Never Eighteen

Never Eighteen

by Megan Bostic

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ISBN-13: 9780547550763
Publisher: Houghton Mifflin Harcourt
Publication date: 01/17/2012
Pages: 208
Sales rank: 589,437
Product dimensions: 4.90(w) x 6.90(h) x 0.60(d)
Age Range: 12 - 17 Years

About the Author

Megan Bostic lives in Tacoma, Washington. This is her first book for teens.

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chapter one

I had the dream again. The one where I’m running. I don’t know what from or where to, but I’m scared—terrified, really. I wake, shooting up, drenched in sweat. Jumping out of bed, I immediately head to my computer.

I need to get some things done this weekend, and I’m running out of time. God, I hope Kaylee can help. What if she asks what I’m doing? I can’t tell her, can I? No. She’d try to stop me, I’m sure of it. Shit, I hope she doesn’t have to work. I should have checked. Without her Mustang, I may not be able to do this, and I want to, I need to. Otherwise, things may just continue as they always have: painful, motionless. Like treading water. You stay afloat, but you never really get anywhere. A flash, a flicker of life, that’s all I want. I don’t think it’s too much to ask.

I sit at the computer and stare at the monitor, wondering where to begin. I need to make a list. It’s hard, but soon it all comes rushing to me—people, places, things. Over and over I think of Kaylee. I want her to be there. Need her to be beside me through all of it.

I type until my thoughts die down, come to a stop. I hit print, grab the list, and shove it into the pocket of my jacket, hanging on my closet door. I look in the mirror. I’ve changed so much in the last year, physically, emotionally, mentally. I may be smaller now, but my heart and mind are stronger.

These last few months I’ve come to realize that life doesn’t wait. If we stand still it passes us by, and by the time we understand that, it may be too late. The people I see this weekend—I hope they’re okay with this. I want them to take hold of it and not let go. I hope they at least listen. If they don’t, it will kill me.

I grab a shoebox that’s been sitting in my closet. It held the new pair of green Converse high-tops my mom bought me before the school year started. Cool shoes. I take the lid off the box and put it on my bed. I pack the box with books, CDs, pictures, my poetry notebook, things that are important to me. I won’t have everything I need until Sunday night. On Monday, it goes to Kaylee’s for safekeeping.

It’s late, and I have a full weekend ahead of me. I put the lid back on the shoebox, and place it on the top shelf of my closet. Out of sight. There’s no need for my mom to find it. She wouldn’t understand.

I shut off the light and climb back into bed. My body’s tired, but my mind keeps working, churning. I’m anxious, nervous, thinking of what to say, what to do. Sleep comes with difficulty, but in the end, it still comes.

