Leave Myself Behind

Leave Myself Behind

by Bart Yates


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ISBN-13: 9781496709448
Publisher: Kensington
Publication date: 02/28/2017
Pages: 256
Sales rank: 1,262,557
Product dimensions: 6.00(w) x 8.90(h) x 0.80(d)

About the Author

BART YATES lives in Iowa City, Iowa, where he works as a freelance musician and teacher. He has a master’s degree from Boston University, and he plays clarinet in a jazz duo, Nica’s Dream. He is the author of the award-winning Leave Myself Behind as well as The Brothers Bishop. Readers may visit his website at www.bartyates.com.

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Leave Myself Behind

By Bart Yates


Copyright © 2003 Bart Yates
All rights reserved.
ISBN: 978-1-4967-0944-8


I've never wanted a different mother. I just want my mother to be different.

Get in line, right?

Anybody who tells you he doesn't have mixed feelings about his mother is either stupid or a liar. Granted, Virginia York is a special case. Living with Virginia is like living with a myth. She's only half-human; the rest is equal parts wolverine, hyena, goddess and rutting goat.

In other words, she's a poet.

But she smells great.

Know the way someone smells when they've been outside on a chilly fall day? That's how Mom smells all the time. Like rain, and wind, and leaf mold, and a faint hint of wood smoke. Hardly the way a woman is supposed to smell, but trust me: if the Glade Air Fresheners people could bottle her scent, you'd have her hanging in your car and your bathroom and your kitchen.

Sorry. I didn't mean to get all Oedipal on you.


Mom and I just moved into this old Victorian house in Oakland, New Hampshire. I grew up in Chicago, but Mom was offered a job at Cassidy College and we decided to get the hell out of Dodge. My dad Frank died last year. The coroner said it was a heart attack but what really happened is a poem got caught in his throat like a chicken bone and he choked to death.

I'm not making this shit up.

He was in his library, listening to Chopin's Nocturnes on the stereo and reading poetry for one of his classes. When Mom found him in his armchair there was a book splayed open upside down on his lap; he'd been reading Herman Melville by W.H. Auden. Dad hated Auden. He called him "an overrated, pretentious queer with a penchant for sentimental excess."

Mom loves Auden. So do I.

The night Dad died I was in my room, painting. Mom was in her study writing. I thought I heard some odd noises coming from the library but I didn't think much about it. Dad seemed himself at dinner. A little tired, maybe, but cheerful and relaxed. He gently teased Mom for picking the olives from her pizza; he laughed at me for wolfing three slices in the time it took him to eat one. When Mom went to tell him she was going to bed, his body was already growing cold. She came to get me. The two of us stood on opposite sides of his chair waiting for the paramedics. I think I was trembling, but neither of us cried. Real life seldom makes us cry. The only thing that gets to Mom and me is the occasional Kodak commercial.

I'm seventeen. My name is Noah. (Don't blame me; Dad had a thing for biblical names. It could have been worse, I suppose — Enoch, or Amalek, for instance.) I'm going to be a senior this September. That's still a month away. I want to get a job, but Mom won't let me until she and I get the house remodeled. She's probably right. The place is a mess. Plaster dust, nails, boards, spackle, paint cans, caulking guns, and a shitload of boxes. We'll be lucky to have it finished by the time school starts. I keep telling her she should hire somebody to do the harder stuff, but she gets pissed and tells me she's "not going to hire some goddamn carpenter and pay him my firstborn son (and that means you, mister, by the way) to do what any idiot with a hammer and the brains of a squirrel can do, so just suck it up and get back to work."

Like I said, Mom has some issues.

