Table of Contents
Prologue .......................................... 1
Part I: Mania
1 Turning Points .................................. 7
2 The County Hospital ........................... 33
3 The Private Hospital ........................... 54
4 Following the Tracks ........................... 78
Part II: Perspective
5 Anatomy of a Mini-Episode .................... 95
6 Anatomy of a Manic Episode .................. 121
7 Pressure Cooker .............................. 168
8 Psychotherapy Before ......................... 189
Part III: A New Integration of Self
9 Recovery and Resilience ....................... 228
10 Psychotherapy and Other Self Care ........... 231
11 Searching for Clues .......................... 235
12 I Believe ..................................... 239
13 Pilgrimage .................................. 244
14 Cynicism and Rebirth ........................ 248
15 Prelude to Mania .............................252
Bird’s Nest ...................................... 255
16 Mood Stabilizer .............................. 256
17 Moving Forward ............................ 261
18 Why Have You Forsaken Me? ................ 264
Mysteriously Over .............................. 272
19 Community and Other Nourishment ......... 273
20 After the Storm .............................. 281
21 Questions and Hope ......................... 284
22 Spring ....................................... 289
23 Evolution .................................... 290
24 Down to the Marrow ........................ 292
25 The Seclusion Room .......................... 296
Hurdles .......................................... 300
Epilogue: The Loom of Resilience ................ 302
Notes ........................................... 309
Quote Sources .................................. 316
To Go Deeper ................................... 318
Gratitudes ...................................... 323
About the Author ............................... 325