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Never Eighteen 4.1 out of 5 based on 0 ratings. 39 reviews.
Kimmiepoppins More than 1 year ago
This was the very last book I read in 2011 and it seems to me that it was supposed to be that way. My dad passed away in 2005 during the early morning hours of New Year's Day. Today it is New Year's Eve--seven years later. I'm not sure you ever get over losing a parent or a child, but the way that I've tried to make sense of my personally horrific loss, has been to make my life matter. In honor of my father, I've chosen to live with courage and hope. The truth is that I would not be a debut author if my father died. So bitter sweet. As I'm writing this review, I'm terrified that I won't be able to do it justice, that I'll be unable to express just how much it moved me. This book is beautiful. It speaks softly, but resonates deeply. It has everything that a real life has...love, shame, mistakes, friendship, hate, hope, loss, fear, regret, laughter and belief. It has the belief that it is never too late to want more from your life--even when life is short. I found a connection with every single character in this book--saw myself in bits and pieces of every human interaction, but I loved Kaylee and Austin. They will haunt me--I'll think about them often. This is one of those books that doesn't feel like a story. It feels like it was real. I know them now and they are a part of me and I'm better for having had them in my life. Megan Bostic is my fellow debut author at the Class of 2k12 and the Apocalypsies, but I urge you to champion this book. My love and admiration for it have nothing to do with my connection to her. This is a book that matters. This is a book that I believe in. I would be extremely grateful if, when you read this book, you'll stop by and share your thoughts on it with me.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
This novel is inspiring, loving, sadening, emotional, and a story of letting go. I know that sounds like all sad and emotional, BUT, you must read this for it's MORALS!!!!! I mean this guy is dying and he does these amazing things for nothing in return but that he makes an impact in that persons life. Although quite short, this story demonstates how people in this world can be decent. THIS IS MY ALL TIME FAVOURITE(Even passing The Hunger Games)
JoanneLevy More than 1 year ago
I've read several books kind of like this one, where the reader knows, as does the main character, that he or she isn't going to make it: Jenny Downham's Before I Die and Chris Crutcher's Deadline to name two, and I think it's the 'what am I going to do in the short time I have left?' that makes them so poignant and popular. I'm normally not the kind of person who goes out of her way to pick up what is sure to be a tear-jerker, but I really enjoyed Austin's "road trip of courage and closure", as I like to call it. Austin knows he's dying and he needs to get his affairs in order and that means saying what he needs to say to the people in his life, even if they don't want to hear it, won't change anything or take his advice. It's all we can do, though, live our lives the best way we know how and hope that we made an impact the way Austin and his legacy made an impact on the people in his life. I do wish that I was more familiar with the geography of this book's setting and how Austin visits his favorite places, but as it was, these scenes were well drawn and evocative. I think fans of the two books I mention above will enjoy (or at least sob throughout) this one as well.
epicrat More than 1 year ago
never eighteen hits the ground running - and right from the start, despite waking up from that recurring dream, Austin takes off to accomplish his to-do list of people to see, places to go, truths to voice that makes time feel even shorter and more precious to hold. I got a little impatient with never eighteen since the reason for Austin's to-do list does not become clear until the end. It gets a little obvious (and I suppose the summary does hint at it), but it is almost as if everyone was in denial and no one said it outright - including myself. I would have expected Austin to have mentioned it earlier on, especially since he was so bent on seeing everyone before he goes. I can see how Austin desires closure for himself and everyone in his life, but it is hard to determine whether he makes an impact on everyone he visits. Some of the people seem pretty random - he knows them, but no longer that well, so his interest in their well-being - while compassionate - is taken with a grain of salt. Other people like his separated parents make more sense - and ends on a good note. Well-written and thoughtful, never eighteen follows a teen who wants to make the most of his life and leave a lasting impression on people he values.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
This book made me laugh and cry. It's a must read.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
I loved this book. I finshed it in a one day and i almost started crying. Its so beautifully written and i just loved it. Definitly recomened ^-^
LyndaMH More than 1 year ago