I don't really mind working on the house. It's dirty, sweaty work but fun in a sick puritanical kind of way. By the end of each day I'm filthy — my hair is clotted with dust, my clothes stick to me and when I clean my ears the Q-tip comes out black with crud. But I like doing something where you can see your progress. We've finished a lot of the downstairs and it's nearly livable. The hardest part is stripping the woodwork. Some moron painted over every square inch of wood in the house (except for the mahogany banisters), and most of it is oak and maple. Sometimes I feel like Michelangelo, chiseling away at all the crap until nothing is left but the exquisite thing in the middle that no one else sees until it's uncovered for them. Or was it da Vinci who said that was the way he worked? Whatever.

The house is great. When you walk in the front door it's like stepping into another century. There's an ancient chandelier hanging overhead as soon as you're inside, and even though it looks like it's been dipped in dirt it's still something to see, with hundreds of pieces of glass shaped like diamonds and rectangles. There's an old steam radiator next to the door that Moses himself probably installed, and over that is a window facing west, made with some of that thick, leaded glass that has little waves in it. To the left of the entryway is the living room (with a fireplace big enough to roast a goat), to the right is the staircase leading upstairs, and straight ahead and down a short hall is a massive kitchen with a giant ceiling fan. There's a dining room on the other side of the kitchen, with windows facing east and south, and if Mom owned enough china to host a dinner party for twenty people she'd still have no problem storing all the dishes in the colossal wall cabinet in there. Upstairs are four bedrooms and a bathroom, and as if that isn't enough house for the two of us, we've also got a basement and a full-sized attic.

The best part of the house, though, is the wraparound porch. I love sitting out there at night in front of the house, watching the cars go by. (We live right on Main Street, but Main Street in Oakland is just a two-lane brick road.) There's a porch swing, but I prefer sitting on the steps. I like the solid feel of concrete under my ass.

You can separate people into types by what part of a house they like the most. Mom is a kitchen person. Kitchen people like late nights and early mornings, and they spend a lot of time at the sink, staring out the window at nothing while they wash the dishes. They like cooking for people and don't mind a friendly conversation about the weather, but if you ask them a serious question they hop up to take care of the boiling water on the stove or to get a loaf of bread out of the oven, and by the time they sit back down they've forgotten what you asked them. It's like they're always waiting for someone to come home, so they can't pay much attention to anybody already in the house with them because they're too busy listening for footsteps on the front walk.

I'm a porch person. Porch people also love late nights and early mornings, but we're more likely to answer your questions than a kitchen person is, and we don't mind if someone wants to sit on the steps with us as long as he never mentions the weather. We sit with our chins in our hands and our elbows on our knees until we get uncomfortable, then we lay back and put our fingers behind our heads and let the breeze blow over us, tickling the hairs on our legs. I suppose we're also waiting for someone to show up, but we want to know who it is before he gets as far as the door.

I'm not sure what kind of person Dad was. Maybe a study person. Study people are off in their own world even more than kitchen people and seem to be genuinely shocked when they look up and see another human being in the room with them. Not displeased, really. Just shocked. Like they've read about other people but never expected to actually see a live specimen.

Jesus. I am so full of shit. Where was I?

We got the house dirt cheap. A place like this would have cost three or four times as much in Chicago, but Oakland only has two thousand people in it, and thirteen hundred of those are college students. Mom was worried about moving here right before my senior year, but I like it. I hated Chicago. Chicago is dirty and loud, and full of people with really shitty taste in music. Mom thinks I'm a snob, but Mom has a tin ear for everything except language — she even likes rap. I don't mind the lyrics so much (how can you dislike something where every other word is "fuck"?) but the music is mind-numbingly repetitive — it's like a little kid pulling on your sleeve, screaming "notice me, notice me, notice me." It drives me apeshit.

Anyway, Oakland is quieter, and cleaner, and you can walk anywhere you want without worrying about getting beaten up or shot. When Mom is writing I like to go out late at night and walk around town. She never would have let me do that in Chicago even though we lived in a nice neighborhood. Here she doesn't even ask me where I'm going or when I'll get back. Since we moved here a week ago she's been writing every night — she shuts herself in her room (the only room in the house that we haven't torn apart) and scribbles away until two or three in the morning. She's always up before me, too. I think sleep is against her religion, or something.

