mr. Simpson. He claims to have been blacked out or amnesiac about the actual murder. Some peole have ridiculed this, but according to Connie Fletcher's WHAT COPS KNOW, it's a normal reaction for an amateur murderer, who is generally traumatized be what he has done. In other words, the blackout story makes the notion that he killed them MORE, not less, convincing. In case you're wondering, he says he never once hit Nicole. Not ever. He talks about his freeway ride, but fails to mention the many thousands of bucks and the false beard he was carrying. He forgets about apologizing to Nicole's corpse at the wake. He insists that he was emotionally wholly through with Nicole and was willing to talk to her ONLY about the kids, yet tells her mother, 'I loved her too much [to have killed her].' Her death, more than his fall from grace, drives him to consider suicide. He gives up the notion of suicide abruptly when he hears Dan Rather say that the cops had been out to Simpson's place five or six times on domestic abuse calls. He is so angered by this lie that he peps up and vows to fight. Read enough? The book is an interesting curiosity, and sales will finally benefit the right people. Go ahead.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
yes o.j. is guilty.what made him think he was going to be able to make money off of his confession? it was a good try but didnt really work... but i dont think o.j. is a bad person he just did a bad thing....this is a really great book and i loved reading it. i couldnt put it down once i started
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
I read this book in two days and passed it on to my friends who did the same. It is a quick read into the mindspace that OJ was in when he reacted so brutally. While i don't condone the murder, I don't think the public knew enough of the surrounding background facts, only what was reported by the media. Learning some of these instrumental facts that surrounded the relationship of OJ and Nicole changed my opinion slightly on my belief of what hahppend that fateful night. My heart goes out to the Goldmans as there loss is inconceivable.
Guest More than 1 year ago
This book gives a glimpse into the mind of a person who won't take responsibility for anything he does wrong. He blames his ex-wife for his actions and wants you to feel sorry for him. Read this book and you will see the real O.J..
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
I had finished my junior year of high school when OJ killed Ron and Nicole (the same day as my mother's birthday). Being so young, I didn't fully understand the case, but I remembered thinking it wouldn't have made sense for anyone BUT OJ to have committed these murders. I remember seeing the verdict on TV and being surprised he was found not guilty. And I remember in the following years reading various stories about the aftermath; OJ moving to Florida, sightings of him on golf courses and that infamous claim he was going to "find the real killer"....all he had to do was look in a mirror. The FX series American Crime Story: The People VS OJ renewed my interest in this horrible story, and I decided to buy this book. I wanted to see, in the killer's own words, his version of events, and I was not surprised to see that he blamed two people's violent deaths on themselves. He also used almost every line of the book to defame Nicole ' s character and accuse her of doing drugs, being mentally ill and sleeping around, while HE was the voice of reason until the night he apparently snapped and nearly took off her head based on some crap his imaginary friend "Charlie" told him. Even if Nicole did the things OJ accuses her of, that does not justify killing her in cold blood as well as an innocent man who was in the wrong place at the wrong time. This book reveals OJ as the liar and vicious killer he is, and how he cares for no one but himself. It's sad that someone could be that cold, and not give any thought to his children who lost their mother forever, all because he could no longer control her. I hope that the sale of this book helps the Goldman receive the justice they were denied in the murder trial and that Orenthal James Simpson rots in that Vegas prison he was sentenced to after trying to steal some of his memorabilia from someone. But if justice had been served a long time ago, OJ would have already been in prison serving out a murder conviction on death row.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
This was a very interesting look at the Simpson/Goldman murders. While I agree that the Goldman family deserves the rights and income from this publication, they did not have to spoil it by adding all of their comments and ideas into the beginning and end of the book. They should have left it as-is, with a simple statement about how it was written and why. Otherwise the actual story part was a great read. It had a lot of leading up to information, so that you could see the situation from OJ's perspective.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
Its too bad oj blamed everything on nicole, he is such a pathetic lier and I am somewhat at piece knowing he is in prison where he belongs. I would have not bought the book had the proceeds gone to the killer. Gods blessings to the Goldman and Brown families.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
I bought this book out of respect for Ron, Nicole and their families but this is one book I won't be reading. I applaud the Goldman family for their bravery and committment to the memory of Ron and wanted to contribute to their cause. But I refuse to give that vile, evil killer one moment of my time. He is not worth a second of my time.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
I honestly didn't know too much about the OJ Simpson murder, but after reading this book I became obsessed with it! This is such a good book, not boring at all. Real page turner. Definitely recommend to someone who likes true crime books. 
JennaNV More than 1 year ago
This book is amazing. I do believe O.J. did commit the murders however I empathize with him. I do believe Nicole was probably banging out Ron Goldman because destructive human beings tend to sleep with everyone in order to feel any sence of worth, warmth and validation. That being said there is no excuse for what O.J. did. I think he just had enough and he snapped.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
Had to stop reading this mess. Oj paints himelf in the best light....asif anyone wiith a functiioning brain is falling for this stupity
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
I REALLY wish that the Goldman family had added facts to the original manuscript! I mean this all happened SO long ago...I just wish that I could base what the hypothetical was to the actual!! But I found it very interesting & I am very proud of the Goldmans never giving up!!!
OneReadingMomma More than 1 year ago
This book will haunt you. Excellent read if you love true crime stories. I not only wonder how OJ lives with the fact that he committed such heinous murders (at some points he seems to actually boast)- but how do those lawyers sleep at night knowing they defended a cold blooded killer? My deepest sympathy and prayers are with the children, as well as the Goldman and Brown families.
