Living the Deeper YES: Discovering the Finest, Truest Place Within You

Living the Deeper YES: Discovering the Finest, Truest Place Within You

by Anna Huckabee Tull


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“Luminous and magical.”
—Dr. David Treadway, Author of
Intimacy, Change, and Other Therapeutic Mysteries

“Anna Huckabee Tull is simply one of the great wisdom teachers of our time. Her first book will leave you hungry for the next one.”
—Erica Ariel Fox, New York Times Bestselling Author of
Winning From Within

—Keith Hampton, CEO of Standing Forward and Founder of Brave Records

“A stunning contribution to the field of self-awareness.
A life-changing, transformational read.”
—Wendy Capland, CEO of Vision Quest Consulting and author of
Your Next Bold Move for Women

“T H E T R U T H I S . . .
The truth is, you are strong enough.
The truth is, you are ready now for more.
The truth is, your inner light is resonant and healing.
The truth is, you are loved, surrounded by love, filled with love.
The truth is, all of your life challenges have been
leading you somewhere clearer, finer, and truer.
The truth is, you are capable of allowing your burdens to transform.
The truth is, you are beautiful, full of life and light.
The truth of you is inside you, ready to flow outward,
touching you deeply and radiating out beyond you
to anyone who is ready to experience it with you.”

Living the Deeper YES is a journey you are ready for. You were born with the power to lovingly attend to those smaller, tighter voices within—the ones that can leave you feeling pinched, agitated, and frozen. And you have everything you need to dialogue—playfully, spiritedly—with the Finest, Truest Place Within You. The invitation is extended, your guide is on hand, and the opportunity to shine from deep within is here the moment you begin, on a whole new level, to simply say … YES.

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Product Details

ISBN-13: 9781504379946
Publisher: Balboa Press
Publication date: 07/18/2017
Pages: 230
Product dimensions: 6.00(w) x 9.00(h) x 0.52(d)

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An Invitation

So, there you are.


You and I are in no way fully acquainted. But meeting you here, I want you to know this: I am imagining myself, at the outset of our journey, bowing.

I am bowing before the known and the unknown that lie within you. And from deep within that bow, it is my great desire to reach out and connect. To connect with you, yes. But much more to the point, to connect with one very specific locus-point within you: that place which represents your greatest concentration of clarity, focus, and joy.

How might we help you access and activate that place, so that it can connect more directly with the world you live in? That's the journey of this book. I want to invite you to embrace the larger energies all around you, to transform the tangled and limiting stories of drama alive inside you, and to attune yourself to the voices within you that are wise and brave and can set you free into a life that feels deeply good. It starts with an invitation for you to follow me — not spellbound by any powers I might hold, but awakened and re-animated by your own. Because I want to invite you to take a peek at someplace amazing.

We are standing at the gateway and there it is before us: A Completely Different World of energies and possibilities — one that I have spent the last twenty years of my life learning to inhabit.


Look around and I will show you what I know about this Completely Different World. The energy of thought vibrates differently here. It has a robust power.

In this world, there is a palpable, positive connection between the thoughts you think and the events that play out around you. Here, your thoughts interact with what is occurring "out there." And what is occurring starts to shift, in ways that honor and favor you and those all around you.

You are gifted, here, with a powerful lens that allows you to see that some of the events playing out in your surroundings are offering you profound lessons, great clarity, and deep pleasure. And to see, too, that other events are truly not worthy of your attention. As temptingly as they may call out to you with their distraction, you, with your lens, can see beyond them, and they fall away.

You are different here, too. You know yourself as no one has ever known you. You are able to hear subtle messages from deep within yourself. Quiet, hidden messages of off-centeredness can be easily discerned. Intuitive, clarifying, expansive ideas and thoughts move forward in your consciousness in a way that allows you to easily engage them.

You are lighter here. You move about easily within the different levels and aspects of yourself. There is a playfulness about you — a tenderness, a strength. And bubbling up from within you like a fountain, there is joy.