My current project is my bedroom. It's going to be great when I get it finished. It's the first room on the left at the top of the stairs and it has the most character of any of the bedrooms, with a recessed window seat and a view of the entire backyard. There's a walk-in closet that's almost half the size of the room, and I'm thinking I may eventually put my bed in there so I'll have the bedroom itself to use as a painting studio. Until I get it done, though, I have to sleep downstairs on the couch in the living room. I figure another day or two and I can move upstairs and have a door to shut again. I could have started sleeping up here last week but the wallpaper would have given me nightmares — bulbous purple flowers on a pink background. Godawful. It was so old, the paper had been sucked into the wall. When I tried to get it off, big chunks of plaster came with it, so we decided to tear the walls down and start over.

"Don't be so dainty."

I turn around and Mom is standing in the doorway watching me work. I'm tearing down plasterboard with a hammer. She walks over and takes the hammer.

"Hit it like this." She smacks the wall and uses the claw to rip out big chunks around the hole she made. She spent a couple of summers when she was in college working for some carpenter guy and now she thinks she's Mrs. Fix-it. Granted, she's pretty good at this kind of stuff, but I grew up helping her with various projects and I'm not bad with a hammer myself.

"Go away, Mom. This is my job, remember?" I try to take the hammer back and she swings again; plaster explodes from the wall and peppers us both with white dust. A big clump gets caught in her black hair and she yanks it out and grimaces when it snags. She swings again.

Christ. "Don't you have some other wall you can beat up on?"

She pauses. "Just don't be so delicate." She hands the hammer back and walks out of the room.

Mom almost always wears jeans. If she's not barefoot she wears sneakers. She likes tank-tops and flannel shirts, and almost everything she wears is either blue or white, except for when she's feeling daring and puts on something bright red. She's about five-foot-four, thin and tough and restless. Dad was a lot taller than either Mom or me. He was six-three, and I'm only five-seven. He had big shoulders and meaty hands, but I take after Mom. I'm thin and small, like her. But I act a lot more like Dad than like my mom. He was quiet, mostly, and even-tempered. Mom is kind of high strung — funny and wild, but easy to upset. When she got a bad review for her last poetry collection she called the reviewer and told him she didn't know that buttholes could read poetry, let alone critique it. Dad tried to get the phone away from her. He should have known better. After she finished with the newspaper guy she went after Dad and screamed something about whose side was he on anyway and he could just go to hell if he didn't like her attitude. As usual Dad didn't say anything, which just made her madder.

She's gotten worse since Dad died. She's always been unreasonable when somebody hasn't liked her work, but lately she even gets insulted when her name is misspelled on junk mail. She got a letter from some credit card company last week addressed to 'Virginger Yirk' and instead of laughing it off she went ballistic. She ripped the letter into shreds and threw the pieces all over the kitchen. I told her she was acting like a spoiled brat and she yelled "Shut up and clean up this goddamn mess," then stomped out of the room like an autistic five-year-old.

Sometimes I set her off without meaning to — like when I interrupt her when she's working or when I forget to wash the dishes when it's my turn. But sometimes I do it on purpose, just for fun. I mean, come on, what are my options? When she takes herself so seriously, what can I do but fuck with her? Some salesguy came to the door the other day peddling cleaning products and I introduced Mom to him as 'Mrs. Vagina Pork.' The poor bastard took one look at Mom's face and scurried away like a rat with diarrhea. I thought she was going to kill me. She stood with her hands balled into fists at her sides and glared at me until I mumbled an apology, then she finally tore out onto the porch and slammed the door behind her hard enough to make the whole house shake.

If Dad were alive, she still would have been pissed. But she eventually would have laughed, too.

* * *

"Hey. Take a look at this." I'm holding an old mason jar, crusted with dirt and dust and cobwebs. It's rusted shut and it feels empty, but when I shake it I can hear something inside, clanging lightly against the metal lid.

