Reprobation

Reprobation

by Catherine Fearns

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ISBN-13: 9781724763907
Publisher: CreateSpace Publishing
Publication date: 08/04/2018
Pages: 210
Product dimensions: 5.00(w) x 8.00(h) x 0.48(d)

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CHAPTER 1

Across grey waters, where the river Mersey meets the Irish Sea, wind turbines puncture the dawn horizon like spinning crucifixes. Further out still, tiny lights can be discerned, framing the ghostly shape of an exploratory oil rig which guards this watery Golgotha. Here on the beach the smooth sandscape is perforated too, by the evenly-spaced bronze figures of Antony Gormley's art installation, Another Place. So many faceless men, some half submerged, gazing out to sea and waiting calmly, expectantly in this liminal space. To the south is the port of Liverpool, where piles of coloured containers and bright blue gantry cranes pierce the landscape, yearning for a prosperity long lost. And to the north, as the beach recedes into sand dunes and forest and piles of war-rubble, here too is a crucifix.

A cross, fashioned from two pieces of builders' timber, has been erected in the sand, supported by sandbags. The cross is man-sized, with a hand nailed to each end of the horizontal plane. The naked body in between the hands does not hang forlorn and Christ-like, but is tied rigid and undignified to the vertical plank. Its skin is papery and grey, in the early stages of decomposition. The neck is fastened with ropes at the intersection of the cross in an eternal throttle, causing the man's face to be tilted up towards the words painted neatly on the wood above his head: 'Hath not the potter power over the clay?'

At his feet, the tide has left a pile of razor clams and bladderwrack, an offering to the dead. But no crown of thorns for this martyr; instead, across his forehead, a deep carving in which the blood has long dried, leaving the clear dark outline of an image: an inverted axe with a double blade. And no jeering crowds for this condemned man; only scatterings of oyster-catchers and sandpipers that beachcomb for treasures, while gulls and starlings soar vulture-like against the wind. Soon the first dog-walkers and joggers of the day will find their morning pilgrimage tainted forever.

* * *

'What happens when we die?'

Dr. Helen Hope looked up at her audience, a decent smattering of first and second years ranged on benches that rose to the top of the windowless basement lecture theatre. Nowadays she always enjoyed this first rhetorical question of the trimester, this easy and rather theatrical provocation. The stage fright and spiritual terror that had crippled her at the beginning of her lectureship had dissipated, and she was spurred by the popularity of this course she had designed. Since Eschatology had been offered, there had been a relative run on applications, both from within and without the Theology department.

'What happens when we die?' she repeated, shrugging expectantly. It appeared to be a shy group and no-one today was going to play along and venture an answer, so she continued.

'This is the surely the central question that all religions and philosophies try to answer, and that's why it must be the central question of any Theology degree. Perhaps you chose this course because you are looking for that answer yourself. Perhaps you just needed another credit and thought it sounded cool. Perhaps you heard there was this hot nun in a habit who teaches it.'

There was a ripple of laughter and she felt the tension in the room lift instantly; this always got them and she had perfected her deadpan reaction. But she still loathed herself for saying it and imagined herself in thirty years' time, still here, with the wording of her joke changed to 'crazy old nun.'

'Perhaps you don't even know what Eschatology means and you're not sure why you are here. Eschatology is the study of death, judgement, and the final destiny of the soul and of humankind. Pretty important, right? Eschatologies vary as to their degree of optimism or pessimism about the future. Each religion, each philosophy, each individual, all have their own interpretation of the hereafter. In this course, we will study eschatological texts in the hope that they will illuminate history, psychology, and what motivates humankind to keep going. You may also use this course as an opportunity to consider your own personal belief system.

'And so for your first essay, using the reading list which should be in front of you, I'd like you to consider that simple question: What Happens When We Die? You can be as creative as you like with it really, but do make sure you use at least one of the set texts, and think carefully about the structure of your essays. Now if anyone does need help with essay planning ...'

She stopped when she noticed that someone had put up their hand to ask a question. A man leant back in his seat, legs outstretched, twirling a pen and looking wry. He was older than the rest, perhaps a mature student.

'Yes – please go ahead?' she nodded towards him.

'What do you think happens when we die, Dr. Hope?'

Ah, there's always one, thought Helen. The cynic, the wise-guy. He's already gone there. And why not – it livens things up. A hush fell over the room, and those who had been making moves to leave now stopped and took notice.

'That's a very good question, er ... Sorry, I don't know your name yet?'

'Paul.'