I was surprised to see how small this book was when it arrived in the mail. But, boy , don’t be fooled. It packs a punch. I really loved Austin as a main character. Considering the title, I thought I may know what was going to happen, and the closer I got to the end, the more I dreaded it—in a good way, though. This book is an emotion-packed one—quite poignant. Grab a box of tissues before settling in with this one.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
Read it right after the fault in our stars!!! Anyone know anymore like these?
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
A book you dont want to put down,very touching and sad but also a favorite i would reccomend !
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
A book were you dont want to put down
BooksWithBite More than 1 year ago
Tears were falling down my face as I read this book. I loved the whole concept of it. It gave my heart and eyes a whole new outlook on life. That we only have one life to live. And its not who you know or what you done. It's how you lived it. If you have just a few months to live what would you do? I find myself asking this question and the first thing that always comes in to my mind is forgiveness. I would make amends with everyone I wronged. I would do my best to set things right again, no matter what the cost. Austin did just that. With a few months left, Austin sets out to make things right. His journey of his life and what went wrong in it, Austin just wants everything to be okay for when he leaves. Now, the people Austin visited all struggled in life themselves. He ask small favors to call the person, or just to say I'm sorry. Austin's courageous visit to each person set my heart on path that I never been on. Watching Austin used his last days to help others is simple amazing. Austin has come to terms with what is happening in his body and to see how selfless he is in his actions made me fall in love with him. And now the part that really made the water works flow. All this time, Austin has been in love. He has loved her from afar and never said a word. What Austins leaves behind is so much more than a memory but a legacy. Austin himself changes everyones point of view and to see them come around because of what Austin did made my heart cry out. The final letter that Austin left not only made me cry harder, but had me laughing and smiling. By the end of the book, I knew Austin. To see him go with his last wishes will only be right for him. Such an amazing and compelling story, Ms. Bostic's writing leaves no eyes dry. At the end of the book, with Austin's last line, I knew what I had to do. Open the book again and start from page one.
kaitlin_btts on LibraryThing 8 months ago
My first thought was this is not a children's book. I'm not sure what the age range this book will be directed to but I hope it's for 13+, as there are some rough words and story-line's.My second thought was how great of a book this was for Bostic's debut novel. The subject was something that's never really written about and were very realistic.There were a few times where I almost cried. I could feel what the characters were feeling and it broke my heart. The story didn't end with a happily ever after, but I was okay with the way things were ended.This story was a quick read, as it's only 204 pages. But within those pages was a very touching story.
jacindahinten on LibraryThing 8 months ago
It¿s tough knowing you are picking up a book where the main character is sick and more than likely going to die. While reading Never Eighteen you almost forget Austin is dying of cancer. The only times we are reminded of it are when he makes insensitive jokes regarding himself and make the ones who love him uncomfortable.It¿s great to see Austin visit the people he cares about over the course of a weekend to try and get them all to see the things in life you can change and to get them to change them. Megan covers many topics to touch on in Never Eighteen by having Austin visit the people around him. It took guts for him to tell people straight out they are doing things wrong in their lives. I have to give credit to Austin for pushing the envelope. I loved seeing Austin not wallowing in the idea of having cancer, but instead using his sickness to strengthen and help the lives of others and fix the relationships that surround him.I would have liked to have been more emotional attached to Austin. For some reason I wasn¿t as sad as I should have been reading about a dying seventeen year old. I¿m not sure if it was the mood I was in, the length of Never Eighteen, or that Austin¿s sickness itself was never really talked about until the end. It could also have been regarding him making a joke of the sickness all the time. I cried a couple of times while reading Never Eighteen, but it was while reading about other¿s problems.I did my research and read other reviews of Never Eighteen¿I seem to be the only one who wasn¿t bawling throughout Never Eighteen. I would have to say I was in the minority(or the only) person who read Never Eighteen who couldn¿t connect with Austin.Megan is a great writer. I loved the short chapters and how fast along the story moved. I¿m looking forward to reading what Megan has in store for us next (according to her website, the next book she¿s working on is about a kidnap victim). Even though I didn¿t give Never Eighteen 5 stars, I still think it was a great book and one many more will love.