She takes it from me. "Where'd you find it?"

"It was sitting on a little shelf behind the wall I just tore down in my room. I can't get it open."

Finding it was the weirdest thing. I ripped out a chunk of wall and once the dust settled there was this jar sitting all by itself, framed perfectly between two wooden spars, like somebody anal had gone to the trouble of making sure it was smack in the middle. I tried to get it open but my hands were too slippery.

She fights with it for a minute, then whacks the lid a couple times on the door frame and tries again. It opens with a pop. I reach for it to see what's inside, but she holds it away from me.

"Come on, Mom. I found it."

"Big deal. I bought the house." She pulls out a piece of paper, neatly folded. She unfolds it and I can see typewritten words on it. How cool is that?

"What is it?"

She laughs. "A poem! Of all the houses we could have bought, we find one with a poem in the walls."


Sunset was an orange ball
rolling down the sky
it struck the trees without a sound
and tumbled off the earth to die.

I watched it go and felt undone —
as if I'd lost a friend.
I wish I'd held it in my arms
and burning, rose again.

Mom snorts. "An Emily Dickinson wannabe." She folds the paper, puts it in the jar and hands it back to me. "Next time find something more interesting. Like a lost Blake poem."

"What's wrong with it?"

"The grammar, for one thing. It should be 'risen,' not 'rose.'" "Whatever happened to artistic license? I like it."

She raises her eyebrows but doesn't say anything. I hate that.

We're in the room she's working on, the one that's going to be her study. One wall is a floor-to-ceiling bookcase painted a hideous shade of yellow; Mom's been stripping the paint off to get at the dark wood underneath. "Do you think any more poems are lying around?"

She stares at the walls for a minute, then shrugs like she doesn't care. But I know better. One of my mom's guilty pleasures is mystery novels. She reads one or two of them a week and then has the balls to make fun of me for reading science fiction and fantasy.

"Who do you think wrote it? The old fart?"

"Mr. Carlisle? I doubt it."

Stephen Carlisle was the former owner. We never met him, but the realtor told us horror stories about him. Apparently he used to throw rocks at the street lights because they kept him awake at night, and he was known to chase dogs off his lawn with a BB gun, running after them for blocks, swearing his head off. He lived in this house for at least fifty years, but he had no family to leave it to, so after he died last January the city got it and put it up for sale.

He'd been dead for a week when they found him in the bathroom. The neighbors complained about a cat yowling in the house all night long and the police came to investigate. Carlisle's pants were around his ankles and he was sprawled out beside the toilet. His cat, Hoover, an ugly old orange tom with an unbelievably foul disposition, had been lunching on his eyes and nose. Hoover was taken to the pound and snatched up by an old woman who lived on the other side of town, but he found his way back here every time she let him out of her house. Eventually she gave up trying to keep him, and he became the neighborhood stray, fed by everyone but sleeping every night under our porch until we bought the place and moved in. Mom hates cats, but she got tired of him sneaking into the house every time we left the door open, so she finally let me keep him. He sleeps with me most nights, but when he sniffs at my eyes I send him flying.


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What People are Saying About This

Brian Malloy

Noah York is seventeen, but don't let his age fool you. Noah's blunt, funny and dead-on narrative will lend this memorable tale of young-but-cynical love a fresh resonance with readers of all ages, gay or straight, male or female. A gripping tale of buried secrets and emerging attractions, but more than that, a story of the familial ties that bind as they grow stronger and pull apart. (author of The Year of Ice)

Paul Russell

Tart-tongued and appealing, young Noah York is living through the worst and best three months of his life. In Bart Yates' gripping debut novel, Noah spins a tale that is by turns refreshingly strange and poignantly familiar. What he discovers--about the haunted and haunting past, the always vexed relations between parents and children, the bittersweet mysteries of love--will shock and surprise and move you. (author of War Against The Animals)

Elizabeth Stuckey-French

The voice of Noah York is beguiling, impudent and wise. Noah's honesty made me remember how it feels to be seventeen when only humor and friendship can save you. (author of Mermaids on the Moon)