And oh! So much is possible here. Possibility hangs ripe like fruit all around you. Not on every branch, but on so many of them! Your ability to discern which branches are most fruitful is such a clean, focused, intuitive ability. There is a knowing, here, deep within you, that your power is rooted in something larger than the confines of your own consciousness. You are connected. Tapped in. A vibrant life force moves through you, and you know yourself to be worthy of it. You know how to stay open to it. There is no place left in you that blocks this greater whoosh of energy-from-beyond. You are an open portal, and this energy flows through you: deeply, easily, magically.

In this Completely Different World, you can see the pain of others, beneath whatever pleasant or angry mask they hide it with. You can see the potential of others, even when they have lost sight of it themselves. In this world, you are grateful, growing, learning, expanding, expressing, and discerning. You are wise, trusted, and very present. You are unencumbered. You are fun. You are good. You are imperfect, but learning, humble, brave. And you are filled with a sense of experimentation and play.

On bad days, a world like this seems an eternity away — entirely out of reach. A fabrication. Some half-baked, unreachable version of perfection. Some drug trip, which sounds fabulous except that reality, dense and demanding, will always be waiting on the other side. This Completely Different World is just a life meant for some saint, or some other lucky bastard who had it better, had it easier, got handed something that you don't have. Someone, perhaps, who has not sustained the betrayals and disappointments of your particular life.

On dark days, in dark years, it is often all you can muster to just keep going. There is no Completely Different World like this. And if there is, you are locked out of it. Maybe it's someplace you get to go to when you die. But right now, there are bills to pay, arguments to kick up or run from, and more disappointments hovering just out of sight.

I don't have time for this, I hear you say. Can't you see how busy I am? How far behind I have fallen? Take your poetry and your quiet moments in the woods and your tender eye gazes somewhere else. That's not where I am.

And perhaps this is exactly the point.

I want to invite you to enter a Completely Different World that is located just exactly where you find yourself sitting in this one, particular moment.

I want to invite you to enter into this Completely Different World that exists, elusively, right where you are, even if entry is not easy at first. Even if it taxes your understanding of where you are and what is possible. I want to invite you to enter into this world because you have been here before. Maybe you've written it off as a temporary place — a moment of grace, some kind of random and fleeting good luck, a strange coincidence, or a mistake.

But it's no mistake.

I want to invite you into a place, right here, right now, where there is an expansiveness inside of you that is astonishing. Where the world around you reflects back to you the very best of who you are and always have been. I want to invite you into this world despite any resistance you might currently have or any limiting beliefs you might hold about your deserving to be here.

You deserve to exist in this version of reality. You are fully equipped to be here.

And getting a-a-a-a-a-l-l the way to this place, from wherever you currently find yourself stranded, begins, really, with engaging with an incredibly basic concept:

That "Completely Different World" already exists within your consciousness.

It's not a matter of my talking you into it, shaming you into it, or hijacking you and dragging you to this place to prove that it is real. It's simply a matter of locating it within your consciousness and interacting with it.

This is true even if this place is buried under piles of hurts, resentments, misunderstandings, and misinterpretations of reality.

There are countless ways of accessing this Completely Different World. There are luck-based ways. There are "random moment of grace"-type ways. There are ways of literally bumbling in "by mistake" on your way to something else. (Oops! What? That moment right there was awesome! Wait! Where did it go?) And there are plenty of ways that have to do with catastrophes and losses of epic and soul-wrenching proportions that crack you wide open and force you to learn to navigate anew.

But by far my favorite way, and the one I have dedicated my career to understanding, as I have made a lifetime study of the Dynamics of Stuckness and Flow, is by learning how to shift your consciousness. To, in essence, CHANGE YOUR MIND about what is possible.

It is largely an internal journey, though it's punctuated by all kinds of real-world evidence, once you are ready to see that evidence. And it has, at its root, the most fundamental relationship, friendship, and love affair that you will ever cultivate:

The key to that "Completely Different World" is your relationship with yourself.