PaigeB on LibraryThing 8 months ago
** spoiler alert ** Never Eighteen is both a sad and very inspiring story. It took us through Austin's last days or week battling Leukemia. Austin Parker is a 17 year old boy well considering his experiences i'd say he's very much a man and thats not a sexual joke either. He's diagnosed with cancer in ninth grade and this book is about his journey to try to fix the things he's done wrong and help the people he knows are hurting. With the help of his best friend who he's in love with Kaylee he travels around trying ...moreNever Eighteen is both a sad and very inspiring story. It took us through Austin's last days or week battling Leukemia. Austin Parker is a 17 year old boy well considering his experiences i'd say he's very much a man and thats not a sexual joke either. He's diagnosed with cancer in ninth grade and this book is about his journey to try to fix the things he's done wrong and help the people he knows are hurting. With the help of his best friend who he's in love with Kaylee he travels around trying his best to make things right before he's gone. I got a bookmark with the book and there's a quote on there that says be aware you'll need a tissue. Now usually i read those kind of things on books all the time and i don't listen because I'm not a huge cryer but boy do i regret not listening because i shed a lot of tears by the end of the book. Austin was a really sweet guy from what i read in the book and all he wanted was to help people and to let Kaylee know that he loved her. In my eyes he succeeded. He helped people and also got to experience things he never had before which is everyones dream before they die right? I loved Austin's character because like i said he wasn't too whiny or annoying he just wanted to help and i loved that about him. I loved how he helped Allie made sure he visited his estranged grandma. His dead best friends mom. An old friend and he even got his parents back together. If i was dying and the last thing i saw was my parents get back together if they were separated i would be able to rest in peace. Now being in Kaylee's shoes is a whole different story. The poor girl lost her dad when she was young. One of her really good friends a couple years later. Then she loses her best friend/ the love of her life. Now i'd be able to at least get past it but to sit there and watch my best friend/lover die and know that i can't do a thing about it that would be hard. She made sure she made Austin's last few weeks awesome and that was really sweet of her. I'm glad that she knows how he really felt even though it probably made everything a whole lot harder she needed to know how Austin felt. Overall i give this book 5 stars. It gave me everything i want in a book. I laughed, cried, and smiled. Austin and Kaylee are very good candidates for my favorite characters of 2012 even though were only in January =) I recommend this book to anyone who really needs a good cry, because it'll give you just what you need.
Carolee888 on LibraryThing 8 months ago
`Never Eighteen¿ by Megan Bostic only takes a few hours to read but offers a lot to think about. Austin Parker is seventeen and suffering from myeloplastic leukemia. He has already had chemotherapy once but it didn¿t improve his chances to experience his eighteenth birthday.Before the leukemia, he had thick black curly hair; he was a good soccer player, a reader and had lots of friends. He also had a crush on his best friend since the third grade, Kaylee.If he took another round of chemotherapy, he would only have three or four months of life at the best. Since the outcome was bad and chemotherapy is very difficult thing to go through, he decides on his own to not have chemotherapy. Instead he comes up with a plan to make his life have meaning. With his friend Kaylee driving him around, he would he would see old friends and not one not so much a friend, his family and Kaylee¿s family for one last time. He wanted to help each one of them, to see places that he had never seen, do things that he had never done before. He does the best he can do, that is all we can do but the important part of this book is that he tries. He sometimes succeeds. Being faced with knowing that he will not live much longer, he grows up beyond his years. Of course, he gave himself some wonderful experiences but most of all he offered his friends and family another chance to change their lives.This was a well written and easy to follow story that I highly recommend to everyone.I received this book from the Amazon Vine Program but that in no way influenced this review.
meags222 on LibraryThing 8 months ago
