Lift

Lift

by Kelly Corrigan

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ISBN-13: 9781401341244
Publisher: Hachette Books
Publication date: 03/02/2010
Pages: 89
Sales rank: 548,106
Product dimensions: 4.80(w) x 7.00(h) x 0.70(d)
Age Range: 18 Years

About the Author

Kelly Corrigan is, more than anything else, the mother of two young girls. While they're at school, Kelly writes a newspaper column, the occasional magazine article, and possible chapters of a novel. She is also the creator of CircusOfCancer.org, a website that teaches people how to help a friend through breast cancer. Kelly lives outside San Francisco with her husband, Edward Lichty, and their children.

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LIFT


By Kelly Corrigan

Hyperion

Copyright © 2010 Kelly Corrigan
All right reserved.

ISBN: 978-1-4013-4124-4


Chapter One

Dear Georgia and Claire,

You're both in bed now. Dad, too. I should be sleeping but I'm wound up.

First day of school's tomorrow. Bus comes at 7:44 and won't drop you off until after three. We don't usually get downstairs before nine. But tonight, shoes are by the front door and backpacks are zipped. You even laid out your clothes, so we don't have to argue in the morning.

I don't think you'll remember tomorrow, or many of the other days we've spent together so far. I only know a handful of stories from before middle school. There was the kiss by the coats in the spring of fifth grade that I pretended was gross. And the time my teacher, who was tall but wore purple heels anyway, asked if anyone knew how to spell chaos and I wanted to raise my hand so badly and be the one who knew something no one else in my class knew but I couldn't because I didn't know. I feel that way still, like I wish I knew more, like I wish I had answers.

And I remember in third grade, I pulled a tiny foil star off Julia Burr's row and put it on mine, so I'd have more. I got caught and was taken to see the principal, who had very short hair that looked burnt on the ends. When she started in on me, Mrs. Ford, my teacher, held out her hand and guided me into her lap. I put part of her long necklace in my mouth-I was very nervous-and she gently took it out so I could concentrate on the principal's thoughts about truthfulness. You guys love that story.

You're always asking me to tell you about making mistakes or getting grounded. Like when I was ten and I tried to get a bug off my dad's windshield by kicking it, over and over, from the inside, until the glass cracked from top to bottom and side to side. Greenie came back to the car after paying for gas, sliding his billfold into his back pocket. and said, "Lovey! What the-?" We drove home in silence, Greenie shaking his head like he'd never met a kid with less sense. Those stories are as clear as stains compared to the everyday stuff like eating ice cream or playing Go Fish or swimming with my room in Squam Lake, which I've seen a picture of but can't actually call up inside me. I can't feel the water, or my mom's shoulders under my hands, or her neck under my chin, I can't remember how safe and good it must have felt to ride around on her like that.

* * *

I heard once that the average person barely knows ten stories from childhood and those are based more on photographs and retellings than memory. So even with all the videos we take, the two boxes of snapshots under my desk, and the 1,276 photos in folders on the computer, you'll be lucky to end up with a dozen stories. You won't remember how it started with us, the things that I know about you that you don't even know about yourselves. We won't come back here.

You'll remember middle school and high school, but you'll have changed by then. You changing will make me change. That means you won't ever know me as I am right now-the mother I am tonight and tomorrow, the mother I've been for the last eight years, every bath and book and birthday party, gone. It won't hit you that you're missing this chapter of our story until you see me push your child on a swing or untangle his jump rope or wave a bee away from his head and think. Is this what she was like with me?

The last time we went to Philly to see your grandparents, Jammy taught you how to play dominos while I checked my e-mail. I listened as she explained the rules in stages, showing you all the ways to score until she was sure you understood. When you bagged your first point, she helped you move your peg up the board, winking and clicking her tongue and saying jokey stuff like By Georgia. I think you you've got it.

When I was little, I don't think she winked or clicked or punned.

And my coming-of-age? Imagine one long string of cursing, crying, and lying followed by stomping and slamming, punctuated by the occasional kindness-These eggs are good or Is your knee feeling better? Jammy must've cut those moments into tiny pieces and rationed them to herself: for all she knew, it'd be a month until I fed her another morsel of affection.