I have come to believe, with a conviction deep and powerful, that the quality of essentially everything that plays out in your life has EVERYTHING to do with the nature of your own relationship with yourself — with how much you relate to all the different levels and facets of Who You Truly Are.

The sweetness of your interactions with yourself — the integrity, lightness, or heaviness of your interactions with yourself — is directly correlated to the sweetness and integrity and lightness or heaviness of the interactions you are able to attract and create out in the world.

The playfulness of your interactions with yourself — the creativity of your interactions with yourself, the judgmental-ness of your interactions with yourself, or, conversely, your ability to feel compassion for yourself, to encourage yourself, to draw clean boundaries within yourself — has EVERYTHING to do with your ability, out in the world, to engage on these same levels with others.

All of it, all of it, all of it, begins INSIDE HERE, in the Story of You, and in the way that you, consciously or unconsciously, relate to yourself. How you tune out, or tune in, to the messages coming from deep within you. How you trust or doubt those messages. And how, if you become disconnected from those deeper inner messages, you go about re-connecting.

I want to invite you into a space where you are so connected to yourself, so supportive of yourself from within, that The Brightness blooms and dances all around you, and The Darkness becomes simply an invitation to shine your light.

Your life is offering you a very specific invitation. And I am now inviting you to translate that invitation into something you can hear, work with, and benefit from.

The particular pathway that I am about to show you is all about the powerful, mind-bending, life-expanding things that can happen when you learn what it truly means to deepen your connection with yourself, and in so doing, deepen your connection with the people and energies all around you.

The place where this other world is, is right here. In your very skin. In this exact moment, whether the moment happens to appear, on the outside, to be filled with beautiful gardens or some new tax form arriving in your in-box. What is happening "out there" need not set the tone for what is happening, "in here," inside of you. The pathway I want to show you — the pathway I believe you, specifically, showed up here to learn about — starts right here, in this very instant.

Because this moment, always, is the portal to the place where the freest, sweetest, wisest, bravest, most generous version of you resides.


A Second, Stronger Voice Within Us

Rose came to me deep into the most painful, unhinged year of her life. Upon hearing that I wrote songs on commission, she'd had a clear and powerful thought, rising up in stark contrast to the internal chaos she was feeling daily: I want Anna to create a song for me! I want to hear this song and know that it is my own voice, calling me forward, helping me to move out of this pain and into something truer and more expansive.

We sat down for a song interview. Rose was hunched over and small, almost keening on my couch. She talked about her terrible year — how her husband had left her, revealing a four-year affair, and had moved on immediately to wed this new partner, despite their 32-year marriage and a family complete with three lovely, grown daughters. Like many before her who have invited me to create a song for them, Rose was candid, brave, intelligent, and vulnerable in her sharing. But unlike anyone before her, practically every word out of her mouth sounded and felt too toxic to use in a forward-calling song. I watched her veer back and forth erratically between two states of being.

On the one hand: I am so angry at him! How could he do this? I trusted him. My life is ruined! He is awful!

And on the other: I loved him so much. How could I have missed how hurting and lonely he must have been? What was it about me that made me so undesirable? How did I get so far removed from being attuned to what was going on in his world? I am awful!

She was filled with tears and confusion, careening back and forth between furious and desperate states of mind. I tracked her every comment. I took fourteen pages of notes — a new record. Yet almost every word seemed to tug her in an energetic direction that felt weak, lost, victimized, small, unguided. She spoke of deep, piercing wounds, of confusion and disappointment. Almost nothing in the vibrations of what she said sounded to me like a deeper, more authentic voice of self-rescue or possibility.

Except ...

Except that five times, for the most fleeting of moments, when she opened her mouth, what came forward was of a different vibration entirely. Hidden among that embattled pushing and pulling, it turned out, were five extractable, twinkling gems. These fleeting comments just seemed to come from someplace "other"— someplace within her that was strong and brave, ready to rise up and shake itself off. Ready to begin anew and embrace a hopeful, forward direction.