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Leave Myself Behind 4.5 out of 5 based on 0 ratings. 26 reviews.
HGChris More than 1 year ago
I must say that the cover made me shy away from this book, but i had seen in enough to finally read it. I am glad i did. The story line between the to boys is a unique show of love, but there is a very "cheesy" side story that involves the death of a little girl, but it does bring a reality to the other characters. Here is a small excerpt that i loved. "I took a break around three yesterday afternoon and went to sit on the front steps with a thermos full of hot tea. It was kind of cold out, but warm enough in the sun that I didn't need a jacket. I had my eyes closed and was half-dozing when some instinct made me open my eyes. J.D. was walking toward me, but he was still about two blocks away and hadn't seen me yet. He had his head down and kicking through the leaves on the sidewalk. I watched him come, and i sipped my tea, and i felt the sun on my face. And then he looked up and saw me. "Did I say that my emotions weren't getting through? That's not what i meant. It's only the bad stuff that's temporarily leaving me alone. Because when J.D. finally lifted his head and saw me, it was like somebody had just told him that Satan was finally in therapy and Evil was a thing of the past. I have never seen such joy on a human face, and it was directed at me. Even more than that, it was because of me. And for one eternal instant, I swear to God I swallowed the sun, It's a wonder I wasn't cooked from the inside out, like a baked potato in a microwave. The moment passed and everything went back to normal, but I know it happened and will probably happen again. I may have granted the rest of my feelings and extended shore leave, but i don't seem to need a break from love." From Leave Myself Behind -Bart Yates
Guest More than 1 year ago
I've made it a personal ritual of mine to read this novel at least once a year. I always learn something new everytime I read. The characters are always deep and the story keeps me coming back for more. It never gets old.
Guest More than 1 year ago
as a gay teenager, i feel Noah York and his thoughts. this book is wise and comforting. the characters are perfectly crafted. i suggest this book to everyone.
Guest More than 1 year ago
A few years ago my Uncle Bart began writing a book, not telling any of us in his family what it was about. He only told us that it was a coming of age story about a boy and the hardships he has to go through in order to live happily. And how he learned to cope with the prejadices of an outside world that is not ready. When I began to read this book I was quite surprised. Noah was funny, witty, strong. I cried when he cried. I felt what it meant to not be understood. And I didn't know if Noah would come out well in the end, but I'm telling you that I prayed for it. It doesn't matter that I'm related to the author, I'm glad I read this piece of Literature. And while I may not have picked it up had I not been, I advise you to. This is a story that helps one understand what they may not have been able to understand before. Thankyou...
sandburg on LibraryThing 7 months ago
One of the best books I've read this year. Sarcastic and funny, sometimes rude. A great read. Highly recommended. Bravo, Yates!
phoebesmum on LibraryThing 7 months ago
Part coming of age story, part gay romance, part mystery-come-melodrama; maybe a bit over-ambitious, but a good narrative voice. (Grammatical nitpick: repeated use of 'lay' for 'lie'.)
meggyweg on LibraryThing 7 months ago
Although I thought the whole mason-jars-and-baby's-skeleton thing that drove that plot was pretty over the top, I loved this book for its extremely good depiction of human relationships: Noah's relationship with his mother and his deceased father, his growing romance with J. D., J.D.'s abusive mom, etc. The dialogue and the characters' actions were very real to me, and Noah and J.D.'s homosexuality was well done. Some books overstress the gay aspect of the story, but in this case the amount of emphasis was just right: clearly a factor in play, but not something you got slammed over the head with. I look forward to reading more of this author's work.
narwhaltortellini on LibraryThing 7 months ago
