My Last Kiss

My Last Kiss

by Bethany Neal


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What if your last kiss was with the wrong boy? In Bethany Neal's My Last Kiss, Cassidy Haines remembers her first kiss vividly. It was on the old covered bridge the summer before her freshman year with her boyfriend of three years, Ethan Keys. But her last kiss—the one she shared with someone at her seventeenth birthday party the night she died—is a blur. Now, Cassidy is trapped in the living world, not only mourning the loss of her human body, but left with the grim suspicion that her untimely death wasn't a suicide as everyone assumes. She can't remember anything from the weeks leading up to her birthday and she's worried that she may have betrayed her boyfriend. If Cassidy is to uncover the truth about that fateful night and make amends with the only boy she'll ever love, she must face her past and all the decisions she made—good and bad—that led to her last kiss.

Product Details

ISBN-13: 9781250063007
Publisher: Square Fish
Publication date: 06/16/2015
Pages: 368
Sales rank: 1,150,713
Product dimensions: 5.40(w) x 8.20(h) x 1.10(d)
Age Range: 12 - 18 Years

About the Author

Bethany Neal writes young adult novels with a little dark side and a lot of kissing from her Ann Arbor, Michigan, home. She graduated from Bowling Green State University. The things she is obsessed with include, but are not limited to: nail polish, ginormous rings, pigs, pickles, and dessert. My Last Kiss is her first novel.

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IT’S SNOWING OR MAYBE it’s raining … no, it’s snowing. I can feel the wet flakes gathering in the corners of my eyes, melting down my cheeks like tears. The warmth from the sun I felt on my face only an instant before is gone. When I blink, the only things I see are blotchy white bits of trees and clouds and lights. Where are those lights coming from? I stumble onto my feet and my legs feel Jell-O-y, like I’ve been swimming for a really long time and now the ground feels too rigid.

I take one step and suddenly my whole body stings. I fall to my knees and clutch my middle. The worst pain I’ve ever felt invades my limbs, like when your foot falls asleep except it’s my entire body and it’s epically stronger. I’m screaming and gripping my sides, writhing in the fluffy white snow. And then the pain stops; as fast as it came, it stops. Filled with relief, I do a quick once-over of my body. I even pinch my arm to check if I’m dreaming. How dumb is that?

I manage to open my eyes enough to see a silhouette standing above the waterline among the trees in Dover Park. He—at least I think it’s a he—is staring at me, but not at me, me. He’s staring at the bloody, twisted mess of me on the rocks along the riverbank.

Why are there two of me?! And how did I get in the river?

I run toward my Other, mangled body. I must be having a nightmare—but it’s like there’s a force field around me. I sort of melt into the air, then get flung back. I land on my butt in a massive snowbank at the water’s edge, waiting to feel the cold from sitting in waist-deep snow.

A jagged chunk of ice floats by, sparkling in the early-morning moonlight.

I still haven’t felt the cold.

The silhouette is talking now. I hear him, but the words are muffled as if he’s talking underwater. I press my hands to the sides of my face and squeeze my eyes shut, concentrating. His voice comes clearer … He’s telling me he didn’t mean to.

Mean to what?

Now he’s telling me this isn’t how it was supposed to go. This is her fault.

Is “her” me?

I open my eyes to check if he’s talking to me, me. He’s not. I look at my Other body, broken and folded in ways a body should never bend over a mound of gray rocks. In one of my Other hands I’m holding something, maybe a piece of paper, but I can’t see it clearly. Snow piles high again around my eyes and my cheeks and now on my shoulders. It comes down, harder and harder, until I feel buried in it. I can’t even see it and I’m buried in it so deep that I can’t breathe.

Slowly a thought creeps in, settles in the front of my mind. It tugs at something I feel like I know but can’t quite remember. I open my mouth to speak it, but I don’t see my breath the way I should in early March. I glance up at the silhouette. He’s crying or maybe he’s yelling; either way, I can see his breath.

I’m not breathing. I don’t need to. The words float past my lips like a rehearsed chorus: “I’m dead.”