'Paul. That's a very good question, and I was planning to cover it during our first proper lecture next week, but perhaps I should have introduced myself more fully at the beginning. Now the first thing to say, before I answer, is that none of you should feel obliged to reveal your personal beliefs, either inside this room or in the pub afterwards. That's not what this course is about. But since you asked so nicely,' she smiled and bowed her head, 'I will tell you just briefly about the belief system in which I operate. I am a Calvinist nun. Calvinist referring to John Calvin, the theologian who played a prominent role in the sixteenth century Reformation. Calvinist Christians, or reformed Christians, believe in Heaven and Hell, of course, but they also believe in —'

'The tulip, right?' the young man interrupted.

'Well, that's right, the TULIP is sometimes known as the five pillars of Calvinism. T for Total Depravity, U for Unconditional Election, L for Limited Atonement, I for Irresistible Grace, P for Perseverance of the Saints.'

As she said this he was nodding knowingly, which she couldn't help but find irritating. 'We'll have to leave discussion for another time,' she continued, 'but the essential idea is that of predestination; God has already decided who will be saved and who will be damned. Some say it's a cruel doctrine, but it's actually a clear interpretation of the Bible. And it leaves us with the huge challenge of how to know a god we cannot understand. The ultimate paradox which, I suppose my life is dedicated to solving, is that of the two divine wills.'

She was beginning to lose their attention since the session had run over into lunchtime, so she decided to wrap things up.

'That question in itself is worthy of multiple PhDs, so I hope it gives you a sense of how broad this course is.' She began to pack up her own things, indicating that the students could do the same and raising her voice over the commotion. 'As I say, it doesn't have to be Christian, or religious at all. Some of you may want to focus on futurism, climate change, or terrorism, for example. I do hope you enjoy your first assignment. Please don't worry about anything and do email me if you have any questions. Thank you. Oh, and remember, ladies and gentlemen – no Wikipedia. I will know if you cut and paste!'

Students filed out, switching on phones and chatting. Dr. Hope made her way out of the lecture theatre, avoiding eye contact with Paul as she went; down corridors and up stairs until she emerged from the university building onto Hope Street. The two cathedrals of Liverpool framed either end of the vista, both these monoliths shrouded in a fine drizzly mist on this grey October day. Closest to her was the modern Catholic cathedral, known affectionately as 'Paddy's wigwam' due to its unique modernist structure. The spiked cylindrical tower splayed down to a truncated conical body supported by flying buttresses, giving it a tent-like appearance. The quirky architectural design and multi-coloured stained glass conferred a scouse character and made this, the Metropolitan Cathedral of Christ the King, the 'fun' cathedral. And so despite this Catholic cathedral's unusual look, and the traditional dominance of Catholicism in Liverpool, it was the traditional-looking and austere Anglican cathedral, a lonely brick castle on its plateau opposite, that looked down over the city in judgement.

Today Helen had been lucky and secured a parking space right outside the lecture hall, and as she fumbled with her car keys she was aware of amused whisperings from a group of students hanging around nearby. It was to be expected; a nun climbing into a bright green Volkswagen Beetle was an odd sight to behold. Helen's religious order made no concessions to modernity with their uniform. Her habit consisted of a floor-length grey tunic, belted at the waist with a traditional rope cincture. Over this was a white scapula and guimpe, while a white coif fitted around her head, ensuring that none of her hair could ever be seen underneath the black veil that crowned everything. A large wooden cross on a long string of wooden beads was her permanent accessory.

Helen started the engine and waved to the students whom she knew were still talking about her, admitting to herself that somewhere deep inside she enjoyed this little notoriety. The ancient Volkswagen was the Order's shared car, known cosily by the Sisters as the 'pootler', a term that had made her cringe once but that now, she noticed with dismay, she was beginning to use herself. Apart from Helen, only one other Sister had a driving license, and so for the most part the car was effectively hers alone.

She drove back towards Formby contented, enjoying the mild exhilaration and relief of having completed this week's public performance. The dock road always provided an evocative drive; the romance of industry, empty warehouses, broken windows, faded signs for businesses and pubs long closed. Liverpool was scattered with abandoned churches; some had been converted into apartments, or climbing walls; others left to rot and crumble, with graffiti, weeds growing in cracks, the whispering of angry ghosts. Here and there were businesses still thriving poignantly – a workman's café, a sex shop, a Chinese supermarket – amongst the wreckage of the past. This was all changing, of course. The regeneration of Liverpool had been underway for ten years, ever since it had been awarded the European City of Culture in 2008, and now parts of the city centre sparkled with modernity. Container ships and car ferries easing into Liverpool Bay would still see the famous skyline of the Liver birds, the Seventies-style Radio City Tower and the two cathedrals, but these landmarks now mingled with futuristic skyscrapers, chrome and glass. Meanwhile the crumbling warehouses along the docks were gradually being transformed into luxury apartments, hotels, live-work complexes. While she was glad for the city, Helen couldn't help feeling a quixotic wistfulness for the nostalgia of industrial dereliction; the histories that lay behind each broken factory window, each faded shop sign.