I have had this on my TBR pile for quite some time. I was given this book as a review copy via NetGalley. This is a debut book for Megan Bostic and I have to say that it tugs at your emotions. It narrated by Austin, a 17-year-old boy who is dying. I love the fact that it is narrated by a boy. Many books that I read are narrated by a female and it took me a little bit to get used to reading a book told by a male. It takes place over the course of one weekend in which Austin is trying to live out his dying wishes. He takes his best friend and girl he loves, around to different places taking care of his unfinished business. This varies from trying to get his parents back together to taking a hike in the mountains. I was reading this book on the way to Quebec City with my husband and found myself tearing up. My husband gave me a few looks but I couldn't help it. I don't usually cry during books; I usually save this for movies, TV shows and perhaps sometimes commercials. It makes you question what you take for granted in life and it really makes you appreciate the time that you have. While I enjoyed this book, I did have some concerns with it. I found at times that it was a little unrealistic. Austin's quest wasn't unrealistic but I did find that some of the reactions to his quest were. For example, the idea that he is going to bring his parents back together after 5 years of separation was a little bit of a stretch. I think that it was a little too idealistic and I found myself questioning it. Overall, I have to say I enjoyed it; it is a short and easy read. I give this book 3.5 stars out of 5.
Kr15tina on LibraryThing 8 months ago
What I LovedEmotion The book contained so much emotion, for the main character Austin who is going to die soon and all the friends and family surrounding him. At the end I cried a lot, usually it will just be runny nose, but this was book had tears streaming down my cheek. Typically I say away from these types of books, but it was so worth the read and tears. A bittersweet read.Timeline The timeline for this book was really short. The whole book except for the last 20 pages took place over Saturday and Sunday. Within those two days we really did get to understand Austin and his mission to help people realize why they needed to live their life while they have it.The PlacesAustin wants to go do some of the typical Seattle stuff like have lunch at the Space Needle and walk through the EMP (Experience Music Project) a museum-esk thing dedicated to music. He also took a hike on Mt Rainer up to Comet Falls, I want to go on that hike this summer. All of the rest of the description on Tacoma makes me want to go there as well.What I Didn't LikeIt was short book and I would have read more, but at the same time the amount of information you got was just right for the story and the feel of the book.Recommendation Worth the read just make sure you have a box of tissues with you by the end of the book.
Bookswithbite on LibraryThing 8 months ago
Tears were falling down my face as I read this book. I loved the whole concept of it. It gave my heart and eyes a whole new outlook on life. That we only have one life to live. And its not who you know or what you done. It's how you lived it. If you have just a few months to live what would you do? I find myself asking this question and the first thing that always comes in to my mind is forgiveness. I would make amends with everyone I wronged. I would do my best to set things right again, no matter what the cost. Austin did just that. With a few months left, Austin sets out to make things right. His journey of his life and what went wrong in it, Austin just wants everything to be okay for when he leaves.Now, the people Austin visited all struggled in life themselves. He ask small favors to call the person, or just to say I'm sorry. Austin's courageous visit to each person set my heart on path that I never been on. Watching Austin used his last days to help others is simple amazing. Austin has come to terms with what is happening in his body and to see how selfless he is in his actions made me fall in love with him.And now the part that really made the water works flow. All this time, Austin has been in love. He has loved her from afar and never said a word. What Austins leaves behind is so much more than a memory but a legacy. Austin himself changes everyones point of view and to see them come around because of what Austin did made my heart cry out. The final letter that Austin left not only made me cry harder, but had me laughing and smiling. By the end of the book, I knew Austin. To see him go with his last wishes will only be right for him.Such an amazing and compelling story, Ms. Bostic's writing leaves no eyes dry. At the end of the book, with Austin's last line, I knew what I had to do. Open the book again and start from page one.
summerskris on LibraryThing 8 months ago
Austin has been diagnosed with leukemia, and he knows that he won't live to see his eighteenth birthday. Because of this, he has been forced to ask questions that none of us would hope to be faced with. Questions such as, ¿Have I leaved my life without regrets?¿The answer for Austin is no. Hence, he sets out to set right to wrong, to face his fears, to talk with people in his lives. He goes to places he hasn't been before, he visits places he hasn't seen since his illness weakened his body, and he tell people to live their lives as he no longer can.Austin is a strong character. He hasn't lived the life of a saint. He's been the elementary school bully, he's been the jock, and he's dated girls when he had his eye on a single girl the entire time. However, he's proved through his actions it is never too late to change. To start trying to make a difference in the world.Never Eighteen is a short read that can be read in one afternoon. It's not the best book if you're looking for action, as it's mostly anticlimactic with Austin preparing for his death. I recommend it if you're looking for an inspirational contemporary read.