Text copyright © 2014 by Bethany Neal

Table of Contents


Title Page,
Copyright Notice,
My First Kiss,
My Future Boyfriend,
The Other Guy,
No Place to Judge,
The Push,

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My Last Kiss 4.1 out of 5 based on 0 ratings. 15 reviews.
Alyssa75 More than 1 year ago
***Review posted on The Eater of Books! blog*** My Last Kiss by Bethany Neal Publisher: Farrar, Straus and Giroux  Publication Date: June 10, 2014 Rating: 3 stars Source: ARC sent by the publisher Summary (from Goodreads): What if your last kiss was with the wrong boy?  Cassidy Haines remembers her first kiss vividly. It was on the old covered bridge the summer before her freshman year with her boyfriend of three years, Ethan Keys. But her last kiss--the one she shared with someone at her seventeenth birthday party the night she died--is a blur. Cassidy is trapped in the living world, not only mourning the loss of her human body, but left with the grim suspicion that her untimely death wasn't a suicide as everyone assumes. She can't remember anything from the weeks leading up to her birthday and she's worried that she may have betrayed her boyfriend.  If Cassidy is to uncover the truth about that fateful night and make amends with the only boy she'll ever love, she must face her past and all the decisions she made--good and bad--that led to her last kiss. What I Liked: A contemporary novel set from the perspective of the dead heroine - weird, right? Cassidy is dead, but she's a ghost. She remembers nothing from the night of her death, but she knows it wasn't a suicide (like everyone thinks it is). Someone pushed her into the ice-cold river. Dead Cassidy is determined to know what happened to her, and so is Cassidy's friend Aimee, and Cassidy's boyfriend Ethan. Ethan can see ghost Cassidy, but no one else can. Really weird, right? This book is a mystery, and it flips between present and past. Actually, ghost Cassidy is pulled between past and present. One minute, she's in the present, one moment, she's being sucked into the past. Slowly, she gets pieces of her memory back, one by one. By the end of the book, she is able to figure out how she died, and all of the events leading up to her death. It's not as simple as someone pushing her. There are many factors, many players, many motives. That was definitely one of the things I liked about this book - the complexity of the entire situation. The blame is on just about everyone, even though only one person is responsible for Cassidy's death. One girl was in love with Ethan, and wanted to sabotage Cassidy and Ethan's relationship. One boy wanted to protect his best friend's heart from getting broken by Cassidy. One boy was in love with Cassidy, except he couldn't be, because Ethan is in love with Cassidy. And Cassidy herself, dallying with another boy. Complex, intricate, fragile... The mystery kept me going, if anything. I wanted to know what happened to Cassidy. But after a while, things seemed to go in circles, and I just wanted to know who did it. Information seemed inconclusive, or unimportant. So, I finished this book, but I had issues with it. What I Did Not Like: Like I mentioned above, I had problems with this book. The plot seemed to go around and around, the mystery getting stale and boring. I WANTED to know the story behind Cassidy's death, and how each person played a role in her death, but this book kept going in circles. Scene after scene, the information presented seemed useless. Nothing really showed anything important to solving the mystery. Not until the very end. In the end, everything is revealed, and it's like a huge info dump. I still don't fully understand everything that was revealed at the end, and quite frankly, I don't care enough to re-read the end and figure it out. I'm sorry if you might have wanted me to do that. I already know that I would not like the heroine, Cassidy, if she were a real person. I would probably hate her a lot. She seems like the stuck-up type, that gets whatever she wants without having to work hard to ask or do anything. The sense of entitlement, it's strong with this girl. What she did with and to Caleb was wrong. And the same, with and to Ethan. I really didn't like Cassidy - I found her annoying. Of course, I wouldn't wish death on anyone, but ugh, even in death, I wasn't a fan of her. It's hard to like a book if you didn't really like the protagonist, or the plot. Again, the mystery was cool, but when it started going in circles, I sort of shut down. I wanted to know what was going on, what had happened, and that wasn't being revealed. Even in the end, it was confusing. THAT IS ANNOYING. Also, please explain to me why Ethan is the only one that can see Cassidy? No explanation was given. You couldn't make one up? Like, Ethan and Cassidy are soul mates, or something. Absolutely no explanation was offered, and I have more of a problem with the lack of explanation, than whatever possible explanation the author could have offered. If that makes sense. Would I Recommend It: Hmm, not really. If you already have this book, then read it! If you were already super excited to read it, then go for it! But if you were on the fence, or didn't have much interest to begin with, then don't bother. It isn't a must-read, or the next bestselling novel (that I can see, anyway. I could be wrong). Rating: 3 stars. This was an interesting book, and I enjoyed reading it, but I wouldn't read it again. The mystery was intriguing and puzzling, but this book wasn't amazing or mind-blowing or THAT GOOD, unfortunately.
kydirtgirl68 More than 1 year ago