"Some part of me knows that I have always known where I am going," she said, and I sat there, captivated. This caught my attention. But the next thing that came out of her mouth was more bile. "I am so sick of how stuck I feel," she said. Then: "I hear some voice deep within me, calling out to me," she said, but did not continue to follow the thread. Much later: "I know it's time to rise up to my full height," she said. And later still, after a review of her husband's many transgressions and her own shortcomings: "I just want to be able to truly stand in my own skin."

After another half-hour of complaints and self-doubt, rather astonishingly, she said one of the purest, most powerful things I had yet heard anyone say, in a song interview or anywhere else: "I want to make peace within myself."

This idea was almost lost there, among all the upset, drama, and negativity.

What was this other voice? Whose was it? Where was it coming from?


My journey has taught me that this voice, this vibration, this perspective of centeredness, even in an overwhelming situation, represents a second, co-existing level of reality. This deeper level, I have come to know, is always in existence, even in the darkest and most painful of times.

The story of Rose has an interesting and instructive ending. I did, in fact, toss almost everything she said onto the cutting room floor. I salvaged only the five things she had said that sounded like they were coming from a different, higher plane of reality within her, and I expanded them into a song. I invited Rose back to my house to hear it and, listening to it for the first time, tears of recognition streamed down her face. She expressed amazement that these were HER words. That they had been freed up from the muck they had been mired in and woven into something beautiful and inspiring.

After listening to the song, Rose went on her way.

Three months later, when the song had been studio-recorded, I opened the door and there on my front porch stood a woman I barely recognized: tall, radiant, suntanned, and vibrant. It took me a moment to realize that this was indeed Rose. She looked easily twenty years younger and four inches taller! But more to the point, she was so clearly alive, engaged, present ... happy.

I invited her in, preparing her to hear the finished studio version of the song, but felt compelled to ask about the striking shift in her countenance. And that's when she explained to me what she had been doing for the past three months. Since I had last seen her, she had been listening to the rough-cut, homemade recording I'd given her, over and over and over.

"I listen to it all the time," she said. "This is my voice. I know this is my voice, singing directly to me. I can hear that this is my truth. It is changing me, to be able to clearly hear it."

The song, "Beauty in Me," when I shared it on the Internet, brought forward a similar reaction from innumerable other listeners, many of whom have written me to say, "I feel like this was created just for me." And I am not surprised.

I'm not surprised because the language of this "other voice," the vibration of it, the essence of what it is all about, is familiar to all of us.

I believe we all came here knowing about this "other voice" within us, and that, in fact, the moments where we are conscious of it and connected to it are among the finest moments of our time here on earth. Conversely, the moments in which we lose connection with it — forget what it means to honor that place within us that knows — are the moments we experience as dark, foreign, haunting, daunting, and most overwhelming.

It is my experience that there are genuinely two different levels of reality, and that, deep within us, we all actually know this. But it can just seem too strange to talk about it, most of the time.


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Table of Contents

Foreword, xi,
Introduction, xv,
1 An Invitation, 1,
2 A Second, Stronger Voice Within Us, 7,
3 Logistical Reality and Essence Reality, 11,
4 The Power of Stopping, 22,
5 Essence Coming Alive Within Us, 29,
6 YES Right Now: Takeaways & Explorations, 41,
7 When Things Are Going Badly, 53,
8 The Brilliant Distraction of Drama, 60,
9 Upsets and Charge, 66,
10 Toxic Stories of Judgment, Blame, and Fear, 76,
11 Following a Projection, 85,
12 Transforming a Projection, 101,
13 YES Right Now: Takeaways & Explorations, 113,
14 Places Within Ourselves, 123,
15 Many Powerful Voices, 126,
16 Strengthening Your Inner Configuration, 137,
17 Healing Wounded Parts, 143,
18 Connecting with Your Higher Self, 157,
19 Beautiful Conversations Within, 167,
20 YES Right Now: Takeaways & Explorations, 179,
21 Putting It All Together, 189,
22 Tips for Navigation, 192,
Acknowledgments, 203,
About the Musical Album, 206,
About the Author, 207,

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