At 56, my life as I knew it was over. I knew I would never be the same person again. Even the past as I knew it would be forever changed, different from the truth I knew it to be. The future would definitely be changed. One event can change everything.
My world came crashing down all around me. What do you do when you are married to someone, and you realize you do not know him? He was not the person you thought he was after 21 years of marriage and knowing him for 35 years.
Life really is so precious. We truly never know if we are going to take that next breath or not. In an instant, this life could be over. Even though my conscious mind knows all of this, it is entirely different to live it. To know it as your reality, when your life changes in an instant with no warning, you have no choice but to live it.
This is a love story…the story of the love of my life, of what I thought was true love. It is a story of loss; the sudden loss of the life of my husband, loss of the illusion of what I thought and believed the marriage was…loss of me and what I thought my life was, and ultimately the story of the deepest of betrayals from my soulmate.
It is the true story of the secret life I found out my husband had been living our whole marriage. I found this out after his death. It was a nightmare I could not wake up from…and I was afraid that I never would.
And so the story of this last year of my life begins…
I am writing this book to share my story and experience with others. My hope is that it can help other people who are in similar situations. These can be in situations of love, loss, grief, betrayal, addictions, deceit, denial, and shock, any or all of these things. Sometimes it helps just to know that others have gone through something similar, and you are not the only one. It can help to know that someone lived through it, healed through it, and has come to the other side of it. At times, this can seem impossible and overwhelming. It did to me.
I believe that things and synchronicities come to us when we are open to see and feel them. This book is for those people who are ready to see truth, to trust their intuition, to look at themselves and their own life and relationships. May this be a synchronicity for you and your life.
If I can help wake up those that are ready to awaken, to see, and live in truth, then my story and what I have been through is not in vain. I know it can help and heal more than just me. May this book heal you and also your life. I believe anything is possible, and that everyone can be healed.
May we each add our sparks of light and love to the world. Everything we have ever gone through matters. It all got us to this point, right here, right now.