Guest More than 1 year ago
Aside from the fact that O.J. tries really hard to blame Nicole for everything and destroy her memory as a caring and beautiful person that she probably was... The book is incredible! It is a confession of a killer who can´t take reponsibility for his actions like a man would. The book shows him as a lost soul who uses the blame game, has no compassion nor repentance and only concern is to save himself from ruim. The Goldman's actions to vindicate Ron´s death are Outstanding and must be recongnized here. Congratulations to you for your never ending love and commitment to Ron. I hope my family love me as much as you love Ron.
Guest More than 1 year ago
I checked this book out from my local library.I have to say that I really enjoyed the book.Reading this book actually makes me wonder what his motive could have been and I am definitely on the fence now.It was nice to finally hear his side of the story. I recommend this book if you've ever been interested in OJ's thoughts concerning the murder of his ex-wife.This book may or may not sway your opinion in regards to his guilt or innocence. I could'nt put the book down!!!
Guest More than 1 year ago
I have to agree with most, it is not really worth reading for any other reason other than to find out WHAT REALLY HAPPENED! The ego maniacal 'Main Character, namely OJ) finally trips all over his self and tells how he did it. I am so glad that the Goldmans are getting the money from my purchase. I had refused to buy this book until I found that out.
donlazaro on LibraryThing 27 days ago
"I didn't really do it although I had good reason to because Nicole was such a slutty cokehead and would have driven any other honest citizen to the brink, but I resisted because down deep I really loved her. I felt it was my duty to let all you fans know my position on this matter, and I know you're particularly interested in my take on how it hypothetically could have happened. It's all here." Well that's not a quote from the book, but it is pretty much what it's about, and if you're interested in cheap thrills, you won't find it here. If you have a professional interest in the OJ trial, this might be a unique opportunity to explore a criminal mind. The ghostwriter of this book (an actual witness at the trial) did contribute an interesting and insightful preface. But for me, this slim volume neither entertained nor edified.
andyray on LibraryThing 27 days ago
first of all, this story from O. J. Simpson is not "horrible" or "sickening" or any of those adjectives. It is a story of a killing, and it is a confession. Period.What harms this book is the brackets of the Goldmen's incessant whining and self-pity in the front, forged by their hate. Then we have an afterthought from the compiler, Dominick Dunne, expressing his hate for Simpson. It would have been better to read O.J.'s story without these emotional hindrinces, no matter how emotionally charged these people may be.The thing missing in this book is any kind of spiritual breakthrough; the Goldmans hate, Simpson lives a life of onanastic pleasure, "working" hard in a profession where any of us would like to have that kind of "work." And the compiler hates. There is no forgiveness of anyone by anyone and, in the spiritual sense, you can forego this experience.Simpson deals with the murder on pages 124 through roughly 140, with only a few paragraphs about the murder itself. In this telling, he took a knife from a friend named Charlie (who never surfaced after that night) and then went into some kind of mental state (schizophrenic break, sometimes called blind rage?), away from the presence of Ron Goldman, Nicole, Charlie, and himself, and when he returned to his presence in the garden, his shirt and hands and the knife in his hands were covered with fresh blood.His friend, Charlie, says: "God, OJ. What have you done?" There is not an instant through the rest of the book where Simpson expresses any belief that he killed the two people. Nor does he even mention the capture of another killer.We have a system of law in this country which prevents Simpson from being prosecuted again. Fortunately, we have a system of civil law that seems to be more untainted than criminal law's courts are tainted, and those courts are tainted badly.The civil suit found Simpson guilty of these deaths and awarded much money to the Goldmans. They with their attorneys pumped up the outcry of this book being published by Harper/Collins, and Rupert Murdock himself stopped the book from seeing print. That is the story I would have liked to read. That story is the best seller.This book is not. I believe O. J. Simpson is one of those unfortunate people who have a expeditious morality. That is, they act right when things are going right, but can be criminal when things don't go their way. His story rings true. His violence in his own words exists throughout the story, and of late he is the prisoner in a south Florida jail for felony charges that include guns and violence. His "confession," (the Goldmans are right about that) is full of self-pity and self-compassion, but except for a few moments with his children, he doesn't seem like a heluva good person. To him, by his words, sex is love. If he's laying a woman, he "loves" her.It's a well-ghosted book about a horrible subject featuring ugly people (Nicole and Simpson) living in a spiritual vacuum, but if you still admire Orange Juice Simpson, and like being titillated, this book is for you.Andy Ray
Jebbie74 on LibraryThing 27 days ago
As much as I did not want to put such a high rating on this book, I had to admit that it was fairly well-written and if I compared it to any other true-crime type of book I would have rated it as high. I still find it disgusting that OJ tried to make money from his confession, and find it equally horrible that he can admit he did it in this book yet still walk free in this world. (Although his most recent escapades may make his walking free a little tough. And it would be hard to see him jailed for his "kidnapping" charges while he walks a free man on two murders.)
bobo.davis on LibraryThing 27 days ago
Not too much that we already didn't know. Bravo to the Goldman family for getting the rights to this book.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
The additional chapters by the Goldman's, their attorneys, and OJ's ghost writer give a riveting look at what was going on behind the scenes as this book was on its way to being published. Building up to 'the chapter', I was looking forward to see how OJ would attempt to draw a line between fact and fiction, that is when the truth lead to the hypothetical, but that clear distinction never came. The killer described the events leading up to the murders and the fateful night seamlessly, which was a surreal experience. The read is without a doubt the confession of the most notorious murderer to have ever gotten away with it.