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Look at Me!: The XXXTENTACION Story

Look at Me!: The XXXTENTACION Story

by Jonathan Reiss


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A compelling biography of SoundCloud sensation and rising star XXXTENTACION -- from his candid songwriting and connection with fans to his tragic death.

At the age of twenty, rapper Jahseh Dwayne Onfroy -- aka XXXTENTACION -- was gunned down during an attempted robbery on the streets of Deerfield Beach, FL, mere months after signing a $10 million record deal with Empire Music. A rising star in the world of SoundCloud rap, XXXTENTACION achieved stellar levels of success without the benefit of a major label or radio airtime, and flourished via his passionate and unfettered connection to his fans.

In Look at Me!, journalist Jonathan Reiss charts the tumultuous life and unguarded songwriting of the SoundCloud sensation. Unlike most rap on the platform, XXXTENTACION's music didn't dwell on money, partying, and getting high. He wrote about depression, suicide, and other mental health issues, topics that led to an outpouring of posthumous appreciation from his devoted fanbase. It was XXXTENTACION's vulnerability that helped him stand apart from artists obsessed with being successful and "cool." Yet these insecurities also stemmed from -- and contributed to -- his fair share of troubles, including repeated run-ins with the law during in his teen years, a disturbing proclivity towards violence, and a prison sentence that overlapped with the release of his first single.

Through the memories of the people who knew him best, Look at Me! maps out the true story of an unlikely cultural icon and elucidates what it was about him that touched the post-millennial generation so deeply.

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Product Details

ISBN-13: 9780306845420
Publisher: Hachette Books
Publication date: 06/09/2020
Pages: 288
Sales rank: 266,156
Product dimensions: 5.90(w) x 8.80(h) x 0.90(d)

About the Author

JONATHAN REISS has worked as a journalist for the last decade, contributing to outlets like Spin, Interview, and the New York Observer. He currently works as a contributing writer for Rolling Stone covering the opioid crisis. His debut novel, Getting Off, was published in 2018 to critical acclaim. Prior to that, he spent two years writing almost exclusively about hip-hop for leading magazines like The Source and Complex. Reiss lives in Brooklyn, New York.

Table of Contents

Chapter 1 The Explanation 1

Chapter 2 Take a Step Back 11

Chapter 3 RIP Roach 19

Chapter 4 Look At Me! 33

Chapter 5 Depression & Obsession 43

Chapter 6 Everybody Dies in Their Nightmares 47

Chapter 7 Revenge 55

Chapter 8 Save Me 67

Chapter 9 Dead Inside 81

Chapter 10 YuNg BrAtZ 87

Chapter 11 King 99

Chapter 12 Elephant in the Room 113

Chapter 13 #ImSippinTeaInYoHood 117

Chapter 14 Fuck Love 123

Chapter 15 Carry On 137

Chapter 16 Ayala 141

Chapter 17 Orlando 151

Chapter 18 I Spoke to the Devil in Miami, He Said Everything Would Be Fine 159

Chapter 19 Moonlight 171

Chapter 20 Jocelyn Flores, Guardian Angel 181

Chapter 21 Sad! 197

Chapter 22 Infinity (888) 207

Chapter 23 Changes 221

Chapter 24 Hope 231

Chapter 25 I Don't Even Speak Spanish LOL 241

Chapter 26 Numb 245

Chapter 27 SKINS 251

Acknowledgments 265

Selected Discography 267

General Index 271

Songs and Albums Index 281

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