Cassidy is trying to remember who her last kiss was with. She is dead but she doesn't know how she got that way. Everyone seems to think she killed herself. She is falling everyone around trying to figure out just what happened. No one but her boyfriend can see her. Her best friend is trying to figure things out as well. Cassidy knows she must have done something bad but she doesn't remember much. Slowly as the clues begin to show their selves she starts to remember everything that led up to that night. She needs to hurry and figure things out as someone doesn't like her best friend searching for answers. Cassidy is dead but she is still trying to make up for her past as she remembers it. She is a good person who made mistakes as some young people do. She has to come to terms with all that happened in her short life. Her family was falling apart before now she has an outside view of what happens after her death. She wishes she could be there to help them and get them to move on. Her boyfriend Ethan is a wonderful guy. He tries his best to help her but doesn't push her memories on her. He is a very loyal guy for someone his age. I liked this story as you get to see what all happened to lead up to her death in flashbacks as well as what happens after. All the characters have some part to add to what happened to her and it all leads up to that horrible night. Cassidy sees who was really there for her and who she shouldn't have trusted. I liked it as I was never sure till the end what had happened that night. I had a few guesses. This is a great book and I really enjoyed it.
BlkosinerBookBlog More than 1 year ago
  I wanted to read this because I enjoy these sort of "ghost" or afterlife stories. It is a spin-off of the amnesia because it becomes a quest for her to figure out what led to her death and if her last kiss was with the wrong guy.     It drew me in right away because Cassidy has a voice that feels natural. She is in really stressful place because she is watching her death scene and then ends up in the morgue with her own body. Then she visits family and the boy who was her perfect first kiss. She does what she calls melting when she has the flashbacks of memories. She feels wet and then her body starts to disappear and she "wakes up" in a new place and time. Some of the memories are from further back but most are giving us the pieces of the puzzle in the weeks leading up to her death.      I liked the friendship it drew between Cass, Aimee, and Madison. They had a group that was close, and really knew each other. Their quirks, how their emotions are displayed or hidden. Aimee and Madison both grieve differently but they get on a mission to figure out what happened to her, and are denying the rumor that she committed suicide because they feel like the friend they knew wouldn't do that, and she seemed drunk but def not depressed at the party right before Cassidy died. Though I was surprised at the part that one of the friends in Cass' circle played into the party, the different people on the bridge with Cassidy and maybe even the one behind trying to break up Ethan and Cassidy.      The romance between Ethan and Cassidy was so sweet. I loved the way they were together in the flashbacks. But things started to change and we get the impression that there was another guy, and there was also a rumor that they were breaking up but Cassidy didn't know anything about it. So, it was hard to give in to the romance completely because I don't know if Ethan was planning to break up with her, or if she cheated on him with her last kiss. Or was there a last kiss (at 20% I am speculating this, I have no idea.)          There were a few things that caused me to rate down a bit. There weren't explanations for why Ethan was special in that ***minor spoiler--highlight to read*** only he could see Cassidy. I know they were together but there could be some sort of explanation. There was love between her and her parents, friends, etc.   Then there were some times when the reveals felt like filler. There were some of the flashbacks that I liked because it gave us history with Cass and Ethan, Cass and her friends, as well as her and her family.          I saw a lot of growth in Cassidy. While at the beginning she seemed like I could relate to her, and I certainly wanted to get to the bottom of her reason for being a ghost. As I got some of the flashbacks it became a little bit harder to like her with some of her actions. But I can also get that we all make mistakes and do things in the heat of the moment that we'll regret or doesn't tell the full story who we are. But still, I can see how she realizes that and that she sees things in a new way. Ultimately though, what made me completely go there with her was as much as she tried to rationalize everything she did wrong (and admit it, we all do things wrong) I could see why she made the decisions she did. And at the end, she accepted that she'd messed up, owned it, and did her best to make it all as right as possible.      