I don't know when you'll read this. Maybe when you're a teenager? No, probably later, when you're on the verge of parenthood and it occurs to you for the first time that someone has been loving you for that long. Maybe (let's hope not) you'll read it because something's happened to one of us-my cancer came back or Dad was reading a text going across the Bay Bridge and cars collided-and you want to piece together what it was like before. No matter when and why this comes to your hands, I want to put down on paper how things started with us.

* * *

I always wanted kids-more than all other things. Not very Harvard Business School of me, I know. There are other things I want to do, big crazy things, like make a movie and build an artists' compound and fix my printer. But at night, in the years before I met your dad, when I was talking to a God I wasn't sure I really believed in, I whittled down all my requests to one: children. You.

Greenie has this huge family and I love being inside something that big. I love the noise and hugging and high-fiving and how we tell the same ten stories every time we're together and, after that, we tell the same six jokes, all of which have titles, like "Precious" and "Probably" and "The Sportcoat Joke," which Uncle Dickie delivers with a Scottish accent and a harelip for no reason anyone can give. I remember once in college climbing onstage with a band. The music was so loud. The bass line came up through the floor into my body. That's what it's like being in a room full of Corrigans.

Kathy is my favorite. She's one of Uncle Gene's seven kids, which I think explains her self-reliance and therapist's eye for interpersonal drama. I like her because she's so totally unguarded. I've always wanted to be like Kathy, and over the years, I've tried on various parts of her: I mimic her one-sentence e-mails in all lowercase letters, I listen to John Prine and early Bonnie Raitt. I clutter my bookshelves with unframed photographs, old lunch boxes, and homemade art. She's why I cut my hair short every couple of years and wear bandanas when it's too hot to turn on a blow-dryer. I read the books she sends me and the poets she mentions. She introduced me to Rilke, who has this line about how some harmonies can only come from shrieking, and another about how when crystal shatters, it also rings. The Rilke line that's up on my bulletin board is "the knowledge of impermanence that haunts our days is their very fragrance." So many true and delicate thoughts that prose can't touch. Promise me you'll read him.

Kathy took a job teaching high school English because she loves reading and talking about books. especially the things people accidentally reveal by empathizing with one character over another or hating a story too much or cuing over a certain passage. But more than reading, she loves her students-the pregnant girls, the sassy girls that call her Mizzes, the boys who look at her chest too long. I sat in on her class once at Charlottesville High and left thinking, God, she's important.

I remember this one Corrigan wedding-Cousin Boo's. Kathy and I were sitting by the dance floor, picking at an unclaimed piece of cake, the way you do when you've already had enough and think you might just have one more bite and then the other person joins in and then you're sweeping up the last of the icing with the backs of your forks. Her kids, all three of them, were on the dance floor together. I guess they were in middle school, or just starting high school. Lena was doing this move where you pull one foot behind you like you're stretching your thigh after a run, and Maggie was trying to moonwalk, and Aaron, the oldest, was doing the sprinkler.

"That's all I want, Kath. Right there. Funny kids who like each other."

She leaned into me and said, "It'll come. You'll get it. Oh! Look-"

Just then, Aaron and some other guys lifted Kathy's husband, Tony, over their heads, and Tony crowd-surfed, like Jack Black in the last scene of The School of Rock. People went nuts-cheering or reaching for their cameras or looking around for the father of the bride to see how this was going over with him. Over all the laughing and hollering, I could hear Aaron's voice. "Stay stiff, Dad! Like Superman!"

* * *

Dad and I were still opening wedding presents when I started to think about getting pregnant. I'd watched so many friends struggle-Tracy's seven in vitros, Mary Ann's three miscarriages, Kristi's baby born still. Dad and I were lucky, if lucky is a big enough word for it. Another way of putting it is that we were spared years of torment. Here's a third way of saying it: I've had cancer twice and if I had to pick one fate for you, cancer or fertility problems, I'd pick cancer.