Noah is seventeen, honest and a bit profane (not anywhere near so much as other reviews or Noah himself seem to say, though). A kid from Chicago, he and his slightly psycho mother have just moved to a big house in a small rural town. As the two repair the house, they begin to discover jars filled with bits of writing, pictures, and other trinkets from the previous owners of the house, unraveling a mystery which consequently begins the unraveling of Noah's mother as well. Oh, and you know, there's some business with Noah and a kid from town (J.D.) realizing they're gay for each other and dealing with that.So. A little funny, a little mystery, an interesting mother/son relationship, a little romance, a little sex, maybe even a little 'literary,' but looked to have conversational, easily digestible prose. And the praise for it seems pretty universal. To a certain extend I was willing to write that off as the only-people-who-like-this-sort-of-thing-read-it-so-everyone-who-reads-it-likes-it factor, but I was expecting to like this pretty well.Verdict? I feel kind of horrible saying this since I've barely found a negative review, but... This isn't bad at all, but I really do think it's overrated.The first half, though, IS better than the second. The worst part, I'd say, is that the romance between the mains feels pretty generic. J.D. and all those connected with him feel this way, actually. He's got a bitchy girlfriend, a couple normal supportive guy friends, a nicer female friend who will of course be supportive of their gayness later on, bullies at school, and a ugly bitchy mom and a fat drunk of a dad. I mean, what is this, Harry Potter? Do people have to have such flat, overdone personalities, and must they also have physical appearances that match them just so you don't get confused or anything? (Mind, it kind of works in HP. But here we're not reading HP, and here it doesn't work.) J.D. himself doesn't have much of a personality at all (or rather, he seemed like he might when we meet him, but he flattens out more and more the longer the novel goes on).Still, the two are decently endearing, and for other good points, in general it's pretty well written, a little funny (it's not really THAT funny, mind. It's just got kind of a humorous tone sometimes), the mystery is nothing amazing but pretty interesting as a side plot. Noah's mom was a good mix of intelligent, motherly, and batty, and there's tension in the air when she starts to become more unhinged. Actually, this novel at first kind of reminded me of the movie Beautiful Thing, in that the romance was sweet but generic, but the movie was made actually very good by the fact the other characters were more interesting, and sort of warmed me up so I could enjoy the scenes between the mains more. The mystery in the house and Noah's mom were what did that for me in this book. It was pleasant.In about the middle, though, it begins to lose direction on all accounts. As we learn more about the mystery of the jars and the house, it starts looking less interesting and more just contrived. Noah's mom becomes more distant generic crazy. As everyone around him spirals into crazy or depressed, Noah really doesn't change his behavior much. There's an attempt to give a couple of the characters angsty backgrounds to explain their current personality. Since the characters have already gotten together at this point, nothing more is going on on the romantic end.So it's a pleasant read for the first part, and a little tiresome for the last. For me. But even at the best of times, I really do finds this much less grand than most seem to say. It's still maybe a little better than average, but I probably wouldn't read anything else by Yates since I'm finding this rather overrated. ...Only I've already got another novel of his on my shelf. Well, this was a first novel, anyway. Perhaps he improves?
jsheas on LibraryThing 7 months ago
This is definitely a worthwhile read - it possesses a unique plot and a fresh perspective, but much of the praise it is given may perhaps be unwarranted. Some have claimed that its narrator is worthy of being considered the Holden Caulfield of a new generation - this isn't so. Although Noah certainly has a realistic voice and the limited perspective that all who have passed through adolescence are well-acquainted with, it stops short of being all that it could be. It's a fun read with a fresh voice, but it's easily forgettable. (And, sometimes, that's okay.)
ElTomaso on LibraryThing 7 months ago
A clever, imaginative, and well written gay coming of age novel; recommended!
ericpgh More than 1 year ago
Characters and scenes are so vivid, I could see them and felt I knew them. I read this while there were MANY other stresses in my life and it was a great distraction from them, taking my attention away from things I couldn't control and focusing me on an engaging story about a person I could relate to and understand. I even found myself identifying with his mother and his boyfriend's mother as well. It helped me extend understanding to people in my own life who were in need of it (or, for whom I needed to extend understanding and empathy in order for things to go better for ME). Yes, the book really did expose these things for me. It was a good read, I'd recommend it to almost anyone.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