She never allowed herself to listen to music, in the car or anywhere else, but today perhaps a little radio news was in order, and she turned on City FM to hear a soft scouse accent announcing the headlines.

'There is a police incident underway today on Crosby beach; reports are of a body being found, and the area has been cordoned off for investigation. No further details at this time but we'll keep you updated.'

Her ears pricked up at the mention of Crosby beach; the Order was only a couple of miles up the coast from there in the Formby pinewoods, and her walks along the dunes took her down to Crosby almost daily. She imagined a drowning, perhaps the mud flats or a rip tide, and shuddered at unnameable ghosts.

Soon docks became suburbs became farmland and autumnal forest, as Helen approached the affluent residential area of Formby. She wound her familiar way down the long driveway of Argarmeols Hall, home of the Order of the Sisters of Grace. Argarmeols Hall consisted of a rambling, somewhat crumbling, Victorian mansion flanked by a small church which was in rather better condition. Both were hidden from the road and surrounded by forest – the huge sweeping coastal pinewoods of Formby and Freshfields, last stronghold of the natterjack toad, and protected reserve for England's dwindling population of red squirrels. Fortunate walkers would see them darting up and down the tree trunks.

The Sisters of Grace was the only Calvinist Order, male or female, in the northwest of England, the mansion and adjoining church having been donated by an eccentric benefactor early in the last century. In a city of kindness, warmth and Catholic forgiveness, Argarmeols Hall stood fast as a fortress of severity, and for the ten years since she had taken the veil, it had been Helen's home, providing the mercilessness that she craved.

The crunch of gravel beneath her tyres was always her familiar welcome, followed by the scent of damp pine as she opened the car door. But today as she pulled into Argarmeols, the first thing she saw was a police car, and then Sister Mary waiting anxiously in the doorway. Mary came waddling hurriedly down the steps towards her, picking up her skirts clumsily.

'Sister Helen, there are two detectives here to see you. They want to ask you some questions, about a body?' Sister Mary looked nervous, but also a little excited. She lived for the promise of rare moments of drama like these, and Helen often wondered how on earth she could stand to live the life they had chosen.

'We put them in the living room with a cup of tea, but you should go straight in, I think they're in a hurry.'

'OK, thank you, Sister Mary.'

'God bless you, Helen. Let me know how it goes, won't you?'

'I will,' Helen smiled as she went opened the door.

* * *

A young man and woman stood up as she entered the room, and reached forward to shake hands. They didn't look hostile at all, and Helen instantly relaxed; in fact, they looked out of their depth in more ways than one, eyeing their ascetic surroundings uncertainly. He was wearing a somewhat ill-fitting suit, with shoes that appeared to be running trainers. He was tall and handsome in that wiry scouse fashion, with an earnest frown and deep-set eyes that gleamed with sarcasm. But he rubbed frequently at his designer stubble and gave the impression that he would rather be wearing the same uniform as his colleague. Over her regulation white shirt and tie, this small and neat young woman wore an intimidating dark blue flak waistcoat which displayed the Merseyside Police logo, along with its radio, weapon and other threatening paraphernalia of law enforcement. Her hair was conservatively tied back under her policewoman's hat, but she wore full make-up. She and Helen nodded almost imperceptibly at each other in knowing amusement at the incongruity of their respective female uniforms.

The man spoke with a deep Liverpudlian accent.

'Dr Hope?'

'Sister Helen, please,' she smiled. 'I'm only "Doctor" when I'm at the University.'

'Right, Sister. I'm Detective Inspector Darren Swift, and this is Detective Constable Colette Quinn. Nothing to worry about at all, and we'll try not to take up too much of your time. We were just hoping for some guidance from you really.'

'Guidance? You mean spiritual guidance detective?' Helen said with an arched eyebrow as they sat down. The detectives looked unamused and she instantly regretted the moment of uncharacteristic insolence; what on earth was she thinking? Perhaps that student Paul had somehow rattled her today. Detective Inspector Swift continued.

'Unfortunately a body was found in the early hours of this morning on Crosby beach, up at the north end so very close to here.'

'Yes, I know.'

'How..?' Both detectives were taken aback, and glanced at each other.

'I heard it on the radio on the way here.'

'Oh, oh right.'

'I didn't hear it from God, if that's what you were wondering.' She smiled. Back in the game, that one worked.

But she had set the detectives on edge and they seemed irritable now. 'So anyway,' said Swift, 'we haven't identified the body yet, and we're checking missing persons, but unfortunately it is going to be a murder investigation. Whoever did this appears to have covered their tracks very well, and the tide has also been in and out, so we're working with the evidence we have while we wait for forensics to identify the body. It's very likely to be drugs-related.'