One well-timed roll in the hay, then two weeks later: Gasp. I cried-though less than you probably think, less than I did the other day when we were reading about the Lorax popping out of the tree stump and the Once-ler handing over the very last Truffula seed. That about killed me. Georgia, you hate it when I cry. All my conspicuous emoting turns you off. That fed-up look you give me at teacher retirement parties or soccer games or the winter concert is partly how I know that I am only a few years away from exasperating you by the way I apply my lipstick or talk to waiters or answer the phone or drive or walk or breathe.

Anyway, Dad hugged me and made some crack about his uber-sperm and the Teutonic Knights. I held up the pregnancy test stick and said, "Should we keep this?"

"Is that gross?"

"I don't care, I'm keeping it," I said.

Then Dad suggested we go downstairs, have a Guinness, and play some darts. So we did.

Darts is the only "sport" in which I have a real chance to beat Dad. He seems to have forgiven me for not being the athlete my family background would have predicted. All those Corrigan coaches and athletic directors and all-Americans-and me, a girl who'd hear birds singing upon entering the office supplies aisle at Radnor Pharmacy. You girls can pin your fixation with file folders, hole-punchers, and three-ring binders on me. Watching you fashion a wallet out of index cards and double-sided tape, or embellish the edges of place cards with deckle-edge scissors, or swoon over a metallic, fine-tip paint pen? Talk about genetic validation.

But back to darts. I spent the first two years alter college mastering bar games with a bunch of Sigma Chi's, while somewhere in downtown Little Rock, Dad worked until midnight at the analyst desk of an investment bank. Before I challenged him to a game, he'd never held a dart. He caught on. A few years later, on our honeymoon, we ended every night playing on an outdoor dartboard, usually alongside an Indian busboy named Ibrahim, who had this unforgettable hair, perfectly cut and styled, shiny and black-the moon laid down a line on it like it was a lake. The point is, as funny as it seems, darts are kind of a romantic symbol for us.

When I finally started having contractions, forty-one weeks after the Guinness, Dad said. "Stay here. I'll get the good dams. We'll play to pass the time."

"They're on the corner of the table," I called after him. "Underneath some bibs and board books."

I have the video from that day. It's not much to watch-it took seventeen hours and an IV of Pitocin to start active labor-but every so often, you can see me bend over and wince. I'll show you, assuming you're old enough to hear me say "sweet-Jesus-mother-fucker." You know the rest of the story-the three-foot umbilical cord, the Jackson Browne song that was playing about soothing a fevered brow, the stork bile on your forehead that I can still sometimes see traces of when you get really hot or terribly upset.

I saw it last week, actually, when you came downstairs with a Safeway bag filled with paperback books and said. "I have to give these away."

"What?" I asked.

"I have to find all my other books and give them away too."

"Honey, why? What's the matter?"

"Because I don't understand them," you said, as your bottom lip quivered. "I don't understand the words. You know all the Harry Potter books I've read?"

"Yeah?"

"I don't understand any of them. I read them but I don't know what's happening in them."

You stood there, totally sick with the sense that you were not smart like I told you you were, and now you had to tell me, and how could I ever love a kid who didn't understand Quidditch or the Dark Arts, divination or transfiguration?

"Oh honey, no one understands Harry Potter." I held out my arms but you didn't come.

"Margaret Faust does. Even Ruby does-and she's six and I'm eight."

"Well, I don't. All I know is that I'm a Miggle."

You sighed.

"Come here. Tell me what you were reading just now that got you so upset-"

"I was reading a book that the librarian said is perfect for third-grade girls! So obviously, I should not even be in the third grade because I am so stupid!" Then the collapse into me, then the cry that sounds like a sewing machine at full speed.

Eventually, you went upstairs to get the book so we could read together. You opened to page one and read aloud.

"It says Pru would give her eye-tooth. What is an eye tooth?"

You stopped at every word you didn't know-utter, ransacked, pitch-perfect-no longer willing to skate past all those words and idioms.

"You feel better?" I said, after we finished the first chapter.

"Yeah. Can we keep going?"

"Of course."

"And Mom, it's Muggle."