booktwirps on LibraryThing 8 months ago
Seventeen-year-old Austin Parker is dying. Diagnosed with Leukemia his freshman year, he¿s battled the disease for almost three years. When the doctors tell him the cancer has spread and they want to do another round of chemo, Austin decides he is done. The chemo will buy him another three or four months tops, and he doesn¿t want to deal with it. He knows it¿s time to let go. Before he goes, he decides he needs to reconnect with people: Family he¿ll leave behind, friends he¿s fallen out of touch with, and people he wasn¿t always kind to. He enlists the help of his best friend Kaylee, and together they load up in her old, red Mustang and make the rounds over the course of two days. When Austin has seen all the people he wanted to see, and done things he was always too scared to do, there¿s only one thing left ¿ to tell Kaylee how he has been in love with her since he first met her.Never Eighteen is an impressive debut from author Megan Bostic. The story is heartfelt, and Austin is a character you can¿t help but love. The book is short, clocking in at just a bit over 200 pages, making it a quick and easy read. While the story is heavy, and promises to be an emotional one, I felt something was lacking. There were times when I wanted more from some of the scenes with Austin and the people he wants to help. They seemed to fly by too quickly. I also felt the ending was lacking. The last few chapters read more like a summary, and while I did get choked up, I felt it lacked the true emotional punch it could have delivered. All in all it¿s a great story, I just wish it had been fleshed out a bit more.(Review based on an Advanced Reader¿s Copy courtesy of the publisher via NetGalley)
theepicrat on LibraryThing 8 months ago
never eighteen hits the ground running ¿ and right from the start, despite waking up from that recurring dream, Austin takes off to accomplish his to-do list of people to see, places to go, truths to voice that makes time feel even shorter and more precious to hold.I got a little impatient with never eighteen since the reason for Austin¿s to-do list does not become clear until the end. It gets a little obvious (and I suppose the summary does hint at it), but it is almost as if everyone was in denial and no one said it outright ¿ including myself. I would have expected Austin to have mentioned it earlier on, especially since he was so bent on seeing everyone before he goes.I can see how Austin desires closure for himself and everyone in his life, but it is hard to determine whether he makes an impact on everyone he visits. Some of the people seem pretty random ¿ he knows them, but no longer that well, so his interest in their well-being ¿ while compassionate ¿ is taken with a grain of salt. Other people like his separated parents make more sense ¿ and ends on a good note.Well-written and thoughtful, never eighteen follows a teen who wants to make the most of his life and leave a lasting impression on people he values.
ilikethesebooks on LibraryThing 8 months ago
Above all else, this book is very real. In this current age of fantasy and paranormal series, a contemporary stand-alone is quite refreshing. "Refreshing" may be the wrong word as this book is filled with many different, difficult emotions. This novel is rooted in terminal cancer, so obviously there are strong feelings of sadness and mortality. However, those emotions are not what is so special about this book. Bostic's ability to weave humor, hope, love and happiness into a hugely tragic event is simply beautiful.Austin has terminal cancer. A few months, a few weeks, a few days... the remaining time he has left is unclear. But he knows one thing, he will not spend that time enduring painful treatment for just a few more terrible days. He's decided to opt out of further treatment and make the best of what time he has left. How does he aim to do this? By traveling around with his best friend, Kaylee, to all the people who have effected his life and trying to help them with their wide array of situations. Not only does he find out truths about those individuals, but himself and human nature as well. I really enjoyed this book. It is so hopeful. I was amazed by Austin's will and outlook on life even when his future is the most dim. He has no self-pity at all. He realizes his situation and his inability to change it, so he accepts it. Austin's whole character really is a job well done. This may be a short read, but don't underestimate it. If you are ever feeling sorry for yourself, read this book, it will really put your life into perspective. I would definitely recommend it.
taletreader on LibraryThing 8 months ago
I think this book was a little too young for me and a little too melodramatic. I wasn't able to truly appreciate the ending because everything before it had been so over-the-top. I understand what happens when you're dying--trust me, I should know--but this was full of such an excess of everything that I almost feel like it glorified dying of a disease.
