The Diary of an Ordinary Chinese Woman's Transformation from an Obedient Asian Wife to a Masochistic Chink Slut: I'm a 29 years old, slim, petite, well-educated Chinese woman. Even though I still look very young compared to other women of my age, especially compared to white women, biologically I'm approaching the peak of my sexuality. But I'm married to a worthless Chinese husband who can't fulfill me and every day and night I fantasize of being sexually dominated by a real man, a White man-whenever I fantasize about sex, it's inevitably a White man, always, even in my dreams I dream of a dirty old White man just stripping me naked, beating me, tying me up, whipping me mercilessly with his belt, and then-use me, brutally, treat me like a dirty yellow cum dump. I can't help myself and I really wish someone could help me fulfill my unfulfilled sexual desires that are burning me alive. Call me his chink cum dump, his oriental meat urinal, rape me, torture me, beat me, humiliate me. I yearn for this kind of treatment. And for a long time I had struggled with those bad evil thoughts because they were un-feminist and un-liberal, but then I thought, if I am really equal to men, I should never be ashamed to admit those feelings, because men have no problem with expressing their sexuality so why should I? And men curse, yell, scream, and society is perfectly ok with that, but should I as a woman be held to a different standard?