It won't always be so easy to make your stork bite disappear.

* * *

During the four-month maternity leave that became the next eight, years, I made a job for myself as a photographer. It was pretty nervy, I guess, since I didn't have any training in composition or light or printing-just a one-night seminar at Elmwood Camera. But trust me when I say there's a lot you can figure out as you go. You don't always have to be Qualified or Experienced. Nobody really knows what they're doing, except maybe gene-splitters, and even they'd probably admit that there's an unteachable art to everything.

I specialized in family "candids," even though when I got to people's houses, the kids looked like they'd just come from that glossy green salon in Oz where the Cowardly Lion had his hair curled. I shot kids in the sandbox, on the swing, in the bath; making mud pies, blowing bubbles, smelling flowers, twirling, running, laughing. The trick to pleasing the client. I figured out pretty fast, was cropping out every nick, scrape, and bruise, along with the pimply parts, the second chins, and any flash of impatience or disappointment in either parent's brow. It's embarrassing, how much we want to idealize family.

Before I photographed you girls. I licked you clean like a mother cat and then sat you in a patch of open shade where the sun wouldn't make you squint or drape you with shadows. I framed out the dirty cuffs of your shirts and the neon plastic toys you wouldn't put down. I shot down on you so your eyes would seem bigger. I made you smoother and more beautiful than you could have ever been. Except you were, for a second. I was there. I saw it.

Most of the pictures taken after you turned four and became self-conscious have no character. You couldn't stand in front of a camera without making a peace sign or bunny ears or baring your teeth like you do for the dentist. The only good shots I got after that were when you were too consumed by something-weaving a hot-pot holder, peeling off your toenail polish, memorizing the dialogue between Troy and Gabriella-to notice me skulking around with my Nikon.

I had my camera the day Claire put her foot in the ocean for the first time. We'd stopped off at a stretch of beach after lunch at this greasy, delicious Mexican place and even though it was too cold to swim, Claire, you stripped off your clothes and greeted the sea like an audience, or your oldest friend. Before we got back in the car, you had to wash the sand off your body in one of those almost-painful public showers where the pressure's been set too high. You found so many ways to thrill yourself in those jet streams, ways that would make your Catholic grandmother blanch. Neither Dad nor I were inclined to stop you. You're only two and a half once.

(Continues...)



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Although we've never met, I love Kelly Corrigan like a friend. Her work gives me a rich sense of intimacy with someone who is full of life and hard-fought wisdom. She's hilarious, tender-hearted, tough, loyal, wild, and screwed-up—like all the coolest women I know. (Anne Lamott, author of Bird by Bird and Traveling Mercies)