Amazing writer. Love the book.
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When i first read this book, it was completely by accident... my dad ordered a book over the phone called "me myself and i" and the guy taking the order put in "leave myself behind"! But im verrry happy that that mistake was made... this book is one of my favorites! The characters are amazing and vivid. When noah cries, i cried. When he was misunderstood, i understood him. I felt all his anger, joy, pain, and fear... this is absolutely a must read!!! <3
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SamuelB88 More than 1 year ago
This is a good novel. The main character, Noah, is a charming, sarcastic teenager living with his poet-Mother who is losing her grip on reality. Things come to a head when Noah finds out the kind of man he is.
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Guest More than 1 year ago
Holy crap. This novel is insanly accurate and so honest i hade to look away 'tho only for a moment' sometimes. The characters are so real, this couldn't have been more effective even if it here been a movie 'i'm kinda a cinephile'
Guest More than 1 year ago
This book is a very moving story about two boys, who find themselves in eachother. They find out that they have more in common than just being gay. I started reading it lastnight, and I couldn't put it down. I just finished it, and it was one of the easiest books for me to get intersted in, because it's on my level, being a gay 23 yearold, it spoke to me the way many books cannot.
Guest More than 1 year ago
It is true that this plot covers no new ground. Yet, this reader discovered rich and profound meaning in the development of the characters and the description of a small town in a particular place and time. In lesser hands, the clues-in-the-wall device would have seemed a gimmick to move a mystery plot forward. Yates' novel, however, transcends genre. I was surprised to see the book pegged as 'gay fiction' since that theme doesn't emerge until halfway into the novel. It could just as well be described a comedy, a horror novel, a ghost story, a coming-of-age memoir, a tale of sexual awakening, or a fish-out-of-water saga. Much like life, this novel is not all one thing. That Yates pulls off a successful interweaving of these varying moods and genres owes to his skill in fashioning the strong voice of his narrator. Noah York speaks in the present tense, an interesting approach given that three of the main characters are dead. The other three main characters are very much alive and anxious for the future. The tension arising from this state of affairs quickly would become tedious without Noah's quick and savage sense of humor. Noah is no dour, unstable Caufield. He has none of the misanthrope in him. Rather, Noah takes a sane, if skeptical, view of mankind. He protects himself even as he instinctively reaches out. To his surprise, if not to ours, he discovers that others need him as much as he needs them. The themes in this novel are nothing smaller than life and death, good and evil. The small town is one of the last places such dichotomies are so apparent. Noah reminds us that evil is real and bears consequences that outlast death. Yet he reminds us that life and goodness endures. It is a message worth hearing, made poignant in the authentic voice of Noah York. I look forwad to more of Mr. Yates' work.
Guest More than 1 year ago
What a great book--this author is just wonderful. He really knows how to bring the characters to life. Bart Yates has found a reader for life!!
Guest More than 1 year ago
Working in a library, you often come across books that are just simply amazing. This was one of them. It's fresh, it's haunting, it's sweet, but more importantly, it's honest. I recommend it for anyone who enjoys a good read.
Guest More than 1 year ago
Well I am partial to this book because my best friend Nicole Yates Uncle wrote... I think it shows that ven in todays society there is still bumps and turns one must go through. Society itself is still not excepting and it goes much further than homeseuxality. Young adults today love to dwell on catagorization(sp) ex. if one listens to a spesific style of music they are now a drugie, punk, prep or anything else. Either way it is always negative being punk is never a positiv thing nor' is being a prep. So then why would being heterosexual be better that homosexuality. That's b/c it's not, but like many things in society it is not excepted... We allow steryotypes to gives us false pretenses about people. Wether your religouse or not one person should not be allowed to judge another person by their intrest or sexuality. Anyway... The book is wonderful and I recomend reading it! ****