(Continues…)


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Reprobation 4.7 out of 5 based on 0 ratings. 3 reviews.
JBronder 4 months ago
This is detective Darren Swift’s first investigation with his partner Colette Quinn. A body has been found crucified on the beach with a bible quote and a strange symbol. This leads them to Dr. Helen Hope, a nun that lectures on eschatology. But Swift has decided that the body has to be drug related. The more Sister Hope thinks about the murder the more she finds a similarity to the death metal band Total Depravity. The lead guitarist, Mikko, teams up with Hope to figure out what is really going on and find so much more than just a ritualistic killing. This is a surprising story. There is so much in it that I was looking up relating to religion, death, and where the soul is destined to go. I really like how Hope and Mikko are complete opposites but they work well together as they solve this mystery. And the mystery, wow, I never expected that direction. It really makes you think. This was a great read and a very good start to a new series. I really enjoyed the book, I had a hard time putting it down, and I was looking up a lot of the stuff that I came across. It definitely was so much more than just a mystery. I can’t wait to get my hands on the next book in the series. I received a complimentary copy of this book. I voluntarily chose to read and post an honest review.
ReadersFavorite1 More than 1 year ago
Reviewed by Viga Boland for Readers' Favorite Every so often, a book comes along that blows you away with its uniqueness. For me, Reprobation by Catherine Fearns is one of those books. It’s so different, so intense, and so “heady” for lack of a better word, that I can only say if you decide to read it, you better make sure you have have a large vocabulary, because Fearns certainly has. You might also need to be reasonably well-educated and interested in genetic experimentation. It would also help if you occasionally find yourself wondering about life and death within a religious context and if, indeed, you even believe in God. If all that sounds like you, then go ahead and challenge yourself by reading Reprobation. You see, Reprobation is a challenge, not just for the reader, but for the protagonist, Sister Helen Hope, a Calvinist nun who believes in God, and Detective Darren Swift who doesn’t. When a man is found crucified on a beach with a strange symbol on his body, in the Liverpool area of England where churches of every denomination abound, thoughts give rise to a Satanic murder. But finding the killer or killers is difficult and when suspicion falls on a religious genetic scientist who cannot be found, the search becomes increasingly complicated, especially when a young woman is found with her abdominal innards removed. Yes, the details are gory. How Sister Helen Hope is drawn into solving the mystery with the help of Mikko, lead singer of a Norwegian death metal band, is for readers to find out. Far be it for me to spoil your fun. When the mystery is solved, surprises abound, and not just about the identity of the perps, but what happens to Sister Helen’s faith and belief in God along the way. The woman who confidently teaches eschatology (look it up or read the book!) isn’t the same person by the time the story ends. Neither is Mikko nor Detective Darren Swift. What on earth happened in Reprobation? Readers might need patience to read this novel, which is actually a bit of a psychological thriller. As I said above, the wording is erudite and the concepts are heady. As much as they contribute to understanding the Calvinist view of life and death, the use of lengthy biblical passages by the Deaconess and others slows the pace, as do the very detailed descriptions of the settings. But if this sounds like your kind of read, don’t hesitate to add this to your Thanksgiving bucket list. Why Thanksgiving? You’ll be thankful Reprobation is, after all, only fiction.
ReadersFavorite More than 1 year ago
Reviewed by Lisa McCombs for Readers' Favorite Dr. Helen Hope, professor of eschatology by day, Calvinistic nun at all other hours, lives safely ensconced in a strangely comfortable existence of contemplating the afterlife. Her decision to make the ultimate sacrifice of devoting her life in penance is challenged by the mysterious murder that occurs near her convent home. Her academic mind seeks answers to the religious connection to the murder victim and heavy metal music. As Sister Helen buries herself deeper in the sins of secular life, a serial killer runs rampant. In an effort to offer her own investigative talents, the scholarly nun begins breaking sacred rules by attending a concert of the dark band Total Depravity. Filled with a mixture of sincere interest and morbid disgust, she insists on meeting the lead singer, foul-mouthed Mikko Kristensen in an attempt to satisfy her curiosity. Sister Helen wakens the next day minus official habit attire, memory of details of the previous night, and possibly her integrity. Reprobation by Catherine Fearns is the perfect example of plot twists and book club debate. It is impossible for the reader to keep a step, or even a skip, ahead of Fearns' fast moving dialogue and story line. As Sister Helen maintains her celibate image, she quickly oversteps the bounds of spiritual forgiveness and living a lie. Ever wanted to throw a book across the room? Reprobation fits your next toss. Riveting, fast paced, even amusing, this novel is bound for the best seller list! Catherine Fearns could easily corner the market in the suspense genre.