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Anonymous More than 1 year ago
This is the second ebook I read on my new Nook. It was entertaining and well written, however, I was quite surprised to find out it was only 45 pages long, after I had already purchased it. I wouldn't expect such a short story to be this expensive.
tessasmom More than 1 year ago
There should be a way to see how long a book is before purchasing it!! Although I liked the content of the book, it was truly a short story and I would not have paid $9.99 for it if I had known! The actual length of the book after the title page and dedication was 35 pages. I feel that I deserve a refund.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
As a mother this book has made me want to run out tomorrow and by a journal and write a journal entry everyday to my two children. Kelly Corrigan really is such a gifted story teller. Very Enjoyable!!!!
inparadise More than 1 year ago
This is a small book, an "easy read," but it will stay in your mind long after you've finished it. Corrigan is a gifted storyteller with the ability to make you laugh one moment and weep the next. Written as a letter to her two young girls, the book made me regret not keeping up my journals as my three sons were growing up; I should have been recording "ordinary days" for all eternity because, before you know it, they're adults with lives of their own. For parents (especially young, new ones) parenthood is a daunting task: those nights of walking the floors with a colicy baby, or changing endless diapers seem like they'll go on forever. There's never enough time. You're always tired. You often have a short fuse. But before you know it, they're off to the first day of school, graduating high school, turning 30. Corrigan is honest in her writing, confessing to maternal tirades and not listening, things all of us have done but are not always honest about admitting. I loved this book and highly recommend it to mothers, fathers, and grown children - so they realize what we go through in raising them!
CDK621 More than 1 year ago
Read this book last night on the train home from a reading @ BN with Kelly. What a great woman, and her warmth and personality shine through in this refreshingly honest take on life as a parent. Recommending to everyone.
traciragas on LibraryThing 18 days ago
I¿m not a mother. I can¿t truly understand the depth of love that Kelly Corrigan describes in this letter to her daughters, but I still understood the deeper meaning behind her words. As a big fan of the Middle Place, I was truly touched by Corrigan¿s ability to detail the love she has for her daughters.Amazing, touching, and wonderful!
bbellthom on LibraryThing 18 days ago
A wonderful letter from a mother to her daughters. It was also a very touching book to a mother who has lost a child and goes on for the sake of her other children. I came across Kelly Corrigan when the Brease Care specialist at our local hospital gave new patients her book the Middle Place.
quzy on LibraryThing 18 days ago
I came across this little book, 96 pages, as I was wandering the bookstore... It was such a beautiful looking little book so I picked it up. I'm not a mother, but I had a childhood and Kelly's wonderful writing and wry sense of humor grabbed me from the start. Written as a letter to her children, Kelly relays her deepest fears, frustrations and fierce love through the weaving of three relevant stories from her life. It¿s the kind of book that will make you pause for a moment and take stock of the riches in your life¿If you take one thing away from Lift, it should be that life passes by swiftly and we should take a moment to stop and breath it all in. A loving testament, Lift can be appreciated not only by parents, but anyone with parents...
joannemepham29 on LibraryThing 18 days ago
I have not much to say since what else can be said about this wonderful book, except it could have gone on for many more pages and I would have been happy with that. I recommend to all people this book, parents or not
txwildflower on LibraryThing 18 days ago
A very small book that can be read in a sitting and keeps you interested enough to do just that. A mother tells her daughters about life...past, present, and future. I will probably go back and read her first book "The Middle Place" and hope I enjoy it as much as "Lift"
saskreader on LibraryThing 18 days ago
This was a joy to read--quick, funny, and meaningful. I feel as if I know Kelly Corrigan's children, even though I have only read a scant 83 pages about them, and I am now interested in reading her other book to immerse myself more in her world. I think my favourite line from this book is "I am your mother, the first mile of your road."
knitwit2 on LibraryThing 18 days ago
This very short book doesn't contain a wasted word. The author shares her deepest feelings about motherhood. The things she talks about are universal, every mother has felt these things, but few are able to articulate them. We can feel completely in love with our children while simultaneously wish they'd just stop talking and that's ok and in fact, normal. She makes her reader feel part of something much larger than glitter and peanut butter, something that is magical.
butterflybaby on LibraryThing 18 days ago
This was an easy read. A letter to her daughters, touching and I feel like Corrigan put her soul into this book. I highly recommend reading it.
MarcusH on LibraryThing 18 days ago
While Life seems like a memoir, it is also a letter to Corrigan's children. After facing hardships, Corrigan decides to address her children in a touching and personal reflection on life and experience. This is a good book if you're having a tough time and have kids. It may seem like spying on a personal conversation if you are disconnected from the situation Corrigan faces as an adult.
indygo88 on LibraryThing 24 days ago
I very much enjoyed Corrigan's "The Middle Place", so I have to admit that this one was a let-down. Written as a series of entries to her daughters, it was endearing & I have to admit, inspiring, but just so-so. The thing that bothered me most was the author's voice in this audio version. Had I not had to listen to her monotonous tone throughout, I think it would've all been more believable & enjoyable. But it just doesn't mesh when you read a heartfelt memoir with a flat, unemotional voice. I had trouble getting past that.
chrystal on LibraryThing 24 days ago
I love Kelly Corrigan! This book made me feel better as a parent, we can't do it perfectly all the time, but what we want for our children is for them to know they are wanted and cherished.
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Good writing Important themes Too short
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Olivia Perrego More than 1 year ago
It was a great book I loved it so much!It was a great life story.Read it!
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