smmorris on LibraryThing 8 months ago
¿There are some things I want to do, some crazy things, some wild things, some fun things, things I¿ve never done, thing¿s I¿ve never seen.¿ Austin must take a journey that will change him and those in his life forever; only he is not completely sure of the journey and needs to convince his best friend, Kaylee, to go with him. Austin is on a quest to fulfill some dreams and to ensure those he loves, and those he has hurt, will change the stagnant lives he believes they are in and start living fully, something he cannot do The two head out in Glory/China/Cherry/Blaze/finally Candy, Kaylee¿s red 1969 Ford Mustang with the ever-changing name. This is a weekend neither Austin nor Kaylee will ever forget.Austin is dying..I was torn while reading this story. The journey of this terminally ill teen trying to, experience more in this one weekend than most do in a lifetime was promising. Knowing his tomorrows are few, Austin tries to get everyone¿s life at the point he wants them to be instead of accepting them as the are. He tries to making amends, tries to inspire and tries to love all in 48 hours. This is really quite a handful, for both the teen and the author. Many times Austin sounded pretentious and arrogant and I wanted to throw the book and read something else. Other times he was naïve and wistful, sounding and acting much too young for a 17 year old. Then he could be sweet and thoughtful, especially with Kaylee and his mother. In theory, this is a tearjerker that should make you think about your own life and if you are wasting time. Austin does not come to life, despite all the aforementioned emotions. He sounds spoiled and sometimes like a school bully. Then I found out that he was the school bully and I began to understand Austin . . . for a moment. Kaylee is simply a taxi, driving from place to place, waiting in the car as Austin makes his rounds, sometimes leaving her there for an hour, sometimes more (though it never feels like Austin¿s visits last more than a couple of minutes). Kaylee endures this an entire weekend from sun up to past sunset. What is Austin¿s reason? He feels he has no right to invite Kaylee inside where she would become privy to the person¿s sometimes deepest, darkest secret, explaining that the secrets are theirs to share, not his.Interesting, considering Austin has no problem forcing these people to talk about their secrets, even yelling at one, demanding he reach deep and explain a secret the teen did not want to talk about. When he finally could no longer fight Austin, he gave in and answered the best he could. Austin calls him a liar and again yells. How in the world can Austin know how this kid feels or why he did something extremely out of character, when the teen himself does not really know? Austin certifies himself psychiatrist with many of his victim-visitors, pushing into places he had no right to enter. ¿You can¿t refuse a dying teen¿s request,¿ he says. I would have enjoyed this ¿filled-with-possibilities¿ story if Austin had stayed in car while Kaylee made the visits. The idea is to identify with the characters, usually the protagonist. I could not do this. For personal reason I will not expound on, Austin is the one character I should have identified with and could not. This is one story I will not be picking up for a second read.Note: received from Net Galley, courtesy of the publisher
BornBookish on LibraryThing 8 months ago
Before I read the book, I had heard a lot about it and once I started reading I was surprised when I seemed to know some things that I wasn¿t supposed to until the end. The story is told from Austin¿s point of view, which is the only view that would have made sense in this case, because even though Kaylee is with Austin on his journey she spends most of the time sitting in the car.I loved Austin¿s enthusiasm and love for life. Even though he knows he doesn¿t have much time left he spends the time that he does have living it to the fullest and striving to make an impact while he still can.I found it unrealistic that Austin had a friend going through every single hardship you could imagine. Out of all my friends none of them are going through any issues like that so it just seemed a little cliché that everyone he knew was dealing with some big issue.One of the things I really liked was how you see all the different little stories come together in the end. As Austin goes on his journey meeting with so many different people I was wondering if any of them would play a part later on. I couldn¿t believe how little this book was. Not only were there only 204 pages, but they were tiny pages! I blew right through it in a matter of a few hours.While I liked the underlying storyline of the book I found myself wishing that the author had beefed it up a bit. It felt like just bones and no meat. Everything was very direct and to the point, with no room for fluff. Another downfall to the shortness of the story was that I didn¿t feel particularly close or connected with any of the characters, which is always disappointing. Language is always another big point with me and unfortunately, there was quite a bit of swearing in this one, including a handful of F words.This is awful, but in the end I didn¿t even shed a single tear.