While there is the semi love triangle and some cheating, it never bothered me like it usually does, and I don't know if I understand that when you have a friend or boyfriend who seems so good and has a good family it is hard to confide about your own new issues at home. And how it can be easy to mix up childhood nostalgia for feelings you can act on when the other person has been in your life so long and cares so much for you.      The book really kept me guessing right up until the end, so even with the bits of repetition, I can look back and see that there are elements that really did add to the big picture. Each character played their part in the whole story and most of them really do have reason to feel at least a little guilty over all that led up to that point.  Bottom Line: If you like the premise, you'll enjoy this suspense-filled journey to discovering the events leading up to main character's death. 
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KrittersRamblings More than 1 year ago
Check out the full review at Kritters Ramblings Cassidy experiences her last kiss and she doesn't even know it.  Then she realizes that she is staring at her dead body and must follow her friends to find out how she died and help expose her killer.   An interesting part of editing/formatting the book was where the numbered chapters were concerned that was Cassidy as a ghost in the present tense and the titled chapters were stories from the past to give the reader some context.  I appreciated that there were stories included to take the reader back in time and give some backstory.  Those parts made the book for me.  
MakeupByOne More than 1 year ago
A romantic story
Chrissy_W More than 1 year ago
Did I enjoy this book: I did enjoy it. It was a quick read that had me wanting to see how it ended. But I didn’t quite get the point. Cassidy met a tragic end, an end she doesn’t remember. She is stuck among her friends until the circumstances of her death come to light. Of course, you feel bad for Cassidy, her life cut so short. And you feel for her friends as they try to piece together what happened to Cassidy. They each are going through their own grief and guilt. But I didn’t quite understand why she was stuck there, going through her memories. I know she was trying to figure out what happened to her. I know her friends were trying to figure it out. Cassidy is pulled between the present and her memories. It is a bit disjointed, but it was interesting. You never really remember everything in chronological order. But the transitions were a bit rough for me. There were a few parts that I didn’t quite understand. (Two that stick out are Ethan, seventh grade and pencils.) Sadly, if I go into detail, I will spoil a part of the book, so I won’t do that. But I wonder if I missed something. If anyone has read this and is willing to discuss the spoiler parts, please email me or leave a comment with *SPOILER* to begin it. I’d really like to try and figure it out. Would I recommend it: Sure. Disclosure: I received a complimentary copy of this book in exchange  for an honest review.
kimberlyfaye More than 1 year ago
I’ve been trying to mix up my usual reading schedule, not only with young adult and new adult (and the occasional adult), but by adding suspense, mystery or historical fiction into the rotation, instead of sticking with my usual go-tos of romance and science fiction. The blurb for My Last Kiss intrigued me immediately when I first read it. I was excited to learn I had a spot on the tour and would get a chance to read this book before its release. My Last Kiss begins with Cassidy observing her broken body and realizing she’s a ghost. She’s not sure how she died, but she has flashes of a kiss with someone before her death. She can’t remember who, though. It’s just one of many things Cassidy can’t remember. As she visits her friends and family, only one person can still see, hear or feel her – her boyfriend, Ethan.  I loved the mystery plot line in this book. I enjoyed how the story unfolded between the scenes with Ethan, the flashes that took her to others in the present and the flashbacks. Nothing was as it seemed and the dynamic between the characters was interesting and complicated. There were so many lies. Everyone seemed to be hiding something. Cassidy is determined to put the pieces together to find out what really happened to her. It’s the only way she can move on. I can’t review this book without talking about the romance between Ethan and Cassidy. Yes, they had their problems while she was living, but the scenes between them after she had died were heart-wrenching and tender. It makes me so sad they had to say goodbye. I kept hoping for some twist that would allow her to come back, but I knew it wasn’t going to happen that way, no matter how much I wanted it to.  My Last Kiss was a fantastic debut novel. The writing was excellent, the pacing nearly perfect. I thought I knew all along who was responsible for the accident that led to Cassidy’s death, but I was wrong. The story was complex and unpredictable and I was hooked right from the start. I enjoyed the characters and the interaction between them. I loved that I was kept guessing right up until the very end. I’m looking forward to more great novels from Bethany in the future.  I received a copy of this book from the publisher, via NetGalley, in exchange for an honest review. 
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